9.3.23


he was the last man on the planet

he hadnt had time to think about it was pitted survived instinctually  didnt think woe is me

   finally
           a placespace  for himself 


he was alone along time 
                             there was no point in striking hashmarks or diddling with what day it might be 


then oneday
               a blueeyed doe entered the glade he found and made home 

she was unafraid

he welcomed her

they struck a companionship

he believed it was based on them having the same colouredeyes

he didntcouldnt know what she believed

that they were familiar was sufficient

wordless communication the talk of lovers 
                                             he was grateful he learned that before the maelstrom
before the unforgiveness 
                         the ensuing violence  hotblood foam   his determinedunrelenting luck
 

   where had she been before she appeared
she may have been nowhere 

then became 


strange

unexpected 

   he was also grateful to learn unexpectedness

1340,  Sunday,  19  2. 23
1252,  Thursday,  9  3. 23


I did a doe read Ididadoe 
                                  phonaesthetics 
whas not to like 
a blueeyed doe
they spoke the same language

believe me he vowed Cross my heart hope to die stick a needle in my eye
                                                                             he recalled tha childhood pledge
never crossed anyone who took him into their confidence 
ixnay on the unsgay 
secret was secret 
                  not secreted like snickering slobber not like some who imagined they suddenlyheld leverage

  but he digressed 


Ididadoe is precious
    
1340,  Sunday,  19  2. 23
356preferred to 1556,  Thursday,  9  3. 23


I dreamt 


she was a witch

she shriekedSTOP or I’ll cut your hands off.

   I thought for a moment 
                           if whaever I was doingI didnt know wha had elicited such a threat whellthen Id keep doing wha I was doing 
                    every hill Ive encountered has been worth dying on so why the fuck woud I be different now
so I kept at 
            whaever it was 


I did wake

I woke

my hands still grew out of my wrists

did I falter

did she decline

   I did not know 
my dream cut out went dark 
                             something churnedI couldnt see black marbling on blackI couldnt see  
she was a witch 
I am mortal 
              perhaps Mortal is an underratedmisunderstood weapon

I woke with my hands

before 8AM, Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  3. 23
1136,  Thursday,  9  3. 23
Ginger Baker/Air Force  Early in the Morning  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJlSyapiV84 

8.3.23


Things people begin modestly 
                                 Some grow immodest  An still others grow obscene    Ive recognised tha  you 

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Im speakingin particular of stadiums an churches An speaking then of those who inhabit them

he cocked his head like a pigeon 
                                  I’m still not following you.

Whawoudyasay is a modest church How many pews wha capacity

I haven’t . . 
. . Stop 
        You grew up in California attended a Mission church  It was modest wasnt it

Yes, although as you likely know, it was built as the others were a long time ago.

Arya equating modest with when they were built

Ohyes . . I’d think so, wouldn’t you? 

   No
       Lets recognise cathedrals pyramids  Egyptian Mesoamerican Mayan Aztec

That’s different.

No  Theyre older
                   I woud described them obscene

Obscene. he let it rollround in his mouth 
                                        Isn’t that hars . . 
. . No accurate  Obscene   Indecent 
                                       As inequality today is obscene  Lets use tha to texturise obscene create a reference  I don want ya stuck wrangling obscene  akin to something sexual  It seems as timemodern time has progressed it aggregates becomes greedy cant be satisfied remain modest

he shrugged
             Supply and demand.
Greed 
      Aint nothing comparable to American capitalism its greed  Im simply pointing out tha it even affects religion  Those at the top dictate an consume more than who theyve been delegated to serve

   I don’t see it. 

Nah  Yare blind

1349,  Reggaefriday,  3  3. 23
1741,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  3. 23

A friend of mine once said . .  
. . Whos your friend

   They said I was . . 
. . Your friend who

Let me speak . . 
. . When you can say who this friend is 


I suspect this friend is no one is nothing  is you 
                                                 Yaoughta say I  I believe  I am the most persecuted person in the history of our country You don have a friend who has said that to youof you Its wha ya believe 
                                                                                              Such a victim Been victimised all your life Victimised when your daddy pulled your ass out of the fire time an time again

   An now ya say to CPAC  I am your retribution

Yare a boil on Americas ass tha needs to be lanced 

1147,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  3. 23

retribution  https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2023/mar/05/i-am-your-retribution-trump-rules-supreme-at-cpac-as-he-relaunches-bid-for-white-house

3.3.23


a buddy rang me

asked if I wanted to go to New York 
                                       Yahsure man  When

In a couple of hours, I’ll stop by pick you up. We’ll spend a day so pack a valise, a small bag, overnight.

Cool

Yeah, very cool. 
                 We’re going for Airplane at the Hotel Schuyler

   Jefferson

None other.

That was ’68 wha areya talking about

November 19 to be precise 
                            Got us a room there, 57 West 45th Street, New York 36, N.Y.

That hotels been razed

Has beenyah. But it’s there in ’68. 
                                    That’s where we’re going.

   Awright  Im in

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rx_08cambjA

SEE YAS ‘ROUND day-between-two-Ts  8  3. 23 

1122,  Reggaefriday,  3  3. 23

he was incredulousHow tall are you

she smiledup at him and nodded 
How tall are you

she kept nodding beauteously 


How tall are you

49 inches.

   How tall

49 inches.

he should have been more concerned with how old she was 
                                                             fortunately of age 
she tore him up

1619,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  3. 23
1100, Reggaefriday,  3  3. 23

2.3.23


disadvantaged people born into it more frequently than others are born into fantastic entitlement and will not admit they were

   Whell
         When you learn you cant expect much in this life you woud look forward to a next an even perhaps wonder how ya messedup the prior one  or even others before it

Do you really believe that?

Its not a matter of wha I believe he leaned in towards him  An Ill go a step furthur
                                                                                      Whaya think you believe ya don know either

I can say . .
. . No you cant  Whereof Thereof  Wittgenstein 

   I can say . . 
. . Ignorantly You do not knowknow it to be fact or not true yare making an assumption Whereof one cannot speak thereof one must be silent

You can’t say what I know or don’t know.

Are you using absolutism either/or Yaoughta understandshoud know to choose is always to exclude some other possibility that one could have chosen
I know I don know  Either Or
                                Although I agree you can assume But you ought to say that rather than I can say Try to impose your know on me Aint happenin

I’m saying chances are we have one life and no others.

Which yare welcome to as others are welcome to their belief without your sneer  Or dare I say  your judgment 
Matthew chapter seven King James Bible lines one and two Judge not tha ye be judged and For with wha judgment ye judge ye shall be judged and with wha measure ye mete it shall be measured to you again 


You’re impossible to talk to.

Talk at impossible to talk at
                              It is not semantics splitting hairs parsing language One shoud be accurate precise an not shoot from the hipever  Think before you speak  Though you consistently do an I have no choiceabsolutely no choice other than to challenge you  

   I don’t challenge you when I can.

Please do

1451,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  3. 23
1319,  Thursday,  2  3. 23


the spelling of wordswords themselves fascinated him

it was and wasnt funny to be breezing along reading and have his eyes trip and stumble  agile critters theyve yet to fall out of his head
                    they turnedsuddenly looked at each other  chorused Yasee tha! 
                                                                                      quickly he interceded if he hadnt theyd jump into one of their effervescent rants leaving him at a standstill blind alongside the edge of a coarse road made without sidewalks  Yaguys saw wha ya saw

disgruntled they settled back in their sockets
                                               one spelled I L E C H U K W U   the other sharper intoned It’s also spelled E L O C H U K W U  Igbo. Nigerian origin.   A boy’s name the other said  Means God’s Will.   the other chided Not Gods’ Will? Traditionally their religion believes in a creator god, an earth goddess, many deities, spirits, as well as ancestors who protect their living descendants. They covered all their bases.

vision dimming he interrupted again Coud we have this conversation at home  You can knock yourselves out there  Meanwhile were standing at the edge of a crummy road  Whadayasay guys

they grumbled 
              they were wise not to play the We-may-not-remember card  hed remember
he was fascinated by the spelling O G B A N J E which he recalled another Nigerian writer used children who come and go hatchlings godlings

Can we keep walking

Yes.

And well keep reading Freshwater

Ohyes please.

If an I suspect we will come upon other words I willI promise stop and write them down for us to discuss at home Deal

Can we marvel briefly?

Marvel  Briefly

Deal.

1451,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  3. 23
1200 – yahooHIGH NOON,  Thursday,  2  3. 23
Jefferson Airplane  Lather  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmSOWxV8vjQ

began his morning pissed at PSSI – Packers Sanitation Services Inc. – it "employed 102 children at 13 slaughterhouses across eight states. The children were cleaning blood and animals parts lets not casually read ANIMAL PARTS  if they were human animal parts wed be horrified off the floor of meatpacking (factories) by night and going to school by day.”

officials – not identified as either Department of Justice or U.S. Department of Homeland Security – said the companies themselves are not targets of the investigation WHY?

PSSI spokesperson Gina Swenson – finally a name – said “We have been crystal clear that we do not want (but we’ll take ‘em) a single person under the age of 18 working for the company. We have trained and retrained (maybe they ought to reretrain) our hiring employees on how to actively spot identity theft – as part of our extensive (please define extensive, and not belabour it as President Clinton famously could: “It depends on what the meaning of the word ‘is’ is. If the –if he – if ‘is’ means is and never has been, that is not – that is one thing . . .”)  as part of our extensive efforts to enforce this absolution prohibition -- swung and missed 102 times -- against employing anyone under the age of 18.” 


he did understand that migrant children are closer to the floor than adults and therefore can clean it with less effort

0906,  Thursday,  2  3. 23

1.3.23


when stumbling on his wordslosing concentration he often blurted something nonsensical

been awhile  but he topped himself 
                                        . . . the illusion of consciousness.

Illusion 
          Consciousness is not an illusion

I’m repeating what one of the Four Horsemen said.

Who

eyes darted side to side
                           One 

Drawing a blank on their names
                                   Trouble taming your overload

Train of thought went on without me.

Left standing at the station hands dug deep in your pockets

Kind of.

The four are  well place your boy Sammy first Sam Harris . .
. . Ah yes.

My favourite second Christopher Hitchens   Then . . . 


I can’t think.

Hint

No. You know keep going.

Dawkins and Dennett Richard  Daniel

Yes yes, you’re correct.  How do you remember?

You know

Your interminable long memory.

Yah 
     If I wasnt so fond of it Id call it the bane of my existence

   Bane.

Germanic origins Old English bana Thing causing death or poison I remember by thinking banana  times I toss an h at the end  bananah   Bana Nah no 
                                       A long memory  Has served me well
Back to your illusion of consciousness 
                                         Its not an illusion Yamay have crossed it up with some thing or another
eyes darted side to side 
                          You know me. Possible.      

Eluded your wheelhouse  Railway turntable

he gave him a hard look 
                           Apropos.
I thought 
          I remember a youtube you recommended Danny Boy Dennett He was talking about user illusion People exploited by their devises computers not understanding wha make the machines tick  Hence an illusion of consciousness  Maybe wha yawere thinking

Maybe. I don’t know.  Can we skip it?

Yah Though one last thing  Consciousness 
                                               I bang your hand with a hammer pain woud ring consciousness bell yah

Yes.

Good  Carry on   Whacha wanna discuss next

I can’t think.

Homo erectus  Homely erectus

he tossed him a glance
                          Where’d that come from?

Where do hard-ons come from  Hell if I know  Think it was just standing next in line  hands deep in its pockets

329 preferred to 1529,  Saturday,  25  2. 23
1054,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  3. 23


The Irish Tenors  Danny Boy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXQ03XUwe_s 

Savoy Brown  I’m Tired – Where I am  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cxzzmBoNMMA


caught his eye 
                        FLATULENCE 

Ahnope maybe your eyes didnt focus when you looked  Or sigh you crossed them

It was about FOX

I saw The wordthe title at Chris Hayes back was fraudulence

Oh
    Yahbut both would seem appropriate   Woudnt you agree

Not going there Cant bait me

he acted asif he were jiggling an imaginary fishing rod 
                                                          Here fishy fishy 

they responded by snapping their mouth shut audibly

2018,  Twosday,  28  2. 23
0944,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  3. 23

a tricky eye  Bernie Sanders’ Forgiveness, looks mighty close too    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OU7UWCbXbI

 

HEY BIG BROTHER
got my reasons

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXJfz4azOQs

28.2.23


he was a bull in china shop when he let his emotions get the best of him  greedy emotions

so knowing that he put all his valuables up high  away  out of harms reach

   his great fortune

he was not wellheeled 


wellheeled 
            he hoped it yet retained currency  was remembered  though may be archaic today 

he had believed it meant being well shod so imagine his surprise when he learned it did not  its original expression referred to cockfighting  meant providing ones bird good sharp spurs artificial heels  to inflict damage

he hadnt seen a cockfight or was interested so much for machismo his brutality was learned inflicted  with fists not gamed with birds or animals   

may have come to him from the old neighbourhood the dago shoemakers shop 
                                                                                           Maybe
shoes though
               

he had also believed his temperament preceded him

he didnt have to ask We really gotta go there
                                                  but maybe it wasnt his temperament either
may have been his face and hands

he didnt use a mirror shaved by feel 
                                     but if he stood before a mirror held up a fist beside his face he could imagine a coin toss which was uglier

Ahwell so much the cost of refusing to step back step away be willing to fight for something he believed in 

   he was obviously not perfect 

1100,  Monday, 27  2. 23

 
   Wha do you do when you cant sleep 
                                            Really    Whadaya do 

he did one of twoNo  one of three things

he wrote
read 
or masturbated
                 itd be so much easier if had he a threefaced coin to flip   Whawoud that be Heads Tails Cunts Cocks for the ladies 
                 what hed give to see tha coin stamped 

he imaginedfigured 
                      the Treasury coud make a bundle collecting entry fees after announcing his proposed coin let artists engravers numismatists pornographers go nuts creatively pummel each other as they vie to be awarded Creator the first three“headed” coin   or maybe
                                                    he coud be a bit more decisive

0049,  Monday,  27  2. 23
Marvin Gaye  Let’s Get It On  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6QZn9xiuOE

27.2.23

3 years 
       HA in the big scheme   in the big scheme of things are we truly part of that It doesn’t sound like much. some might say  but he figured those people may have spoken without thinking or hopefullyfortunately have had pretty good lives the last 3 years 

  people assess time 
                        by what happens to them not that theyre selfish  and what we do do really well is that we cant stop ourselvesthink things throughwe shoot from the hip dont pause to imagine time  things from anothers perspective 
  hope Gee, I’m sorry. cuts it   I apologise. might not I’m sorry.  

the world may be full of sorry people who speak without wondering what the last 3 years may mean to someone else
 
  maybe had he wrote  Onethousandnintyfive days 
                                                                  that sounds like something 
1095 days denied 
                   days he has felt one by one by one waking in the morning saying Good morningvisualising a good positive memory before getting out of bed

because if he didnt

he may not get out of bed


  but since a boy hes made his bed every morning
 


Aniela lived 14,918 days

he had many more memories than that of her

appears shell keep him busy for a while
                                                                        a long while 
until he was stopped

2230,  Sunday,  26  2. 23
2323,  Sunday
Paul Davis  I Go Crazy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nhu3orNqZu4 woke to this song in his head  
Maroon 5  Memories (everybody hurts)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SlPhMPnQ58k  
Nahko Bear  Medicine for the People  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsgP8LkEopM 

26.2.23


Is truth a bias

Jesus Christ, really? an uncomfortable question.

   Nah  nahreally not given our current political climate the distortions lies fantasy on the Right A fair question Ya can bet your sweet ass the talkin heads who are not journaliststhough act asif they are  present themselves tha they are believe truth is biased

I don’t know that.

You do 
        Although I can appreciate yare guarded taking into account the horseshit yare willing to put up with from your family who stinkYes of white fear entitlement are Republicans religious  Gawds on their sideWHO
                                                                                                         Yashoudnt be concerned of getting booted from the nest not under the guisethe whine of Oh, but were family. Yashoudnt submit to the tyranny of family

Whell . . you don’t hold family dear . .
. . I hold mine accountable as I woud hold anyone Because theyre family doesnt mean they get a pass

   You must see you’re severe, too strict. 


No  My arguments are reasoned soundtheyre based in fact I often provide sources so not to be accused tha my words are my opinion 
                 I am terribly informed                          

And you don’t think that that information doesn’t put them off, intimidate them.

No one should be intimidated by knowledge 
                                               The more I learn the less I know
Amen, brother.  he chuckled 
                               and the chuckle grew into hilarious laughter between them

1527,  Saturday,  25  2. 23
1051,  Sunnyday,  26  2. 23