5.6.21

 

the shit that comes out of his buddys mouth tickled him

have a coffeemeet give him a halfhour he steps in it 
                                                       most recently he related a conversation he either had with an old woman or had watched an interviewWHAT she was askedWHO HE ASKED what she missed most of youth

wistfully he said she said she missed most breaking into a runrunning for the joy of runningfeeling the air play in her hair he continued nodding even after he spoke


Yare lamenting          

Lamenting? I’m not.

You are

I was not.

Gotta ask the old woman  she have hair   Maybe she misses her hair

Why would you ask that? I don’t remember.

Yare lamentingyare a lamenter

No, I wasn’t. I'm not.

Im not entertaining a childs argument with ya Yah-no yah-no Admit it  The truth shall set you free 


Alright, alright, so I lamented . a bit . . 
. . Horseshit I saw your faceheard it in your voice  You werent lamenting a bitmore than a bit  yawere full out lamenting It was a fervent lamentation

It was a bit.

Don get terse 
              A bit really awright  Lets parse it in terms you love throwing around  Gimme a percent a fraction ya enjoy value judgments  Evaluate your lamentation  Quantify itbecause yare certainly in no frame of mind to qualify it

I’m not.

Yawont

I'm not.


Awright 
            I don think there was an old lady I think you were talking to yourselfmusing to yourself in a mirror to your reflection in the microwave door

Yawere youngnow yare not yacant do wha ya did then Hang yer hat on itya did once
                                                                                             Please no remorse

1530,  Thursday,  3  6. 21
1051,  Saturday,  5  6. 21

Steam Down - Etcetera (Visualiser) ft. Afronaut Zu  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WL6mMhkkyL4

Paris -- 1 part

 

she said her name was Paris 
                                  off her lips it sounded audacious his mind prattled London Chicago Miami Seattle

she saidlike she was reading his mind  her mother knew it was audacious she consciously spitefully chose it After she named me, had my name committed on the live birth certificate, she gave me up for adoption.

I think she didn’t love the man who impregnated her, I am fatherless; but she loved me enough to give me away because she couldn’t raise me by herself.    

The story is my birthmother told the doctor, the nurses, appropriate staff, whoever adopted me couldn’t change my name. First, you see, she said, Paris will know they did; and when I find out, and I can, I will, if they change her name I’ll come after them, find them, and cut their heads off.
You tell them that.

It’s not an idle threat.  

Paris, obviously, will have been without a mother before; she’ll survive being motherless again.


My birthmother, I never met, although I seem to take after her. I’ve been a handful for my mother and father. They have often told me that I know too much for my own good. I remember them telling me that even as a small girl.

I was a handful.

she took the words out of his mouth  but he saidoverwriting it so she wouldnt read his mind again  she was a handfulhandfuls happy handfuls  My folks didnt tell me until I was a teenager

she mused as she looked at him 
                                 maybe she picked up on his blatant thoughthappy handfuls  overtly sexual  he wouldnt mind playing with her if she wanted  If yare reading my mind 

spookily she smiled simultaneously

Jesus Im fucked he thoughtthen he thought he heard a thought raised in his head not in his voice  Maybe.

she was still smiling      

 

he took her for a drink The Black Ram

Is this your watering hole?

Watering hole  I like ithadnt thought of it in your vernacular  Yes mebbe now that I think of it my watering hole  Have you one 

How do you mean?

Bar tavern restaurant his face screwed uppleasant confusion  Whadaya mean how do I mean

Good, on your toes, maybe you won’t bore me.

Yare not afraid youll bore me

No, I am not afraid.

her fearlessness got the better of him
                                      he got his arms around herinside of hers and hugged her tightly fullbodied

she hugged him back

Man you feel good

You feel good too. 


Whaya having this evening 
                             he got the bartenders attention sealed it hugging Paris Sammy
Sammy Joe called out she began making her way over to where they stood at the bar he liked to taking his drinks at the bar tip Sammy directly then hed take a chair a table or went out back outside where the Ram had a seating area tables under trees hanging lanterns candles on the tables nice melon coaxing  confessionallike

What should I have? What would you order me?

Id love ordering you
                         Sammy this is Paris  Paris Sammy

as the women shook hands he realised they were nearly spitting images tall athletic wellbuilt  Sammy dark Paris light

Paris, it suits you, what will have tonight?

Ask Joe, he’s ordering.

Sammy laughed she had a big laugh 
                                         Ordering?  Because he’s here he doesn’t have to breathe a word, I can read his mind.

I can too.

You can? very good. Strange place, huh?

Yes. In a word, strange.

Hey gals Im standing right here

It talks.

Sammy, I like you, I really like you; it talks.

An right off I think I like you too. 
                                   You’ll excuse me, I’ll be back

if Sammy hadnt been engaged when they met he would have made a play for her  sometimes he thought he should have  he heard her marriage lasted a year and a half two  by then they were too deep into their friendship  sex would have been incestuous 
                       but had she not been engagedmarried had they played she was an ample playgroundlikely an adventurous playmate had they played those two years foreplay would have been fierce climaxes mindblowing

There you go, kids, Joe’s patent chilled double Dirty Bird martini, three olives. Starting a tab, Joe?

Yesplease Sammy Have something on me later this evening awright Ya look parched

I might, I might, mebbe I will. 
                               You’ll have to excuse me again, gotta go; nice meeting you, Paris.

Wonderful meeting you too, Sammy.


She’s quite a girl; very attractive, dark, statuesque.

Got a head on her shoulders too this is a part time gig
                                                         When I feel Id like to have a drink if shes not here I don  Nobody makes a Dirty Bird like Sammy

It’s the secret ingredient, Joe.

Secret ingredient

Yes. Love. 
           She loves you.

We go way back 

Ah, so four words, not the standard tried-an-true three?

he smiled 
           Maybe once upon a time  My ardor was forged into adore I love her like a sister

That’s incest.

You been listening

You’re funny, I don’t have to listen; you’re an open book, you're not selfconscious, you don’t care, you don’t give a damn. 


Paris I definitely wanna get to know you better

I’d like that. 
            she held her glass up  they tapped glasses vodka bright olives greenslightly trembling  To what may come.

To unexpectedness

they sipped
             Ohshit this is delicious! This is delicious, Joe; Sammy’s a goddess.

Yah shes perfected it  but not too loud itll go to her head 




So tell me a story.

they were having a third martini 
                                  unexpectedly Sammy brought them their second and had one with them under the trees and sky My break, thought we’d get caught up, and I could get to know Paris better. she pointed at Paris I shouldn’t have a reason, but I like you.

I think it has something to do with Joe introducing us; he’s a good calling card.

he chuckled 
              Im sitting right here

Shh, Joe, Paris is talking. I like her voice, how her mouth moves.
                                                                    turning her full attention to Paris  You strike me as a woman one shouldn’t fuck with.

Sammy, you strike me as a woman one shouldn’t fuck with also.

Mirrored minds . .
. . You want to shut up, Joe; no one’s talking to you.  they said it together

Jesus Christ excuse me

Sammy said to Paris You or me?

May I?

Please.

they laughed togetherbright laughter neither covering their mouths 
                                                                      Paris said There’s no excuse for you, Joe.

Ohfunny a couple of comedians 
                                  Lemme know when I can come into the water and play Ill sit tightlisten enjoy my delicious drink

Sammy reached overput her hand on top of his Good boy, you’re such a good boy.  looking over at Paris Isn’t he a good boy?

Paris said I’m counting on it. 
                               You were saying, Sammy.

 

 

So tell me a story.

0749,  Twosday,  1  6. 21
1428,  Wednesday,  2  6. 21

4.6.21

 

lifes going right when you catch a fluttering paleyellow moth inside a Welchs dinosaur jelly glasscapturing it against the bathroom mirror where it was fascinatedhappy with its reflection 
                                                                      not often an insect gets a look at itself in glass

godlike he released it outofdoors after flipping the bathroom light off enhancing the moths nightvision 
                                                                                                          a considerate god 

the moth was unmolested

free 
      all anything wants to be 
                                   anythingeverything
unfettered                                                            
unbiased
              Aahyes  able to spread its wings an fly

2229, Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  6. 21

 

Allen Weisselberg 
                        abracadabra 
  abracadabra 
                     Allen Weisselberg

five syllables apiece

Plop plop fizz fizz  Oh wha a relief it is


Weisselberg  Jewish  hes probably aware that abracadabra has Hebrew Aramaic origins  perhaps derived from Hebrew  ab  father  ben  son  ruach hakodesh  holy spirit Sound familiar Christians or the Aramaic  avra kadavra
It will be created in my words

Mr Weisellberg finds himself leveraged  in an undesirable position to testify against the Former et alia to use his tonguehis knowledge be utilised by his sworn depositions affidavids to put a criminal/s away  put a great vile American mistake in our rearview mirror

Abracadabra 

Goodnight Irene

Say goodnight Donald

1500,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  6. 21
1202,  Reggae Friday,  4  6, 21

  

Vong Co didnt go over wellplay nice with his cats

maybe they realised or knew Asians ate cats

no accounting for collective unconscious

he figured it was easier for animals

closer to the earthferal not homos

homos got a lot to learn

they keep things up as is

that time will elapse
                       Ooops!  
STOP   
    fuckya ya didnt see it coming

he could hear freight trains coming before he ever saw them

freight trains 


No Vong Co didnt play well in his kitkats ears

usually threefour hung out with him as he wrote

Vong Co began

they gave him Eat Shit glances and booked

    Hmmm 
              he wondered if they played him cannibal drumming or oogachaka oogachaka if he wouldnt have also left the room in disgust

1157,  Twosday,  1  6. 21
Blue Swede  Hooked on a Feeling  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NrI-UBIB8Jk


Whoa, I know you’re enthused . .
. . Understatement

Let me finish please . . let me finish  she paused to see if he was gonna jump in with both feet as was his tendency to get ahead of argumentsahead of all things that perturbed and irritated him  I know you’re enthusiastic, however I also know that you’re not prejudiced, or racist . . but that was crass. 


Crass hes a liar a thief Nationalist  a one-state fuck Palestine proponent From the getgo hes hoodwinked Israel He stinks

Still, you understand what you said is offensive, can cause affront.

Affront Whos affrontedthat the best ya got hes an affront to democracy Not all Jews have suffered him quietly but evidently the right ones did an they allowed him to hold powerallowed them to hold power Governance democracy shouldnt be about power  rather leadership selflessness not lining ones pocketslining his supporters pockets Hes corrupt an finally Israel has seen its way fitat long last  to remove him from the levers of government

He created an apartheid Israel 
                                 Our government actively quashed any attempt to boycott or sanction Israel despite it using similar leverage to help dismantle apartheid South Africa  

Negroes and Palestinians unfortunately have and are suffering

Yawanna offer me differences in their plights


I cannot  gently she touched his shoulder  You feel better getting that out? 

Not really Netanyahus been crap too many years shamelessly encouraged an coddled by governments on both sides of the Atlantic

He was elected to serve the people of Israel.

I cant refute that  butbout time they pulled their heads out of their ass 
                                                                           I hope they remember to retrieve their yarmulkes Been a long time

she smiled 
            You’ll quiet your torrent, not be crass?

You really think that was crass

Yes.

It was musically inspired

Im gonna kick myself. Musically inspired, how?

Bye Bye Birdie Ann-Margret

Bye, Bye Birdie?

Bye bye Hebi  Netanyahoo  Im not gonna miss you so  Bye bye Hebi Comonbaby sing with me . .

I don’t think so.
                 You’re quite a peach.

Allman Brothers  Eat a Peach prettyplease

1810,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  6. 21
1101,  Reggae Friday,  4  6. 21

3.6.21

 

theyd been beating this like a dead horse for weeksnever did get the nuance of the old adage why would anybody beat a dead horse

theyd been beating this like a dead platypus

beating it like a dead whalelike a dead snake had to get off mammals

he didnt get it

one of hims cleared their throat 
                                  I know. It’s an idiom.
he wasnt particularly kind to his hims 
                                       Yes idiot I know but why a dead horse

him offered Harder, less likely, to have access to a platypus or whale. Or a snake, snakes are scary, creepy.

How did ya find your way into me  yare excused 
                                                    Futile  
Like beating a dead horse?

Shaddup

 

why they beat like a dead whatnot was his cohorts hed like thatwas recently hungup on cohorts his feeblydefined attitude of vetting

his cohort didnt see anything wrong with the manner he vetted women to possibly date

it was glaring

he got hungup on the act of watching a woman crossing the street at twentyfive feet  Possibly.  Closing to ten feet OhDefinitely.

from the detail of those two descriptors 
                                          his cohort says to him I know this has happened to you . . .

thats a bump on the knee with a physicians rubber mallet a test of reflexes
                                                                               reflectively
because his cohort was who he was
reflectively
            he began shaking his head No and the more he continued talking the more emphatically he shook his headNO

what happened to his cohort rarely happened to him

too many years knowing him had assured him of that tenet

but he continued 
                  I know this has happened to you . . you take a girl out and she’s not into you . . 
                                                                                                      some other words may have followeddriveled out but the crux was enunciated

his cohort was looking at him the entire time


Ya didnt see me shaking my head No 
                                       No Ive no idea wha yare talkin about   
Ive never gone out with a girl who wasnt interested in going out with meNEVER he tried hard to be polite but the premise was absurd 
             why take a girl out who wasnt interested in going out with you

he asked Why would you take a girl out who wasnt interested in going out with youinterested  in you

I hope you recognise the shallowness of your vetting 
                                                       Seems if she looks good  yare interested

Well, yeah, that’s part of it; you’ve admitted physical attraction is necessary.

Necessary 
            Not lock stock and barrel

It’s not lock, stock and barrel . . 
. . Wha percent

Percent?  Looks?

Yah Idguess better than ninety percent

Not ninety percent.

Wha percent

Three-eighths.

Fackya thirtyeight percent Im rounding up

Man, you did that quick.

Quicker than you trying to bury percentages with fractions 
                                                             I asked percentage anya try to obscure it with fractions nine-tenthsnineteen-twentiethstwentynine-thirtieths those are in the realmnot fucking three-eighths  Stop

I’m just sayin . . 
. . STOP shot yer load 
                      Yare vetting is superficialhardly skindeep An lastlyto answer your question  I never went out with a girl who wasnt interested in going out with me
   
1535, Day-between-Two-Ts,  26  5. 21
1512,  Twosday,  1  6. 21

 

he could see his rails werent greasedthat he was tryin to manage each itemunderstand it not going with the riff  he tied it up nicely but while he was ending he saw in his face that he was still fumbling with the firstsecond premisepropositions


Yare not following me areya

No. he was pained or relieved that he saw No I’m not.
                                                         But you’ll, I think you will, you’ll love this: I don’t listen as quickly as I used to.

Wha?! That yours 
                   If yah take credit for it

I can’t, it isn’t mine.

Its sensationalabsolutely sensational spot on for ya yare struggling tryin to keep up  Whens a pearl gonna drop out of your mouth

Hell with the pearl, you’re relentless, your thoughts fall over each other, stumble, I don’t know how you do it or how to keep up.

No filter babe ya get it as it occurs to me Got me something inside my skull fed by a volcano or whipped by a cyclone It just goes  Cant help myself 
                                 Cant help you either

A sensational bit though  Whose

GOF

Goofy

he reacted as if he slapped himNO! Not Goofy, G-O-F.

Im stuffin it in my memory banks as Goofyno disrespect intended A memory trick mnemonics sonicBabBOOMs  Etched inside my bony cranium 
                           I might possibly use it some day

I don’t know, you got a snaptrap, seems to hold endlessly shit. Wished my thinker worked in kind.

Thinkertinker ceaselessly tinkeringthinking

You said that.

Goofy didnt 

he cringed again 

Whos GOF

the Ive-gotta-crap expression on his face relaxed
                                                     My dad.

Got it Know wha the initials stand for As I said no ill intended 


GOF junior held his father in high esteem he was his role model

on the other hand he didnt have a role model

whawould he do with one

hang on his every word

discover he was no better than him

thatd be a bitter pill to swallow

particularly if they took you around the wrong bend where you wouldnt have gone had been up to you

fact of the matter

it was up to you 


a role model is a waste of time

not a scintilla better than you   

1540,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  26  5. 21
1131,  Twosday,  1  6. 21
Chicago  I’m a Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvmeEyVd5w8

2.6.21

 

I thought you were going to make a note?

I did


Did?
     That was an elaborate conversation; when you said you needed to make a note and picked up your clipboard I thought you’d be at it five, ten minutes.

Nah All done  

How?

Had earlier notesyoull recall I punctuatedtied up parcelsbound them together  Gleaming my notes later Im fortunate Ill be able to refresh my memoryjump back in with both feet little sweat exertion or hubbub Ive captured the jist Later revisitingrevising itll roll onto me like a pleasant beach surf

But how so quickly?

Astricks or asterisks

Asterisks?

Actually no risk not for me

What are you talking about, I’m confused, you constantly confuse me.

An humour youya like my confusion 
                                       Not asterisks astricks  a-s-t-r-i-c-k-s   See

silently she mouthed the lettersspelling to herself 
                                                      I don’t see; that’s not how it's spelled.

How I spell it Youll remember me tellin ya I don misspell  if a words wrong Ive done it for a reason

You don’t misspell?

Was a proofreader worked two years for a paper Ya cant spell yaint keeping that job Therefore astricksmy little tricks
I bound earlier pieces with astricks

Let me see that, please. 
                       she spun the clipboard aggressively on the table so she could drop her eye on the script  it was scriptshe couldnt read his handwriting

Yasee  eyes go to astricks as easy as eyes go to nipples   Cant miss em

she put her hand to her blouse  it opened as she leaned forwardspinning the clipboard  

she halfsmiled mischieviously  
                               The way you think, man.

No thinkin  automatic 

1539,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  26  5. 21
0929,  Twosday,  1  6. 21


Pardon me he set his beer down  I hear you correctly

Did you hear me correctly? 
                            That’s a ridiculous question, you usually hear everything correctly, clearly, then you’re spooky, unrelenting, you reiterate, restate, reshape it; often makes me wonder why you didn’t go into Law.

Don like suits
             why would your marriage counselorcouples counselor say Yare not getting any younger  Thats a load of horseshit

It isn’t, it’s true, I’m not, you’re not getting any younger either; you’re one who says we’re dying after we’re born.

Yes on more than one occasion 
                                  However not getting any younger is a manipulationparticularly particularly out of the mouth of a psychologist  a blatant manipulation

No, she’s not the only person who has said it to me; my family, friends, they’ve all said likewise.

Why he took a sip of his beer  Have you given it any thought why

Why? Why?
             Because it’s true, I’m not getting any younger.

Anwha does that mean to youdon reiterate it again please Whadoes that mean to you


she hadnt picked up her beer since setting it down when he went after her words  I should let go of what’s happened, what’s behind me, move forward.

Lifes happened behind you itll happen ahead of you They mean more than life don they

What do you mean?

Awcome on baby donbe coy Wha do they mean

I suppo . .
. . Don suppose wha they meanya know wha they mean

You’re being curt.

I am Since Ive known you youve needed smellingsalts cold water dumped over your head to rouse you Answer the question 
          Wha do they mean 

Yare not going to say

What do they mean to you?

Please donthey don mean a damn thing to me 

Don’t be cruel. she fingered her sweating glass of beer

Im not Im cynicalparticularly regarding people who know they have your attentioncan influence youbelieve all they have to do is give you permission an youll follow their advise Because you have in the past
Doggedly 

Yadon need anyones permission let alone telling you your mind


They meananswering your question  Pursue another relationship yare divorced

Because they need a relationship you need one too Thats not necessarily true If a relationship presentsby all means but to hustle one upyou hustled one up it ended in divorce

Their advise is horseshit they cant make themselves happy You make yourself happy first an then hopefully youll meet someone whos happy an youll share happiness

still fingering her beer  That’s sounds sensible; but in the meantime I’m alone.

Where did ya get that

Alone?

Alone

I am alone.

Yare by yourself 
                  A different question  Are you lonely 

I am lonely.

So you believe being with someone will  solve   your loneliness It isnt a problem


You’re an exception.

I shouldnt be
                Your couples counselor irritates me teeing you up for return business If couples arent in distress she aint making money                                                                                          
midafternoon,  SunnyDay,  30  5. 21
1152,  Monday,  31  5. 21