I am wearing a raptor glove an gauntlet

theres no reason why I should know of them yet Im wearing them on my right arm to protect it from a shehawks talons

Im guessing by her size shes a femaleIve never sexed a hawk  tho in the animal kingdom consensus usually provides the female is larger

 

also   by the way shes looking at meTakin me in

 

                                                                                 an weirder yet    by her affection

shes not satisfied sitting between my wrist an elbow

she sidesteps deliberately up to my bicep  to my shoulder

all the while  steadfast  looking with her huge eyes into mine

it is breathtaking looking into her eyes   

                                                               recognizing her intellect soul  her time evolution an collective unconsciousness exceeding my own species

maybe if we had wings

                                        maybe if we fed on living prey tore limb from limb

                                            

our human animal  an evermore pathetic far cry from where it began

steeling myself in the mirror of her shining eyes   subtly  over her shoulder  I spy the approach of a shedeer  tawny  sleek  limber

the hawk turns slowly to my furtive gaze  an in a brilliant nearly-instantaneous pirouette shes turned to the deers approach

the does head bobbles  but her agile stride is not impinged  or faulty  she remains on the line she began towards us since separating from the forests fringe  her spine sudden  keen  sheering the tall woods vertical rise an curtain

the shehawk sit more erect 

 

through the strength in her feet  her talonpoints pinching deeper at the heavy leather cloaking my arm  I am sentient of her halting and rising impulses

as the deer closes on the prairies grass to within twenty metres the shehawk relaxes

she shrugs  then pirouetting she faces me again

she tilts her head in the angle an attitude of a lovers kiss 

 

her feathers smooth  she blushes

her hooked beak recedes

                                         a womans dark face appears  eyes unyielding  unbroken on mine  an leaning forward her breath paints my cheeks an nostrils with the aroma of a heady warm wine

   

she presses her mouth to mine 

 

her lips part

my lips part

our tongues twine an taste

our breaths hot spicy an smoky

we gulps our kisses

she breaks from my mouth

I havent had enough

my head follows after hers still wanting seeking her mouth an lips

the doe had come up on us an drew her head through my opened left hand

 

she delicately erotically nuzzles the inside of my elbow my armpit  my throat beneath my jaw  my blood throbs

the hawk caresses the side of the does face with hers  the does countenance changes blonde to the hawks raven darkness 

 

exhaling  they blush

their exhale speaks  an the doe raises her mouth and lips to mine her breath her scent  a thinner strong wine

I am still unsatiated

with the crook of my arm I drew her head her mouth to mine an sipped   an sipped     an sipped deeper

I loosened her head to draw a breath so I didnt drown

 

I gasped for air  another an another  an one more before the hawk turns my head towards hers with a wingtip her primary flights at my jaw an temple an hungrily takes my mouth under hers

I had to break from her kiss   I gasped aroused

then with her warm split toe her foreleg the doe took me by my cheek turned my head left an kissed me deeply

I dont know who wanted the others breath more

an when I craned my head back to really breath I heard their hunger an felt the turn of their heads their kissing before my exposed throat

                               an breathing deeply  staring up into a sapphireblue sky an halo  surrounded by their  our  curling erotic miasma

I blacked out

blacked out

when I came to I was in a strange bedroom alone  naked  my clothes strewn towards the bed from the opened doorway

  

a warm flat sheet was gathered an raked across my thighs to my belly

the windows were open an the split curtains were lightly tickled by the breath of an incoming breeze the fragrance of woods

                                               

there were several fat candles alit erected in blunt stone and glass candleholders burned down to stubs

 

the walls were painted soft brown that ran up into a gentle stain or umbrae of pale twisting yellows oranges an reds

above me hanging from the center of the high ceiling was an elaborate crystal chandelier

also fixed with candles tho unlit

                                                        across my wrist lays a womans long doeskin glove 

0048,  Monday,  4  1. 16

1507,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  6  1. 16

he spent the morning looking up and telephoning physicians offices internists who in the county might be accepting new patients

which was a tall order

American isnt producing quality doctors who stayed in-country as it once did

 

those who were intellectually inclined to-day entered finance ran into that rigged game where they didnt need to spend decades in career or humanity  they could make quick killings and then utterly dependent upon their greed they could be out of it flushed in wealth in minimal selfish time

  

his prior physician via certified mail notified him that she felt she could no longer maintain a therapeutic relationship with him(which made him wondered what therapeutic must have meant to her because he argued via her minions that she wasnt providing him either sufficient care nor answering two specific questions he repeatedly tendered)

                                                                                                                                                                               she also discharged him from her practise(this is where all the oohs and aahs from an audience  if there were one  would be elicited  perhaps) but her retaliation was a familiar prescription  it was the same mentality exhibited by the police

each believing their authority unquestionable

 

they had no obligation to respond to questions asked of them while in turn they demanded the citizenry blindly and faithfully accept their precepts and tenants as Gospel  that they capitulate immediately  rollover and piss themselves  without any reason other than they said so  authority intolerant

 

each seemingly unfamiliar with acts  if one would  of civil disobedience that they would deem recalcitrant  which were knowingly bestowed by framers of the Constitution  and yet Justice apparently prevails against and parses into tiny bits with the sharp knives of Laws empowering its Agents who must be incorrigible

she entered the room and between calls she asked him what he was doing 

he mentioned his difficulties

she had heard them before 

 

he was beating a dead horse 

            

but beating a dead horse  no matter  was physically exhausting  kept the heart rate up the blood flowing and maintained him as a moving target  harder to hit

she abruptly mentioned McGinn  had he called Dr McGinn yet

 

then in the next breath she mentioned how she thought his last name was odd for him as he was Asian

Last names arent everything he replied

It would probably be vivifying to unknowingly have a consultation with someone assumed Irish or Scottish and then entertain an Asian personae

 

Was it McGinn or MacGinn and was Mc Irish and Mac Scottish or was Mc and Mac interchangeable regarding either the Irish or Scottish

Slow down there sailor she said slow down

he immediately asked why sailors were always asked to slow down

One thing at a time one thing at a time

but each realised he was revved up there were no brakes on this ride and he needed to play out what was madly churning in his skull

Mc or Mac or Mac MacMac  I like Mac MacMac  wouldnt you think a man named Mac and having a last name of MacMac would be a declarative mans man

Mac MacMac the mans man

Is it out

Are you done

Yes Thank you

If that stayed inside Idve had an aneurysm

Yes

I could see the small red light blinking erratically in the corner of your eye

Best you blew that load

I am a good load blower

Yes you are

You love me

I do

1234 or 0034,  Twosday,  5  1. 15

1035,  Twosday,  5  1. 15