it had been like pulling teethnot a tough question

                                                    seemed within a few quiet minutes  unmolested patient

one could say even if they hadnt considered the concept before

a totem animal

                 an animal possessingexhibiting either abilities or physical beauty one admired and would be pleased if they were recognised in them

itd be a stretch for coboy saw that misspelled on a state monument cast in bronze   eejits

                                                                                    so he told him his totem was a buffalo

Buffalo.  I can see that.

See how easy

               Your turn  Weve coffee we can sip think  Ill leave you be while you consider

took himmaybe  ten minutes

                                  A mountain lion.

he couldnt see that but physical appearance shouldnt be a consideration   still

                                                                        Whas the appeal

Agility. Stealth.   Predatory.  Wild.

still

not a week later coboy expressed a deep appreciation for sabertooth tigers

following week  cave lions

                             which

provoked him to ask as he listens and remembers

                                                      Coboy he didnt say that Ive got a question if I may

Shoot.

You recall your totem

My totem.

it was shit like that that irritated him brusque Totem   Mountain lion

Oh yesyes, yes. My totem. Yes.

                                 A mountain lion.

Of recent youve expressed admiration of sabertooths  Then cave lions

                                                                          Arya considering changin your totem or creating a second

My second if I was forced out of buffalo would be a hawk

genuinely startled A hawk?

Soaring  Artful   Beautiful

                              Might wonder how long unchanged alphaperfection  Apexed

Lethal

    A second?

                 That’s an interesting concept.

A thought

           Thought itd be nice to hear whaya thought

Youre welcome to time

                          Lemme know

Also  to allay possible confusion I see it cloudingcrowdin your face

                                                                         Both animals competed during Pleistoscene North America

I looked it up

1459,  reggaefriday,  6  6. 25

1251,  Thursday,  12  6. 25

he peeved him

                 after saying what he didremarked  It makes for less time in a state of resistance

You?  Resistance?

                        I can’t think of another soul more inclined to resist than you.

I said  less time

                    Andon talk about something I havent

Too quick.  Haven’t?

    Soul

When I came in I ditched it Told the robed cracker at the entrance tha I wasnt keen on transponders

Coud be I may have  anticipated the rise of GPSs

Ive disabled every one of those motherfuckers

in singsong You’re resisting.

In less time laughedcracked himself up

                                         Back to your original ahpeevement with me

I concur with Ray Velcoro  True Detective Season Two

I welcome judgment

 

You provoke.

You see welcoming judgment as provocation

I imagine it would depend on who you levele . .

. . Leveled

Certainly leveled.

Welcoming judgment is   leveling   on someone

                                                         Maybe someone  thinskinned

You for instance

Seems a bug crawled up your ass

An all over a pair of cufflinks

    Who the fuck wears cufflinks?

When I find buy a pair I will

                               Its a nice looking shirt ansince no one looks for cufflinks I coud wear it out for an evening an not a fuckin soul woud be the wiser for it

                                                             Judging me

Its welcomed

               While on the flipside youd tarry youd resist youd cringe   Judged

Do onto others tha youd have done on you

Golden Rule

Bible

Petty petty Matthew  Seven Twelve upstages Luke  Six Thirtyone 

                                                                      Sometimes I dislike tha I know tha

But thaswha kneelin on a broomstick ingrained in me

Talkin’ to you is like talkin’ to a wall.

A colourful graffitied alley wall

                                   Id agree

2023,  Wednesday,  4  6. 25

1138,  Thursday,  12  6. 25

called a buddy to talk withthey hadnt talked in a bit fact of the matter  if he didnt call they wouldnt

So, enough about me and my failing to complete my honey-do list, you had to ask.

Tha do or dew

D  O.   D  E  W.

Excellent  Ya still got itcan follow me

I gotta be one of the few people in the world at large if you were ultimately released into the wild that can follow you.

True tha

           Longest friend

Most faithful.

he hadnt been

               Ja  Most faithful

he purposefully let it dangle to acknowledge between them what would remain unsaid

So what’s new with you, hombre?

Funny you shoud say hombre Had coffee late this afternoon with a young Mexican girl  Ysabel  with a Y

Where did you meet a young Mexican girl?

Outside the grocerystore  Was there to . .

. . Get bagels at your pricepoint.

I was

Ya getem?

I did  Two packages

Walked and read there.

I did

But obviously, didn’t read on the way home.

After coffee

How young’s young?

Didnt ask  woud guess midtwenties

Young.

Compared to us

Coffee?

Ja

What would you have in common?

Astrology

           Shes a Gemini  Im Aries   Our stars align

Aries gets along very well    with  twins

Twins?

Her twinsthough not to get sidetracked dazzled her with the admission tha gratefulness makes for a patient sexual partner

    You were thinkin’, emission, at the time?

Know me so well

                     Also discussed No-Go Zones

When I explained them to Ysabel she agreed with me

You discussed . . No-Gos . . . . with a . . supple young lady?

Feels like a Zappa momenthuh

It do.

they laughed hard in one anothers ear

 

Christ, man, I fuckin’ miss ya.

I miss you too

                          We concluded No-Go agreed on the same note

 

Should I ask?

Ill tellya

          We agreed that if we coud  wed take a lover shrinkem down to a jawbreaker popem in our mouths suckem till they had nothing left to give

Christ

Ought to lay tha on your Hattie Id love to hear wha shed say

    Yeah.  That ain’t gonna happen.

If I coud with virtually a young strang . .

. . That’s you.

                    Brother.  I’m not younobody’s you but you.

1905,  Wednesday,  11  6. 25

1027,  Thursday,  12  6. 25

the young Mexican girl came bopping up on him

                                                  they were familiarhed seen her the day before  she was working a table outside the grocer for an organisation he had not heard of that touted it was trying to help fill the unfortunatevoid left when USAID was kneecapped by cunt  felon   cunts

                                                                                      f/elon

she flashed him the peace sign

                                  Say brothe . . 

. . Ja sistah

You Sagittarius?

No But I get along famously withem   Aries

Damn, thought for sure.

You

Gemini.

Stop

      Birthday recently or comin

Recently.

Im up to my eyeballs in Geminis

                                   Daughter not a week ago her boyfriend yesterday his mother a day prior to my daughters one of my best friends daughter then his next couple days probablylikely why were attracted

    Not a bad guess kiddo

Although Aries Sagittarius  best mix

Arguably . . . the best cocktail in the whole of astrology, horoscope.

    Arguably

I’m almost off.

                 Maybe we coud have a coffee, a drin . .

. . A coffee

Coffee.

            Are you in a commitment?

I am

    she rolled her shoulder her breasts exaggerated her motion

                                                              That’s reeally she hung on that  too bad.

Lemme guess

You have a guess?

Bucket list  Bed an older man

    Whell shit . . .

Ill tellya  If I wasnt committed Id easily turn you inside out

                                                               Gratefulness makes for a patient sexual partner

1331,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

1702,  Wednesday,  11  6. 25

https://www.alicesparklykat.com/articles/448/Aries_Gemini_Relationships/

snickered  corrosively   Pig ignorant.

You don know wha the hell youre talkin about  Pigs   Wickedsmart

                                                                         Ya want to insult Bets for not goin out with youya best come up with something else

    She's a bitch.  There.

                                And you.  Anthropomorphizing.   The inanimate, animated.

Ah the spectrum  From drab dismal to enticed enlightenedPigs are as intelligent as dogs even some primates

           Studie . .

. . Name one since they them are for you insufficient pronouns when announced as authority or quoted.

Frontiers in Psychology

I don’t know that.

I do look it up

               Pigs have excellent memory are able to solve problems are emotional intelligent freakintempted to shiv him that he wasnt but curbed his tongue  They even recognise themselves in a mirror which youyou of all people must readily admit indicates self-awareness   possibly  ego

    You’re something else, man.

Thank you

                     Brother  I really grate youget under your skin

You do.

           I often wonder why we have a friendship.

Because I wont lie to you no matter how ugly the truth or your misgivings

                                                                             Besides  You derive more from our friendshipwhich  Im okay with

    Im on the dole

Ya make me laugh

1330,  reggaefriday,  6  9. 24

1211,  Wednesday,  11  6. 25

https://www.newrootsinstitute.org/articles/pig-intelligence

https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/psychology/articles/10.3389/fpsyg.2021.631755/full

    closindown shop

                         was just off a phonesex call with his girlfriend

they erupted

couldnt speak for her

                       but  the bandanna laidcross his belly an chest was bespatteredgobbed

he was still flushed

was an unexpected surprise

                                     catching his breathclosed his eyes pillows to either side of his head  cloistered  he let his mind playdabble wherewhen  to fall asleep

                                                                      Howbout we leave where we entered

that tickled him

                   Go out where I came in

EXIT

ENTER

ENTRANCE

EXIT

         redlettered electric sign installed above barlatched metal fire doors

You remember

Like I can forget

Tha was something

                        Two men an a monster

The three were monsters

                           rousing from the hypnopompic state etched in vantablack harshestwhite betweengray his dreamedself recognising the oncoming slaughter screamed hystericallyGet out get out ge . . . as the heavy door was slammed in his face  bolted   

                                                but he could see through the door 

saw suspended above  helplesslywatched the slaughter  axe machete monster snarled bit off handsarms extended as they tried to protect themselves   gunshots  on crass gray stickfigures big round heads a blemish appeared  gunshot wound suddenlyradiating then their heads blew up  stick limbs fell downfell apart like decrepit corncribs leveled from above  a terrificweight  its drag draft almost pulling his dreamedself down with it

   The three kickedshuffled skated through sludge  blood    gore

                                                                               the whole went black

 

since it was a repeat  the mornings panic  revulsion   were exhausted

    turned itself off

Nice  we don suffer recurring dreams

You still think them dreams

Theyre always dreams

Ifya say

    AnIdo

 

Iodine

    Clever

We are        

guess2330,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

1036,  Wednesday,  11  6. 25

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sodDYJRpQjY

his nose began to run muttered Fuckin hay fever thought hed given it the slip in his Thirties when he finally put the Midwest in his rearview mirror

                                    he was trying desperately to get a handkerchief out of the outside pocket stitched to the side of the canvas bag he slung over his shoulder but it was warpeddistended by four large nonfiction hardbound library books and cans of cat fud

    it wasnt playing nice

as a kid  itchyrheumy eyes  a flowing nose  the cotton handkerchiefs jammed in his back pockets were dismally inept  however within a weeknot much more they gave way to colourful bandannas his mother bought for him because he needed more area  more cloth

a fifth book was tucked in his armpit  leek greens tucked in the other

                                                                           if he happened to drive past himself hed have guessed Houdini

an Houdini wasnt getting out of those embracesFINALLYSTOPPED slipped the bag from his shoulder down onto the street

extracted the handkerchief

gratefully blew his leaking nose saved only from dripping on his tshirt by repeated strong sniffs

                                                                                                   cocaine sniffs

updeep from his asshole cocaine sniffs

AwmyGawd

               it felt so good to clear his head

the bag was so stuffed nothing shifted

got his thumb under the straps  hoisted it back onto his shoulder greens back in his armpit  he liberated the fifth Wounded  Percival Everett  began reading again as he walked

                                                                         hopefully Houdini wouldnt reemerge

he was really relating to diggin Wounded   he didnt want to be interrupted

1330,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

1916,  Tuesday

she smiledlaughed   tapered out to a chuckle a coo

                                                           I learned a word the other day, from a book, Fearless Speech, Mary Anne Franks, about the First Amendment, right up your alley, you’ll have to read it when I’ve finished it, you’ll agree, it describes you to a T.

It kinda sounds sexualwhich . . is why I think you’ll appreciate it, in addition to its meaning.

You think of me sexually

                               it was his turn to laugh

    Whas the word

Parrhesia.  You’re a parrhesiast.

GULP

Stop it.

May have swallowed my tongue

                                        Meaning . . .

Parrhesia. It's speech characterized by frank, fearless, truth-telling, even if personally risky or dangerous. To speak openly, honestly, often to authority, without regard or fear of consequence.

    Why  thank you

You’re welcome.

When do you expect youll finish the book

Probably in your hands tomorrow if you can keep them off me this evening.

    You woudnt want tha

No.

      Day after tomorrow.

page 58

           “. . . when assessments of the value and harm of speech are made with a white male subject in mind, the result is that speech valued by white men but harmful to women and minorities is likely to be characterized as protected speech, whereas speech that diverges from the interest of white men tends to be classified as an exception to First Amendment protection.”

page 86

           “The tech industry has accelerated and promoted violent white male supremacist rhetoric for its own ends. While the true religion of corporations is profit, not politics, indifference to the destruction wrought by the ruthless pursuit of self-interest is the very definition of recklessness. In its colonization and commodification of free speech, the tech industry unites corporate recklessness with individual recklessness.”                        

page 88

           “What accounts for the tech industry’s continued insouciance even as the social and human cost of its central profit model, based on the euphemism of ‘engagement,’ have become undeniable clear? It is now public knowledge that social media and other telecommunications platforms contribute to genocide, suicides, mass shootings, international and domestic terrorism, public health crises, insurrections, election interference, sexual exploitation, reputational ruin, psychological trauma, and misinformation on an unprecedented scale – and yet, tech industry not only survives but thrives.”

early June, 2025

1330,  Saturday,  7  6. 25

1350,  Monday,  9  6. 25

1144,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

Immersive?

Bet your sweet ass

                     Why wouldnt one be

Because, don’t you think there’s more than nuance, splitting things into fine, discrete, what do I want to say?    Matter.

You answered your question

her expression puzzled  it looked awfully good on her

                                                          How?

Because it matters

                        Matters to me

Ill admit Im granular

But not . . . what do I want to say?  confusion smiled in her face  amazing dimples

Not geometry  geometrical

                              I wont be writing any tractuses  proofs   systematic analyses

OhHellno, that’d be unlike you.

                                  You’re at a pane of broken glass, scattered, picking up a piece here a piece there, same substance, but incongruous, edges don’t match, no interlocking, no rhyme no reason.

But one Immersive

                       I imagine a sphere of matter suspended agitatedmixed into clear batter

A bubble

I am its volume

I am the skin that contains it

Volume  Four over three pi radius cubed

Skin  Area  Four pi radius squared

I understand thas the math

    You have math to describe your immersiveness.

Howbouttha

she grabbed his face one hand puckering his mouth    kissed him hard split his lip

    not that he minded

1747,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

1050,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

drove him nuts

                  You do  know

I don’t.

Yado

Why is it you think you can tell me what I know or don’t know?

If you told me you didn't know, I would accept the fact you don’t. I wouldn’t try to push you around.

    I.  Don’t.  Know.

Frankly   You do

                   An I say that because for some reason you discount you refuse to take into account  relate  the totality of your life experiences

    Ya live under a rock

Don’t be ridiculous.

Word Id enthusiastically use for you

                                       When you insist ignoranceanya do to make nice so people will think Oh, how nice is he? youll stand on your head not to ruffle feathers which are in serious fuckinneed of violent ruffling   I know  Because otherwise youd be dead

I knowI remember youve had life experiences that can be applied practically to circumstances despite not having been confronted before  exactly

You sweat the exact of the situation

the whole while he was shaking his head no

                                        You don’t know what you’re talking aboutso full of shit. If I laid that to you you’d pull Wittgenstein’s Whereof thereof out of your sleeve.

No no no Wittgenstein insists with his remark that one knows nothing hasnt a clue  when in fact you do

You have known something similar  If not very similar

Frankly Im gobsmacked by how you readily you discount yourself ya  minimise   yourself

    No  Actually I do

                         Mister Nice Guy

1747,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

0930,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

Alice Cooper  No More Mr. Nice Guy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPhgKNmBFCo