Painkillers one-off show in Paris
2008why did it take him this long to get there
not NOT a rhetorical question
it was his habit was to exhaust
anything he found which titillated or stoked him
howd he miss it
behind him(but not forgotten) was
a chain of girlfriends like delicious emptied coloured liquor bottles gently laid
on grassy lawns capped by tied-off chubby condoms
it began as a lark a random thing
as a teenager
he slept with a girl whose
parents -- her father insanely so – felt it was their parental noblesse-oblige(he
said that – her parents hadnt a clue) to deny their daughter her blooming
blossoming abundant sexuality fresh-baked warm and buttered cinnamon roll
from any boy who appeared at their door wearing a milk-moustache and licked at it
with his tongue like a serpent
though Mommie seemed to squirm in
her pants and that slight pressing
of her thighs together
that clandestine shift that wholly seismic shift resonated in him slopping semen
wall-to-wall barely contained informing him then and there that Mommies Mommies(Eureka!) were the integral skeleton-keys to undo the invisible chastity belts(if Daddy
had his way baby would be strapped)(so Medieval) undo the fear and loathing they fomented
in their young daughter about their governance over her mind(mind-fuck) her body
and her virginity
when he stumbled out of his virginity
so did his girlfriend
it was blissful and
innocent
itches scratched they slowly and deliberately
discovered more and more about their sexuality
he discovered he had more in
common with knowing girls than unknowing girls but because the field wasnt far-flung
the produce locally-grown he was sensitive(he surprised himself) with the
unknowing girls
he didnt force himself on them
unlike the laughing louts around
him who had no idea girls could cum
and were more about their rutting and cumming and
going
than
they were about the girls who
as
they said serviced them
they should have just jerked off
and serviced themselves
Gawd knows he did
and if Gawd knew
then
what the hell was with this churchy abstinence-celibacy miser and misiz
certainly Gaye must have penetrated
their ears on the radio or from someone others record player Lets Get It On*
he couldnt have been the only
white boy in his white suburban town(he was born in the city) who owned the
record and lazily turned it under flickering honey candlelight or seductive black
light and laughing(laughing and tickling were always great ways into sex) taking turns writing and drawing on each others bodies their arms and legs slowly their
bellys then breasts his chest nipples encircled and daubed and loins
dribbled(lapped) seduced by Visine
Daddy having to pick up off His lawn liquor
bottles capped by chubby condoms was the price he extracted
a one-off Painkiller
Thank you Flavia Abreu whoever
you are
and for reminding him of many
one-offs and many time-and-time agains
1051, Day-between-Two-Ts, 10 8.
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Painkiller: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UffBRnHilCc
*Marvin Gaye: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6QZn9xiuOE
again, Painkiller (different
configuration): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5l_md1b4pwI
