22.8.23


he was gaga about finding appealing quoteslike finding a lost penny on the street or a hunred dollar bill which he did
though usually chumpchange but any change makes his day its unexpectedness and the stiff reality that some people are too fat or don care to stoplean over and pickup wha they dropped  trashed

he shared the quote with his girlfriendfelt it was meant exactly for her

William Carlos WilliamsWHO? 
                                dealbreaker  somebody didnt know who Williams was he didnt want to know somebody his family was the rare exception but he could tolerate them probably because he was first born
had he been third fourth fifth there were more  maybe not
but he topped the bill
 
it was his fault
                  when he linedup with all the other jamokes like preparing to parachute from a plane he saw over the  whaevers shoulder ahead of himsaw who they were getting as parents and behind them who his parent would be  he yanked whaever aside leapt into his parents arms could hear the cacophonythe outrage behind him  but it left his ears when the deliveryroom light spiked his opaque vision
                                                         he knew what the three of them were getting
the rest of the kids the motley crew the other eight saidwhen he asked about their birth  did they remember the line did they take what they gotdid they jump the gunlay back one or two spaces

they didnt know what the hell he was talking about

Sonofabitch  he cut them slack
                                         he was obliged  he was the eldest

he texted her 
               just read a quote by William Carlos Williams an it immediately reminded me of you, of your distinct beauty, why you’re so damn attractive to me: Beauty is a defiance of authority       

0936,  2sday,  22  8. 23


hed heave his weight behind practical experienceHANDS DOWN

not booklearning not theory not school grades  not ACT SAT act sattinround 
                                                                                 rather flesh an blood experience
 

Why’s he so gungho?

Ask’im.

You know?

Ask’im.

That’s not an answer.
Nor it a question you should be askin’ me.

I will.

Talk’s cheap.


three days later
Ya’sk?

   Not yet.

Talk’s cheap.
I will.
Ya’ve said.


Joe?

Yah

Could I ask you something?

Depends always depends

I’ve heard you only buy into practical experience, not promising bright boys and girls.

curtly nodded Yave heard right

How’s that.

Pillows

   Excuse me?

Deaf
     Pillows   Have any imagination

Some.
       Though apparently not at your scale.

Wanna give it a night to think about

No. No I don’t.
                 Could never sleep on anything.

Not a pillow he chuckled he saw the discomfort in his face likely hed been sitting on it for awhile they all did  Pulling your chain Im happy to explain
                            You been involved in a menage a trois

Thought about it. No.

I have several times  Practical experience

No doubt.

No None
          I slept regularly with two pillow Not under my head but to the sides of it I like sleeping flat he looked at him looking Whas thabout You sleep with pillows

I have one.

Makes sense

It does?

Yaint been party to a menage a trois
                                       Makes perfect sense 

I suppose.

he didnt have a clue I lived with a girl for almost a year We busted up She left her pillow I had three pillows Found I coudnt sleep with threecoudnt satisfy em  coudnt give em equal time an attention
Hence
        Why woud I try to sleep with three womensatisfy em  Because practical experience has told me I cant

Theory suggests otherwise
                            Anmaybe But not long term   I don play the short game



three days later
Ya’sk?

I did.  I did.

Pillows?

Yeah.

Makes any sense to you?

Not at first. Though it intrigued me.
                                        Curiously . . it makes sense.

That’s what I think, I think so too.

2150,  Monday,  21  8. 23

21.8.23


sometimes yaget more than ya bargain for
                                              he hadnt bargained
fell into his lap


We ought to facetime.

Heard of it
              I don think so

Why not? I’d be nice to see your face.

Yaknow wha my face looks like

Yes, yes I do.
               But it’d be so nice to be able to see you while we talk.

I didnt like Skyping

You didn’t give it a chance.

Three three strikes an yer out
                                 I tried it didnt like it

But that was before.

Whas changed Still a two-dimensional representation
                                                          Im three-dimensional  No thank you



Are you facetiming me?

Am I

Looks like it.

I might have hit somethinWHY did you do tha

So we can facetime.

she was as beautiful as when he saw her in the flesh three weeks prior but this representation wasnt flesh
                                                                                                        I really don like this
Give it a chanceplease.

                            Gimme a second. Traffic was nutsI’m home later than I thought.  Lemme get comfortable.
she set the phone down 
he saw ceiling
I’m on speaker, you can still talk to me.

   Nice ceiling

You’re a real prince nice ceiling.   How was your day? Keep your nose clean? Didn’t provoke anyone?

No provocations You got me wrong
                                       I encourage people
Encourage?

Yes

Like encouraging your sister?

he was gobsmacked You heard about tha
I did.
Hey how comfortable do you need to be
Hushit.

Your ceiling isnt tha interesting  Mebbe if it wasnt sprayed if it was textured plaster with a trow . .
. . Nobody does tha anymore.

Anthas a shame A lost art

Don't change the subject, we're talking about your sister.

You were Im looking at your ceiling

Just another minute. You want me to be comfortable for our first facetime.

I made a mistake how beat the hell out of him

I ran into your sister. That’s how I know.

Is there nothing sacred . .
. . Between women . . no. Men are secretkeepers until they’re incentivised . . . paid enough.

Ill not refute tha

No you’ll not. So her birthday is coming up and she mentioned the yardman coming to trim her tre . .
. . Knock yourself out

You told her . . maybe he could trim her bush.

I did
      She refused to laugh she told me she wasnt going to encourage me  But thas wha I do  Tell me wha I can do to encourage you to stop me from having to look at your ceiling

   Tell me I’m pretty.
Yare pretty
she turned the phone at herself
Thank Goddess

   Thank Goddess, how cute are you?

Not as attractive as you  Comfortable

Yes. Thank you.
                  I’m comfortable. I opened a bottle of wine. You have something to drink?

I can

I’ll go with you. Lemme guess.
                                 A beer, shot of whisky.         

Very good though not original  Whaelse woud a polack drink

Not wine.

No Not that
             One sec the beer sighed as he pulled its tab  An were off  A good day babe

Another day in the salt mines.

 

they talkedimbibed nearly an hour
                                         So I gotta ask . . you think you’re coming around?
No  Im humouring you this once

This once . . nooo
                    she dropped the phone
it bounded off the plush bedroom carpeting flipped oncelanded glaring up
she wore only a tshirt
no panties
trimmed up nicely
pussy shaved  a nifty articulated chevron

   Mighty sweet grrl  yatryin to encourage me
 
1257,  Monday,  21  8. 23

Hominidscene Idscene  Egoscene    Voyeurscene 
                                                      4 strands nastilyknotted tangledup
a Macramescene

that can hold a ceramic pot
but not water


Media describes former as scared
                                    Scared    Please
why does it defer 
it ought to call a spade a spade 
                                hes frightened
Media ought to stringently clarify  formers as frightened as a little child
hes having a hard time holding his water

Please  Colour Him Frightened
                                 hes facing 4 trials 91 felonies currently that have been convened and will be tried by his peers

a frightened child whos convinced as a narcissist is that he is without peers

he be troubled swallowing that
                                  fearing it will stick in his throat choke him to death

although the courts duly will not have that 

theyre staffed with authentic certified heimlichers
   no sweat
             hell be around for each verdict

1326,  Sunday,  20  8. 23
2112,  Monday,  21  8. 23


tropical storm Hilary was moving through and he knew she would make for a cloudy morning



they met face to face for the first time a few weeks back
                                                             a friend shared her number
said shed seen him in town and was interested to meet him
He’s the bookwalker?

Excuse me?

Bookwalker. He walks around town reading.

Ohyes yes, excuse me, I hadn’t heard him called that before.  Some talent, huh?

Have you tried?
Walk and read?

Yes.

No.  For the life of me I can’t walk and chew gum at the same time.

I tried.

And . . how did it go?

It went. Seemed every crack I crossed had my name on it. I stumbled around like a drunk. I went around the blockthought if I walked on familiar terrain I’d have a better shot at it. 
                                                                          Failed miserable nearly broke my neck.

Maybe it was the book. Perhaps a different book . .
. . I don’t think so. I think he’s been doing it for a long time, although I appreciate you trying to blame the book for my failure.   

It’s said when you fall off the hors . .
. . Save it. Please. I’m not a fan of idioms.
                                             I can’t believe you know him.
Do you think . . maybe . I could meet himwe could meet?

I’ll ask. He’s not predictable.



Weve known each other a few years

Yes.

You know Im not keen on blind dates 
                                          Being setup
Yes.
       And as long as we've known each other I haven't.

You have not
                 he did value her itd be her fall from grace  made him chuckle

What’s funny?

Ill call her
              I cant call her friend  Whas her name

Laila.

Like the wellknown Hawaiian resort

Exactly. she rolled her eyes
                             
she knew him well ComonIwannalayya  Ill call Laila
                                                        Woudya like to let her know or shall I surprise her

Howbout I call, we’ll take one surprise of what will be too numerous to count off the table.
                                                                                                Go easy on her.
Nice try

Thought it was worth it.

he nodded
            easy wasnt in his vocabulary  or sweet



Laila stirred

he been awake awhile  watched her sleep 

he adored the play of her mouth a sweet pucker pout 
                                                         akin to that of a very young baby which he assumed meant they dreamed they were nursing   forever to be assumed he asked   they didnt say

Lailas eyes fluttered
                         sleepily Stop woudya.

Cant help myself   he kissed her forehead Youre beautiful

You can stop that too, you’ve already gotten into my pan . .
. . An I wanna keep getting into em

closing her eyesstretching she laughed
                                                fuckin dimples

Laila open your eyes sumptin I wanna show you  Been working on it since I woke

she opened them 
                      big beautiful almondshaped green eyes   Injun blood  Italian blood      

he leaned forward  kissed one eye then the other
                                                    then leaning back Yare going to shit
Not in bed . .
. . You will

Awright.   You wash the sheits.

I like it  Youve awakened clever

Yah. Clever usually doesn’t come until after coffee.

When were done Ill make coffee


What do I have to do to sheit.

Nothing Just lay back eyes open
                                    I got the sun on a dimmer switch  Watch
Dimmer switch?
                  her mouth did that babything  DAMMIT did it again hed flipspin her on top of himshe coud suck his cock hed eat her like a sugarcone stuffed deep with soft icecream
cleared his throat 
                  Where did you go?
Tellya showya later  Yaready

You’re awfully excited. 

I am  Ready

Me too. I am.
              the bedroom was flooded with sunlightangled faced East


Okay.
        Laila was breathing high in her chest 

Annow   Itll dim
                           the room began dimming


Now brighten
                       it brightened



Dim
      dimmed


Dimmer
               dimmered  nearly asif dawning

Little more light
                      lightened


Dim

         dimmed



All bright
          the sun gleamedshot through the window
he grabbed her astonished face 
kissed her deeply
                     Good morning  Ill make coffee

he slipped octopusquick out of bed

0757,  Monday,  21  8. 23
Awaken the Inner Spirit  Japanese Zen  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMOrgZXvgHY

20.8.23


he walked into the kitchen for another cup of coffee

on the floor a fly turned toward him
kowtowed

   It just kowtow to you
It did

   Whacha going to do
                         as heshe shehe asked he kowtowed
You kiddin me . .
. . Look
          Like I was kiddin

No
     Grimly serious


he bent overplaced his hand on the linoleum before the fly

it clambered into his palm
Hold tight little guy
                     he walked over to the kitchen window sprung the latch opened it they were under Hilary Watch a tropical storm waltzing up Baja first since 1939 the weather was odd  demur
                                                                                  he sensed it recognized the fly sensed it
it buzzed off his hand anwas gone


I woudnt believed it if I hadnt seen it with my own eyes

Petite miracle
                I believe they present all the time  But     

I think theres something more to your happens all the time

Not really
           Someone is either mindful or theyre not I believe Ive witnessed more than my share of remarkable happenstances The fly Possibly miraculous

I keep emhold em tight  I am grateful

You don speak of them

No 
     I actually wait for others to say

An do they

Its terribly rare  But its not no

   Id scream it from the rooftops

You might scream yourself hoarse 
                                      Be grateful for whaya have These arent great mysteries   Theyre gifts
 
1444,  Sunday,  20  8. 23


Wha cant be right  Whys he speaking gibberishthey werent tha high he wasnt   but maybe buddy was
Sorry  Again

his eyes rolledhead went back like a cobra readying to strike
                                                                 although he was a fangless
Yup  Rocked
Again

his hood collapsedcleared his throat  Again?

If you woudnt mind I don think I heard ya right an Im pretty sure wha I heard was incorrect

Why would I be incorrect?

Outside your wheelhouse

snake leftwas replaced by a terrier-mix tilting its head  Nipper before a gramophone horn iconic dog used in advertisements for Victor Talking Machine Company                                                                                                                                You think you know my stee . . steering . no . . . whee . .
. . House
          Yah I do
I want you to say before I say because if I say first youre gonna say thas wha I said See
                                                                                              Anya saw it before I did flying just over the top of the pool which likewise when I spotted the paprika dragonfly an pointed it out to you

That was nuts couldn't believe it landed on your hand when you held it out.

It was freakin cool

You didn’t seem surprised.

I was hoping

Hoping.
         That a dragonfly lands on your hand.

I exude good juju
                       So wha did you sayplease
What?

Not wha  Flying over the pool

Ah you mean the  ah butteryfly.

Thas inventive  Although might wanna stop youll hurt your brain
                                                                        Whadidya call it
I called it what it is.
Christ
     Don labour thisno need  just please say

gruffly I said swallowtail.

There there you go I coud have bledout in the interim since asking

Was that what you heard?

No nah Formally a couple syllables longer although my slang mispronunciation one more quinsaycoatel   Thawas the hitch in my gittyup Had they been equally parsed I woudave allowed it eventhough questionable  given your wheelhouse In mine not yours
                                 Turning to look I woud have shit if it was Quetzalcoatl
It don’t fly.

It does Aztec Mayan  A flying dragon

   I think you’re wrong.

I don think I believe believe  I know wha Im talkin about
                                                                Yare welcome to look on your phoneI know yawanna 
Its killing ya

An eat crow
Who also fly

Quetzalcoatl winging its way over the pool woud have been awesome

afternoon,  Reggaefriday,  19 5. 23
0928,  Sunday,  20  8. 23
Hako Yamasaki  13の女の子  no idea what tha means  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0-sm61Kxa8


he aint going anywhere

like Monopoly a Chance or Community Chest card 
                                                     GO DIRECTLY TO JAIL DO NOT PASS GO, DO NOT COLLECT $200

Secretaries of State must disqualify former to run for president in 2024

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PndXVq3zF4c

1702,  Saturday,  19  8. 23