I do

You do?

To quote my daughter Indeed

I didn’t.

No But unlike you to steep yourself in the dictionary dig up words

                                                                          Because   he liked to goad him

Because?

Twofold

         You have better things to do my little social butterfly anya don wanna work tha hard  Denyem

eyed him

           couldnt deny him

he bit his tongue

                  wanted badly to say Cat got your tongue but let it ride

Awright then. What does it mean?

Imprison for misprision

                         Deliberately concealing what one knows knowledge of a treasonable act or felony

Why the hell do you know that?

Ran into it again not two nights back while reading in bed before sleep Menands The Free World  A tome

                                                                                                                 Anxious to finish it so I can go onto his Metaphysical Club Sounds riotous doesnt it Won a Pulitzer  History

Whas with the face

Do you look for Pulitzer Prize winners or happen upon them?

I look

Why?

    Because Im curiousIm  more an more curiouser an curiouser

                                                                     An because in schoolgrade school beyond I didnt care for history  was so fucking dry  Mummy  Lackluster    No character

Now I know better

But by your own admission you weren’t a good student.

I was not not according to the way things were taught curriculum offered I was dried seasoned tinder an timber waiting to be firedgo off

                           Had to wait for myself to strike a match

Misprision. I like the word.

Looks like its spelt wrong . .

. . It does, doesn’t it?

Yah   

0630,  Thursday,  29  8. 24

1154,  Saturday,  7  9. 24

madman

Didnt know tha

admission of faith

but he didnt know a lot of things

                                   probably more than a lot a flat parcel  likely a fucking warehouse filled to the rafters

the more he learned the less he knew

                                       his young daughters laughedChrist he was happy he had girls

Oh Daddy, you’re funny. Did you hear, Mommie?

looking upshe was serious at a ceramic Mason Cash bowl making her awesome chocolate chunk coconut pistachio cookie batter pushed her glasses up her nose

                                                  I’m sorry, what?

Daddy’s funny.

she casually pointedjabbed with her thumb Him? He’s a riot.

Hey . .

. . Hay is for horses the four at once

shook his head  Theres not enough testosterone in this room

his wife laughed Yeahwell, that fell to you didn’t it?

You listening girls your mothers a real comedian

                                                     he crossed the kitchen

she giggled   Stay put. threatened him with a wooden spoon

Put it down or Ill use it on your fanny

Daddy’s going to spank Mommie! they cried in unison

Don’t encourage him.

Spank Mommie, spank Mommie . . .

he disarmed her easily

                         when she began laughing she went weak

he wrapped an arm around her shoulders pinning her armsgrabbed a handful of ass and kissed her hard

                                                                                                               breaking it off Girls  Shall I kiss her good an proper  

Yes yes, their legs churning under the table  kiss her good and proper!

this is when she really lost her shitwent weak in the knees

                                                               he looked into her wide big beautiful brown eyes

Goodanpropers coming baby

she snortedmustered Not in front of the girls.

in front of the girls he gave her a deep satisfying French kiss

                                                                  somewhere off in the distance he heard his girls glee

said Roue as he read the dictionary  Noun

                                             A dissolute man in fashionable society  Im not tha  Synonyms  Blood profligate rake thas closer rakehell closer rip debauchee real close libertine rounder crushed it

Roue

Sounds so freakin innocent

I roue the day

                  to no one  Of course I know how to spell rue  Im playing here

he played often with his ignorance

wished he had a good police sketchartist he could describe it to and have them draw the suspect 

1005,  Saturday,  7  9. 24

Elton John  Madman Cross the Water  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nq4J_n6vMYo

he had an ear for Howbout dem apples

                                         heard himself say it at least once a dayusually inclined by actions of feral cats he cared for their eating habits stinginess mixing it up herding themYES Virginia there is a Santa Claus fivehunred word editorial byloves his middle name Francis Pharcelles Church if there were a religion practised in Pharcelles Church hed be tempted to attend honeycoloured interior blushed by flickering beeswax candles a kunstkammer cabinet of curiosities small phials purportedly containing saints blood shelves of hidebound texts porcelain urns holding human animal ashes the altar a mahoganyplanked picnic table long benches on either side

                                                                                               Bibleless

that might be asking too much

Howbout dem apples

    also reserved for womens breasts heartshaped asses

159preferred to 1359,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

0939,  Saturday,  7  9. 24

he doesnt have Premium Hulu so the media service owned by Disney Streaming a subsidiary of Walt Disney Corporation spinning in his grave interrupts with commercials commercial interruptions  no longer thirty second breaks

Vraylar

         drug advertisement “Ask your health professional . . .”

he tried to ignore itpicked up the book From One Cell he set aside to read duringBUT the absolute tsunami of side effects affected him

set the book down

                    “. . . the most common side effects . . . include: difficulty moving or slow movements, tremors, uncontrolled body movement, restlessness and feeling like you need to move around, sleepiness, nausea, vomiting, indigestion, constipation, feeling tired, trouble sleeping, increased appetite, and dizziness.”

the common ones

Googled it

suicidal ideation

Vraylar is an antipsychotic but also has an antidepressant effect

                                                                    BUT

quite the coin toss

                       maybe psychotic   or maybe lessdepressed 

took a deep breath

had known depression intimately

wasnt his

six years an ignored slave shout out 12 Years A Slave six desperate heartbreaking years  held things together with spit an spit

        baling wire never showed

her mental health professionals refused to communicate with her physicians Right to Privacy that privacy also legally excluded himkept him on the sidelines because she signed the instrument

    drugaddled signatures count

pharmacists became his greatest asset  more than once a possible adverse drug reactionOoops push drugs gold in dem der hills as long as the patient doesnt OD croak keep patients at the tit TILT TILT TILT  tunnelvision

now theres a term for what they achieved until they didnt  Pharmacovigilance

interruption ended

                    finally returning to Eileen “Love will make you crazy.” 

“Take a penny. Leave a penny.”

1714,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

1240,  Reggaefriday,  6  9. 24

Vraylar  https://dailymed.nlm.nih.gov/dailymed/medguide.cfm?setid=4b5f7c65-aa2d-452a-b3db-bc85c06ff12f#:~:text=The%20most%20common%20side%20effects,%2C%20increased%20appetite%2C%20and%20dizziness.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6297296/

. . . I remembe . .

. . Thas your problem

You gonna tell me what my problem is I love when people tell me my problem.

Steal my line Im due airquotes or youve thieved anaint nobody likes a thief

Ya pis . .

. . Language  Language

                          Really running the gambit this afternoon when yaoughta be giddy about your reunion tonight  an tomorrow night   an tomorrow

High schools not tha memorable

You must have had a shitty experience.

I did It was called school the curriculum did me no favours

                                                               Couldnt convince them I learned different

Thasaid  Most kids flourished

I got it

Sounds like some animosity.

No  Forged me

                 Me an Popeye  I yam wha I yam

But  your problem

Almost forgot.

You’d remind me.

I remember

             Whawas tha

    High school.

Thas your problem

                     Springsteen handled it taught a lesson  You didnt listen

I didn’t listen to Springsteen.

Should have chicks loved him

                                  Glory Days

Glory days/Well they’ll pass you by, glory days/In the wink of a young girl’s eye, glory day/glory days

Theyre behind you

    But I remember.

Your problem

No onenone of us are what we were

                                       Tha physical prowessif one was fortunate to possess  passes   Has passed

Your problem

But not yours.

No

You were an athlete.

    Were

            I was         

Hang your hat on a peg a memory an itll kick you in the teeth 

    

    An rightfully so   

1PM preferred,  2sday,  3  9. 24

1142,  Reggaefriday,  6  9. 24

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzHmunZxJeM

Springsteen  Glory Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nvUOgIgLqOQ

listening to National Security expert Frank Fugliuzzi on MSNBC discuss with Nicolle Wallace the Apalachee High School shooting that killed four two students two teachers and wounded others

he remarked that teens years are filled with angst and depression and anxiety

                                                                                   wondered if schools had Behavioural Assessment Teams Family Reconciliation ServicesWHA

                                                            he thought as Fugliuzzi spoke that if he were a teenager would behavioural assessment familial reconciliation Shooter drills effect him  YUP

                                                                                 No doubt

had a conversation with his mother once his father separately told them when he thinks back to growing up in their home if he had to do it all over again exactly as it happened he would in a heartbeat

                                                                                           exactly as it was

Im not blowing smoke up your ass

although theres a certain appeal to vapour up ones ass 

    . . . angst depression anxiety

                                     he searched his memory was unscathed

searched for a reason why

they didnt have much a roof over their heads food on the table clothes on their back

they enjoyed the necessities

                               anwhen you have what you need what could you want

not a fucking thing

its remained that way all his life

                                   need not want not

maybe maybe  todays kids are being sold a bill of Goods tha aint so good

                                                                                 towering inflated expectations

his kids are enjoying their lives

he and his wife got them there

he does not interact with children

Wittgensteins Whereof  Thereof

in fairness  to-date hes achieved his Ambition

                                                  to be happy

1451,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  9. 24

1010,  Reggaefriday,  6  9. 24

Bobby McFerrin  Don’t Worry Be Happy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1JC2QAOPhQ

Fantastic  he mimbled

                       cleared his throatsaid Dead tread on the roadside  Curled   Coiling

overhead pigeons on curved armatures of lampposts

black tortured tread left alone long

                                     transforms into serpents of queer tastesappetites

fed on busted deer raptor carcasses

                                      and lusted after the fun of tracking rare hitchhikers less rare easier last century  who never see it coming

                     camouflaged

tossed semi tire treadSURPRISE

                                    lungesleaps at their throatstwines their pathetic bodies

snaps their thumbs

unable to graspgrip 

defenceless

mauled

mawed

like a snake

digested

disregarded on the roadside

the really sickbastards thrive on highways near State Federal penitentiaries where there are roadsigns

                                  Do Not Pick Up Hitchhikers

 

dead treads couldnt have thoughtup fashioned better menus                                      

1230,  2sday,  3  9. 24

1341,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

they arranged to talk that evening

                                    

he couldnt waitwas going to blow her awaywas going to provoke her “thing” couldn’t waitwas giddy giggly

                                                                                                                 unbecoming a man

like he cared

               because he was anythingeverything he did was mannish

wasnt pansyish looking over his shoulder for masculine confirmation

                                                                          Hell

refused Church Confirmation

heard confirmation

heard conform 

                Right

Thad be a Cold day in Hell

disappointed his parents

                          What are we going to tell your aunts, uncles, your cousins?

Atheist would have been too brusque they may have taken him out into the backyard and stoned him with the stones they made him dig out of the ground for the garden

turned out Once Upon a Time the property was a creek bed  flowed out of the mountains

                                                                                             lots of large round blunt stones

scarred by picks shovels gooseneck irons

would have been ugly

                            Atheist talk could have provoked that

he said Im sure youll think of something

                                             Its not the first time Ive disappointed you

Or will be the last

he thought provocation was innately his

                                           just couldnt figure outthough leaned towards his mother who provided the genetic A C G T

Adenine

Cytosine

Guanine

Thymine

          wasnt a stupid boy

maybe too big for his britches as his grandmother said

Britches  how did she know britches she was from Poland

spoke brokenEnglish at best

hed get her flustered just to have her lose it to hear her strange native tongue

                                                                                 asif Latin Mass had anything on Polish

 

shed call theyd converse let her run awhile  she could run   hed interrupt

                                                                                Youll never guess so Ill tellya

You don’t even want me to guess?

Youd never guess

Awright. If you say.  I’m all ears.

I made a bumper sticker for the car

I never would have guessed.

                                 Since the election’s coming, something political?

Thawoud have been a savvy guess  No

Ill tellya

she laughed

               Must say, the suspense is killing me.

I have my moments

                      Sticker says said it asif he was Richard Dawson Family Feud Survey says

I Brake for Birds

 

Brake for birds?

Is that a thing there?

Hmm

         What do you tell me

Did you set me up?

  I didIm so fucking proud of myself

                                       Ifya think its a thing it probably is

Seriously Papa.   Are you braking for birds?

My bumper sticker says so

    I am They hustle out of the hedgerow along the busted road bugs running like Helllike it doesnt occur to them they have wings but  ya know whathey say

    No. What do they say?

I havent a clue Thought youd know

Really?

Push comes to shove  Birds of a feather

                                          Or

Birdbrain

I can’t believe you set me up.

Your old mans still got tricks up his sleeve

                                              Really really huge shirts small hookers

1409,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  9. 24

1213,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

Richard Dawson  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_Nvud4-cpU

his daughter suggested again

                                 . . . please take her to lunch . . please.   maybe a third please would have made it sound like a suggestion if if take  was also dropped

he heard take her to lunch

typically wasnt one to please

                              cut against his grain

he took her

an Irish pub his daughter recommended didnt tell him to take her there  tell he was irritated

she was a goodlooking woman 

a girl college sophomore  is a woman

paradoxically

                his daughter a junior was a girl   paradox  made him laugh

a goodlooking woman

her name didnt stick

not until he saw her

then it hustled back as she called him Dad  Valarie

                                                       maybe the two As

never Val shed spit  he asked if ever    she spit

                                                    he did like that about her

was no nonsense liked that too

he could suppose there was a lot to like but she was his daughters buddy

they both chose Shepherds pie it was lamb

two double Jameson

two Guinness poured proper

like he took himself to lunch

halfway through the pies a second Jameson Valarie said brassballs

                                                                       I’m wondering . what it might be like to . . . sleep . with a friend’s father.

he eyed her hard

                   By your expression  suggests youre pondering

I am. You’re observant.

I am

What do you think?

I think lose the baggage

Hmm.  Baggage?

Friend Father  Think guy

                               Also woud suggest sex to sleep

she chuckled  So you suggest I rephrase what I’m pondering.

What do you come up with

What it might be like to have sex with a guy.

Atta grrl  Simple

                        he tookup his whiskey held it towards her  Slàinte Mhaith 

she grasped her  Yes.

they tapped glass loved the ring of lead crystal

                                               each a good sipanswallow

There is another thing to ponder

Is there?

You willing to settle

Settle?

Seems you are

Are you going to let me in on this other thing?

I am

she smiled very seductively

he could have fucked her face in that moment

                                             I am

Tell me. The suspense is killing me.

Is he interested in having sex with you

Are you kidding me? Look. I’m young, attractive.

                                                           I have a great body.

Remains to be seen

Its a twoway street baby

2300ish,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  9. 24

1006,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

happened yesterday

usually he crawled all over that before he could draw another breath

                                                                          but

he sat on his hands  was rocked on his heels

perhaps  exhibited some discernment

                                         not a strong suitnot that anyone would know him

not thatthat would bother him

thickskinned

              credit to his MawHell credit also to Maxs Gym  boxing

Happened  again   yesterday

Old

Grievous

Ought to bitchslap they cant take a punch a lot of fucking politicians

                                                                       I hold the families in my thoughts and prayers

though not one holds a candle to Ex

                                      “We have to get over it.”  get over it  had the shooter fired at his torsoOver It

Apalachee

horrible to think 

but on occasion he thought horribly

school shooting

horrific equaliser

   parenting

             Makes white parentssingle white parents sit down with their children and have the talk that black parentssingle black parents have had  particularly  with their sons    have been for more than onehunred years

had to get that off his chest

did not sleep well last night

1439,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  9. 24

1102,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

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Mike Johnson  https://rollcall.com/2023/10/26/after-mass-shooting-new-speaker-calls-for-prayer-that-senseless-violence-can-stop/

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/2023/10/mike-johnson-abortion-school-shootings.html

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