You didn’t just say that. 

                              Man, cool you said it to me I get it, but you say that to someone who doesn’t know you or you are overheard . . it might become uncomfortable . . 

. . Not for me 

  OH.  I think for you.

You really believe  uncomfortable to me

I think . . I think it could be uncomfortable for you.

Believing is better than thinking 

                                   I believe you know me better than tha

No doubt . . you’re a tough nut . but if enough people come down on you maybe not so tough.

he shook his head 

                    Yare ridiculous yare projecting  Im not youI think enough people can put you off your point  Wha  yes thas it  encourage  encourage you to think or at least say you disagree with yourself 

                                                                                                The proverbial hills to die on

each an every one

Man, I’m just watching your back anif that’s ridiculous . to youif I’m ridiculous . . so be it.

You think think   if I said to someone other than you or was overheard theyd be disturbed

I know you and you disturb me. 

   Fuckin hilarious

Well . . better hilarious than ridiculous

Hilariously ridiculous clownie

Stop. 

        I’m just saying sometimes you ought to know when to pull back.

  Nada 

        Me an Popeye  I yam wha I yam  

Christ scolded for saying  I have an affectionan infliction  an infinity for dead women

  

1330,  Friday,  4  11. 22

1317,  Sunday,  6  11. 22

Dale Cooper and the Dictaphones  Ta Grenier  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LslmtzzlQZs

it was hot

working in the sun he began to sweat heavily

he stripped off his workshirt tshirt loosened his carpenter bag reclasped it saddled it lower on his hips

   between hammer blows he heard somethinghe cocked his head to one side like a dog 

                                                                                         a rap   rap on glass 

and again

looking left through thinned bushes the neighbours house a sliding glass door curtainsblinds parted wide Jackie the home-from-college girl rapped 

                                having garnered his attention she waved lazily

he held up his hammer  tapped the air twice in salute 

smiling she placed her hand on the glass

                                            a shallow sitting porch above her bedroom shaded her  she looked coolwas cool  braless  in a dago tee  wearing cutoff bluejeans

she placed her other hand to the glasstouched her forehead to it keeping eye contact

he was catcurious turned faced her

her smile beckoned himgrew fulsome  welcoming

he unclasped his bag laid it on the ground

walking towards her she retreatedshuffled a couple of steps backwards he stepped sidewise between the landscaped isle of bushes and stopped on the redwood apron before the sliding door 

he placed his hand on the glass

she stepped forward and placed her hand across from his she was biting her lower lip

Looks like youre up to something Jackie

   Maybe . . I was thinking.

the acousticstheir voices through the glass deepenedwere weirdly ethereal otherworldly he laughed 

                                                                                                          Doesnt sound like Kansas

OZ! she laughed gaily placing her other hand on the glass

he placed his other hand opposite hers

                                          Handcuffs 

Shackled.

Bondage

Knots.

   This is nuts 

                     Whaya thinking baby

she took her hands from the glass and placed them on her hips then crossing her arms before her she grasped the bottom hem of her dago tee 

                               I was thinking.  bit her lip again  in one fell swoop she peeled her tee off over her head keeping her wrists hands bound in the cotton fabric she brought them down to her belly

he admired her breasts 

                          then ever  so   slowly  he slid his hands across the glass opposite them 

he raised his eyes to hers

still holding her lip between her white teeth she leaned forwardmashed her breasts on the glass 

it was hot

the glass under his hands felt hotter 

she smiled freed her lip 

                             What are you thinking?

he threw his head back laughed deeply loudly openmouthed like a wolf howling then bringing his head downeyes to hers he took his right hand away  he admired her left breast her aureole her nippleif not pressed to the glass would be taut then looking back into her face he reached over grasped the door handle 

                                                                       The doors unlocked 

Jackie started momentarilyher breasts came off the glass

    ever  so   slowly  he began sliding the door open      

0738,  Saturday,  5  11. 22

1003,  Sunday,  6  11. 22

Mogwai  Coolverine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cu1UVzJYfao

DOYOU

WANT

TO

DIE

 

once it was implied

twice explicit 

   twice angrily he was tempted to say Yes  his inners talked him out of ita sudden democratic vote they didnt want to die

he was a democracy

he conceded 

DOYOU WANT TO DIE scrolled across his dreaming DOYOU WANT TO DIE DOYOU WANT TO DIE DOYOU WANT TO DIE 

     interruption  commercialbreak eruption woke himgot him out of bed got him to sit on its edge which he hardly did he disturbed two cats who laid with him but only enough to wake them  they yawned then laid their heads back down

he sat in the dark naked it was coldwindows open fiftydegrees maybe   he rubbed his facehis head 

finally he asked aloud Do you want to die 

   No

there had been too much dying recentlyfamily and friends

he recognised he was depressed but it was legitimate part of the process 

                                                                                 unfortunately there were so many

similar to picking up a deck of cards tossed on the floor and sorting them again into suits in order  fashioning the worn deck to be what it was when it was brand new crisp begging for games to begin

he and it were innocent then neither imagining what would be neither able to change it

 

   Regrets he asked aloud 

he thought hard 

   NO 

          his salve against regrets was his memorialisedmemorised keenremembered minutiae which bubbled like a hydrothermal spring  since he was two

vapours were getting in his eyes so he closed them bed beckoned cats quietly mewled   nothing scrolled

he laid downcovered himself 

he didnt fall asleep for a long time

in the darkness of his closed eyes trapped vapours roiledtickled each other threw shadowspulled them down or apart  he watched until he did not recognise he slept again

436AM,  Saturday,  5  11. 22

1147,  Saturday

Mogwai  You’re Lionel Richie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C9FrfhXxMsU

he snickeredmuttered to himself   The is have it

Ya think yare clever

Arent we pointing a finger back at an inner

Ya really gonna drag me into this

Drag you  I muttered The is have it an you had something to sayboutit 

                                                                               Eavesdropping

NO  you said it loudnough . .

. . I muttered 

                  Muttered 

Then if I may . is this a foreveranever change in spelling . . . or shortlived . while it tickles ya

   Havent decided

Again . one more time please

U  N  I  N  H  I  B  I  T  I  D  

Screw the e 

Who needs it 

               Such a person would love eyes on them exhibitionist  More  titillitingfuck the a too 

Yare doing it again 

Yah  Uninhibitid

                   T  I  T  I  L  L  I  T  I  N  G                                                                      

between 7 & 8AM,  ReggaeFriday,  4  11. 22

Songs of the Humpback Whale  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjkxUA041nM

he performed foreplay for better than two hours 

                                                 but before giving himself a big heroic pat on the back or someone elses thought to particularly his divine sexaddledLooks like saddled   NO divine sexaddled grinnin mis amores   Im just saying   Anyare notorious for sayin Sexaddled   Im surprised you can talk   Theres tha twenty minutes ago I woudntve been able to   Sexaddled   Yes   Sounds like a beautiful destination   Ohyes 

                                                                                 however before patting himself he had to admit the foreplay wasnt physicalrather episodic roiling while he dodgedbout in hypnagogic states consciousnesssubconsciousness edging towards sleep but not arriving states stations stops like for the El buses trains All aboard! keenlyaware of departures Ya really have to go we were hitting it off so well and the newlyarriving Wellhello hello HELLO taking in a deep breath of their fragrances

   as vivid as they were he thought theyd gatherclamour at the front gatebehind his forehead  forebrainWRONG

    Wrong 

            I was following my noseWRONG

turns out the episodesthe minxes reoccurring new were actually firing in his ventral default mode networkYAHtha hurt his head which spans the brain regions known as the hippocampus that cuddles the thalamus that sits on the throne of his brainstem and also the precuneus precunteus thats comforting no wonder its vivid 

Ya said brainstem

I did

I heard braisedstem       

I wish I didwha a kick its visual is kahrazy

Asya were sayin

Turns out the precunteus plays a role in itch sensations

Itch in your prick 

Likelyhuh 

           Reportedly while theyneuroscientists cant pinpoint wha the precunteus does in itch its uniquelytheir word uniquely activated with itch not pain Thas fascinating 

Isnt it

   Yes  itch in my dickforeplay in mind hippocampus precunteus crowning my braisedstem I like it   Thank you   No thank youkind of rolls off the tongue Such a freakin network 

                                                                 Anwhile this has nothing to do with my hypnagogic statesstationssensations just down the stem another component medulla oblongata   Sounds like a sensational Club Med location   It doesIll give ya tha   Aw ya knew Id have something to say   Medulla oblongata ya kiddin me Thawas loaded just teed it up   Felt good   Like a good itch   Possibly Wha more about your states and the statesstatuses of your minxes

Mis amores   Yasure   We came hard they shutteredrevolved round me asif aboard a fantastic sunlitglittering merry-go-round

   Yagonna say

Thought youd never ask 

                           Spelled S  U  N  L  I  T  G  L  I  T  T  I  R  I  N  G 

Is have it

They dothey certainly do    

between 636 and 838AM,  ReggaeFriday,  4  11. 22

1324,  ReggaeFriday

https://www.inverse.com/mind-body/brain-on-imagination

   truth

           I am who I am  an wha I am is fortunate to have loved her  to have held her

1252,  Thursday,  3  11. 22

wink

she was lousy at it 

                       Baby no no  thas not seductive

Dammit . . which eye am I supposed to wink.

he laughed 

            anwhile laughing he winked 

Oh shit, that’s hot!

Which eye

  Oh  she thought  

                     Could you do it again? I got itbut I missed it.

Again

        Yawatchin

she laughed 

                Okay I swear I swearya flustered me my brain went out of my head.     Okay

he winked

she thrilled 

            Left eye left eye!

Shoot me one doll she was fucking beautiful

she winked

he startled hercame over the table scattering the Scrabble game grabbed her by the ears and kissed her hard  then relaxed after their laughter kissed her again   deeply

 

I love you buckwheat

I love you too.

2310,  Sunday,  30  10. 22

1230,  Thursday,  3  11. 22

Thas a great idea! he thought   made a mistake though 

                                                           rather than immediate penning the seed which had fallen out of Submergence the film he watched he penned the time and date  2208hrs  Sunday  October 30 

                                                                                                       then going to write

he stared at the empty page

 

which grew more empty more desolate

he finally scribbled  the fuck – went out of my head

                                                       at that particular moment he was frustratedwasnt thinking  and because he wasnt he didnt recognise the mordantly obvious solution

  Stop the film finger the time slide rewind rewatch the seminal scene    find the seed

four days later he discovered the time and date stamped page  the fuck -- went out of my head  not frustratedthinking he reverse-engineered the episode went to the prior timestamped entry 2126hrs approximately 40 minutes apart he went to Amazon brought the film up Find the 2126entry yahoo it was approximately five minutes and fiftysevenseconds into the film

              I realised I’ve never been lonely before. 

it took him fifteen minutes ridiculous he broke an hoursixty minutes into convenient fifteen minutes or a halfhourproperly chopped in quarters 

            no  probably took him sixteen to nineteen minutes he downgraded himself to asshole

the characters James (James McAvoy) shows Danny (Alicia Vikander) the headlines of a horrific jihadi bombing in Africa  he asks her to read the article

Did you read it?

Yes.

And?

I feel . . there’s nothing I can do about it.

hes abrupt You can read about it, we could get interested, we could educate ourselves and get involved in a solution.

timidly How is there a solution to a problem that has roots in ancient conflict where religion . .

. . What are you saying, you don’t think there’s a solution?

quietly  introspectively   I don’t know.

terribly forceful It is the same as your work Danny, trying to get people interested in potentially life-saving information that lies at the bottom of the sea in the dark that nobody wants to know about . . it is exactly the same thing . get them interested, educate them, get them involved in a solution and that is amazing.                                                                      This is our world too, isn’t it? 

yet more quiet  I don’t know that.

Oh. 

      So you can be stupid as well. 

very oftenunfortunately hes flummoxed how people refuse it is easier not to they refuse refuse to pursue their own information  reference cross-reference ferret it outbe fucking curious  he really hasnt the imagination to believe that othersa huge swathe of others are incurious  have to beare lead by the hand  told what to think and think what they are told 

he has been told he holds his bar too high

   maybe he did 

                       although he wasnt going to waste his time with those who couldnt get over it

redundant  2208,  Sunday,  30  10. 22

1147,  Thursday,  3  11. 22

Mogwai  The Precipice  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXOa94FPRTU

he kept stepping on his own toes

he had a backlog that was aching to be writtenrealised YESyes  realeyesed 

                                                                                but his dynamic duohis dreaming-self and dreamed-self or maybe dreamed-self and dreaming-self had other ideas had a toolbox at their disposal  lotsa wrenches wenches wily women the other night Marilyn Monroe  somehow he tumbled her out of bed onto the hardwood floor she jumped rightup it was precious he asked her if pleaseplease he was begging would she please jumpup and down a few more times   It’s cold.   I can see   You’re terrible . . okay. she giggledmusically as she jumped then as he held the blankets aside she jumped into bed Warm me up!

Had tha in mind baby 

   coud understood why he stepped on his toes   

1253,  Day-between-Two-Ts – end of Day of the Dead,  2  11. 22

Everly Brothers  All I Have to Do Is Dream  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbU3zdAgiX8

rabbithole yawns

  Elmer Fudd archenemy of BugsBunny aka Wabbit Stewart Rhodes archenemy of democracy  but archenemy binds them

“If you don’t (invoke the Insurrection Act) then Biden/Kamala will turn that power on you, your family, and all of us. You and your family will be imprisoned and killed (that’s called projection). You and your children will die in prison.”

this is the kind of personmaniac the former Orange DayGlo was and is utterly willing to consort with

  Yup feels like rage

1947,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  11. 22

https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/oath-keepers-founder-stewart-rhodes-172746944.html 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uM8h22DeTbA

he wokecats were up to something     he could hear

she wasnt in bedwhy wasnt she on the cats

he got upwalked into the hall

at its end in the livingroom she was sitting on the sofa laptop in her lap buds fobs whaever the fuck theyre called in her ears virtually deaf and blind

    her periphery was intact though  comingup the hall he broke itshe startedturned who else would be coming up from the bedroom atasudden put her hand to her throat  then it fell 

You’re naked.

I am

she pointed at the ear thing   

he nodded 

            he approached her she leaned her head back he kissed her then mouthed  Coffee

she nodded immediatelyreturned her attention to the laptop

turning left into the kitchen two cats raced around the edge of the refrigerator fleeing

before the sink bomber an orange tabby continued to play oblivious with the chopstick he had  the other three were scattered on the linoleum 

                         playing chopsticks sounds better on a piano

his error  he should have dried them offput them away after dinner last night

he glanced at the clock on the wall hands read 7:56 

                                                        his brain chuckled and said in his ear  Sevensixtyfive 

he chuckled  Thatd be Eightohfive 

I like Sevensixtyfive.

Are you dyslexic

Are you?

  funny brain No  But you love to fuck with meyou and your cohorts

They’re Mariachis.

As youve pronounced them

I have.

Were supposed to be a team  albeit disparate

Disparate. Yes.  Why you don’t patently listen to me, do as I say.

I don I don do wha anybody says  However I do listen to your counsel to your henchmen  heshes shehes  he smirked  

Go ahead . . you know ya want to.

  I do  Heshes shehes SHESH 

Better?

Yah much better thank you

Hey . been nice running around with you but you better get on the coffee.

Reminding me

I can osmotically, I needn’t say.

Osmotically  nice

                    After all these years ya still got it

Like you . . like you say, I have my moments.

you know 0765,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  11. 22  end of Day of the Dead 

1046,  Day-between-Two-Ts 

Mogwai  Danphe (check out the bird) and The Brain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KMtEI5Og88E 

 

     his rabbithole 

                             saddledup Alice and ride her down 

politickles

    kneejerk reaction ignorance peeved him 

regarding lies liars   he became enraged

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/maddowblog/trump-insists-united-states-rigged-crooked-evil-rcna55278?cid=eml_maddow_20221102&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951&utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=TRMS%2011/2/22&utm_term=Rachel%20Maddow%20Show

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/maddowblog/stephen-miller-groups-ads-race-abandon-sense-subtlety-rcna55243?cid=eml_maddow_20221102&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951&utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=TRMS%2011/2/22&utm_term=Rachel%20Maddow%20Show

Ah dearie his mother would often say  Karma.

Cause  effect Maw 

In a manner of speakingyes. 

                               You’re usually so patient.

Had you named me Karma 

                             he smiledshe made him smile  My impatience is showing

That and some . . that smile looks wicked.

Little Red Riding Hood wolf wicked

                                    Wha big teeth you have  The better to eat you   In the original the wolf eats her

You wouldn’t eat them.

Might depend upon how they were prepared  Were you talking figurativelymetaphorically or literally

she screwed up her face

                           I get them confusedI can’t tell.  Speaking plainly, are you teasing me?

Lets pretend were in the Andes he teased her time and again The Uruguayan rugby team she wouldnt  he said Then thered be more for me to eat

You’re teasing me. 

Aren’t you?

Are you? 

   not that the opportunity would present

1134,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  11. 22  end of Day of the Dead

Sam the Sham and the Pharoahs  Lil’ Red Riding Hood  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNEYfIUDkh8