play hardball

he couldnt help himself 

                        likely a flaw in his righteous personality that he didnt mind expressing countervailing arguments welcome 

he wanted to continue on in the vein the lack of equivalence false equivalency between the Democratic Party and Republicans 

              it aint coin  not heads or tails 

that said 

           if Bush the Younger could roll out Office of Legal Counsel  OLC John Yoos decision regarding Enhanced Interrogation – in violation of US lawAMERICA doesnt tortureAbu Ghraib God bless you – Ofuck no we didnt  we handed that deal off to black sites scattered around the world countries coerced “willing” to torture people for us – products of Extraordinary Rendition – which only makes sense  Americas Exceptional shes Indispensable 

   if Bushwhacker and his Neocon cohorts got away with it  President Biden can play the Full Faith and Measure card the Constitutions 14th Amendment 

                                            not like it is a Zero-Sum game 

nobody has to die because Biden played his hand

  Whadahell  fiscally the whole world hangs in the balance     

1951,  Monday,  22  5. 23

John Yoo  OLC  https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2011/05/the-unrepentant-john-yoo-enhanced-interrogation-got-us-bin-laden/238356/ 

https://ballsandstrikes.org/legal-culture/decline-and-fall-of-john-yoo/ 

https://constitution.congress.gov/browse/essay/artIV-S1-1/ALDE_00013015/#:~:text=Full%20Faith%20and%20Credit%20shall,Proceedings%20of%20every%20other%20State 

https://www.heritage.org/american-founders/commentary/why-american-exceptionalism-different-other-countries-nationalisms

she was a singer in a band playing at a bar he frequented

first time he witnessed live music there which was to say they may have when he wasnt there

she was sultry tasty  her voice matched her looks 

                                                     he had to buy her a drink 

usually House covered the band but he didnt see any glasses among the instruments an equipment when he came in mid-set  

he knew the House it didnt pay any more than it had to  was in a word shrewd 

she didnt bother with the stepsjumped off the short stagesidestepped guys who were attracted to her like iron filings to a magnet 

         she walked right up to him Buy me a drink?

he took plenty of sneers Thaswha I was thinking 

I read your mind. he believed her I’m Jodie. she raised her hand to shake

                                                                            taking it firm grip Joe

Whawoud you like he thought a shot and a beer

They have a nice selection of IPAs Stone Lagunitas, I’ll let you run the risk. A couple fingers of whisky too please, straight.

You still reading my mind

Could be. Let’s see if you can read mine.

If Im right dumb luck Lets take a table he started towards onegrabbed a couple of stools as they went he seated her 

Such a gentleman. 

If I aint my mother will materialise an brain me

she laughed gloriouslydidnt cover her mouth loved her dimples 

                                                                  Ill be right back 

walking to the bar he passed the House who was making a beeline to Jodie

tossed a look over his shoulder House hadnt reached her she was shaking her head no

House wasnt there when he returned 

                                        Here ya go he set the drinks on the table 

My my my, pretty close to reading my mind.

Ya gave me hints I paired the whisky

You paired? tilted her head appreciatively

Yah stole the line from wine snobs One thing they got right

Not a fan?

I am not Not wine not snobs 

                                But you probably read tha

she laughed again 

                      You’re funny. 

Im inspired 

             he tookup the whiskies handed her one Heres lookin at you 

   Kid.

he smiled Bogart

Casablanca.

I like thaya know tha

I like that you were thinking it. 

                                 Here’s looking at you, kid. they clicked glasses sipped 

Oh, what’s this?

Irish Twelve year Redbreast 

                               Tryin to plant some seeds 

Don’t miss a trick.

Try not to

she sipped again 

                     Club owner wants us to play another set. 

I woudnt mind

He doesn’t want to shell out any more dough.

I woud mind

Like minds, I told him he got what he paid for.

More Ive not seen this place packed but Im not a regular 

                                                             Wha do your bandmates think 

I don’t care . . . I’m working on something else.

he choked on his sip stepped off his stool

she laughed more gloriously outlandishly 

                                            came around behind himhugged him You couldn’t read my mind?

Jesus he cleared his throat Yare something

You have no idea.

Id like to find out

Might scare you.

Ill be the judge of that 

                       he thought a moment  Spose I ought to up my life insurance 

Look at you reading my mind.

0509,  Saturday,  20  5. 23

1447,  Monday,  22  5. 23

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNMEktJDArA

sometimes ya gotta take the bull by the horns 

                                               this story had him by the balls

Republican Missouri senator Josh Hawley who in 2021 fistpumped the January 6 insurrectionists then was filmed hours later scampering through the bowels of the Capitol FOR HIS LIFE has written a book called Manhood: The Masculine Virtues America Needs

AwComon  he cant be the only one howling

to quote Hawley

                  . . . get out of your parents’ basement (kind of stereotypical – unless young white men truly enjoy the entitlement to live in their parents’ basement – how nice is that? able to own a house) . . . maybe ask a girl on a date, even better get married, start a family, get a job; we need you to be a contributor in this society.

   now mebbe its just himBUT doesnt preceding asking a girl on a date getting married starting a family REQUIRE having a job first 

                 unless – white Missouri males  perhaps religious to their eyeballs – can truly enjoy the entitlement to have their wife and children live in his parents basement

if dat true 

           hes a middleaged white orphan who would love to be adopted he wouldnt drag extra mouths into the familydidnt need a modest 70inch HD flatscreen TV or hundreds of cable stations College/NFL GAMEDAY packages

he wasnt a picky eater either  

1747,  Monday,  22  5. 23

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cKkG-1lpp-w

he woke immediatelythought Christ whatime is it

glancing at the clock on the gnawed wood feedtrough  illuminated hands

                                                                              5:09AMNOPE

he wasnt done dreaminghadnt had enough bombarded by nonsequential episodes no telling what hed find when the channel changed

he just left a chick he hooded an collaredleashed shed be wondering where the hell he wentComon  he promised her a good time she was all in

shed wait

he quizzed his body ganglion 

                               We gotta take a leak Nah  Gotta shit No  Sowhy am I up   Yare havin too good a time needed a breather   Breathe on someone elses time 

                                                     sucked in a deep breathdove back in submerged himself 

   There there she was hadnt even begun tapping her footMiss me 

Where did you go? her voice hushed by the muslin hood

Was exited stage left hooked deus ex machinaed snatched she giggled without an ask get your mind out of the gutter You said snatchedSometimes I did sometimes the crew hypersensitive jealous voyeurs tha they are demand tithes attention

I was having too much fun You cool

We turn ‘em on? 

Hands on cocks fingers on the triggers 

Clits? 

Yasaid it        

   Yes yes, I am cool.

Thought so

           gently taking the leash she held in her hands he turnedtossed the intricate chain over his shoulderwent to give it a tug but she was up against his back warm orbs on his shoulder blades  she was as tall as he 

                                                                                                            Where we off to?

Flyin to the moon

Take the long way home or I’ll drag my feet.

Not those beauties Howbout you hop up an Ill give ya a horsey ride she giggled  

                                                                                   Horsey ride.

Yare a step ahead of me Maybe you ought to give me a ride they giggled obscenelyapparent then off to a side he watched them  they were washed outreduced to lines drawn an opaque transparency it silvered now boundsilhouettes a silvered curtain moving to their breaths darkening in places moist then an acute grid projected against it madeup of gameboard faces playing cards tarot tickets boarding passes menus the images growing smaller the images multiplying denser the curtain stiffenscongeals shatters puzzlesgeometrically falling bit by bit the bits like ash

                                                                                            a blindingFLASH 

when his vision restored  in some unknown furnished drawingroom tapestries hung fireplace woodsmoke spice  warm

she stood before him

the muslin hood unfurling 

                           flower chrysalis opening yawning spiraling falling on her shoulder a stole

 

   There . . there you are where did you go? her eyes were bright with tears she hugged him 

                                                                                                 her breasts truss

0509,  Saturday,  20  5. 23

1147,  Monday,  22  5. 23

The Electric Prunes  I Had Too Much to Dream Last Night  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xRRT92Fpgs  

Sinatra  Fly Me to the Moon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZEcqHA7dbwM 

Supertramp  Take the Long Way Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPRrHyXchEY 

Al’Tarba x I.N.C.H.  Connect Cunts  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HlI_C5hpcsk

The First Edition  Just Dropped In (To See What Condition My Condition Was In)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=meJP410N9Gg 

Faces  I Know I’m Losing You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uP4CEPaiAzU

The Righteous Brothers  You’ve Lost That Lovin’ Feelin’  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xLiUp3-jCH0

falsies  pushup bras that fakeout admirers 

Definitely 

            False equivalences  hes a dyed-in-the-wool heterosexual ardent hard-on heterosexual an could care less what goes on in other peoples bedroom backseats sprawled-in-parks as long as no ones being hurt without their permission     

   Republican party v. Democratic party                                                 

Democrats got real titsthe Real deal 

NADA 

        Republicans 

not that tits are everything

however item by item by item by item by item 

per se

        toxic white supremacy v. the United States of America  the Enemy within 

a majority of House Republicans voted in 2020 that the election was riggedillegitimate  President Biden did not win the election 

         he didnt look possibly majority Senate as well

the Republican party is not equal is not an equivalent of the Democratic party

they should NOT be treat as such

   he wouldnt ride passenger in a car driven by a retard  apparently others would

1558,  Sunday,  21  5. 23

. . . Awright  Ifya play the game correctlyactually be yourself he laughedhe laughed a bit harder than he wanted

What’s so funny?

   You  Be yourself 

                        Im gonna askya to answer my questionpreference without thinking just hear it an BAMsay  Ya know  how you usually answersay things

he turned his headcraned his neck reminded him of a chicken thensuddenly arrested by paralysis 

                                                                                                  You’re mistaken. 

I am not Aint a soul puts their foot in their mouth more often than you

                                                                           Its a natural reflex

I don’t think . .

. . No you don

he sneeredwasnt a goodlook on him  I was going to say . . since your natural inclination is to interrupt . .

. . When ya know whas gonna come out of somebodys mouth cant see any sense in waiting for it

There.

Yes

There . . you interrupted me. 

I was saying . . . I do not think so.

I believe so Believing is firmament strongermore robust than thinking

he snorted You’re so full of shit.

Absolutely 

           Thasaid  staying somewhere out of town hotel or motel room

Where am I?

Say woudya or Ill say for ya

Where would I be staying?

In a hotel

Im saying it is dependent . . 

. . The question had no bearing on wherewas a simple question  An Im right 

                                                                                   Absolutely

Which you absolutely despise 

The reason you’d stay . .

. . The money The reason Id stay in a motel is because its cheaper than a hotel It is   But thas not why I prefer them I like walking out the door into a parking lot than a hallway

                                                              No airsno pretending to being something more than a place a bed a shower

If you had . .

. . Id spend the money I saved on something I needed Need outweighs want man 

                                                                                       An besides  I dig tackyalways have

Good clean tacky 

You underestimate motels

2340,  Thursday,  18  5. 23

1247,  Sunday,  21  5. 23

rotten luck 

out of his hands before it occurred to himhad a chance to get them around someones throat 

   ebooks aint books 

he wanted to read With William Burroughs: A Report from the Bunker   sounded desperate an who doesnt comportcontend with DesperateDesperation on occasionCOMON

                                                                   it was Burroughs  Burroughs of Beat fame cut-ups queer renegade Naked Lunch addict fame who shot his wife in the headkilling her at a party performing the old William Tell bit of shooting an apple off the top of his sons head 

                                                            that stuck with him

he watched the television show the heroic swashbuckling adventures but thought the crossbow was cheaty 

                                                                                                                 progress

of the last ten books he went on-line to see if the library had access to hard copies in its system sevenSEVEN  were available only as ebooks 

he approached a librarian seated at the front desk to see what could be done about accessing a physical book

she apprised him that if a book was acquired as an ebook THAT was the only available copy provided the Public  it would not acquire a printed one 

                                  progress

You understand the library has effectively chosen to censor books an prefer prejudice against some of its patrons  Lemme put it another way it intends to offer only one ice cream flavour 

                                                                           progress 

he no longer had to imagine all the books he wouldnt read because there wasnt time enough rather he was denied them

 

0152,  Sunday,  21  5. 23

1013,  Sunday

https://www.historyandheadlines.com/november-18-1307-william-tell-shoots-apple-sons-head-real-heroes-mere-legends/

sensibilities

   senses abilities 

                    5  don let em go to waste  lock away the Three wisenheimer Monkeys

See No Evil  Mizaru miserable

Hear No Evil  Kikazaru no cock in hand 

Speak No Evil  Iwazaru  I was no hero 

there is no Evil

                 theres good and bad 

he was checkingup on his senses abilities from last century 

                                                                . . . every year I begin a new journal  it is the perfect depository for my thoughts observations the usual mayhem I attribute myself as I am to some distant reader know or unknown to fix myself my perceptions my History those things which happen day to day  all things that comprise our lives 

      he cited a private friend  Peggy Lee   “Is That All There Is?” 

Whell  he remained unalloyed unchanged 

he wasnt surprised

                     he could honestly say that since his epiphany as a nine year old boy when he figured his life was his ownbelonged to him he wasnt living to please his parents grandparents teachers his large extended family not the few friends he could relate with 

                                    he lived to please himself 

others thought that selfish 

No 

     putting oneself firstforemost forms healthy enduring relationships  he did not want to be swamped by a force of family and friends he understood that he was responsible for himself and that no one other than he was responsible for his happiness  without that peg pounded in at the apex his rawhide hung downhis choice extending it to others would honestly not help them 

   senses abilities     

0122,  Thursday,  4  1. 1990

2306,  Thursday,  18  5. 23

1655,  Saturday,  20  5. 23

Peggy Lee  Is That All There Is?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QPP6UgkmyM4 

Awmygawd  he thought Woudya shutup

he opened his mouth didnt give much mind what he was talking aboutshooting from the hip

                                                                                                  he was a lousy shot 

Woudya shut your piehole

So what do you think? 

Ya don wanna know what I think  Brayed brayed  brayed    

I mean really, what do you think?

Yawanna give yourself a pause 

                                     Yawanna thinkwho yare talkin to 

What do you mean?

Thas a good questionyare thinking 

                                        Think a bit more

I don’t know what you mea . . 

. . Actually ya do 

                      Let it simmer cure  marble   effervesce 

I can't unless I know what you’re talking about.

Were talkinbout your how shall I say thisYOUR  idiotic query  

                                                                    Ya might wanna save someones feeling tha you care about  an I don

I don’t figure.

Do you remember the question

   Hint 

You asked me wha I thought . . 

. . About what?

Gawddammit  Let me say this 

                                 As hominids evolved  a branch tha might have spunoff you woud have withered an died

Christ. 

        Jesus man, that’s rud . . 

. . NO  Yare ask was rude 

                             Which is why Im laboring not to answer you  Give you another shot at the merry-go-rounds brass ring saveya some grief   Save  Annabel  some grief

HINT

he walked ahead of him kicking small stones off the hardpack earthenpath that skirted the in-the-ground pool apron he lead him onto away from her so she couldnt hear 

                                                    she tried to hear everything

she was disgruntled when he motioned for her to stayput in the chaise lounge where she sat

WHAT? erupted out of him 

   Ill tell ya 

              Wha the Venn diagramyou an your fuckin Venns  would looklike of Annabels an my interaction    

Thered be a single circle  It woudnt be an overlap  Itd be hers   My circle isnt even in her orbit her scheme of things 

Youd be better off imaginingasking wha hers an yours woud look like

I don’t know what to say. 

NO You havent a clue 

                          Not wha to say not wha to askHushit  Please    I wanna think yare sharper than this

1330,  Reggaefriday,  19  5. 23

1604,  Saturday,  20  5. 23

he whistled a wolf whistle

people stoppedlooked

thats why he did it

                    he wanted to attraction their attention because Americans have been conditioned crass news cycles to lack longterm memory  to not remember a damn thing

WOLFWHISTLED to get their attraction  remind them 

                                                 TRUMPVIRUS 

hed been lax

             he hadnt said in 36days  last 14April  then 1,158,017 had died 

today the tally he used the word specifically because it was grotesque 1,164,019 are dead 

                                                                                          167 Americans a day 

sez so  because he refuses to forget

1214,  Saturday,  20  5. 23

wolf whistle black humour  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZaPScHXacM

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

she sat on her handsrocked back n forth back n forth  lookedqueer   made him uncomfortable

                                                                                                     in spite of her beauty

he asked Is tha a tic

suddenlystopped Where?  sharplyratcheting her head left right anagain hands stayed put she turned on them as she lookedglared   she barked Where?

Jesus realising he upset her No no  not the insect no  Tic  a tic T I C   An idiosyncrasy 

   Idio ah tic ah  the tension anxiousness leaked like air from a toy balloon abating dissipating  she rolledlolled her head her neck shoulders loosening 

                                     she eyed him I’m sorry I’m sorry . . I hate ticks . a little girl trauma . . they make my skin crawl.

Looked traumatic

a brokensmile crept on her lips That would be . friend . . . an understatement.

I apologise I didnt mean to make you uncomfortable

You didn’t know. 

                      An idiosyncrasy? 

Sitting on your hands

Ah that . . I forget I do it. 

                           I’m prone to gesticulate. haha  There’s tic again. 

Aw beat me to the punch

I’d punch you back.

                     she rocked her hips rockedleft freeing her right hand rockedright freed her left snapped her wrists getting blood flowing in her hands   My mother insists it’s unladylike to gesture. 

   Shes not here

                     I think whashe don know  wont kill her  

No. she giggled softly No, I suppose it won’t.

No it wont You be you 

                         I know we don know each other well but I like you  A moment ago you were nakedly yourself unabashed   honest  I find them exceptional qualities

   My mother wouldn’t like you.

Never can tell I have a way with mothers   Often theyve sealed the deal . .

. . Deal, sealed the deal? a lilt in her ask

Yes, acted as closers Women Ive met dated have had  er wha shall we call it . . 

. . We? You. 

                What do you call it?

Yes Correct 

               Wha do whawoud I call it  he put his hands together in his lap fingers interlaced looking down at them Now whos sitting on their hands  he smiled

she laugheddidnt cover her mouth then smiled large he was jealous of her dimples 

                                                                                     Your dimples are fetching

Thank you you’re not answering the question.

You interrupted

You seemed stymied.

Words matter   I was trying toas Im not often to explain this 

                                                                Women Ive dated have been  reticent at first unsure he chuckled I am charming apparently Theyre kinda of like native Brown trout hard to make raise flyfishing   cautious

Cautious.  Curious.   absently noddedwas sitting on her hands again 

                                                                          A fair assessment.  Honest. 

I am 

      I woud also say  many had been burned in the past By dishonestyhonesty may be queer unsettling  but I also understand I can be unsettling which is why I was struck by your remark

   Lonesome aberration?

Yes

       Ive been called worse     smiled

2320,  Thursday,  18  5. 23

1126,  Saturday,  20 5. 23

Octopus Diver  Black Cloud’s Shadow (33:18 minute-mark)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QY3-YeMEgdc