thoughts unthoughts

butts

burned

ignored

tag time

with acrid incense

smoke dribbles up

in fine threads

                 fan rib weaved

fabric stretched thin

embraced engulfed

                       emptied in space

   and thoughts

unthoughts                                                            

like wheat  raked  chafed

hand hurled

kernels dance

spin pointy-toed

                   and collapse

sapped

wait

patient

            shrug

resuscitated

thoughts

unthoughts

                      again?

Saturday morning in the bath tub,  19  3. 11

1241,  Thursday – Halloween,  31  10 . 24

he went outside to take a leak a bird lighted on the fence

                                                                 WHY

leak in the toilet

                 leave the porcelain throne for bowel movements

                                                                     HELL

he had a favourite pear tree limb to hold stabilise himself while vomiting

he ceded the outdoors all sorts of moist organic pleasures

happy happy lawn trees insects  weeds

                                               as he leaked he watched the marine layer come across the western hills the ocean not ten miles off a hazy gauzy ribboned apparition sleuthing under the blue skys belly like lazy sugarsyrup

a tendril turned towards him

                                  crept

                                                  creeped him out  a bit

at its bow

           an ephemeral gimleteyed figurehead fixated with him  stared watched him

he buttonedup his pants

kept an eye on her

                         Well friend   You enjoy

she flattened  spread 

                       felt her cool breath caress his face   only answer that could suffice

Headin in baby  I appreciated your attention your affection

Christ, where yabeen?

                        I missed my shot . been waiting on you.

Howdya miss tha dead on into the side

Don’t go there.

                      That was some kind of world record piss, friend.

I wasnt just takin a leak I had fans feminine eyes  On the fence a cedar wax-wing ogled me while the marine layer snuckup to join her  takin looks

                                  Who was I to denyem

    What the hell are you talking about?

I told ya

My shot

 

he ran the table

0104,  Sunday,  13  10. 24

1126,  Thursday,  31  10. 24

speaking to power

if we choose to be apathetic 

                               choose not to vote

quoting Michelle Obama

                           . . . our absence does not make those in charge hear us any better, instead, our absence is taken as our consent, they take our indifference as part of their mandate to do whatever they want.   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KK6G06JJf4Y

1700,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  10. 24

1012,  Thursday,  31  10. 24

https://www.msnbc.com/opinion/msnbc-opinion/trump-backing-billionaires-enabling-white-supremacy-rcna174186?cid=eml_mda_20241031&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

He looks like one of the kids I had in school.

No no no no

             Don say tha

Don’t say what?

Whaya just said

                  Have you forgotten youve already admitted to me that you hit it off real well  at court with a man accused of child pornography yasaid a pleasant tenfifteen minute conversation didnt say whaya talked about only tha he was welldressed then not a year ago some obviously disturbed man walking his bicycle screamed at you calledya a sexual predator You had to confront him

                                             Now

He looks like one of the kids I had in school

Had

In

School

Stop it, you know what I mean.

    Do I

           Child pornography predator paedophile  An uncomfortable alliteration

Would you quit?

Got a coin

What do you mean, got a coin?

Coppin Does she . . . or doesnt she haircolouring commercial

What are you talking about.

Is he or aint he

                Lets flip a coin find if you are or ifya aint

You’re ridiculous.

I got coins in the car lemme go get one

                                         Id assume a quarter but I do have a hafdollar  I think the haf woudbe ideal to flip uncoverperhaps your suppressed deepseated sexual desires

Would you stop?

Hey you told me when a women says stop she doesnt truly mean it

Stop.

    Cuttin to close to the bone

                               Er Gawd he loved fuckin with him  With your teaching credentials you coudbe a sexual predator instructor

Off the top of your head name a couple of the classes wha prerequisites

1530,  Saturday,  12  10. 24

1424,  day-between-2-T’s,  30  10. 24

Clairol  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Be9MREGx7NM & https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSAeVMSCdMc

Sharon and Brendon werent married

Brendon was well-heeled

                            he could afford Sharon

he liked them both

                     Brendon was generous he brought Don Julio 1942 Anejo for poolside Margaritas

If you don mind may I have a side of Don Julio with my beer

Help yourself, Joe, there’s plenty, I brought two bottle.

Two

I figured we’d be thirsty.

they were five

                and they  he was late  were waaay ahead of him

Margaritas and marijuana

                            Sharon had an awesome connexion  no storefront cannabis shop for her

I’ve known him since before things were legalised.

                                                     she turned to him  Joe. Remember last year, the hashish?

You kiddin me so damn good it shoud have erased my memory of it

they laughed

That was his.

Well lemme know if you choose to venture tha avenue again  Im in

You’re not in, I’d gift you.

I coudnt

You could, though you’d have to do nasty things to me.

    I coud do tha

Hold it hold on Butch interrupted you’re Brendon’s gir. .

. . I’m my girl. I do as I please.

                                  I don’t ask permission.

Butch turned to Brendon

I’ve no claim no purchase, she’s her own woman.

But I thoug . .

. . Lemme interrupt Chivalry aint dead  Huge assumption Butch

                                                                      Its impolite to ask a woman where her money comes from

Sharon nodded Thank you, Joe.

Youre welcome

                        Wha ah  nasty things did you have in mind

1530,  Saturday,  12  10. 24

111preferred,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  10. 24

they were out back  they were waaay ahead of him

                                              Ya need to catch up!

Its two  Whatime ya start 

the four

         eyes like peeholes in the snow  shrugged

Lemme rephrase  ask

                         You had breakfast first 

the four nodded

                 damn near in unison

Butch texted me had to share a picture of your Muleskinner as he likes to call it  breakfast Thawas shortly after ten

Ingest  Fifteentwenty minutes

                                    Gettin stoned by Eleven

Butch  Sounsbout right

Im not catchinup

                   Ill have a five MG gummy

Connie  No no no nuh nuh . . . No. Ten. Maybe ten an a kicker.

Five with a beer

No no nuh . . . . have a margarita.

                                     There’s a huge pitcher in the fridge.

Beers fine thank you

Sharon and Brendon sat mute sat smiling

Butch  We just fired up a bowl he leaned forward to hand it to him care for a hit?

No thanks Edibles in the cabinet usual spot

Yeah.

Ill be right out

               Anyone need their drink refreshed  a beer

they nodded and said No

hed let them sort that out

                            Right back

 

Butch Whatime please

Butch looked at his everpresent host he was its parasite

                                                              Two.      Thirtynine.

Its actually twoforty yah

I don’t like even numbers.

But it is   Correct

    Yeah.

Thank you

             could feel his high coming on

Connie refilled fired up a bowl  toked  handed it to Butch  toked  to Brendon  toked  to Sharon toked  Sharon leaned forward to hand it to him  Sharon had a admirable rack  she leaned more forward  nice aureoles too

                                                                                                           Here.

No thanks Sharon

    Oh.

         she leaned back

he enjoyed a nice frisson

Connie had interrupted herself to pack fire the bowl but continued talking about a new/used bookstoreshe insisted he had to go to

             He, John, the owner, started it up after he lost his wife.

he asked He misplace her

Huh?

Misplace her

               Shell probably be in the last place he looks

Huh?

       then nodding her head  No no nuh nuh nuh they hadnt worked that out she’s dead. 

John started up the bookstore after his wife died

    Yes. Yes.

Anwhy do I need to go to this bookstore that John began after he lost his wife

she took the bowl from Sharon

                                 Because  lit the lighter  because you are wise.  took a deep hit

Oh Connie please

                    Ya tryin to blow smoke up my ass

1450,  Saturday,  12  10. 24

1147,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  10. 24

chewing the fat

the disgust was evident Why would you say something like that?

Screw your sneer  Because its true

                                     Had more children flunked a grade teacher tells the childs parents I’m keeping them back for their own good

Id have told the kid

                     Youre be back in Third again next Fall A year older than all your classmates

Im tellingya flunking incentivised me

                                         I wasnt a good studenthad to work my ass off  but motherfucker if I was going to be left behind Thadbe a cold day in Hell

But you must understand . .

. . No I don

            I helped counseled kids in junior high to think about classes they would enter as freshman I saw from their transcripts that almost forty percent werent reading at grade level I asked an administrator if these kids were being promoted would they receive help at the high school to bolster their reading I was told there was a remedial program but only twentyfive percentall they had time for twentyfive percent of the children who performed worst

I was gobsmacked

                       So  you understand

I hear you. What I’m saying is children who would be faile . .

. . Flunked

It isn’t necessary to split hairs over wor . .

. . It is

        Everyone fails at something    Flunked Not a euphemism

Whatever.

    What I’m saying is . . is that you’re not taking into account their self-esteem.

Which is why I said

                      Self-esteem  Ya either got it or ya don

Its a driver

            If I didnt value myself as I did as a boywhen I was struggling I coud have thrown my hands up said Don matter Ill be promoted

Can you imagine years later the coddled has a kid and the kid says to their father Would you help me read, please?and they cant  Daddy cant read

                               Healthy dose of self-esteem

1440,  Saturday,  12  10. 24

1030,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  11. 24

nonviable pregnancy

    he

         didnt know which was worse

attendingcaring for his daughter 40 years old  as she died from ALS inside a year

                                                                                         or

a woman forcedher husband forced to carry a nonviable pregnancy to term their baby their son  Milo  dying within ninetynine minutes of being born

https://www.msnbc.com/katie-phang/watch/woman-forced-to-carry-nonviable-pregnancy-to-full-term-under-restrictive-fl-law-182906437914

    Republican Supremes made a fuckedup decision  

1742,  2sday,  29  10. 24

Oh honey! Stop!

                  Did you step in something bring it into the house?

Did I Mommie?

Did you wipe off your shoes before coming in?

he looked sheepish

                      No, no I didn’t.

Alright. Here. she held her hand out to him led him back outside from the kitchen Where were you playing, in the garden?

Yes, Mommie.

Okay. We’ll sit at the picnic table. Would you get a stick for me.

Yes, Mommie.

he returned with a green stick

Sit. Take off your shoes.

he pulled the bows free he had only learn three weeks earlier to tie his shoes lifting his footturning his knee out to put his ankle on his knee  Oooh, that smells.immediately put his foot back down on the grass.

                                                                                              It stinks, Mommie.

You can smell it now.

Yes.

    suppressing a smile  Okay.  Unlace your shoes a bit an slip them off.

the stink incentivised himhe did it quickly

she broke the stick handed him half

                                       We’ll do this together. Watch me . .

. . Do I have to?

I told you to stay out of the garden.    Yes.  You have to.

she slipped her hand inside his shoe and held it up

he did likewise

turning her wristturning the shoe over in the treads the sole the heel wet stinky turds

he did likewise and retched

Don’t breathe through your nose.

retched again tears in his eyes

                                  Okay, okay Mommie.

Now dig it out. she showed him And wipe the stick off on the catalpa leaves. she said as she dug a heel out Like this.

he mirrored her

                    Is it poop?

Yes, honey.

Doggie poop?

No no. it was It’s things called Ivan Raiklin Sid Rosenberg David Rem Grant Cardone Tucker Carlson an another we do not pronounce.

Repeat after me. making it a game for her son I. R.

I. R.

S. R.

S. R.

D. R.

D. R.

G. C.

G. C.

T. C.

T. C.

      And  she made a terrible facestuck her tongue out like a Maorian warrior  growl AWWWW.

he made a face stuck out his tongue and AWWWWed

AWWWW.

AWWWW.

AWWWW.

AWWWW.

               they laughed

and continued to dig the turds out of his shoes

Now.  Please.    Stay out of the garden, honey.

Yes, Mommie.

                Thank you for helping me.

You’re welcome, beautiful boy.

Sunday,  27  10. 24

1507,  2sday,  29  10. 24

ex-president  https://newrepublic.com/post/187578/donald-trump-first-call-election-fraud-conspiracies

Ivan Raiklin  https://newrepublic.com/post/187566/donald-trump-ally-cheat-electors-north-carolina

Sid Rosenberg  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6B7AhB2DfDg

David Rem  https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/us-politics/trump-rally-david-rem-msg-b2636545.html

Grant Cardone  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WMwVQNLy3jU

Tucker Carlson  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bq2Fje4rH_c

Sunday,  27  10. 24  https://www.nytimes.com/2024/10/27/us/trump-msg-rally.html

John Lennon  Beautiful Boy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HB5KwxPwQj8

Jon Stewart  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cOLqSUK0eBM&t=4s

My my my my  my  to himself

his mites listening  his mariachi

                                    Whas with his recitation  alliteration

Hes pondering AIs prima donnas

AI  Youll have to help me out

He knows  You know

                                        Think

Yaknow I don like to work tha hard

I told you  think

Awright   AI  Prima donnas

                                                  Theyd be Alexa Siri Google Assistantwhich is too long  Think chortled  Im shortenin it to Sweet Ass

shook their head Really   Sweet Ass

Doncha  think   Sure  Wouldnt interplay be more enticing Sweet Ass  Can pussies eat chicken skin an she part of the all-girl voice band would reply Yes. Although I recommend it be cooked thoroughly to avoid risk of salmonella contamination.

                             Why thank you Sweet Ass

You’re welcome.

My  Gawd youre as ridiculous as he

Kinda runs in the family  we heshes shehes all

                                                                         Though not to sayobviously fiftyfifty  My tendency leans male despite being shehe

My my my

                I hope he makes up his mind  Feelin a bit like a bitch chasing her tail

he was highthey were high

                              but he had sense enough not to enter into the fray they were discussing their adulation of their machines

Butch had Alexa 

Connie  Siri

he didnt and wouldnt

                        either machine listened to them eavesdropped  and he was concerned about who else might be listening this was the like that shit that whistleblower Edward Snowden exposed and had to flee the country

now they let that invited it into their homes because like vampires  it has to be welcomed in their host  compliant

he wasnt going to breathe a word

                                    sidestepped any involvement  pleaded ignorance

I know nothing about it an since I don it woud be inappropriate for me to say  Wittgenstein

Butch  He pulls that a lot.  sneered Wittgenstein.

Connie  What’s that?

Tell her, I’ve shortened it to whereof thereof.

Whereof one cannot speak thereof one must remain silent

                                                            the while thinking Butch and Connie were crazy

their conversation tiltedtipped to the possibility of their machines its AI its algorithms to provide psychiatricNah nah psychological advice   Make valid assessments

My my  my  Whadafuck

                            Apparently mindfulness doesnt cut it

 

1431,  Saturday,  12  10. 24

1219,  2sday,  29  10. 24

https://aeon.co/essays/mental-health-campaigns-are-no-substitute-for-well-funded-care

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2013/jun/09/edward-snowden-nsa-whistleblower-surveillance

https://intelligence.house.gov/uploadedfiles/snowden_report_highlights.pdf

Here, give me your pen, I’ll show you.

Ohno not another Venn diagram

You said it right.  he took the clipboard and pen from the table between them  Remember? Last time you called it a Zen diagram.

Yah Sometimes my brain beats me to my mouth tries to be clever

                                                                      Most Venns you draw arent Zenish  Heres hopin

as buddy drew he asked

                           Yadidnt say where you came down  Bump or rub

I think I did.

Yadidnt

I’m trying to do this drawin . .

. . An he cant do two things at once

                                      Binary  Either or

It’s never either or . . not in the big scheme of things.

Youre not speaking for the world as you always assume yourself to do Im asking you Speak for yourself  Bump  Rub

I’ll show you in a moment.

Now

Christ.  Bump.

Really

Youll see

Id rub

       Its deliberate  Otherwise  determinatively accidental    Aint scorin no points no how

Here. Look.  turned the clipboard to him

   Wrong

           Made the bump up larger an why oval or is the circle tilted looked at on angle

What?

Look  You drew it

                    Rub up is smaller an more closely approximates a circle theyre difficult to draw but given all the Venns youve drawn to explain something Id think you have it damn near perfected

An the area you crosshatched between them the intersection is obvious Why  Anwhy label it sexual interface  Between a bump an a rub there is no merger

Bump instantaneous  Not sexual

                                    Unless it were a crash but then it would have been called a crash not a bump

A rub Active  Definitely sexual

If you’d shaddup.

Its the worse Venn youve ever drawn were haughty maybe just maybe gettin too big for your britches

Shaddup. he took back the clipboard folded the sheet of paper over the top and began drawing again Don’t talk to me.

whispered Cant do two things at once

                                           Never find yourself in the middle of a menage a trois

     

1313,  Monday,  16  9. 24

1129,  Monday,  28  10. 24

last night during the Republican hate rally in New Yorks Madison Square Garden

under the guise of comedy Tony Hichcliffe is not funny he told of a floating island of garbage in the middle of the ocean  “I think it’s called Puerto Rico.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bBXiXqRlQMY

however he had permission

in their enduring childs game of Follow the Leader the ex-president promotes and amplifies it

“(America’s) like a garbage can for the world.”

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/nhDAmHTx-zc

the ex-president created the permission structure that Republicans who know better have embraced

they are lathered  they are fearful  

they will lose

0946,  Moanday,  28  10. 24