ohhe was definitely rioting

reverseside of the page was Tom Dispatch dated rather posted 2007-12-17 10:18:44 titled Tomgram: Rebecca Solnit on Hope in Print subtitled The Secret Library of Hope: 12 Books to Stiffen Your Resolve by Rebecca Solnit Resolve would be a fantastic name for someones prick  verb  2. decide firmly on a course of action (definitions from Oxford Languages)

                                                                            cock name set in motion by Stiffen Your Resolve

but he digresses

                     rioting

top left corner of page

24  12. 07

        Monday AM-ish-ness

3 he guessed

rest of the page was originally written in red ink then overwritten in blue ink words omitted from the final palimpsest were crosshatched obliterated with the red ink they were written in the maelstrom-orgy angled down the page  not parallel to the top

hed say unparalleled

sex with an epileptic (woman)

you seldom climax

you eclipse

before the shuddering

youre evicted chucked aside

they dance by themselves

to strange music inside

by a stranger choreographer

and the only way

not to be bucked

would mean reinstraps

and stirrups

a bit between their teeth

thereby stunning sex

with an epileptic committed

bent on fulmination

0909,  Sunday,  21  7. 24

Marzipan   No

                   Not it  Don like tha either

Sugary sweet  Had a little taste in Nawlins years ago scraped it off my tongue with my fingernails

Let me think.

   Sugary

Thinking.

Was literally snapped was kneejerked tonguejerked

                                                          If I swallowed Id have lost it

Being a bit dramatic?

gagged

Ohshit.

         Not kidding.

Tellinya

          Thinkinbout it   Bile

    Ah.

          Believe I have it.

Say it quietly

Pralines.

Ohfuckyah

                Diiisgusting

Sweet?

OhChrist

           I was younger  Its occurred to me since than I prefer bitter to sweet  A fan of IPAs  Cant tolerate wheats

Think my lone standouts Drambuie

That’s sweet.

It is My Dad an I usually share it with strong black coffee

Ah, the bitterness.

Compliments like sweet an salty

    New Orleans.

Yah

Mardi Gras?

Yah

Beads?

Crazyyah

How long were you there?

Shortest week of my life blew past in a blink of an eye don remember sleeping

You attribute that to something?

There was the pure raw excitement city didnt sleep either

                                                                       Yes

Yes?   You can attribute it to something.

Yah a sly smile stolecross his face

Was it someone?

No one

         Nobody coud keep up with me

Then?

Thirtythree healthy grams of jetblack hashish  Respect

                                                            Smoked dope down an back with the guys Saved my stash for Nawlins

    It wa . .

. . May I?

Yathink

I think I do.

Help yourself

Innnnnnnnnnsannnnnnnne.

Christ  Hit all the ns buckwheat 

she laughedbowed

Now get your ass back into bed

                                   I aint no marzipan or praline

How would you know?

After we kiss deeply

   Yes.

he liked that hed led her beyond blushing

                                             not that it wasnt absolutely delicious

1823,  Reggaefriday,  19  7. 24

1308,  Saturday,  20  7. 24

Steppenwolf  Sookie, Sookie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKsdwIr0nWc

he tossed bones turned tarot

                              refused to sacrificedisembowel an animal stir through its entrails to foretell the future

his results were sketchy mired   muddled

seeking clarification he went to his music to help him sift dustaway the fine detritus obscuring his perception went to his vinyl  randomly plucked an album

Steppenwolfs 1969 fourth album

Monster

encouraged

he turned it

gently set the needle down

closing his eyessat back   listened

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3REXu1ZO3BY

“. . . America

Now it’s a monster and will not obey

The spirit was freedom and justice

And it’s keepers seem generous and kind

It’s leaders were to serve the country

But now they won’t pay it no mind

‘Cause the people grew fat and got lazy

And now their vote is a meaningless joke

They babble about law and order

But it’s just an echo of what they’re been told

Yeah, there’s a monster on the loose

It’s got our heads in a noose

And it just sits there watchin’

Our cities have turned into jungles

And corruption is strangling the land

The police force is watching the people

And the people just can’t understand

We don’t know how to mind our own business

‘Cause the whole world’s got to be just like us

Now we are fighting a war over there

No matter who’s the winner

We can’t pay the cost

‘Cause there’s a monster on the loose

It’s got our heads in a noose

And it just sits there watching

America where are you now?

Don’t you care about your sons and daughters?

Don’t you know we need you now

We can’t fight alone against the monster”

1342,  Saturday,  20  7. 24

Steppenwolf  Monster/Suicide/America medley

https://occult-world.com/astragalomancy-divinations/

Muddy Waters  Hoochie Coochie Man (I’m Yours)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lz2uycb0DFE

Whawill you have

she pursed her lips

Whaever you like

Whatever?

My treat

You’re treating?

Don say like its extraordinary

                                 We havent run into each other in awhile

Not since our last date. she sniffed

Dondo tha

   What?

Sniff We agreed to date

                           I didnt take you to bed didnt up the ante not thatha woudnt have be nice

No.   Somebody else.

Which woud be none of your business

But you have.

Which is none of your business

Well, I’m not gathering any moss.

Which is none of my business Nice rolling stone analogy

                                                             Whawill ya have

God, you play hardball.

You know me otherwise

No.  Not you.

                  Anything?

Except a champainintheass cocktail  unless youre willing to get up on the bar an strip

You say the nicest things to a girl.

Paint pictures don I

                      Please  Have a drink well get caught up  I ask I text I email you don say

You didn’t ask me out.

I was askin how you were

Because you’re concerned?

Because youre my friend

Not your acquaintance?

Woud you rather be my acquaintance

                                         We can make tha happen

No.

       Be my friend.

I am

I was out last night with my girlfriends we tied one on.

                                                           I think a beer.

Preference

Slops.

Ohno

You said whatever I’d like . . except stripper champagne.

Not slops  please

You understand . . . it . . nearly sounds like you’re begging.

Ill beg if you prefer

You’d beg?

You heard me You know me not to pull punches

You don’t.

            Why not slops? Why not cheap beer?

Because  an I don know   if I go up to the bar an Pabst is the cheap beer I might hurl

Hurl?

Yup

Why’s that?

Had a long conversation with my daughter late this afternoon about her female checkup Quite deep quite extensive quite  detailed

From your expressio . .

. . I can only imagine

she laughed

              It’s one for the books.

Then file it away because it seems to be humouring you  By your expression

I haven’t the words.

                       So about Pabst?

he swallowed hard exaggerated a wee bit

                                               Pap smear

I know my girls clean youd think thered be different terminology

There is.  Papanicolaou test.

Yes Say again

   Papanicolaou

Sounds like a Hawaiian drink

                                Say   Ill have a pina colada with you if youd like

With a straw?

he didnt grimace

                   A pink straw

1334,  Thursday,  18  7. 24

1144,  Saturday,  20  7. 24

Rupert Holmes  Escape (The Pina Colada Song)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_f1IrtS83EA

they were bombinround freewheelin their conversations usually did  sallied rallied  verged on nonsense when sense made no sense   You don’t say?   Ya donsay   You don’t say?   I do

wha did he say

                   I get it IUD   Understood

she asked IUD?

                 What?

Which woud you have me answer first

You did say, IED, too?

Yes

Yes?

Interchangeable babe

Interchangeable? I’m not sure how you see that.

It’s a nice wordaint it

                       Im liberal Imagine if the quoteunquote weaker sex developed a sense of terrorism

    Terrorism?

Yah Think jihad crusade one in the same

Awright. Where’s this going?

he smiledlaughed deeply

                             Strap on

Though we coud take this in a whole other direction

Would ya stay the course please?

Of course  Jihad crusade

Yes. That. 

Imagine a couplefew couples detonat . .

. . Blown up?

    Ya don have to take tha tone

                                       Yah

Blow  up  why?

For the reason tha the womans partner refuses to assume responsibility for their birth control  They coud get fixedNo They coud simply wear a condom rubber prophylactic your choiceNo  They are blatant are adamant Im not wearing one of those You got us covered

An inconsiderate partner

The woman women can leave testimony explaining their decision  IED for IUD

AwJesus.

Elsa

   Elsa?

You switching things up?

Female terrorism doesnt seem to be in your wheelhouse

So you bring up my friend Elsa as a seque?

You mentioned her earlier

Did I?

You did

         Ya mentioned she was  nomadic

I found it an interesting word choice  one not heard often

She is and a very smart woman, you’d like her.

Ive not met her I believe

No you haven’t.

Id like her because you do You per se have vetted her

Vetted? I supposeyes.  I suppose I have.

You have

           Now when you say Elsas nomadic you mean shes couchsurfing

Look at you.

Hiphuh

she laughed

                Hip? Classic.

Rather than groovy Id be dating myself

You are dating yourself.

Only because no one will go out with me

                                           Fortunately for me I like my company 

Jesus.

        If you’d ask.

Elsa

1309,  Thursday,  18  7. 24

1027, Saturday,  20  7. 24

they followed the footprints in the snow

several sets boots

one struggling in the centerthrashing yankedup come down sixseven feet further on  appeared he was wearing flipflops

almost to the vacant garage a flipflop

another sixseven foot heist

flipflop  sock

                wasnt barefooted

What the fuck?

Yeah. He did joke that he liked to wear flipflops in the house because they tripped him and he liked to believe he was agile enough not to fall on his face.

That’s stupid. a third said

Yeah? Try it.

Have you?

pointed to his forehead a scar

                                  Coffee table.

Shaddup guys.

He won’t be in there. Pro job. Partial sketchy tire tracks other side of the building.

You think . .

. . I believe.

You think we get bupkis?

Nada. Not a fuckin’ thing. Pros, man, pros.

   Maybe. Or maybe we find the other flipflop.

Maybe.

         If they have a sense of humor.

they did

0546,  Reggaefriday,  19  7. 24

1131,  Reggaefriday

they were patienthad the patience of saints

they knew how it was going to end

he didnt

          he giggled thin and high  a giggle not a laugh not sonorous

he got it

he was going to get it

    now he knew how it was going to end too

they entered the room

                         HEY boys. Suppose you heard.

We did. You get it.

I got it.

Good.

they gave it to him

he took it like a man

laughed sonorously

                     till sputteringspraying aerateddroplets silencedGUSHed in gouts as the blade severed his throat

0546,  Reggaefriday,  19  7. 24

1051,  Reggaefriday

formers transcript

                   still hasnt found/read Vances available at The New York Times if one has a subscription plausible deniability

did find formers

a lot of crap

amongst it this gem

                      “And a very special thank you to the extraordinary people of Milwaukee and the great state of Wisconsin for hosting this outstanding convention. And by the way, Wisconsin, we are spending over $200 million dollars here, creating jobs and other economic development all over the place – I hope you will remember this and give us your vote in November! We will Make Wisconsin Great Again, I promise.” 

he promises

a liar promises

well see if his campaign pays its security bills

another beaut

                “Less than four years ago, we were a great nation, and soon we will be a great nation again. With proper leadership, every disaster we are now enduring will be fixed – and fixed quickly.”

howbout four years ago he might have said five years ago if he and his speechwriters were smart

couldnt pinpoint July 18, 2020 although did find an interview with Robert Anderson, the National Center for Health Statistics (NCHS) Mortality Statistics Chief

                                             “. . . the 385,000 deaths that we would refer to as ‘involving COVID-19.’ The other 34,000 would be death in which COVID-19 was a contributing factor but not the underlying case.”

COVID-19 exacerbated their existing diseases

a real charmer that would have Reagan playing with himself

                                                                 “We will replenish our military, and build an Iron Dome Missile Defense System to ensure that no enemy can strike our homeland (the Fatherland/das Vaterland) – and this great Iron Dome will all be MADE IN THE USA.”

   CRAP

1225,  Reggaefriday,  19  7. 24

https://www.nbcsandiego.com/news/national-international/read-donald-trumps-full-rnc-speech-accepting-gop-nomination/3570838/

https://www.nbcsandiego.com/news/national-international/fact-checking-trumps-speech-accepting-the-gop-nomination/3571234/

https://www.cnn.com/2024/07/18/politics/fact-checking-night-4-republican-national-convention-trump/index.html

https://www.businessinsider.com/trumps-team-wont-pay-police-bills-touts-law-enforcement-support-2020-7

2020 American Coronavirus deaths https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/pressroom/podcasts/2022/20220107/20220107.htm

Reagan’s Strategic Defense System proposed in 23March 1983    https://www.history.com/news/reagan-star-wars-sdi-missile-defense

Reagan’s Star Wars Defense  https://www.history.com/speeches/reagan-announces-star-wars

Trumps Agenda47  https://www.donaldjtrump.com/agenda47

Neil Young  Rockin’ in the Free World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DvxxdZpMFHg

OFFICE DEPOT

not an advertisement

OFFICIOUS DEPOT

why the hell would a corporation believe  theyd have to believenot think   believe acronyming itself as O D was smartsavvy

               was trying to imagine the sales pitch

Office Depot.  O D.  Get it?

he hoped someone their head not up their ass asked O D?  Overdose.

No. Of course not. You see overdose is a single word, it isn’t over dose, so we’re not  not implying   overdose, the one word. We’re trying to brighten the image, buff the tarnish, fix the pallor of O D.

   to be fair he hadnt been into an Office Depot in a very long time

it could be that it expanded its facility its faculty  as COSTCO had   which now sells Coffins and Caskets and Urns Oh My  Follow the yellow brick road.

could be

stepped it up

O D crematories getting a step on COSTCO  as few and far between people or their families are choosing burial

    see how very sharp they are  (swipe; copy; paste to view) 

midJuly, 2024

1023,  Reggaefriday,  19  7. 24

This is How We Do It  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pUZBIfnZv2c  (swipe; copy; paste to view)

loyalty

    he hears that a lot

MAGAsters (MAGA + monsters) buffoons should prostrate themselves before “the Dear Leader”CHRIST

                                                                                                            give him a break

1953  Group for the Advancement of Psychiatry under the leadership of William Menninger met to discuss the psychological effects of loyalty oaths

“Considerations Regarding the Loyalty Oath as a Manifestation of Current Social Tension and Anxiety”

oaths were “only one manifestation in a growing general trend towards the enforcement of conformity of thinking and acting.” endangering the development of the ego  restricting access to “the object world” distorting the development of a “workable super-ego” by “emphasizing the external threat at the expense of self-responsibility” threatening “the ego-ideal appropriate to a free and democratic society by introducing increasingly contradictory ideals and by depreciating the image and model value of the teacher (academic theoretical pedagogy).”

“ego: part of psyche (human soul mind spirit) responsible for ones sense of self their ability to interact with the outside world

“super-ego: ethical component of the personality that provides moral standatrds bywhich the ego operates

“ego-ideal: the standards ideals ambitions according to the psychoanalytic (Freudian) theory are assimilated from the super-ego”

those are the cogs

                    now whether the followers could read or could understand those words were another matter

    he wasnt a betting man but FUCK  he was awfully tempted

loyalty = slavish devotion

former = sociopath

                     one who has no regard for right or wrong ignores the rights and feelings of others

former = narcissist*

                      succinctly its all about them

loyalists remind him of bugs  particularly ant society

    No thanks

1030,  Sunday,  14  7. 24

0912,  Reggaefriday,  19  7. 24

thank you Louis Menand  his book The Free World

narcissism*  https://www.psychiatry.org/news-room/apa-blogs/what-is-narcissistic-personality-disorder

ant society  https://www.ecoguardpestmanagement.com/pest-resources/ant-colony#:~:text=An%20ant%20colony%20is%20a%20complex%20social%20structure%20of%20ants,and%20reproduction%20of%20the%20colony.

hypothetical

Mr Vance

Your wife is raped

Is impregnated

Are you going to raise the child as your own or put them up for adoption

1719,  Thursday,  18  7. 24

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wt3xp8q3hPY

irate (I rate)

Kendrick Lamar  (They) Not Like Us  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H58vbez_m4E

wrong colour long tie

                       Yahoo

bandage goes over your right ear  not your left

                                                  cant blame the miserable motherfuckers

they struggle to tell the difference between their right an left

Are we the elephant or donkey?

Are we blue or red?

Is it an IUD or an IED?

What do you mean outlaw porn?

What do you mean no contraceptives?

What do you mean?

God will decide.

Lottery Scratch

                 baby aint got no free will

how can you possibly have free will if fiftythree percent of the adult population of AMERICA cant read at a Fifth Grade level

      Lead me by my nose

What do you mean that fortythree percent of California children cant read at their grade level

      Lead me by my nose                                                                                                       

cleared his throatBELLOWed

          Cunts

             Pricks

White Theocracy

          Fuck whitey  Fuuck whitey    Fuuuckwhiii

                                        echoes       reverberates

White noise

wrong tie

wrong ear

tried your best

failed

but thats plenty good enough

Loyal?  Right?

    Right.

1507,  Thursday, 18  7. 24

READ  if you can  https://www.google.com/search?q=kendrick+lamar+not+like+us+lyrics&rlz=1C1ILPI_enUS778US778&oq=Kendrick+Lamar+Not+Like+Us&gs_lcrp=EgZjaHJvbWUqDQgCEAAYgwEYsQMYgAQyDQgAEAAY4wIYsQMYgAQyCggBEC4YsQMYgAQyDQgCEAAYgwEYsQMYgAQyEAgDEAAYgwEYsQMYgAQYigUyCggEEAAYsQMYgAQyDQgFEAAYgwEYsQMYgAQyBwgGEAAYgAQyCggHEAAYsQMYgAQyCggIEAAYsQMYgAQyBwgJEAAYgATSAQk4NjU0ajBqMTWoAgiwAgE&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

READ  if you can  https://static.project2025.org/2025_MandateForLeadership_FULL.pdf