he pulled into the parking lot at the market

                                                  Pretty empty tonight

Empty. Yes.

he stoppedparked

   Do you have to make me uncomfortable?

he halfturnedfaced her was restricted by the seatbelt harness

                                                                    How am I making you uncomfortable

Don’t give me that.

                       You know.

An yaknow me to ask if I know something

she twisted asif a hooked worm

No You know me if I know I do not ask

                                           So

How am I making you feel uncomfortable

she motioned her head to the windowshield to the emptiness outside the car

                                                                                 There.

There

         Theres a whole lotta nothing there

Look at the lines.

The lines

Yes.

   The painted white lines

Yes.  They designate parking spaces.

An wha of em babe

You’ve not parked between themyou’re straddling spaces.

Theres plenty of room We stopped for milk cereal fruit for the kids lunchbags well take all of fiveten minutes

                                                                                                                  Do you think the lots gonna fillwell piss someone off by taking spacesfacing in the wrong direction

That’s why the lines are painted. To organise . . the vehicles.

                                                                There’s a right way and a wrong way. You’re purposely disregarding them, their order.

Yaknow babe Ive known you for yearsYears   Since you were a teenager

                                                                               You werent an I don think you are obsessivecompulsive  Not until you started seeing this psychologist

She’s a doctor who cares about mecares about what I think . .

. . Who you pay I pay we have paid for a yea . .

. . It’s not been a year.

Its been a  year

                   I keep the books now thayave turned them over to me You want receipts yawanna see in black and white

Come on Lets get wha we stopped for

I don’t think so.

No

I don’t think so.

No  Okay

           Well  Im not leaving you here twisting because I defied lines The kids can buy their lunch at school tomorrow

he started the car

   You’re cruel, you’re terribly cruel.

When you see your doctor tomorrow be sure you inform her of this episode  The empty lot  Lines   My cruelty

Don’t tell me what to do.

Im sure yawont forget to tell her tha

1854,  Saturday,  6  1. 24

Awbrother

              Coud we not talk about this  At least  not   right now

   When?

Thas a good question   When I brought it up to you you werent interested in discussing it then

                                                                                                     Im not really in a place to discuss it now   Not right now  Which isnt to say I do not appreciate you returning to it  Please understand tha justnot in the frame of mind to talk about it   right now

But you have given it thought.

I have  I had given it a lot of thought when I brought it up to you

                                                                    But becausean entirely fair of you to ask some other time letya think about it   Id . .

. . Let up on the gas pedal?

Its not a gas pedal Not a good analogue

What would you think would be a proper analogue?

Then wed be discussing wha Im not in a place to discuss

                                                            Please it came out like he was begging they didnt beg

You’re right I’m sorry I’m pushing.

                                        I apologise.

Please don Its not necessary

                                  We can make a when

Would you like to?

Yes I would like very much to

she chuckled softlybemused

                                A dropdeaddate

he laughed above her chuckle

                               Sure   A dropdeaddate      I love you

I love you.

 

 

he asked What am I to you

2335,  Thursday,  4  1. 24

1228,  Saturday,  6  1. 24

 

JANUARY 6, 2021

three years

root out all conspirators and insurgents  

root out those Congressional members and aides

we saw with our own eyes

   Junior  growing up in his neighbourhoodJUNIOR!  several mothers would step out onto their front porchescry JUNIOR! and according to the modality of that particular Junior Junior would break away from the sandlot ball game take his bat or glove Sorry guys I gotta go. never the ball if it was his itd be entrusted to one of the other fellas and run off  a couplethree other Juniors would yell after him Remember! We’re playing tomorrow afternoon!

Summer  school was out  none of the guys forgot 

                                                     they were regulars at the makeshift diamond in the park regular as girls in the neighbourhood whod be on front porches frontyards backyards playing dolls together pushing them in toy buggies on sidewalks pulling them in a wagons with a collection of other dolls assorted stuffed animals

   bucolic

but not Junior

seemed there was one in every family

he wasntdespite being firstborn

                                  had he been a girl and second born were a boy his brother firstborn male usually would be pasted Junior  which wasnt precluded by a II the Second  III the Third  they were still Juniors albeit numerically

he wondered what that was

they had daughters

                     though

had they a son  no way in Hell would the boy have been a junior

                                                                      Whod want to be a Junior

his buddies who were went either by nicknames affixed or identified themselves by their middle name if it wasnt some family name like Shirley mothers familys maidens name

his parents named him after a Hollywood actor they liked a lot

his kid brother a year younger was Junior

he ducked a bullet

                            Whod want to be a Junior

2344,  Thursday,  4  1. 24

1121,  Saturday,  6  1. 24

Bobby Sherman  Julie Do Ya Love Me?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3g8J52I8jU

plagiarism

              seems currency of the day

Neri Oxman

Harvards formers president Claudine Gay

the former presidents speechwriter very likely Stephen Miller  plagiarising his propagandist hero Goebbels plagiarising Hitler 

its a rare moment when former tells a truth 

                                                 “I never knew that Hitler said it.”

no he didnt

he doesnt read

hes lucky he can get through a speech reading a teleprompter or through the Funnies

2024,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

1319,  Saturday,  6  1. 24

https://www.theguardian.com/education/2024/jan/06/neri-oxman-bill-ackman-plagiarism-accusations

https://www.theguardian.com/education/2024/jan/06/harvard-claudine-gay-plagiarism

https://www.theguardian.com/education/2024/jan/03/bill-ackman-billionaire-attacks-claudine-gay-harvard-twitter-x

https://www.pbs.org/newshour/politics/trump-says-he-didnt-know-his-immigration-rhetoric-echoes-hitler-thats-part-of-a-broader-pattern

Shut the door.

The door   Why

   Why? Why would you leave the door open?

I woud

         Id ask whadaya have to hide

Not hiding, I’m not hiding anything.

Why then shut the door

For privacythat’s a stupid question . .

. . Stupid answer

   How do ya figure?

Pretty damn simple

                     Yare in your room by yourself  Im either in mine or elsewhere Yare by yourself  Isnt tha privacy havin your space

                   I aint denying ya

I prefer the door shu . .

. . Hermeticallysealed

                         Hermit Error   Hemit Making taking the distinction

I prefer my door shut.

I appreciate tha

                  But stay the fuck away from mine or closing it Ifya visited me at my place aint a door hung I let the kitchen cabinets be but throughout the rest of the place  unimpeded

Even the bathroom door?

Even it

         It stands to reason if someone excuses themselves to use the bathroom theyd want their privacy

But there isn’t a door.

Privacy isnt determined by a door

                                     Impediments   Fuck doors

 

2328,  Thursday,  4  1. 24

1411,  Reggaefriday,  5  1. 24

President Bidens speech at Valley Forge

President Biden . . excuse me, sir . . let me complete your thought your words . . What a sick . . .  yes What a sick fuck.

the presidents speech begins at the 22:00 minute-mark  completing the presidents thought reversup at 33:30 minute-mark  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVe2VjI8c-I

Reggaefriday afternoon,  5  1. 24

Man, would you leave her alone, Christ, she’s ninetyfour ye . .

. . Then she ought to know better wants to shoot her mouth off tries to fall on shes an old woman thas her defenseFuck her My old mans ninetytwo and I hand him his ass every time he makes an ass out of himself

Loves got nothing to do with it

I’m just sayin . .

. . Wha

   She’s like family.

An she gets a pass Nobody gets a passnot with me

I think she’s due respect.

For

What do you mean . for?

Illuminate me Respect  For   Why

I suspect when you’re ninetyfour years he paused thinking he was going to interrupt him again . . . when you’re ninety . .

. . I wont act talk like an ass

You keep interrupting.

I do Youre talkin shit

                        If Im fortunate to live to ninetyfour Ill be giving respect and expecting respect  At nine years old Mr Whappler illuminated mesquatted down on the grasswent eyeball to eyeball with me he was in his seventies he said You don’t have to respect your elders if they are not going to treat you with respect.

                                                                                           Its a twoway street

All these years since  its been a twoway street

   When you were nine?

Nine  It was an epiphany

                            I knew wha an epiphany was at nine too Perception of the essential nature or meaning of something   Thassomething ya don shake or deny

So no I give no quarter

I think you’re wrong.

An I can give two shits

0900,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

1154,  Reggaefriday,  5  1. 24

Whasthis shit he asked himself

                                    Fuckin rhetorical email

questions asked

                   although his sensegiven the time that elapsed since he wrote  a long series of unanswered emails languishing   replying he didnt feel that it would be seriously read or the questions he asked their questions provoking him would be answered

wondered if this wasnt a new thing

                                     daughter in his head

If you think something’s a thing.  It probably is.

it been more than a week since he received it an replied

                                                           hed bet dollars to donuts itd be weeksif not months if ever before he received an answer  anwhen he did it be brisk nothing he asked would be answered

but he had a receipt 

                    SENT 

hed resend

             Coudya answer my questions

I answered yours

                   daughter in his head

That’d be rude.

                 or

You’ll catch more bees with honey.

Baby  Splash some water in it

                                  By the time I hear Ill have mead

1632,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

2238,  day-between-2-Ts

he was anticipating  not the anniversary of January6   MEMORIALISING memorialising is accurate

he was remembering the sea of insurrectionistsseditionists the cowardly congressional Representatives their aides congressional Senators their aides who ought to be revealed tried incarcerated

curious how Republicans can breathe the atmosphere of No Shame

                                                                        whereas others cant

   he hadnt noticed until last night he was still seeing RED since January 6, 2021

but last night he SAW  that the rope fashioned into a noose that hung from the gallows erected at the Capitol  was orange

ORANGE

             HANG MIKE PENCE! HANG MIKE PENCE! HANG MIKE PENCE! with an orange rope

   

1941,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

1145,  Thursday,  4  1. 24

https://www.nbcwashington.com/news/local/noose-displayed-at-capitol-insurrection-in-fbis-custody/2863204/

Can you believe it?

Comin out of thin air man

                           Believe wha

Iowa caucuses in two weeks.

I hear urgency in your voice

                               Wha of it

Primary voting.

Youre really going to refer to the Republican caucusesprimaries as caucuses primaries The debates have been shit Only Christie the rest cowards

They’re being politica . .

. . Horses asses

                  Politics means standingup for somethingbelievin in it  Clowns arent running for president

   If form . .

. . Wha have I told you about tha No oxygen

                                               Shaddup

I get it  A handjob for the administration 

Jesus.

Two weeks

             Iowa excuses

Excuses?

Fuck I hate explaining jokes caucuses excuses

                                                  One better  the Iowa Caucasian excuses

You have to be racis . .

. . Blow mefour in ahunred  counted his fingers on one hand  One Two Three FourFOUR  FACT

2112,  2sday,  2  1. 24

1333,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

Iowa  from 1980 to 2019  Big woo!

https://www.iowadatacenter.org/application/files/6816/4925/5499/AfricanAmericanStatus2022.pdf

https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/2024-primary-elections/calendar

a reminder

former president

P O S

no not Point of Sale

Piece of Shit

its made the top of his 2024 New Years resolution list

weekly To-Do through Election year

1548,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

2024,  2sday,  2  1. 2024

                             Really

like hed let tha time day an date get away fromim 

fat chance

            like a chance a piece of chocolate escapes a kid

was talking on the telephone with his daughter commiserating  a difficult date January2  for them

people remember anniversaries  Hallmark dates  birthdays

                                                                deathdates   not readily

Apple doesnt fall far from the tree concerning us babe

                                              HA

The pair of us

Apple pear Attempt at humour

   Thank you for tryin’.

Today Ill try anything

                       Anything

Did you have a . . good . . . yaknow . not good . . a . ah reasonable day?

I did I managedYou

I did. I bought a small bouquet of Stargazer lilies.

How do you spell tha

she laughed

You remember

Yes I remember. Even after you went into the shop and told them they misspelled the word they didn’t change it.

Ahweel  Some people refuse to admit their wrong

                                                     B O K A Y bouquet

she laughed again heartily

Good to hear you laugh sweetpea

Thank you. Thank you, Papa.

   Youre welcome his voice cracked

                                       We keep trying

she muffled a sob

                    through her hand said We keep trying.

 

later

             I had a thought about themselves

About themselves?

                     Was this a distraction?

It was

       Monkey was on my backat my throat I was clutching at straws   A good clutch I thought

Well. You’ve distracted me.

                               What . . possibly . was . about themselves that was a good clutch?

   Thas a crazy question

Itis.

Themselves  Themcells T H E M C E L L S

                                               Selves locked in themcells

Distracting.

Tremendously

                 Monkey dropped off like a sated leech

Papa.

       You have a way with words.

she laughed merrily 

I do I have my way with words

You do. she sighed

                    I miss you. I wish we lived closer.

I wish so too I love you

I love you.

1249,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

“Beauty Within”  Cello Music  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDhkPQvUnT8&t=6609s

. . . so a couple times a year I go into townnot saying what town . . I go and I pretend I’m someone else.

Pretend disturbed   Youre

                            You are someone else incredulous

What? sensing his discomfort

he sensed she sensed his disease I wont say interesting as interesting says nothing its ambivalent I dislike ambivalence

   Thas odd  Odd because Ive not ever considered being other than who I am

Which, albeit knowing you only briefly, though intensely, I sense being you is full time job.

Nailed it

          Thank you for being frank

   No pun intended?

You coudnt be Frank ifya tried  Too many curves

Curves?

Yaknow wha I mean

a wily smile Thank you.

he smiled  not guileless No

                             Pleasures all mine

Wouldya stop, you’re making me blush. she was

In the deliv . .

. . her big eyes wide The whole package . . packaging.

Good still got the stuff   But thas me

                                          But you  Ifyawoud the roles you play

Yes. My roles my parts. Advantage mine.

                                            Before teaching I wanted to be an actor, grew up watching movies playing parts I liked, entered a performing academy, high school, I received significant accolades, press bemused  anger swept her countenance   I didn’t like the business.

I wouldn’t play the game.

he nodded sympathetically

Thank you for not pressing.

Youre welcome

she smiled he dug her dimples I can hear you saying this.

Hear me

Yes.  You can take the girl out of acting but you can’t take acting out of the girl.

I woud say tha

                    Am I tha transparent

No.  Not transparent.

                        You walk your talk she laughed loud harddidnt cover her mouth  he dug tha about her too  Look who’s frank.

Careful

Or what?

   Wha  We can make thaup as we go along

2147,  Monday,  1  1. 24

1118,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

be careful whaya wish for . . .

                        if the Supremes in their partisan manner – those Right-leaning – confer presidential immunity to the former 

then they will give President Biden the exact same immunity

which can allow Biden to imprison the former as a Clear and Present Danger to the United States

which woud also allow Biden the option to become a democratic dictator

                                                                               shoud he choose

and even  shoud he choose  to pronounce anoint his Vice-President Kamala Harris to govern in his wake whenever he decides to leave office

   there woud be no 2024 elections

   

1659,  2sday,  2  1. 24

Ari Melber  begin at 16:20 minute-mark regarding farcical formers Presidential Immunity  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLWwLJwxkvQ 

Jack Smith 12/30/23 filing

https://storage.courtlistener.com/recap/gov.uscourts.cadc.40415/gov.uscourts.cadc.40415.1208583920.0.pdf 

Gil Scots-Heron  Revolution Will Not Be Televised  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vwSRqaZGsPw

it was recorded years ago by HBO

he watched it on-line

                     an no wayNONE in Hell an algorithm woud be tipped off woud be able to drop those freshwater pearls  two characters who in separate dialogues testimonies perfectly fit aligned with his fragile emotions today

   Crazy man crazycrazy  perfect jigsaw puzzle

although  occasionally  Life no algorithms hands them to you on a silver platter

                                                                                   pure serendipity serene pity the Cosmos listening in writtentranscribed during the Big Bang  Jungs collective unconscious

a child murdered another missing  their father sobs in the backseat of a police cruiser 

                                                                                           “I can’t go to sleep. I can’t wake up.”

a Vietnam vet questioned in an interrogation room

                                                     “You ever been someplace you couldn’t leave, and you couldn’t stay, both at the same time.”

2130,  Monday,  1  1. 24

1552,  2sday,  2  1. 24