“. . . essay proves rebarbatively resistant to his usual emphatic approach.”

                                                                                 Jo Catling  translator

rebarbatively  rebarbative

                                   Anybody

certainly not himhe tried to deconstruct it  got hungup on barb

                                                                   a barb isnt a good encounter

hed take it that the word was unemphaticCOWARD

                                                          Look it up

he disliked with extreme prejudice that he goaded himself

but no one could goad him like he could

                                               thats

a good attribute  good practise

it came down from his parents

                                 Know your worth. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Catch hell?  You catch it from yourself be . . your own worst critic.

their words have served him well

rebarbative

unattractive

objectionable

learn something new every day

                                   now

would he remember

    if he didnt

                   rebarbative

 

not seven pages later WG Sebalds collection of essays Silent Catastrophes Catling quotes Sebald  How much home does a person need?

                                    spoke to him

as a boy he told his parents  When I growup Im not living here

two long years after graduating high school he flew the proverbial coop

                                                                            coop  he reminded them

. . . is an enclosure made of wire metal bars where birds animals are kept

they were all there his parents his seven siblings when he backed down the mealy remains of the driveway he would later return for the week it took to tearup by hand and sod

there were tears in everyones eyes

his tears were for his siblings because he knew they would never leave

                                                                               they made their lives there

    his goading wore spurs

afternoon Saturday,  19  7. 25

1233,  Thursday,  24  7. 25

Doc Keeley  clinic in Dwight Illinois hed use the familiar address for a physician since he was born at the same named hospital Rush Medical the college where Keeley was certified 

                                                     Daniel Okrents Last Call: The Rise and Fall of Prohibition

Keeleys Gold Cure  injections of bicholoride  double chloride of gold  to quell “the irresistible craving of nerve endings for alcohol”

                            later chemical analysis of Keeleys proprietary tonic phonaesthetic determined it contained 27.55% alcohol hmm  alcohol to defeat alcoholism plus “ammonium chloride, aloin – hed go for a loin until he discovered it wasnt  rather a C-glycosidic derivative of anthraquinone found in the latex of aloe vera plants  an anti-inflammatory – and tincture of cinchona – in a cinch  also known as Jesuits bark  Peruvian bark  quinine – but no gold. His hypodermic injections also contained sulfate of strychnine – which in itself packs a wallop  mistakenly he thought it was in Jimsonweed WRONG  his hallucinations were caused by tropane alkaloids  atropine scopolamine hyoscyamine – atropine – loanbehold – and boracic acid.”

                                  if all those words didnt tickle tongues as his was tickled pink as pussy

WHELL

          not his problem

was his pleasure

 

phenomenal what early physicians concocted for clients   patients  clients       patients      clients

   what have you

concocked 

              Now, if you’ll just bend over for me . . .         

1340,  Wednesday,  23  7. 25

1136,  Thursday,  24  7. 25

https://library.ndsu.edu/fargo-history/index2558.html?q=content/keeley-institute#:~:text=Leslie%20E.,term%20%E2%80%9CGold%20Cure%E2%80%9D).

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34393136/ 

at the Wall Street Journal  they called it a bawdy doodle a very nice phonaesthetic

                                                                                     Whas not to like

And an anti-Tolkien cellar door posit

                                      Go go go Wall Street Journal

thirtyfour-count felon said “I never wrote a picture in my life.”

    No

            Cant imagine hes written a picture

https://www.rollingstone.com/politics/politics-news/trump-denies-epstein-birthday-letter-drawing-1235388615/

 

keeps trying to imagine what felons view is like that orange head tucked deep up his ass

2105,  Monday,  21  7. 25

1010,  Thursday,  24  7. 25

PS  butt plug or suppository

seemssemen he opened a can of fat worms

                                             reading Last Call: The Rise and Fall of Prohibition  Daniel Okrent

2010 found passages regarding Lee Levys endeavor his distillery his Black Cock Vigor GinJaysus purportedly geared towards black men if ones to believe only black men would drink cheap gin

                                                                                          but

buck no pun intended didnt stop there when vettingGoogling for more robust history more insight references

he also found Black Cock Thai rice Whiskey Cockswallow Black Gin Big Black Dick Premium Darkno shit Rum

    cant say he was surprised

nothing regarding business profitability  return on investment ROI

                                                                       or GREED surprised him

greenbacks cherishedcoveted over wetbacks

                                               over illegals risks their heritable misfortune of being born in the wrong count . .  or should he say  not born in America  its Constitutional birthright citizenship now being challenged by the depraved 34-count felon  his wonder lapdogs   his despicable enablers

 

she stroked his cheek  brought him out of his revery Baby.  I can read your expressions.

    Unsightly kiddo

Yes.

        Would you please finishrunning it through your mind and come back to me. 

The fires lovely.  The gin martini you made me is delicious, divine.

Ill be right there.

she leaned over bit his earlobe  whispered

                                                  Finish it up.  Like you, I don’t wait.

after 1549,  Tuesday,  15  7. 25

2020,  Wednesday,  23  7. 25

https://pre-prowhiskeymen.blogspot.com/2018/11/lee-levy-and-black-cock-vigor-gin.html

for a guy he couldntwouldnt speak for women though figured many women would too

                                                                                              not a bad way to wakeup in the morning

Raquel Welch curled under his armher hand gently resting on his chest shes still asleep

                                                                                                 then

    asleep

No

    she exited isnt that polite

                              Here let me help you with thathelp you up help you to an exit

at the foot of the bed stood Ozzy Osbourne

                                              made up  lookincrazed

he couldnt remember a time they werent often he didnt follow Sabbath after Seventythree  Black Sabbath  Paranoid  Master of Reality Black Sabbath Vol. 4 Sabbath Bloody Sabbath  remember when Ozzy didnt look crazed  dazed

                                                                                                crazydazydays

he hoped that the life he didnt see Ozzy was comfortable  wasnt playing to an audience

                                                                                              bite the head off a bat in Iowa

  IOWA thought  Who the fuck goes to Iowa

he lived twenty years in Illinois

went to Iowa four timesGET THIS

                                      to waterski on the Mississippi River cant make that shit up

 

Raquel had exited

                        stage left? stage right?   ascended? the stage would be to the actors left or right

albeit  the stage   is terminal

                                    terminus

Gotta split  My terms over

                             terms which were negotiated on the way in with the gatekeeper bouncer who also keep an eye out as you helped yourself to the shelves that kept the attributes youd select exhibit during your term

            first and foremost  your scribbled palimpsested tabula rasa

Thought Sumerian was difficulthuh

 

Raquel

          gently roused her  bummed

Raquel  Its time to get up baby

                                 eyes closedrolls onto her back away from him wiping a thin drool off her cheek with the back of her hand

                                   says  I had the best dream.

he mustered  I hear ya

0705,  Wednesday,  23  7. 25

1140,  Wednesday

Black Sabbath  Who Are You?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnT_DIt6DUo

blessed

they almost slipped another by him

                                      They woud killem if he explicitly used it as a pronoun

the religiousReligion

                   No you didint

not on his watch

small watch that it may be

                            small  whoever would watch with him  give two shits

Hecoopting  Hows tha feel believers adherents  His favourite  devotees  He wanted three   Trinity   Take tha

sacred

ecclesiastic

               blessed

hemmed an hawed dug the toes of their leather shoes in the dirt Awshucks.  No we didn’ . .

. . Mispronounced Didint

                             Get it right or keep your mouths shut

 

 

he stumbled across blessed

                             and when he did the next words out of his mouth No ya dont

Not Not on my watch

                      he lurchedrolled his eyes inwards to see if the eavesdropping mariachi would be readily apparent

                  but  much to their credit they were assembled  they  their cohorts   the room filled to overflowing Where was the fire marshal  It exceeded capacity

 

    Not on my watch gushed second

Ja  We know

                 Were just yankin your chain

Consider it yanked

Suhweet

            We interrupted yawere saying

Blessed

Ja blessed

             They think they can coopt tha

They believe they have

                         Well wrestle it back

Every time we  the collective  uses it it diminishes waters down blesseds religiosity

                                                                                         Wed be happy to share

Theyd rather not                                                                                                                 

    Nazis

Careful

         They were majority Christians  Gottgläubig   Believers in God

Got to wonder

               Did Gawd believe inem  understand hes a trickster funny guy digs his black humour as much as you do

Might suppose if He existed wed get along at a comedy club   Standing room only

 

Standing room only

Thaswha I said

Tha a slight

    If the shoe fits  glove fits    wear it

You a funny guy

Im blessed

0705,  Wednesday,  23  7. 25

Jon Stewart not havin’ it  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TwOLo_U6bTw 

You tell me  Tha a woman thingmy Maw used it

What’s a woman’s thing?

Catch hell

    Did I say that?

Just now

 

Really?

Ja

     I like it  Reminds me of her an my aunts

Hell was as close to swearing youd hear come out of their mouths  Typically at family gatherings  Im from a huge family

                 It provoked swearing

  Huh.  I can’t believe I said it and didn’t realize I had.

You were on a roll

Sounded natural

                   But were only acquainted

This conversation is the longest weve ever had

Which aint sayin much

    It’s part of my vernacular, my Mom used to sa . .

. . See   There

                    A womans thing

    she pursed her lips tapped her index finger against them

                                                         Maybe.

You don’t use it?

I quoted

          Woud tell my siblings tha Maw said if they didnt straightenup flyright they were gonna catch hell

Obviously it appeals to me

                               My Maw was a force of Nature

If she hadnt been Idve been shit out of luck

She had my back

But only because I didnt lie to heralways told her the truthcant begin to tell you all the adults she faced down on my behalf

Were you a troublesome kid?

No   She said I had a mind of my own an I didnt mind sharin it

                                                                          Yawoudve liked her

1755,  Wednesday,  16  7. 25

1508,  Tuesday,  22  7. 25

mused   

            Hypnopompic

Its not

No  Its not

            Not comin out of tha dream

You can say tha again

    Are you in on this too

Whaever touches you touches us

                                    Maybe not with the physicality you feel   But  definitely

Voyeuristic

Definitely

Ya know wha I was thinkin

Your mind hints but for us its like poor yesteryear radio transmissions

                                                          Sometimes we realise poor television transmissions too

It depends

Whad you glimmer

No glimmer  Tha was crystal clear

    And

Big Some Like It Hot birthday cake for Spats 

Ja

Marilyn pops out huge grin arms thrown high naked to the waistMyGawd 

Was something

Definitely was

Youre churnin  Somethins goin on in your brain

Ja   Ja

   Wha

I was thinkin

                   Hypnopimpic

Pimp

       Theres something to tha

My dreaming self

Pimpin for ya

My dreamed self gypped

Fraid so

Ja

       Me too

Gals in great shape

Says the man whos had sex with her three times despite admitting to one another  shes dead

Hot

Coudnt see

                 Works were steamed up

1804,  Tuesday,  15  7. 25

1333,  Tuesday,  22  7. 25

they were shooting pool

his shot  he was leaning on his stick   lookin down from the ceiling on the table

It’s your shot.

Is

    What are you doing?

Seeing the shot

What shot?

Up off the rail angling back to the nine  it softly in the side

Lemme see.

               he walked over

stepped backgave him room

he looked

             Nah.  A possible shot though improbable.

Thas not the way to think

Better way than your magical thinking.

Your two D view of things limits you

                                       I see in three

Breasts?

Clever Dimensional    Awa

                                Im above lookin down

You’re ridiculous. You lay out your angles off the diamonds on the rails.

You do

        As I said  Two dimensional

Then show me.

    Almost there

                  Per our conversation still looking down  could do two things at once IQ  EQ  EI  eieio  cant resist

ya said UI  useful idiot  Russia  fired in me UTI  IUD  DUI  IED

Some funhuh

    leaned over held the stick on the rail ball fourinches off  moved his body slightly left   thought There

shot  topspin

up the table on an angle softly

off the endrail

angling back slowly

Ain’t got enough speed.

slowly

kissed the nine

imparted just enough physics

nine angling to the side pocket

 

    dropped

                in

WAUHOO THA WAS FUCKIN AMAZIN

 

Good shot. I’ll conced . .

. . Tha  was a great shot

1802,  Tuesday,  15  7. 25

1147,  Tuesday,  22  7. 25

out of the blue big fuckin step for him Youah, remember Sleeper?  

                                                                               perilous

Woody Allen  He just wrote a book

Woody Allen?

Ja

      Wha of it  I coud guess

  You could guess?

Indubitably

              Theres a fun wordplays on ones tongue

Unlike where youre going

I’m going?

Ja

    You

Where am I going?

Truly

       Why don you say

I don want to steal your thundertrust me youll feel much better if you do

Friend. I think you’ve overplayed your hand.

                                                Please. goading him  You tell me.

In how many words

How many words?

                         In as many as yaneed. I’ll humble you momentarily.

In one

           Orgasmatron

Six

     I don wanna work tha hard

 

 

Im not feelin humbled

                           You

1549,  Tuesday,  15  7. 25

1052,  Tuesday,  22  7. 25

orgasmatron  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uZvpIE5g5Fo

Sleeper trailer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VDC1SUlXuGI