19.5.14


                                                                                                    ashes call to him

grey
everything is grey
he emerges from it as if it were a fog
tangible  swirling off him like smoke or vapor  or an emitted radiant heat

there is something small in his fist
he cannot open his hand
he cannot feel what it is

following him out of the greyness 
an intent woman walks 
as if she followed him in
he turns to her approach
                                            she is outlined  haloed  etched  as if by hoarfrost
his hand trembles and begins to relax
he extends it to her

she takes his hand in both of hers 
he feels an electricity   vibrations
his hand begins to open  as if geared or mechanical 
and on his palm
a brilliant white slip

she takes it from him
                                       and with a slender fingernail she catches its edge
it accordions open
unfolding larger and larger

realised 
she reads it and weeps
and smiles
she embraces him
she does not say what she has read

holding him in her arms
the grey cloister rents and splits
it sheers into loose sheaves
shot through and veined blue

embracing  they are slightly above the ground 

and all around them seethes colored translucent space




1405,  Wednesday,  15  6. 11

15.5.14

                                                   Taking Five for the Weekend agin
                                                          Nice to be me and mine!

Back Monday, May 19



the everyday walls surrounding him
                                                          fell away
either peeling off like bitter brown onionskin 
or the shabby work of wallpaperers
or stock painters bent on turning a quick buck
                                                                                                                             he got it
he worked around them longer than he cared  he saw them at their habit and stood
aside as they staggered and pitched relentlessly through the finishwork
reeking of chemicals  daubed in paint
smearing their vapid IQs on house walls and ceilings

sometimes the walls containing him became elaborate origami  and he thrilled at their
concise deconstruction
                             their mad fluttering like happy butterflies or serious moths at evenings
electric lights

then  by himself   wherever he was
                   he was fascinated by the presence of crowding umbre   the sometimes
abrupt gulfs  their rarified colour  yellows roses mauves black and whites
he listened to or absorbed the holy thoughts and memories of anxious faceless harlots
rogues beggars frantic animals elements hosts and inanimates
                                                                                      crazed cartoons and
unspooling wires of words and random letters    disembodied music

he pulled up his skirt crossed his knees wiped his nose on his sleeve and took their
dictation  reams upon reams   seeking to make heads or tails of them  or sense  later 
or leafe as non-sense   exquisite subterfuge
                                                                                                  no lies    no truth     IS

and afterwards   whenever that was   
                                           before his wide-astonished eyes
a raucous clatter of resurrection   a mechanical whine  healing walls   and he  peering
like a voyeur between chemical lattice and seizing seams  watched thin strands adhere 
spider silks  binding compounds          congeal

         then Shuttered

               helplessly returned



1748,  Saturday,  17  8. 13  

14.5.14



“All homes are home; mirages
everywhere. Aside from
gravity, there are no
limits,

never were, nor will there ever be,
no here and there to foil
your lotus-dreaming
legend.” 

                                                                                      (Are You? by Dorothea Tanning)



she liked junk – spills  oozings  trash tossed from moving vehicles – “It’s an American trip to
take a huge joy in wasting things.” 
                                                                                      (Cady Noland) 



junk was home
walking talking junk
trash in moving vehicles  everyday
                                                                                                 
he looked arOund casually
to see if others might see what he saw
                                                            but eyes werent aroused or bugged
               they were averted
or staring blankly . . .                  inured    desensitized


      how?
             he had no choice  his eyes were witnesses  were hyperaware
he trusted what they told him
he listened to his eyes . . .       his ears their lovers . . .      his brain twisted between
their orgy
starved for gulps for air . . .   blue cool air
not scorched  red and raw . . .                                       
                                                                                                                                blue air
to assuage their swollenness
                                              his eyes and ears. . .   feasting at each other . . .   in that
brilliant coloured Orgy of Roaring Senses embarrassing the Shy
                                                                                                           the Faint
                                                                                                                              the Effete
slapping their cheeks to colour
pinching their nipples and asses
groping between their coy spread legs
                                                                 ah  the wet  the shiny  the smell  the heat . . .
the harbors of roiling sex belittling reality . . .
                                                                                bruising  roughening it up


trying to make it see . . .




Sunnyday,  6  6. 10