So if I may  Wanda found your discussion with her   grounding

Look at you.

               Grounding.

I listen I learn

You do. You are a good listener don’t get out over your skis.

Whenever I have I have faceplanted

                                      Not  good  grounding

And your humor, always welcomed.

Thank you

You’re welcome.

                    Wanda was completely enthusedterribly grateful for my words. That’s when she asked me if I was a professional empath.

Tha blows my mind

Have to admit, caught me flatfooted too.

Anso

And so what?

Did you exchange information a new friend

No. Unfortunately.

                    A friend of hers came up behind her, tapped her on the shoulder, she turned, I had elsewhere I had to be.

I tapped her, maybe I’ll see you later. There was a dayanahalf left to the festival.

A swing and a miss

Yes. Unfortunately.

You can say tha again

How so?

If you were on your toes you shoud have asked for her address  Ill mail you my bill

                                                                                        Paid empath

You need to have personal cards made up 

Like Grampa did

Grampa did?

Yah  In font smaller than his name telephone number address his expertises

she grinned

              Grampa had expertises?

I believeif I recall correctly sixseveneight

                                           Yah

Can you remember them?

One

    One of say . seven?

Yah

 

    And?

Converted virgins

Jesus Dad

I thought clever

Can see where your humor came from.

Your grandfather  Hes a funny guy  

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he called his dad to catchup

                               So howya doin

I’ll tell you, son always called him son  not by his name . . . I haven’t fallen in a while.

Knock on wood

                     Out of doors  On the grass   Dogs underfoot           

Yes. Outdoors. I’m up then I’m down.

                                           Not the dogs.

You feel yourself goin an fall according to your training

    To my training?

As a paratrooper

Oh my.  I haven’t given that any thought.

Makes sense

Now that I’m thinking of it.  It does.

Yah Thirty jumps all your prior training to land correctly so you didnt hurt yourself

                                                                                        Best of my recollection of your telling  yadidnt

No. I didn’t.

              You may have something there.

You may have something there Dad

chuckled

            Sometimes I feel myself going and I’m able to stumble to the fence and catch myself.

he laughed

              Picture this with me if you woud

What you have in mind?

Youre stumbling towards the fence

    Yes?

The fence isnt there You stumble through your neighbours yards

    It’d be a long walk back.

Exactly  exactly wha I was thinking

                                          cracked them up

 

I wanted to call an thank you for your letter the enclosed Tribune articles Thank you

You’re welcome.

I also wanted to ask you something

What’s that?

You remember Maw talkinbout gettin clobbered in the back of the head  She turned  No one was there

I do.

Do you remember where you were

Where  we  were.

                        No.

I can’t say that I do.

Was it possibly Sedona

Sedona.

            Probably was, all the cousins were getting poked, clobbered as you say.

From behind

Yes. Behind.

 

    I have an idea

Yes.

Regarding youre falling

Yes.

Say youre getting shoved from behindnot  falling down

his father roared

his laughter infectious

he joined in

               goodness

they had a good long laugh together

    a couple of funny guys

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In Sedona

Yes.

At the stupa

Yes.

The colourful Tibetan prayer flags strung together

Yes.

Wha do they signify

    Really?  Again?

Yah

       Im a draghuh

No. No not necessarily.

                              They represent what you’ve had trouble all your life summonsing.

    That’s a hint, Dad.

Jesus baby I strike you as a Sherlock a private dick  able to take a hint

                                                                              Methinks not

Methinks?

               We’re treading some awfully deep water.

Deep

         And black

Awright awright. The flags at the stupa signify, hold onto your hat, compassi . .

. . Thas it

           Cant ever seem to remember tha

   For some reason.

Don taunt me

For some reason your troubled sense ofNo . . not troubled no sense of compassion.

                                                                                      You drive a hard bargain.

Blame your grandmother  Got tha from her

                                                  Compassion earned not doled out

Doled?

Yah

        Your compassion your empathy your mother

Curious wha we learn or do not learn from our parents

Compassion unrecognisedno way coud ever have setup housekeeping inside me

I have a wordwords for it

A word, words?

                    For your lack of it?

Yah

You’re killin’ me all ears.

Playin a sap

    A sap?    I think I know. Want to clarify?

Gullible

Easily swayed by sentimentality  Overly emotional  Naïve

Someone not sensible not strongwilled

    Foolish

Took you a bit to get ‘round to that. Had to bite your tongue.

he stuck his tongue out at her

                                 Ah I leed ing

No.  Your tongue’s not bleeding funny guy.

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Wanda asked me if I was a professional.

Sorryscuse me   A step back

                                 Wanda

I didn’t say her name was Wanda?

Id remember Not a common name if it is Ive not heard it often Ive met only one Wanda in my life

    You don’t watch porn?

almostalmost  took a breath

                              Thas a leap

Lotsa porn Wandas, Dad.

I did not know tha

Now you do.

Now Ill never forget

                       Acidetched in my brain

I didnt mean to interrupt

                              If you were a professional wha

Asked me if I was a professional empath.

An empath can be professional I thought tha was someone who empathises with others

Evidently people make money being empathetic.

No Shit   Didnt know tha

                              I imagine you thanked heryou werehad to be  somewha flattered

I was.

Anya are empathetic

You think so?

Know so

           Youve worked hard at becoming who you are You connect deeply with others however not at your expense

You have strong selfcare youre able to set boundaries you protect your emotional wellbeing

Ohmy.

        That means a lot coming from you.

he smiled

            Anya understand thas from your mother not me 

she laughed

              Says the guy who declares at every opportunity or whenever pushed, your compassion is hard won.

    You know me so well

Being empathetic you can tell me I can only assume  it can be difficultdangerous  Id say  absorbing others emotional energies experiencing both their positive an negative feelings

Dad.  That was a mouthful.

It was wasnt it

                   Am I accurate

Yes.  she gazed at him

                           You certainly have your moments.

he nodded

             I have moments

But theyre only moments

You should give yourself more credit.

I prefer humble

You?

he laughedhowled

                        I try like a motherfucker

Oh man, I walk into that?

Fraid ya did

               Were wanderin  Wanda

Yes.

       I told her I wasn’t.

She told me I ought to be. Then she told me she was a psychic medium. She said when I shared with her about Aniela that Aniela has total love for me, surrounds me, holds me in pure love, that I should know that, that I should never doubt that, she said anyone who says otherwise has no idea what they are talking about, they’re trying to hurt me for whatever their reason is.

You have been confirmed again

                                  An without pursuing it  Unsolicited

I like your yoga festival Wanda

    Shes not a porn star right

JEEZ.                                                                               

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Kendrick Lamar  Humble  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tvTRZJ-4EyI

. . . skinwalke . .

. . Sssh, you know you’re not supposed to say that out loud.

Because I would be summonsin . .

. . Sssh. Please.  Film scared the shit out of me.

You’re freakin’ me out a bit.

                               It was only a movie.

To you, to you maybe. I call it something else.

    Yee naaldlooshii?

What?

The film enthused me. My sister studied Native American culture, First People, in college, and collected a wide array of books. From one of the books, in Navajo culture, yee naaldlooshii is a harmful witch who has the ability to shapechange, possess, to disguise themselves as an animal.

It means “by means of it, it goes on all fours.”

rolling her eyes  Great.

Doesn’t that help?

No.

        If I have reason, and very rarely, to have to talk about it, it, I call it a flesh pedestrian.

she hadnt taken a breath   Flesh.   Pedestrian.

    Yes.

That’s original.   I have to hand it to you.

That way I can’t, it’s impossible, I can’t possibly summons it.

    Summons it. she rubbed the outside corner of her eye with her index finger   Summons.

Yes.

You’re a bit of a freak, you know that?

Maybe.    Maybe.

                     But I’m alive . . . and I’m not followed, not pursued.

Can’t say the same for you.

OhJesus.

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after beating him with the blunt object asana  she rocked him with a healthynear exquisite rightcross  grounding

            You remember how Aniela would do that?

When she went barefoot

Yes. I didn’t understand then why.

                                     We’d be walking and suddenly she’d pull up, stop, not say a word, take off her shoes, and we’d start walking again.

She didn’t say she was grounding.

I remember

She remembered that you told her when you were a kid, a teenager, you’d walk around, she said everywhere, barefooted.

I did A couplethree years during the summer  A high school kid

That’s what she said.

But I was only walkin barefooted  Barefooted

                                                 I wasnt grounding

    Or . or maybe . . maybejust maybe . . . . you were.

Thas a stretch baby

Or maybe not. Aniela believed, was convinced you were, though ignorant you were.

    Ignorant Yah   Im tha

                             Im confident Im more ignorant than not

I'd agree.

           Then there’s all those things you’re an absolute pain in the ass about. I can’t keep up with you and you just keep on keepin’ on.

Passionately.

Yah But we all enjoy things tha excite us incite us are accelerants

Accelerants.

                I like that, can I use it?                                                                                

Knock yourself out

                    I don own it didnt coin it

Anyone ever say that to you?

Not to me no

Maybe?

Who knows

               Make sense though

    I think you may own it.

If I do I didnt patent it  Run with it

I intend to.

So  your grounding experience was good

Yes. I thought of Aniela the whole time.

                                          It was like we were walking together

It was wonderful, a bittersweet treat.

Im a little jealous babe  Though very happy to hear

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grounding  https://www.therapistaid.com/therapy-article/grounding-techniques-article 

Flow he asked

                 they were talking on the phone

Yes.

I donknow it

Flow?

Yah

     I don do yoga

You did she laughed

                             Once

An hurt myselfwell forego tha

she laughed louder   longer

 

 

    Content

stifling it took the phone from her face

                                                That was too fun.

Youre welcome

Thank you ohmy I’ve tears in my eyes.

Youre welcome

                          Flow

she cleared her throat

                     Flow. Flow refers to the smooth, continuous movement from one pose, that’s called an asana, spelt A  S  A  N  A, movement from one pose to the next. It’s often coordinated with a breath, breathing, creating a unified flowing practice, connecting the body, mind, with breath.

A  S  A  N  A

Yes.

Flow

Yes.

    Not ooze

spritely  Gush.

OH thawas excellent kiddo  excellent

Thank you. I’m a little proud.

Clever

I thought so.

                I also think the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.

I may have blushed

Damn.

         Have to teach you how to do FaceTime so the next time I can see.

    Thall be a cold day in hell

One can always hope.

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buddy was going on and on and on

                                     had to cut him off ruthlessly

I thought you werent churchybrayin like you are

I’m not brayi . .

. . Then youre not listenin to yourselfsoundin like an ass whos backed into a barbedwire fence got his nuts in a twist

Jesus, how you talk.

Then yaint been listenin Im tellin ya on an on

                                                 Your point

That it was . . . was . .

. . Something else

    That’s too mild.

Too mild

Yes.

Balls in your court Put something on it

    You’re gonna think I’m nuts.

Define it well find out

I think . .

. . Think  guess  believe

    I think . . . I believe.

Sound a little tormented

Yeah.  Because I don’t normally talk this way.

You do not

            Spit it out youll feel better for it

Awright. Awright.

    Awright

Yeah.

        Id say . . . miraculous

Wow

 

    That’s all ya got

I got  howbout

                         Awfully fuckin lucky                                                    

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Jefferson Airplane  Sunrise  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=udr8ET-joZ0

a friend had hernia surgery

since hes not suffered a hernia and understands that in order to have one one would have had to obviously strained

         Wha didya do

I have no idea. I felt a swelling, could see it, decided to have a doctor check it out.

    No idea

None.

Ive an idea

    You have an idea why I had a hernia?

I do

This ought to be choice. What ya got?

Id say you were too enthusiastically tuggin your dick

Jesus.

   No

No.

Hmmm

                Anya cant lift more than ten pounds for six weeks

That’s what the surgeon said, that’s what the nurse said as she wheeled me out to the car when you picked me up.

Sorry man  better you than me

Why do you say that?not very nic . . .  grimacedpressed the surgery site with his wrist

Ya okay

nodded  lips  thin white lines  A zinger.

Gotcha

Whew whoo.

Your bodys suffered trauma

                               You can be as cerebral as ya want but your bodys gonna tell ya wha it needs anya fuckin don provide tha  don care for it as it needs . . . 

I know ya know

I know. I do. I don’t need a lecture.

    Better you than me

What's that supposed to mean?

Ten pounds

Yeah.

    Id be screwed

                             I woudnt be able to lift my dick to take a leak

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