12.12.22

 
   Gobekli Tepe 
                Yah he needed a memory technique to recall what it was as on every occasion when he crossed it hed think to himself I know what it is   Wha is it 
                                                   at long last 
Tepee 
      asin pitch a tepee a tent have an erection

the erection sequesdirects him
                                 Gobekli Tepe arguably a templefirst temple ever depicted on a pillar among animals is a headless man with an erect penis

Tepee will also triggerinform discussions he could have with himself regarding the man   How does a headless man keep an erection   Obviously massive blood loss  his Mariachi vouchsafed his notion was ridiculous answering shehe heshe believed the carving captured a moment in time  perhaps an executionperhaps since purported a temple a human sacrifice 
          Thas a leap
No

Okay Explain  I might be thick

In a word priapism
OhOuch 
Tell us about it

   Yah manohman but please your explanation
Certnee
Comon
         No Curly Three Stooges impersonation

I thought it was good                                         

I didnt say it wasnt Im curious for your explanation     

Its drollwanted to Curly to pick it up

Droll Try me

   It depicts the immediate post-mortem erection or priapism that occurs in victims of hangings or beheadings as a result of massive trauma to the spinal cord

Victims   Criminals Criminals Victims

Open to interpretation  No heshe shehe giggled hard evidence

his turn Certnee 

   a memory technique   wouldnt have to wrestle with it again

0912,  Thursday,  8  9. 22
1208 (too bad it wasn’t 4 minutes later),  Monday,  12  12. 22

11.12.22

he say name it

yah he did

diet was high in fiber 
                     thought meals would pass headlong through him and out the other end 
                                                                                                  C’est la vie

shy cat was sleeping on his lap her timing impeccable 

when he sat down before the computer to dig in cup of fresh black coffee  hed scoop her up an set her on his lapNAWH
wasnt having it  shed bound off 
                                       later shed hop up on his lap and fall asleep

his coffee coldnearly finished his bowels rapped Time brother 
                                                                 Excuse me babe Nature calls  afterwards refreshing my coffee
she wasnt pleased 
Ought to hang with me at the getgo this is on you

   high fiber
             sometimes forwhaeverreason it decided not to roll  instead glommed
this morning 
uncomfortable 
                   good thing he kept books on a stool in reach 
wasnt going to be pleasant

   true to form it wasnt 
he even cramped   cramped while tryin to crap    Awcomon

was like giving birthCHRIST 
                               
                                      FIaNALLY 
   had to admit

he was tempted to name it 
234 preferred,  Sunday,  11  12. 22
1024,  Sunday
Oblique Occasions  0:00 minute-mark  He Say  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q52TVZfJ0k8 
I had no idea  Bristol . . You  https://www.continence.org.au/bristol-stool-chart


they met at the grocery store

she worked there 

hed dated more than one cashier

it was destiny he was to date another

Sounds like a line to me her head tilting It’s worked for you before?

he chuckled
              Yare funny When you get to know me better youll understand I woudnt use a line  Im not one to fish

she thought 
             he could see it in her Mexican brown eyesonly her eyes she wore a black mask 
                                                                                                 he did too 
she wasnt wearing a ring

briefly he read her nametag bottom angling forward busty
                                                               Esmeralda he said meeting her eyes My names Joe
I don fish
he wondered if she knew cocksure  he wasnt

he was confident

thought complete
                   her eyes crinkledshe smiled It’s nice to meet you, Joe.

he would have shaked her handcould hear his mother Shook he liked shaked as when he swore she scolded him You know better, you had a good upbringing, education, your father and I . . .  she was right  but there was an acrylic panel between them  there because ignorant peoplethoughtless people shopped there too many old enough to have contracted polio but for their parents who thought better of community 
                                                      Woud you like to go out with me  

handing him the receipt I’m working . . could I think about it?  

he torn the extraneous portion off REWARDS AVAILABLE  POINTS EARNED TODAY  at the bottom of it he wrote his telephone number 
                    handing it to her If youd like Id like if you did      
her eyes crinkled again 
he was certain his did


they met for coffee twice drinks once a movie plain popcorn not buttered dinner once  more frequently they met to walk and talk during her breaks at work 



they ran in the rain from his car through the parking lot to the staircase to her second floor apartment 
                                                                                                           Nooo dammit! 
she forgot to take her keys from her purse while in the car 
he laughed
NO. This isn’t funny we’re getting wet . .
. . Rainwater rinse As a kid good for our hair
                                               bursting into her placeYou’ll have to tell me that story but first let me get us some towels.

Here give me your purse jacket Ill hold them so you don drip everywhere

she did then kicked off her shoes pranced into the livingroom disappeared right into the hall 

cupboard doors opened yankedtussled towels laughter padding of naked feet 
                                                                                    rounding the corner she had one over her headanother on her shouldertossed him a third catching it her purse almost came off his shoulder  she continued to himstood beside him on the tiled foyer That better?

Yes thank you  Your towels smell amazing

OH . thank you. she saidpeeking out from under a towel as she dried her hair a chore  thick black hair to the middle of her back
         Do you need another towel?she started stepping away 
No  Plenty   Im good

out from the folds of plumcoloured fabric wild mussedtossed hair she smiled wide eyes crinklingkilling him with her dimples when they first met he thought she might  unmasked she did 
                                                                    I have to get out of these clothes. I have a robe I think will fit youlet me get it then I can take your clothes, dry them.          

Now yare thinkin  he smiled
she followed 
              You'll have to forgive me, I was engrossed with our conversation in the car. 
You were talking 
Would you stop? failed at acting perturbed You’re a tease.
Anyare my muse I cant help me his mother a tease herself said Myself

humoured Esmeralda shook her head In my defense . . you distracted me.

There you have it serving my purpose

she shook her head vigorouslysmiling I’ll get the robe. Then while we change, when you’re finished, you can pour us whiskyin the kitchen he knew neat to warm us up.

Sounds like a plan 



he undressed the robe fit left his clothingroughly folded on top the towel on the tile eventually found the whisky poured two glasses then went up the hallway to her bedroom at the end

he thought she would have heard him fumbling around in the kitchen opening cabinets finding glasses finding whisky 
evidently not 
              making the bedroom threshold a glass in either hand she gaspedquickly snatched a robe off the foot of the bed held it up in front of herself 
                                     her hair curled at her throatlaid lazy on her shoulders

he tried not to smile wasnt in him Excuse meI apologise Thought Id given you timetha youd heard me

shaking her head no a hand came up to her mouth 
                                                     then her spine went erect then standing tall she tossed her head backshook her mane 
her expression was priceless  
her voice more priceless
                          The mirror’s behind me, yes?

   a freestanding mirror body length

Yes

You can see me?

   Yes

      Beautiful backyour ass is fantastic  Ass setsdefinitely assets

she didnt movedidnt blush

he set her whisky on a low bookshelf beside the door 
                                                         Ill leave this here See you again  in a bit

returning to the livingroom sipping whisky remembering that they were joking about the black masks they wore when they met how much he was enthralled by her Mexican brown eyes but but tha  he was dying to see her wearing a black blindfold for a counterpoint

0050,  Sunday,  11  12. 22
1250,  Sunday

10.12.22


shes not here 

   this evening thats a good thing 
                                    it was one of those nights when he wished violence would presentprovoke him nothing like a good oldfashioned bloodletting  his theirswouldnt matter  couldnt give two shits 
                                                                                                      he had reason 
every yearthree years 
this day 
           it used to be to remember Pearl Harbor his father listened to President Roosevelt utter . . . a date that will live in infamy  on the radio 
                         an uncle climbedup out of the bowels of his sinking ship through a dorade box on deck 
a hornshaped ventilator     

   but now the date means something else that he hasnt been able to shakelikely never will                                                                                                                                 an in his welling remorse sadness hed like violence to replace the anguish his memory  his helplessness 
                                                                                   he couldnt take the bullet for her
it was nonnegotiable

   there was no one to take it up with

he was forced to bear witness 


forced to sublimate his violencehis instinct

 

he stood on the porch looking into the night 
                                             begging Come  Come try your hand at me 


she wasnt here 
                spared what would have been her helplessness trying to help him

also nonnegotiable

2209,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  12. 22
1631,  Saturday,  10  12. 22
The Zombies  She’s Not There  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycP6yiupDPM


he wasnt particularly keen on the Eaglesdidnt pay much attention to them until he heard the Joe Walsh joined the band https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_qHU_6Ofc0 doesnt own one of their albums 
                                                                       crawled through his skull as he simmered between dreams an on an on 
                     was in a steamer that could roll onto its side and navigatesubmerged just beneath the ocean surface when doing so certain sections were closed as contaminated air atmosphere pulsed into them those sections were located portside the ship always rolled onto its starboard when diving also portside were entertainment salons contamination holds where situated between them one had to wait for them to be purged before entering  a series of green and red lights were strung on bulkheads indicating safe passage or not 
                                                                                   several times he was caught in passageways when suddenly they went red he gained shipwide notoriety for not dyingeither staggering to a locked hatch or plucked prone from a gangway by crew wearing aerated hoods over their headspacking oxygen on their backs 
more often than not his notorietypreceding him provided him company and an inability to purchase his own drinks it seemed understood the reason why he risked his lifewhich wasnt true unfortunately he had a habit of learning the hard way school of hard knocks  it was his lot he accepted it

Cam she introduced herself approached him a cute blonde pixie haircut unpixie body though not necessarily his type she admitted her approach was for a girlfriend who didnt want to come over to the bar rather stay in her chair at an obscure table when Cam pointed towards her Ken Ken lit a match it illuminatedplayed on her chest throat face framed in auburn hair that the firelight hintedwhispered its highlights she proceeded to light a stout yellowchamomile coloured candle at the center of the table 
                                  Ken would like you to have dinner with her . I won’t be staying.
No

No. I lost the coin toss.

the way Cam said it provoked Tough out before he could stop it

Tell me. My life. Hardknocks.

his estimation of her rose 
                            Maybe another time 
she laughed heartily
                       Pick through bones, no thanks.
May be Kens bones
Oh. 
    That’d be interesting.

   Maybe another time

We’ll see I suppose.

he tipped her head backfinger at her chin gentlybriefly kissed her 
                                                                     taking his finger from her chin she stepped backwardsaway from him 
she smiled
           began humming Victim of Love  then turned walked away

briefly he watchedadmired her go

then drink in hand he walked between tables to Kens

seemed on an on hypnopompic this morning,  Saturday,  10  12. 22 
1044, Saturday 
Oblique Occasions  雪の上の血  21:33 minute-mark   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=orHN-JXSlg8


it was cool for themhe didnt mind birds werent his thingalthough he was peachykeen bout hummingbirds they had a long history composed of more than enough stints while he was incapacitated a painfuluseless left wing which limitedimposed upon him the effort to make sugarwater and feed them 
                                                                           that kept him out from underfoot and from being jostled which he could not tolerate

while he hadnt a passion for birds when he hiked with them he paid keen attention to their wordslistened Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent. to them discuss the difference in species West and East of the Rockies he referred to them as avid boiders  his moniker  that they didnt correct as it amused them 
                                                                                     boiders anhe was a woider
coined words  he was determined to hamperdiminish cellar doors standing step on J R R Tolkiens toeshis assessment that it is the most beautiful word in the English language  cellophane floor aint shabby neither are optic cup cute cunt charred trees neon nude
                         fact was  if he had children who were not attractive he would have been able to admit they were not  therefore his estimation of phonaesthetics was capable and worthwhile
bruised bananas pornographic virgin rawawkwardness 
                                                           it was unfortunate Tolkien was dead
he would have loved to share his most beautiful words in the English language
 
1521,  Thursday,  24  3. 22
0910, Saturday,  10  12. 22
Grouper  Lighthouse  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47pIFb-12do  her rainwater enema

9.12.22


cat dug graphs 
               no matter the conversation if subject matter nearedverged on provability either to confirm or denyto prove his point elaborate it he insisted Labouring that he agreed was insufficient pen and paper were outcuriously he never brought paper only a pen paper fell to him drew and labeled the x- y-axes and began drawing lines to prove himself correct 

AwKahrist again shaking his head like a weary chimp This is excessive 
I want you to see. 

You want to see 
                  I can see it in my head I don need it diagramed
You should see.

   No You have to see it makes it more tangiblemore real 
                                                             Being unimaginative you need things concrete Knowing is proof enough for me

 

this graph was about hypothetical he had said I own my hypothetical

So you say, however, is it realistic? 
                                      I can show you. 
Jesus

Give me a piece of paper. 
                           he drew the x-axis labeled it Hypothetical subheaded it Independent the y-axis was Reality subheaded Dependent

he was curious if the rays he would draw would begin at 0,0 coordinateSURPRISED him
                                                                                             before drawing a single line he was confident there would be three or more he scribbled a ball like one scribbles inside a ballot circle when voting 
This is you.  it was way down the x-axis  undoubtedly Hypothetical  scarcely a coordinate on Reality 

Where are you

Me.  he drew a line that arced up quickly paralleling Reality and nowhere down the line near the scribbled ball representing him above Hypothetical 
                                       he quickly dashed off two other lines one at approximately a fortyfive degree angle the third recording a hump halfway to his marker then continuingfalling by degrees which eventually have it crash at 0 on the y-axis 
                    THERE.  I think that sums things up nicely. Superior ticked into his facehis expression

How did I get there

Man you’re so random . . another iteration I can imagine would be a dartboard, a single dart, thrown eyes closed. Upside . . since you’d be throwing you wouldn’t miss the board.

THERE is tha
                  Appreciate the vote of confidence

1445,  Thursday,  24  3. 22
1028,  ReggaeFriday,  9  12. 22

8.12.22


she was ASTONISHEDgiggled 
                                Did you just fart? it was clear despite asking around her toothbrush
You needed toothpaste

they stood side by side framed in the bathroom mirror above the sink 
                                                                         he relished their intimacy
You did didn’t you?

he wasnt embarrassed bodily functions functioneddidnt ask permission 
                                                                              Tooothpaste
You have yours an I was trying to get the last for me

I’d have thrown it away a couple days agocan’t believe you’re able to express mo . .
. . Waste not want not

he pinched the foot of the tubeused the sink lip as an edge and pressing hard with his hand dragged the tube back towards him virtually scraping the paste inside up to its neckthe opening 
                                                                             he got hers 
now getting his pinching hard pressing ever harderleaning on one arm dragging the tube scraping it empty the exertion made him fart 
                but he did get his 
he screwed the cap back on it tossed it into the turquoise tin pail they used as a wastebasket

   Waste not, want not . . you fartedyes.

Yes I farted 
              Wasnt like I shit in my pants baby
she giggled 
           meeting her eyes in the mirror as he went to begin brushing his teeth she burst out laughing toothpastedsaliva sprayed the mirror

he stepped back while she continued losing her shit

when the bout exhausted itself he looked through the speckles at her she had tears in her eyes
                                                                                                     You spatter the mirror
You farted you made me.

1211 or 0011,  Thursday,  8  12. 22
1441,  Thursday
Christina Vantzou  Glissando for Bodies and Machines in Space  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXgh0thgsm4


Not something you see every day he thought 
                                              he thought it because he didnt actually see itimagined it
because it humoured him
he was easily humoured 
anhe had cats 
                 his were characters  they were What’s this? What’s this? aaand What’s this?  as curious as he
their bond

and they didnt bark

 

they were notoriously quietlike children
                                         when you dont hear them you know theyre up to no good

he paused the programme he was watching on the computer and got up from his desk
                                                                                           he listened for clues
he wanted to catch them redhanded 


in the bathroom
                 virtually across the hall 

he sneaked that they didnt hear him indicated the thrall they were contending ninjastepping into the hallthen to the bathroom doorwaycaught three of the four 
                                  Q-Tips were scattered everywhere 

when he used them last evidently he left the top off the wicker container hes kept them in since 1970acquiring it at Salvation Army 

he liked woven things  knitted  blankets sweaters  had more baskets than necessaryvirtually all decorative  as what they heldif they did wasnt evident unless he helped himself to them  looked inside  

it was unlikely any one of the three finessed its top off as no cat he ever had had
                                                                                     Nah  he was responsible

   standing at the threshold his imagination warbledflopped suddenly bomberstanding inside the sink began juggling threefour Q-Tips shy on the floor under the window stood on her hind legs one in her clutches acting a conductor  smiling enjoying her orchestra leftie was inside the catbox at the foot of the pedestal sinkoblivious scattering litter as she chased Q-Tips around which bound end on cotton end trying to elude her

he leaned gleeful against the doorjamb

              
he took it in until his eyes yelped 
                                  Ohshit he’s watchingSTOP!

1209 or 0009,  Thursday,  8  12. 22
1334,  Thursday


Oh Tom Tom   piece of shit Tom Cotton 
                                          his blather concludes . . . detain Americans and Democrats will agree to set your worst killers free. 
                   referring to the swap of Griner for Bout

Bout was convicted of conspiring to sell millions of dollars of arms in Columbia to FARC (Fuerzas Armadas Revolucionarias de Colombia) to be used to kill Americans 

   Americans killed by those weapons were not cited or evidenced

Tom Cotton supports NRA and NRA supports Cotton
                                                       seems terribly similar to him of conspiring to sell arms to Americans who are killing Americans 
                             but thats him

1556,  Thursday,  8  12. 22


Senior living assistance made him think 
    some might consider him a senior


he saw an advertisement A Place for Mom

facilitates placing parents for long-term care  

Googled A Place for Dad  Yes also found A Place for Mom and Dad

scratched his head 
                      thought warehouse verb 
which prompted him to Google Warehouse for Your Parents A Warehouse for Mom and Dad

evidently too frank

 

Werent places for Mom and Dad with their children

   Or he thought arent there affordable humane exit strategies that allow Mom and Dad – it was usually Dad – to depart without having some useful idiot to cleanup the fuss and muss brain and blood  skull fragments 
something similar to what Arthur Koestler and his wife Cynthia ingested 
                                                                              A Guide to Self Deliverance
he thought Better than lining businesses pockets 
                                                           but he was a lousy consumer                               
1622,  Monday,  5  12. 22
1217,  Thursday,  8  12. 22


2334numbers ‘gain   Wednesday – Pearl Harbor7  12. 22
   
hes sure its occurred to many that Georgias runoff between Rev Warnock and jock Walker was nothing more than revisitingassimilating fantasizing infantilizing the antebellum South when Mastahs pitted their great black bucks against each other a thing  Battle Royale   black men slaves without recourse coerced into pounding each other into submission
until one emerged  for game   an profit

Springsteen  I’m On Fire  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iLtGTwIxZZs