he thought hed have more stories from his trip back east to the land where Drumpf would never show his facehes at least that smart  the city of big shoulders they would crush him    he must have inadvertently shut down his receptors collapsed his antennae  went east disconnected  braved not being as alert or observant as he usually was   but then he was visiting the only place hes ever truly called home despite every house he lived in there had been razed  his running joke was that one day the razing was going to catch up with him  and thats when hed die    

its the one joke he tells that hes the only one who laughs  

evidently mortality isnt as funny to other people  but then a lot of thing were funny to him that didnt make others crack a smile

he hadnt been home in seven yearshadnt seen his parents(some thought he was pushing it  Fack theyre too ornery to die was his correction) hadnt seen his siblings his only surviving boyhood friend  however these seven years passing hadnt felt like years at all 

Why 

he didnt have a clue

he looked out into the murk and saw nothing intrinsically was going to change and so there was no urgency compelling him to returnand he wasnt deef or dumb to the affect that if he didnt go there no one was coming here 

rarely had anyone come to him

but he enabled thathe and his wife  years years ago  when they made it a priority to travel from Minnesota to Chicago for their childrenthemselves  to maintain a sense of family if even at a distance 

so why would that be turned on its head after his wife died after his children moved on and away for their lives

it wouldnt

hed be a dumb fuck if he thought otherwiseanybody  would be a dumb fuck   ya dont trade horses midstream an if lifes anything between birth and death its fast water curling whipped white  its midstream

                                                                         but if ones confident and has a good grasp strong hands why not grab the next horses mane and pull yourself over onto it  yer horse likely could use a rest and a break from being between your legs swimming for youI didnt sign up for thisYer a horse shaddup  hed seen men savagely punish animals for their incompetent  like wicked children   he hurled himself into those frays because those men werent accustom to something coming back at themSurprise  Surprisesurprise  the element of surprise is legendary  it was like he was a mob
                                       and why it was unlike him to brave not being readily alert or observant

but then he wasnt beating animals or abusing anything

                                                              thats not true

his family would say he hadnt curbed his tongue

still hadnt learned to take a step back

still hadnt tamed his knack for confrontationI aint no fucking gelding or eunuch  Still flushed with blood and testosterone

his family bruised too easily

like thinskinned fruit

liked the feeling of kid gloves

liked pretty pretty prettythingshe wondered where he got offwhen black and blue appealed to himwhen blackbirds gathered in a tree above his head didnt sound caws  but growled and spit

he couldnt say

maybe before he knew better he swapped horses  and had been swapping since his wife died

theres no telling the depths of that trauma

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Sorry  I got incredulity creeping my spine spinning webs at my shoulder blades  Again  What did you saycall it

Wage compression

I dont understand What I do understand is that the company is gypping me eleven cents an hour

thats what its called when corporate takes your merit pay – the guy in H-R denied it was called incentive disbursement(I made that up during our telephone call to exacerbate the ridiculousness of eleven cents either being merit pay or an incentive – mixing metaphors(meta-something) – like mystics and alchemists attempting to change rude metal into gold – King Midass touch is fable) – then he tried to insist that corporate provided me an astonishing 3.9 percent an hour pay increase

Youll excuse meI know you know this  The 3.9 percent increase youre touting was mandated by the state  Corporate is following the law It didnt give me anything Though it did incentivise me last year to the tune of eleven cents

the telephone receiver was silent

as a wordsmith he appreciated the euphemistic wage compression  which said nothing  which was the best a euphemism offers  misdirection

he broke the silence as if it was thin pretty ice dusted with snow atop a dirty puddle Now if youll look at my second payment stub this year youll see a meal break entry

Yes

No  Thats wrong  Its a faulty entry

No I dont think so  What was the date

You must have it thereyoure on the computer looking at my time card records

silence(Silence isnt good when trying to communicate over the telephone Mr H-R)

Alright  By my reckoning by my paper planner here at hand the only possible date would have been January 21 a Saturday  Im strictly parttime and Saturday is the only time I ever work long enough to incur a lunch breakalbeit nearly eight in the evening

Yes  I see it  Correct

Incorrect  I understand that a meal break inclusion is derogatory

Yes  You either worked more than five hours without a break or you didnt take at least thirty minutes for it Here  Here you have itYou logged in at 1459 and didnt take you break until 1956(he was ignorant of the ah-ha moment)

And what was the duration of my break

You punched back in at 2028

And from 1956 to 2028 is how many minutes(he knew)

T h a t  w o u l d  b e  32minutes

Which by anyones reckoning is two minutes longer than a halfhour thirty minutesYes

Correct

So I took an appropriate break                                   

Yes

So why did I get dinged a meal break

You exceeded five hours without a break

Its in front of you  Didnt you say I punched in at 1459 and out at 1956three minutes shy of five hours

Oh  This never happens

No You cant say never when its glaring you in the eyeball

So what youre saying is you shouldnt have been paid for the meal break  It is incorrect

I shouldnt have been paid  It is incorrect and derogatory to me   I can tell time

Well  were not going to make you pay that back

Thank you  Ill accept it as it diminishes my lost incentive disbursah  merit pay since January One per corporates philosophical wage compression  One other thing

Yes

Corporate and I disagree philosophically  However it seems that philosophically corporate and its on-the-ground in-the-store employees ought to be in agreement  Employees shouldnt be informed after the factafter decisions are made which will affect them and their customers  There ought to be a period for input take questions  The fact is corporate doesnt work in the stores and hasnt a clue of those unique transactions we have to mitigate in real time on our feet

silencio

Anyway 

        Im happy to have had this discussion after making twelve telephone calls since January 24  And that you returned five  Thank you  Be well

Youre welcome

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