Youre defendinem

We’re not defending them.

                              they huddled closer together so not to be flanked forcing headlong attacks

Methinks thou dost protests too much

                                         Misquoting Shakespeare Hamlet  Steppinon Queen Gertrudes line

    We’re supposed to reply to that?

Youre vigorously opposing memy word

                                          So Ive said was keeping with Shakespeare  Wha say ye

Not all.

    I didnt say all

You implied all.

I said billionaires are immoral

                                Not all   Certainly not an implication

I was explicit

she looked over to her cohort her back to back partner who like he felt they had to assume defensive postures

    opposite them they knew him to be aggressive

                                                     they werent

they drew comfort in numbers

                                 evenif the numbers did not coincide identically with their aspirations

fiftyone fortynine was plenty good for them

while he was willing to die on every hill every molehill   every dungheap

                                                                                                 Sheeit  I thought it was a hill

Nonetheless I did gain elevation acquired  higher ground

looking away from him she spoke for them

                                              We don’t agree.

pushing an entomological pin for insects either a No. 2 or a No. 3  a pin is gentler than a hook hooks devastate flesh

    Why do you disagree

her bound male cohort rallied Does that really matter?

                                                         How often have I asked you, questioned you further and you’ve replied, DONE?

I reply done because when I ask something I also stake my claimmake my mind obvious

DONE is in retaliation refusing to repeat myselfwaste my time

You disagree that billionaries arent immoral

Immoral is givinem something

I didnt say amoral

To amass billions of dollarsmaybe atop seed money leftem  many have been bequeathed

                                                                                                Letem keep a billion  Tha on top take

Next year tax time

                    Take it again

Now

       If only we had a legitimate expert body to wiselyIll say it  redistribute those billions an billions of dollars

Trickle down

    Only piss an shit trickles down

My idea  one  Im sure of many many solutions

                                                           So

 

So what?

Why are billionaires not immoral     

Sunday afternoon,  6  7. 25

0958,  reggaefriday,  11  7. 25

You’re a solipsist.

    Again

Yeah again.

For the hunredth time

                        Somehow you think youre insulting me

Someone motherfucker  Correction

                                         Everyone

Someone who holds only their opinion counts Only their mind is certain to exist Their thoughts feelings sensations confirm that

Everybodys on the spectrum

So while you sit across from me accuse me of being a solipsist

                                                                   Backatcha

Ya disagree

I’ll agree, however, not to the extent you are.

Its a spectrum

We coud tossup a couple few more ifya like

Spectrums?

Ja

     We agree thas whawere talkin about

We are.

You agree

             Say it

I said we were.

Were wha

    In agreement.

Progress

Youre not as assertive as I

No. Definitely not.

Spectrum

            Youre not as aggressive

No.

People got to like you

I wouldn’t say that.

Don have to  I did

Not as assured

You’re the absolutist. I’m not.

I really gotta drag out tha tired oldfuckin proof

                                                   Anya know I was shit with proofs in geometry

Coud toss reason versus abstract

Youre reasonable Im abstract

Proof

What proof?

Youd absolutely not have sex with a man

Sunday afternoon,  6  7. 25

1426,  Thursday – ffuull Buck moon,  10  7. 25

I did my time may have been ominous if he hadnt had to repeat himself

                                                                  Yanever even dipped a toe in

Anya know why

    Because you had boys

Ya letem skate

                  Boys will be boys

 

What do you mean you did your time?

Man ignoring the obvious   The overt distinct fuckindifference

Careful careful, seem to be getting’ a little hot under the collar, brother.

Ja  Why

         Woudnt if we havent returned to this againanagain  Yathink youre blameless

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Thas damning

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Some kind of refrain

Refrain?

Repetition

Song  Poetry

                Cuz youre doin nothing but singin a tired old bit

You answer me an . .

. . Youll answer me  Yawont   Havent before

                                                   Ya shrug but shrugging explains nuthin

I did my time

My girls high school involvement was nuts

                                             I supported them seven years They were asya know in AP classes honor classes student government three sport athletes

    Tha happens for no one if their parents don have their backs  Werent committed

I shoudve been committed

Seven years gonesnapped his finger sharply

Girls

Boys

That’s not true. I coached when I could.

Coud

That’s what I said.

Coud aint a commitment

                           Committed theres no excusenot a fuckinone for not showingup

I showed

I was committed to my girls

                               We were committed

You  Laissez-faire

                     Minimal intervention  markets operating with little or no regulation

Sounds like you

                  Together with your wife

    Betcha feel good getting’ that off your chest.

he laughed

              For the umpteenth time

You absorb nothing

I get your laissez-faireness

Unfortunate I have to explain overanover

                                                 I did my time

Sunday afternoon,  6  7. 25

1340,  Thursday – ffuull Buck moon,  10  7. 25

he saw a rugby match years ago

doesnt know the game wouldnt follow it

a chosen ignorance

                     wasnt a sports fan in any meaningful way

followed pro football highlights Sundays via YouTube couldnt tolerate commercials to watch entire games the sole exception Super Bowl  Stanley Cup play-offs

    but he knew a guy who did who play a few college games before injured

his old man told him No more.

unlike him

              he listened to his old man

he did however follow a local team attended their matches

                                                               I drank beers and enjoyed the female fans.

When was that

After graduating college. I summered in Idaho then returned to begin my teacher’s credentials.

    I'd say twentytwo three, till almost thirty.

 

Rugby played in the Fall

Yes. In the Fall.

                  Our local team was awfully good.

So  A fan

I playe . .

. . Until No

No matter. I played.

                       I understood the game, the strategy.

Given your tendencies Id guess you held forth on the sidelines insinuated yourself told old war stories

    However limited

peeved I played.

                  I know the game. You don’t.

Nor do I care to

 

Strikes me you were there for the women

    Not just the women.

Hang out with players

No.

 

I understandif my memory serves me correct The female fans

                                                                  They had a nickname

They did.

Wasnt really flattering

                          Not very origina . .

. . It stuck.

You wanna tell me you had nothing to do with it youre an inveterate nicknamer

   Or

 

 

Or what?

The nickname wasnt a widely known

                                             It waswha you calledem

They were called ruggerhuggers.

                                    I thought it was pretty clever.

And

 

    And what?

Address my accusation

                          And because I always saydon leave people hangin on what they think I thought

Kinda crude

Ruggerhugger leans in towards carpet   Rug  I understand rugger rugby

Rug  Carpet

Carpet huggers

Carpet munchers

                   An Gawd blessem if rugby players go down  Although the as dictionaries would cite  thas crude vulgar offensive slang descriptive of lesbians which is a pile of horseshit because a woman going down on a woman may just have been curiosity

Ive known a lot of curious women

Theyve admitted it

Their just deserts

Favour was returned 

 

   The nickname wasnt widely known

Though you thought clever

Thaswha you calledem

                           They werent wearin emblazoned tshirts sweatshirt

Proudly

Ruggerhuggers

They wer . .

. . Youre fibbin

                he laughed   and his laughter went on and on and veered a tad toward hysterical as rugbys face darkened

fibbin was awfully preposterous

                                   he couldnt say hes ever used it before

had read it

not said it

hilarious

    the glowering grewwent on and on and on

obviously fomented by fib by formidable fuckin glee

Rugby walked off

Sunday afternoon,  6  7. 25

1056,  Thursday – ffuull Buck Moon,  10  7. 25

AahJesus

           off he goes again on his interminable rant of biology the cant of DNA  the reason the be all end all

It’s in your genes.

it wasnt

          Again  I gotta disagree with you  Not everything human comes down to whas in their genes

You know biology. You studied.

                                    Doublechain helix.

Doublechained. Tensile strength second to none.  Steel, baby.

Tungsten

What? rolls eyes

    Tungsten  Highest tensile strength of any pure metal

                                                             Im assuming your DNA purity is beyond reproach

Have I assumed correctly

I don’t know that tungsten has th . .

. . You know it does

                        I just told you

I should take you at your word when you don’t take me at mine?

Ja

     Vetted numerously  Numerously erroneous

Ought to write tha out

Its awfully pretty

    But back to your claim wanton desire wanton sex is driven by particularly   mens DNA  Their history of taking women because they could

They could. There’s no doubting that.

I agree

In their DNA

I would agree.

I was askin a question not agreeing

How can you possibly disagree with me?

Methinks

           Because if it were  In mens DNA   They

Would not marry

Make a contract

Vow to Gawd

 

You married.  he grinnedleared

he loved it I did

                     My wanton desire sex was satisfied by my wife

That’s not wanton.

Is

     Archaic  Noun   My wife behaved like a wanton

Something else ya can lookup

    Despite me sayinso

Sunday afternoon,  6  7. 25

1403,  Wednesday,  9  7. 25

walkingup on a small animated gathering  away from the rest of the party

                                                                                their animation attracted him

moth to a lightbulb

quick surveysaw a mismatch

six women three men

he liked the odds

Hey gang

           the circlesurprised shivered churned where it broke form he step into the circumference perimeter peripheral to heal it

                               not to be assumed  heeding it

Whas the hubbub bubs

women rolled their eyes

                         their advantage diminished he was familiar with them they of him  they recognise their legup was coming down

his reputation preceding him

Anyone

         he didnt expect anyone to come from the cowed men

could see it in their faces

That an eightyyear old man wants sex.

                                             she was right next to him

Of course he does

You agree?

Im a man

             he lifted his eyes to the three wannabes one at a time

I think when I’m eighty, God allowing, he bit his tongue Gawd had nothing to do with it  I don’t think sex will be interesting or interest me. he wasnt sure if it did now

Men are different

                    he lifted his eyes again to the wannabes  Gimme an ahmen

Were  women  all different

Wha Ill say an then leave you to your devises  chuckled luridly

                                                                    Eightyyear old men want to have sex 

But they don wanna have it with eightyyear old women

Ill be on my way

I appreciate ya breakin ranks an allowinme in  have a sayso    Thank you

backpedaled

wasnt turning his back

    not on glaring ablated women

1600ish,  Sunday,  6  7. 25

1319,  Wednesday,  9  7. 25

tinnitus

           read  “perception of sound when no external source is present”

hed have to disagree

his tinnitus drowns out soft external ambient sources he listens to as he writes  or outdoors when he works or walksreads

    what he believes  doesnt thinkbelieves

                                                  is his tinnitus is working to find its voice

find its ability language  to be able to communicate where its found harbour

room

closet

housing in his skull

 

hes not perturbed irritated or distracted

                                                listens

can hardly wait for babys first words

111preferred,  Tuesday,  8  7. 25

1157,  Wednesday,  9  7. 25

Imagine Dragons  Hear Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Yr683VLxes

 

Oh for gawdssakes  has to be one of the best excuses hes ever heard   Holdup  Two

Actually two

We were at war.

I was just following orders.

approximately 1430,  Tuesday,  8  7. 25

1218,  Wednesday,  9  7. 25

he wokeopened his eyes

his cat recognised he did

                          she boundup from the foot of the bed and tuckedup her head on his chestcurled into his armpit her purring mesmerising

he went with it

closed his eyes

mused

             night before he talked with his old boss on the phone

boss buttdialed him

Id have thought by now yawoudave removed me from your contacts

I thought I had.

they spoke nearly fifteenminutes

                                     were going to meet for beers the following week

mused

            Then

what was going on in his life

then furthurforward in his life

 

    two

            he knew he wasnt a fan of blondes

fewer Midwest blondes than on the West Coast

he defied his better judgement which to-date hadnt worked out

                                                             but

he broke his rules

usually his cock didnt get a vote

he was overruled

                    ruled over

two

college-aged women

met them five years apart

    the first

month  monthanahaf into their playful dalliance feisty flirtation

                                                                     her father committed suicide

she left

her roommate packedup her things and sent them to her

before leavingsaying goodbye  tearfully

                                            she said

he stoppedasked her roommate if she would share her address with him

she said shed ask

she did

           phoned him  she asked  she asked that she not share

 

     five years

sixfootone bodacious blonde

she was a client of his boss’ company

they met inadvertently

despite her attributes

                         she was blonde

she came around the office fourfive times

asked the receptionist shed Please. like to see him

pursued

he would be stupid not to pay her attention

                                             cock cajoling him every time she came by

ruled over

they met for a coffee before work

met for a drink after work

went out for sushi

                     he pleased her

she asked if he wouldnt mind if she fed him his wildcaught salmon sashimi

Ja sure

         I havent been fed since I was a tottler

she was thrilled

they met again for conversation walked along the beach to the pier

turning around to walk back she took his hand

they held hands back to their cars

they were to meet again at the beach when he returned from a business trip

she stood him up

he called

her mother answered

her husband committed suicide

her daughter asked that he understand

                                             Please do not pursue her.

 

he hasnt dated a blonde since

not that a few havent turned his head not that his cock hasnt tried to rule over

WONT

 

two

     was enough

so much for musing

0707,  Wednesday,  9  7. 25