1452 days remain or fewer
equivocate
hed been looking for that
word for the past two days
he must have been blinded by the
bright electric lights that failed when the cold blowing rainstorm gutted them
because he found it in the candlelight
lighting small yellow pools on his diningroom table
the electricity was out since 4
in the morning
it
was after 11 in the evening
maybe to see it he needed subtle
light
maybe the beer the Irish whiskey
maybe the deafening silence of solitude
it gets a bad rap
you get knocked if you enjoy
itHow? How with all the bright captivating
distractions around us . . . You have to admit youre a bit suspect if youre not
joining in with us playing all these wonderful games
he didnt need no electricity to
find solitude
although he didnt need it to find
equivocate
and found he detested the word in this mouth quickly spat it out took a sip of Irish and swished it around an around to
quell the taint its vile taste
now he only thought it equivocate then he thought euphemism
piss
some words taste like they
sound when you said them he hawked them violently discharged them where
otherwise they fettered and littered his mouth
he expelled them exorcised themWAIT! he wasnt religious maybe hed buy an icon for thee moment and expurgated freed hed take the medallion
away of course on church grounds or in a cemetery where breasts clutched heads
bowed their hands could be filled with clothing and the impress of iconic metal
equivocate euphemism piss these were words of malcontents
and there was plenty of pain to go
around rather than listen to and harbor their words and ideas
they were Businessmen
who believed their phony words
and wares(if they didnt they couldnt sell it)
they
shat gold
and because everything was on the
cheapeverything a copya knockoff the
rare genuine thing would be suspect
euphemism piss equivocation scalded
the mouth and burned the hands so that nothing could truly be discerned tasted
felt ably manipulated
and sensuality passé who wouldnt
quaff and gobble greedily consume whatever they could get their hands on and
then were confused when their bellys ached when they fell ill and vomited bent on
all four
Consuming
he wasnt
good at it
his
consumption began and ended with fresh meat and fish and vegetables
his
mother chided him that in this day and age he still hadnt a microwaveShove it
up yer ass Maw and then he imagined if
she didnt like it up the ass
his
consumption began and ended with straight spirits craft beers grass
hashish
Eat and
Swallow and Shit
Drink
and Swallow and Urinate
Inhale
awhell Exhale and Breathe
such was
his consumptionnutrition to feed his body support his mind not the surly vagrants and bullies of the car
he owned the clothes and shoes he wore
not his
fucking cellfone teeming relentless social media twitter-feed feed? like
cattle and sheep and chickens for the slaughter
the
slaughter
its
victim? its survivor?
2208,
Sunday, 22 1. 17
1515, Twosday,
24 1. 17
0941, Day-between-Two-Ts, 25 1.
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