27.11.23


   irreverent
                   inevitably


Is nothing sacred to you?

Sacred  Loaded
                  Good and Evil
Nothings evil Just very bad
                               Otherwise the balance woudbe Exceptional  Excellent     Evil No
You have to parse . .
. . Within an inch of its life Yes
                                   Sacred  You were saying    Asking

Is nothing . . . valuable . to you?

Tossing sacred away

   I am. 
Wise
        Look at you having a moment   A rare fuckin moment

You’re not kind.

Im not

   Are you really the hardass you make yourself out to be?


Isnt tha a question you ought to ask yourself


You only please yourself.

   Is tha supposed to be an accusation  Hurt me bruise me
                                                                 Beat me bloody me    No
In case youre trying to disabuse yourself of whaya know

cocked his head  Selfish.

Who isnt


You really want to say you arent
                                    But you cant  Not honestly   An tha means something to you
Frankly
           Youre more selfish than I am  Because you can afford it
he laughed  Im selfish on a budget
                                     Where tha fucking sound come from   Right   ThasoundedNO  no  You were going to say evil   I was   No you arent   It sounded very bad   Atta boy girl whaever
he laughed mirthlessly


Wha

That was awfully . . cruel.

Ive been told Im cruelly honest
                                 Girlfriends   Wife  Women make more of an impression on me     Yes
Whas your point


I don’t know what my point was.

   Pity

0005damn 5,  Monday,  27  11. 23

26.11.23


Who the fuck you
                 he rippedtore the mask from his facethe adhesive gobbled select piecesgobs strips he held it nose to his nose stared  into its empty sockets


No tongue huh

he grippedcrushed it in his fistcollapsing from behind its lack of skull
                                                                        its featuresslack  went indistinguishable
a sadisticlaugh curled out of his throat

he heard it
          heard a maniacal cackle he didnt know he possessed

Who the fuck you

   fair question

he slammedslapped it to his thigh like sodden snakeshed
                                                            bits of flesh redblood freckledspeckled the bathroom linoleum
spattered the mirror he saw his reflection in                                                                                         

   a reflection he didnt recognise

mask he wore

for how longNOT LONG
                         had it been long he wouldnt have been able to strip it off
it would have adhered
altered
him

   inalterably  irretrievably


fooling himself
                no telling where his lies could take him


Who the fuck you

2248,  Sunday,  26  11. 23


Chiefs head coach Andy Reid QB Patrick Mahomes
                                                       Andy gets topbilling
hes been in pro football for as long as he could remember

commercial State Farms bundling
                                    corporates bet that Millennial GenZ parents havent toldinformed their children that one nevereverNEVER puts all their eggs in one basket

which isnt to place blamepick on State Farm corporate
                                                         all American capitalist a different beast altogether corporations who have products that can be bundled are quick to fuck their customers in the ass Youah ahread ah  the fine prints  Yahyah
they understand parents havent time sometimes not the capacity  corp-rapes count on their customers not diggin in havin the wherewithal they TRUST them  Yasee thaway they havent victimised them
                                                                                            its their customers faultCUNTS

also lets not to forget or miss that State Farm is plugging nutritious fastfood 
outlets albeit unnamed unidentified
COMBO MEALS
                    matter of transparency he hadnt eaten out in nearly four years  he preferred to prepare and cook his own meals  convenience was inconvenient

fucking mercenary corp-rape advertisements

1631,  Sunday,  26  11. 23
2003,  Sunday
IMY2 cover  Tears for Fears  Everybody Wants to Rule the World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0TLoGf1IGA


he texted  :  :  I emailed you an article, you’ve got to read it NOW.

  :  :  NOW?

  :  :  Yes. Please.

  :  :  I’ll take a looksee and get back to you.


he lookedvery briefly bordered on nanoish  deleted the email  he wasnt going to go through the pains of textingnot with him half the things he told him he didnt follow and he didnt like writingNOPE if he had to endure communication hed talk to him



What the hell? You couldn’t have looked all the reasons why already.

I didnt he thought hed let him drive the conversation soif things went off the rails theyd go according to himhis words

How many did you look at?

I didnt

I did.
       You understand I sent it to you because so many reminded me of you.

Thank you You didnt look because you wanted confirmation regarding yourself

Me? I don’t like being alone.

No you don Though glancing it reminded me of your beloved Quora site

Beloved? Is not.

   No
       When we talk you bring it up frequently
Id say ifya were honest   you look at the app out of curiositywas trying to offer him a crust of bread a few times a day it must pester you daily ifnot several times a day

And goodness knows your phone has become an appendage

It has not.

   It has

It has not.

This coud go on forever he thought When we talk  When we talk at your house   The phone is always in attendancean when it chimes you have to see
                                  You used to say Excuse me
Not no more

it sounded like he snorted  I look because it could be important.

he wanted him to think about that
hed give him time
                    and rope



It could be important.


How many timesnot tha you can say how many times have you interrupted our conversation an found the chime to be importantbecause I cant think of one time

Be that as it may
                    Quoras mission statement


It’s a place to gain knowledge.

Not gain an share

   Actually its to share an grow world knowledge  World

Why do you say it like that?

Im repeating what it advertises
                                  As a matter of fact I have it upGoogled it
An I quote  Not all knowledge can be written down, but much of that which can be, still isn’t. It remains in people’s heads or only accessible if you  I think this is my favorite part  its only accessible if YOU know the right people. We want to connect the people OF THE WORLD  it doesnt say tha  I am  We want to connect people who have knowledge  Quoras buttering your bread  I said tha  Connect knowledgeable people to people who need it, to bring together people with different perspectives so they can understand each other better, and to empower everyone to share their knowledge for the benefit of the rest of the world.
                                        They did say OF THE WORLD
Pretty fuckin ambitious

And wellwritten Ill add


I don’t see anything wrong with that.

I don either
             But their app chimingyou interrupting our conversation is wrong  Maybe not wrong Inappropriate

It’s neither.

No

I don’t think so.

You don think
                  I can tell you exactlyyou can too how many times Ive allowed my cellphone to interrupt us

Only because you never have it on you.

No
     Its not an appendage Only moneymaking entities are interested tha smartphones are appendages an indispensable like the United States
                                      Thas a joke son a joke  The inimitable Foghorn Leghorn

You’re funny hilarious. 

he imagined his deadpan face Im not it is  Frankly you are

So you called to insult me?

I did not
          I called to tell you intelligence doesnt bait me  but also to say why I abruptly deleted it

You deleted it?

I wasnt interested but thas not to say I do not appreciate your thought to extend it to me share it

How could you possibly do it as quickly as you did?wasn’t your curiosity piqued in the slightest?

It could have beenmight have been had it not been for the second word of the title

What was the second word?

Astonish

Yes. That’s correct, I recall.

I was astounded  Found it astonishing
                                            The title begins Fifteen Astound Reaso . .
. . Yes.

Please  Listen  The title is Fifteen Astound Reasons Why Intelligent People Would Rather Spend Time Alone

I’ve already agreed, yes.

Astound is a verb astound cant be an adjective to describe Reasons Why  Fifteen Astounding Reasons Why

Astound not so intelligent

Didnt hook me

   But you knew what they meant. It's a typo.

Yah  but thas not wha they wrote  

Everybody makes mistakes.

Everyone does But not in a headline
                                       I know wha Im talking about I was a proofreader for a local newspaper for a year

Astounding

1018,  Sunday,  26  11. 23
1244,  Sunday


When I was a kid wed go up to the secondfloor flat where my aunt and uncle lived  my aunt gave us raw potatoes if we asked for a treat

That’s disgusting.
                       You ate them?

Yah we asked  You can imagine it wasnt much of a treat 

I have a hard time imagining you ate them.

   Wha can I tell ya Growing up food wasnt something we wasted

Wasted?
           How could you possibly eat that?I would have thrownup.

Theyre not that bad  Bitter
                             Possibly why Im not prone to eating treats now

Unbelievable.

Come on man potato famine in Ireland caused many to immigrate to America

Potato?

   Potato
          Yah   Raw potatoes                  

I thought you said rotten tomatoes.

sitting across from them undauntedCeleste smiledshook her head

he cocked his
              said to her Didnt I tellya Clown doesnt listen to me
I . .
. . Have nothing to say  Zip it

1234,  Reggaefriday,  24  11. 23
1134,  Saturday,  25  11. 23
Elton John  Rotten Peaches  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlcREOS5p5c

25.11.23


he had sex with an otherworldly nymph cloistered in her sensuallyunfurling chrysalis
                                                                                            coloured mother-of-pearl
oystershell  although it was exoticallyerotically supple  pliable    near gelatinous

above them on a shallow dais was a lined seated chorus of handsome women dressed in diaphanous gowns elegant thin robes slipped from their shoulders heldgathered at their biceps  crooks of their elbows

seemed to himthough he was incuriousconcentrated they were performing
                                                                              she was obliviousperhaps one of them their twining bodies the shimmeringpliant carapace reflecting in the sheen off the face of the dais the sheen of the rounded faceted exquisitelyhammered shell surrounding them

her skin felt like talcum
albino
      startling oceanicblues eyes

sinuous  clutching
                    moved like an octopus


   fullfilled exhausted   spent
                                     they fell asleep

just before he did
                      he wondered if hed wake
      
AM,  Thursday – Thanksgiving,  23  11. 23
1048,  Saturday,  25  11. 23

a guy thick squat  dago-Tshirt  tatted heavily
                                                 the kind of guy who looks like hed be comfortable eating glass walked past him sipping a creamytopped latte from a Starbucks free reusable Red Cup          

he hadnt known either was a thing
                                     and he dated three baristas
he didnt think they were sworn to secrecy
particularly considering the things that came out of their mouths
                                                                   Lordy
not that they could offend him
his birth offended him

since
        NADA

not so much  
1415,  Monday,  20  11. 23
1002,  Saturday,  25  11. 23


guy couldnt shush himself when it came to AI the end-all be-all to what humanity needed in its life

he was a NO SALE
                    remembered that key launched behind the glass in old cash registers when human beings entered the cost of a grocery item drugstore item hardware item rather than scanning
                                                                                  and because of scanning he regularly had corporate refund him his money under $5 and provide the item the computer screwedup for free
                                                                                                     undaunted AI

Yeahwell, that’s not the computer’s mistake, price changes have to be entered by human beings.

Programmed By a human being

That’s what I said.

So human error is perpetuated by AI

   No.
Yes
      Not only errors but inherent prejudices

Only a matter of time before they work all the bugs out of it.

Whos they

They. Them.

Programmers

   Yes.

Human programmers


Brother Until AI programs itself AI is inherently prone to mistakes Anwhen AI creates itself I don want it anywhere near me

Then you’ll have to be dead.

Likely I will
             And billions of people are going to be envious of me and the dead for the fuckingover theyre going to have to suffer thats coming at the hands   thas a joke at the hands of AI

You’re wrong.

Ill never know
                Lemme ask you something

Something inane I’m sure.

What happens when AI gets stoned alters its consciousness

1234,  Reggaefriday,  24  11. 23
1222,  Saturday,  25  11. 23
David Bowie  Pity She Was A Whore  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zF2tsBJnpk


   he paused   considered
                               no     it wasnt so much an epiphany  rather a final aching confirmation

he found it advantageous to root for the underdog to prepare him for his life

occasionally an underdog beats the odds

occasionally he won too


he shared with his father mother  shared with his brothers and sisters

they didnt say anything
                            however  sullenly nodded     but they probably realised it before he did

he was lefthanded in a righthanded world
                                              and adamantly confronted what he didnt believe in rather than get along 

454PMpreferred,  Reggaefriday,  24  11. 23
0931,  Saturday, 25  11. 23
Beatles  Hard Day’s Night  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMSiHdrHl0g

24.11.23


Black Friday

simple arithmetic

1,183,390  Trumpvirus deaths as of today

1,181,620  deaths as of November7

    1,770  dead over the last 17 days

     104  Americans died per day


TRUMPVIRUS

2244,  Reggaefriday,  24  11. 23


Awright he thought as he tapped a fivegallon white plastic bucket with his foot Whodthought Id see this again yet alone within a hafhour of the first
                              also A third time wont be a charm No luck involved AT ALL

the first was a discarded box haphazardly tossed into a leggy bush

whoever threw it didnt intend to hide it

the box was just off and up from the intersection of the city sidewalk and the entry/exit of a grocery market parking lot
homeless commingled there
                             couldnt begin toYes  yes he could hed have to guess  four    maybe five times twothree squads fourfive cops rousting one two three homeless men

he walked through themthey had taken up the whole of the sidewalk from curb to dirt and crabgrass
                                                                                                           Excuse me gentlemen he said prior to entering their knot taking the book down from his face that he read as he walked
he zigzagged
               the cops the apparently about-to-be arrested were agog he walked through them he wore tandem expressions Aint-none-of-my-business  Im-walkin-here
he emerged unscathed

it was the discarded boxs colourful almostJapanese-label that caught his attentionhis attention always ridden by his curiosity I wanna see Whastha Wannabet

he crossed the smutty weedy crapgrass   yardfor lack of an alternate description to the bush and the box and tipped it with the toe of his boot
                         inside were crushed beer cans empty beer bottles emptied clearliquor pints paper fastfood wrappers AND a hefty fan of scratched Lottery tickets  had to be two dozen or more  made him think if spiralbound would have made a decent stenopad or cops ticketpad
                                                          who knew that booze and lottery tickets went together kindalike bums on baloney sandwiches  peanut butter and jelly   Ariane and Sephora



the plastic bucket looked like a castoff painters bucket but was clean-as-a-whistle inside

it stood on end in the middle of a disusedcorrupting parking lot in front of a derelict storefront a chaineddown padlocked Commercial Real Estate sandwichboard stood on the shallow porch

the continuity couldnt be more disparate Wonderwhy
                                                       he did
stepped over a chain bellied between two rusting posts guarding either side of the drive  a paintedflaking metal licenseplatesized sign NO TRESPASSING was bolted to the chain

evidently trespassing was allowed

the bucket wasnt Star Trek teleported

he looked inside it GUESSWHA
                                    more empty beer cans liquor bottles scratched Lottery tickets
did the state know thawas a thing

he sure as fuck didnt


Does a bums luck ever change

1430,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  11. 23
1045,  Reggaefriday,  24  11. 23

23.11.23

   third iteration

over time

first off the cuff  June 17, 2007  a Sunnyday
rewrite  September 2

   again
          yet another Sunnyday  430ishness  February 10, 2008


I am in a place

where shirts feel like straitjackets buttoned wrists  fuckin button at his throat
pants fit like knotted bondage

           a place    where the air in my lungs is smoke

prisoner

bound

no escape


no birds will feed

not insects or worms


Ive become dull  tasteless     plastic
                                        the spicedmarrow of my bones shrunken

I am
        some  other thing

300PMpreferred,  Thursday – Thanksgiving,  23  11. 23


You look steamed
I am you said you were coming.

   I said thank you for the invitation
                                            I didnt blow you off

A thank you implies you accepted.

his head pulled back instinctually avoiding a cheap shot
                                                              No
Yes.

No

Yes. 

he wondered if this could become interminable and as quickly decided it could
                                                                            I thanked you for the invitationdid I say
Ill be there  Better   What can I bring because I don go anywhere without asking if I can bring something
Do I

No.

sounded better than his Yes bell tolling

Thank you

   You’re welcome.


I thought you would come.

There was a chance then it happened and I was enjoying myself too too much

droll You were home alone . . by . yourself

Yes at last his turn
                       Enjoying my company

By yourself?

Sorry friend you shoud know by now
                                        Your company cant compete with mine
 
0303preferred,  Thursday – Thanksgiving,  23  11. 23