he gulped loudlyheard his inner Mariachis gulp 

                                                    SheshJesus

breathtaking she had to know

                                 she was a long Russian accent dressed in risque blacklatex  eyemask   Veronica Lake long  Lauren Bacall long

she walked right up to him bold as brass 

                                            Come meester . . you must tell mehow you say . . ahyes . . it is . tell me how I can blow your mind.

I  thank you I woudnt want my mind blown

Den . . I blow can whaever you like.

several Mariachis went over in a dead faint they were safe  bone honeycombed soft gray matter scattered everywhere 

                                                                                                                             Comon gang

pull yourselves together

We negotiating

Negotiating?

  One who makes give an takes  a horse trader

Horse . . trader.

                 You  did say horseDo not offend me . my English not so good but my brain fine.

Okay excuse me  Its been established

It is this thing . . Hollyween . thas not correct.

No  Incorrect  Though easy to confuse Hollywood with Halloween 

                                                                         It is Halloween

Yes . Halloween . thank you.  I dress.

Yahave 

         May I guess who you dressed as

Yasure you guess. 

                    I guess you guess wrongdo not know.

Shall we make it interesting?

Make interesting. What you mean?

Put something on it  A bet  You know bet

Money? 

No

     Something else

What else?

Say I guess   You take off your mask so I can see you better

Anyou?

        What bet is you make for me?

I will buy you two drinks this evening

I win drinks you win mask.

Yes  We bet good bet

I think this fun is fair.

Good

What you guess?to make interesting.

Veronica Lake

good thing she was wearing the mask  without it her eyesmay have popped out of her skull 

                                                                                                 Unbelievable . how you know? 

Yare her spitting image Only other guess woud have been Jessica Rabbit but shes a redhead

I no know Jessica Rabbit.

Its a compliment too 

Veronica Lake’s spitting image?

Look  build  EXACTLY like her

I did not think no one know.

Trick or Treat

                  The mask  please

icyblue eyes

they were related

blues eyes have the same distant ancestor

she didnt need to know if she didnt

wasnt trotting nowhere near incest

 

her come on was clever 

                         obfuscation  her brain fine

   

man he loved Halloween

0900,  Thursday,  27  10. 22

1306,  Saturday,  29  10. 22

Rubbering or rubburing  they still played havoc with his minddespite him writing rubbering 

                                                                                                  just because he wrote it didnt mean he was committed to it people get married divorced married divorced married all the time

wheres the commitment

Words are different than people 

Rubbering  or rubburing

Neither are a word.

his head slid akimboirritated he looked over his shoulder   

                                                               buddy stood there 

Didn’t realise you were talking out loud, did you?

   No  But didnt I think someone talking to themselves woud attract attentionlet alone inspire someone to eavesdrop

You bothered?

A bit 

       You shoudve announced yourself  Said Hey

I didn’t . you were deep in thought, mumbling, didn’t think you’d hear me.

So you snuck up

I wouldn’t say snuck. 

Whawoud ya say 

I came closer . .

. . I didnt hear you  Buying time for another word 

                                                           Say  stealth

You are bothered.

We established tha Thas not wha we were discussing 

now he was getting bothered  What’s the matter with you?

Sppose we put the shoe on the other foot 

                                           When the opportunity next arises Ill sneak up on you We know how high you can jumphow you dislike being frightened asif frights unmanly   Big brave man tha you are 

Fuck you

  Fuck you 

             I woud have appreciated yamade yourself known  thas wha Im saying   Ansaid Im happy to put it down leave it behind us

Hello  How are you

Are you being facetious?

Every vowel in the alphabet in order

                                         No  Not now 

How are you today 

Jesus, you’re a strange cat. 

                              Thank you for asking, I’m well. You?

Obviously still parsing parrying sparring  which is terribly fun for mepitting me against myself 

                                                                                                     No I did not realise I was talking out loud I don often write in public 

I should have announced myself, I apologise.

Thank you Thank you for not saying you were sorry

Ohno . know what’s a pet peeve.

he nodded Yes  Thank you

That’s awright. 

                 So rubbering or rubburring?

   Yes 

         Playing with them I also found I like buttering buttertouring buttertureening  as in buttering up a girlhowever physically buttering her up tasty butteringsmearing her smearing her with food lapping her  all over 

Jesus. While you’re writing in public? 

Public indecency

Might be . . who knows these days. 

                                        Where's rubbering rubburing come from? 

I wrote a piece yesterday yesterday   I think it was yesterday 

What were you writing whenever you wrote it?

Its visual . .

. . Your pieces usually are.

Thank you Ill take tha 

                         Shes fuckin his face I wrote she bruised a cheekmore often fattened his lower lip which proved advantageousproved an assess he hadnt imagined until hed been with Tauh-bauh-thauh of Excess  rubbering her clit and anus with it

Her names Tabitha shes from Essex though she refers to it as Excess. 

Hmm. 

        Guess I gotta read that one. he giggled 

he thought as buddy giggled how hed scream like a little girl when he snuck up behind himscared the shit out of him

 

   Paybacks a bitch

 

prior to 0636,  Saturday,  29  10. 22

1201,  Saturday

Paint the Sky Red The Happy Ending Is You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qlz-fNZbPyo

she took him from behindwound her arms up inside his and held his shoulderskissed the back of his neckbit at his earlobe

         she knew his turn-ons 

she dropped one hand to the cinch of the belt of his robe undid it  took his cock  Boys miss me?

he laughedactually he laughed 

                                   You never cease to amaze me 

That’s my job . I try very hard to keep up with you.

he turned in her arms kissed her warmlydeeply held her very tight 

                                                                      when he gently broke the kiss he whispered It might be called love 

                she hadnt told him she loved him

Might be called lust.

                        he had   she still hadnt

Well baby I woudnt kick you out of bed for eating crackers   with sardines smoked oysters cheese stickybuns Old West cinnamon rolls slathered with sour cream cream cheese frosting

Ohmy . . you've made me hungry.

he poked her in the belly with his cock

You’re terrible.

Ive been told 

                A nibble to tide ya over

I’m not a nibbler.

You are not

I sppose . race ya back to bed.she broke from his arms  she liked to win 

he went to follow then realised he yelled up the hall after herheard her land on top the bed giggling 

                                                                                       Thas one slick trick you almost made me forget my coffee

That’s quite an admission.

  Yes  yare quite the girl

1012,  Saturday,  29  10.  22

Explosions in the Sky  Have You Passed Through This Night  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPdcWom3DXU

he met her parents the next dayDay10 of their torrid where-have-you-been-all-my-life relationship

it went well he charmed the pants off her mother

                                                    her father wasnt pleasedthough he didnt try to charm his pants off  rather he made him witness his wife and daughter gobsmackedpantieless in his presence 

You’re such a charmer.  Mrs. Farmer said 

Thank you 

            he smilednodded  Thas wha my Maw says of me though shes mighty charming herself 

he thought things went well

the next day after lunch the Farmers took their daughter Laila north to Petaluma to visit her aunt and uncleher fathers brother

they kissed goodbye behind the car as her parents waited inside

                                                                     I’m think I’m going through withdrawals I wanna fuck you in the worse way.

OhJesus ya kill me  Yare back in three daysright  Ill blow yaup then

Ohyes please . . cold turkey this is cruel . I’m gonna masturbate thinking of you at night.

he chuckled 

             Baby yasay the sweetest things  he grabbed her asskissed her firmly  Now get in the car before ya get me going

she laugheda cute little bark stroked him through his jeans kissed him once more then ran around opened the car door sat in the backseat behind her father 

                                   no sooner than closing it they pulled awaythe three waving outside their windows  standing in the street he waved after them he waved until they went around the corner  he caught one last glimpse of her as the car went left  she blew him a huge enthusiastic kiss

that was the second daysecond morning awakened early by robobozo buzzes  they were calling before they should have but he couldnt finger themprove it was them  the calls hungup as his message began  crazy old girlfriend she madeup the message  he liked it so much he left it  Hiya! leave a message she gasped  Can’t come to the phone I’m getting laid.

his mother was humourless 

                              Would you please change that awful message, Joseph formal still  since childhood it offends me.

The message offends you or the fact I was getting laid . .

. . Pleease . stop!  I won’t dignify that with an answer.

Cuz I was getting laid you knew Barbi an she made it  Thawas a long time ago Maw but I like it an you cant figure out how to erase it  Thas blisscubed baby blisscubed

In my house . .

. . In your house your rules but this is my houseOh my telephone my message machine

You’re terrible.

  I am Apple donfall far from the tree huh that always frosted her fanny

 

The Weekend 

                he was looking forward to sleeping in  he had her late nighthis early morning 

                                                                                                  Laila called she was fantasisingmasturbating had to share  he dug where she took themfired off a couple of rocketset fireworks  girl had an raucousraunchy imagination  she triggered some awesome dreams  scratch scratch scratchscratch scratch 

                                                                                                                         asleep Wha the hell  scratchscratch scratch  scratch  scratch 

                                                       catbox 

scratch scratchscratch

                         bomber 

   he wokeopened his eyes dark bellowed Yadiggin to China 

                                                                     under the hall nightlight he saw bomber hurtle out of the laundry Excavating for the Peeking Man he called after him he knew Peeking was spelled Peking  it was a hominin lineage he knew existed evenif nobody else did  when he espoused it got him no taker 

                                                                                                      Peeking Man  OhGawd! Man coexisted Peeking ofcourse a voyeur hiding in the bushes peeking bush an Ts an As  OhGawd! the first hominin whotugging his cock after urinating discovered when wrung dry if he kept tugging it was pleasurable  anif he tugged long enough he ejaculatedOhGawd!  he mastered masturbation he felt OhGawd! Man sounded better than Masturbating Man  was more subtle  he called the era Voyeurscene or HoleOcene 

                                                                        but he digressed

 

bomber is an orange tabby

had he been female he was tempted to name him marmalade 

                                                                liked it on his English muffin 

trigger word English muffin  Tabitha  from Essex  or as she said Excess anshe was

she helped him ruin a vintage chrome Formica table  a stout table too

                                                                          usually after rutting when he tried to say her name he said Tauh-bauh-thauh pulled a muscle or two in his tongue when they flipped positions in her wantoncraze on the table shed grind her clit pubic bone on his face fortunately he had a good head of hair often she bruised a cheekmore often fattened his lower lip 

                       which proved advantageousproved an assess he hadnt imagined until hed been with Tauh-bauh-thauh of Excess  rubbering her clit and anus with it 

they destroyed that kitchen table 

                                      marmalade  English muffin  but he disgressed 

The Weekend didnt get off the way he imagined

bout 7AM,  ReggaeFriday,  28  10. 22

1154,  ReggaeFriday

Goeysterhoevenhoofensnare

  not once or twice or three times repeatedlyrepeatedly in his dream  it wasnt his voice saying the name   A Name

as it continued he thoughthis dreamed-selfdreaming-self thought An echo 

                                                                                 but its strength didnt waver 

pronounced pronounced

   pronouncedNO   Ahnnounced

                                     Who  the announcer 

behind the repetitions he could hearbarely hear and see a symphony performing under a concert shell it innards mother-of-pearlmade him think abalone 

                                    suddenly it stopped playing

shiftedput away their instruments 

everyone produced harmonicas 

                                 

   they began playing again he could still barely hear them they played at the edge of an enormous green lawn

from where he stood a dirt pathlike talcum between shrubsbrush lead to the greenfield to the shell to the tuxedoedgowned performers 

                               he wanted to hear the harmonicas over Goeysterhoevenhoofensnare the speakerspeaking louder 

                          his dreamed-self refused to wake his dreaming-self refused to wake him

he began towards the path and reaching its mouth it licked its lips  which gave him pause

then immediately some fifteentwenty metres down the pathleft small birds kickedup and flitted out of the brush a tall metreanahalf muscular walking bird followed themstomped into the middle of the path DODO  Dodos dead Long Live Dodo 

       gatekeeper   perhaps    

a silver linked-chain hung limp from its necktrailed back from where it emerged 

the chain went taut

                     a naked twometretall ginger woman holding the leash stepped onto the path behind the Dodo

Goeysterhoevenhoofensnare hadnt ceasedthe harmonica symphony still played she was a handsome woman wellproportioned 

                  spoke to him inside his headher lips unmoved  she welcomed him forward he kept a keen eye on the Dodos jaws the Dodo appeared to hear and understand   Come forward   DOWNDodo crouched    Come forward

 

just beyond Dodo strike he stopped

 

    she smiled 

it wasnt malignant

it wasnt kind either

  Sit she said as she sat herself 

                                   then lying backunsettling earth it smoked around  her Dodo ignored the talcum curlinground and over it  its black beady eyes steady on him

she was a vision

                     odd he didnt find himself interestedaroused by her 

he didnt sitGoeysterhoevenhoofensnare he didnt want to place himself at a disadvantage in jeopardy

Sit she insisted

answering her inside his head No thank you

Sit and Ill tell you how to stop the soundstop the name repeating in your head

he smiled  You mean like this 

                               his dreamed-selfdreaming-self woke

he took the pen and tablet from the bedside table and wrote  Goeysterhoevenhoofensnare

                                                                                                          not that he thought hed forget

0630,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  26  10. 22

1329,  Thursday,  27  10. 22 

Godspeed You! Black Emperor  Mladic  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cza3QPEG7Mk

she would say she had a late night

hed say he had an early morning

their late nightearly morning twined like snakes

he shagged

she shagged

they nearly turned each other inside out 

                                           he thought they looked might attractive insides out

she thoughtoccasionally he was nuts

Nuts for youbaby

You say the sweetest things.

before they went serpent she reminded him her parents were arriving in the morning and while not prudish they would be taken back by a man who she hadnt mentioned in her bed 

  he nodded 

              even they were AMAZED at how consumed they were with each other since meeting eight days earlier

he beat her to the punch 

                          Where ya been all my life

You’re stepping on my line.

I checked the script Its mine

Check again.  I rewrote it.

he pantomimedpicked it up off the café table in the coffee shop pulled at the knee of his slacks with his free hand crossed his leg opened it with both hands briskly snapping it read Hmmed leaned forward placing it on the table went to his pocket removed an imaginary pen  altered it

                                                       Ifya look now youll see its my line

she acted like she spun it to face her looked  placed her purse on her lap I’ll get a pen out. We can do this all day long.

he cleared his throathis fist to his mouth took it away If you donmind  Id rather do something else all day long 

                                                                                                                      winked

she smiledwinked back Let’s table it for now . . maybe we’ll wrestle for itbest of onehundredanone matches.

Why put a number on it

You’re right . . why?

  not to blow her parents minds 

                                  before the rising sun painted the room he silently got out of bed dressedenough kissed her templeshe didnt move and left

he walked the four miles to his placethey lived four miles from each other for seven years  waste and laid in bed without undressing two of his cats curled up against him one between his legs tucked up to his crotch the other in his armpit head on his chest over his heart no sooner they nestledLIGHTS OUT

 

the phone rangwoke him

it could go to hell

if it was someone they could go to hell

robocall

robobozos getting clever 

                         they dont engage if they havent a guppy on the line  eyeball on the rednwhite bobber

cats didnt move

he played dead

fell back to sleep

hed wake up when he woke up

unless robobozo called again 

     odds were good it would  they badgeredstrategy to get at least an irate human on the line

0944,  Thursday,  27  10. 22

1059,  Thursday

Godspeed You! Black Emperor  Monheim  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyeqT4KSKuw

they were bullshitting about a new friendacquaintance met him the night before at a pub theyd meant to go to forever then forever trippedfell on its face  they went last night

Fuckin guy

He’s a card.

Ya hear him last night as he was leaving

No, I was in the can.

Awthas unfortunate as he was parting Jocke said Gentlemen, thank you for the evening steeped in friendship and merriment. The fucker bows anhes gone  Steeped in friendship an merriment 

                                                                                   Id never put those words together

Mighty touched I heard them

Ah, but he’s from a different country.

Yes It was pleasant listening to his accent  His English is good

I had a hard time understanding him.

You have a hard time listeningwhich is why you had a hard time understanding him

I don’t.

You do ought to get a glimpse of yourself as people talk around ya waiting to pounce words working in your mouth on your tongue waiting on the thinnest of segues to pop inhave your say 

                                                                           Thas not listening

And you didn’t have a hard time?

I struggledbut I could keep up Yamight recall I interrupted several times  Again  Sorry Jocke I didnt catch tha He kindly repeated himself

You’d think all the years he’s been here he’d be better at English.

Hows your Swedish His English is as good as mine an its my only language

I’m just sayin . .

. . Yare sayin you had something to say an was impatient because ifya donsay youll forget wha it was 

                                                                                                            Oned think youd master tha by now or at least have a pad an pencil an scribble it down soya didnt forget

Where theres a will theres a way

You a fuckin’ sage?

Nah Usin common sense top shelf item  On my way outcomin into this world first born I grabbed up lotsa premium things Didnt know seven were following me they lack wha I have I feel bad  Had I known I woudnt have been greedy

What are you talking about?

  You havent a clue 

                         Because you don LISTEN 

Dug Jockes evening steeped in friendship and merriment   

2257,  Sunday,  23  10. 22

1131,  Twosday,  25  10. 22

Godspeed You! Black Emperor  Government Came  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HR8jDwXjM04