he caught himself humming a tune didnt happen frequently McCartney the othersworld humming lent itself to words

Someones knockin at the door somebodys ringin the bell someones knockin at the cellar door somebodys ringin the bell do me a favour an letem in

                             cellar door somebody was knocking at his

but he didnt always answer

his door knockedphone rung didnt guarantee hed answer

                                                           he wasnt obliged

some think otherwise

                      he didnt didnt darken doorways cellar doors didnt ring chimesdidnt call thinking his call HAD to be answered

          wasnt skin off his ass in due time   everything in its own time

phon-aesthetics phonaesthetics

                                  he found his way to it through cellar door

cellar door didnt hop him up

                                rawawkwardness did

since then slapshots snapshots

                                 cellophane floor then cute cunt optic cup mirrored minds

todays flash

             neon nude brilliant

nice to have another horse hoarse whores in the stable nice to kick it around roll off his tongue play on his tympanic membrane maul his malleus concuss his incus cuckold his compliant cochlea

                                                                                neon nude

                                                                                              he had a girlfriend theyd get stoned get naked drew on the others body with Murine eyedrops when they finished their impossible-to-see-as-they-drew skins they shuttered the room turned on black lights Christ the fun they had fucking

                                                                                                      not many knew Murine was phosphorescent under black light

neon nude joins the ranks

1208,  Saturday – Christmas,  25  12. 21

1246,  Monday,  27  12. 21

McCartney  Let’em In  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXdIyS85emM

Fela Kuti  Monday Morning in Lagos  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Enb8Z4kgkVw

 

she came to the phone  finally

                               he called home for the holiday and talked with everyone else in the house or who had come visiting

his father said she was busy in the kitchen

Murry Kussmus. she had something in her mouthstill chewing

Merry Christmas Sis  Whawereya doin in the kitchen

Dup.

Dup

Hmmhmm.  trying to chew demurely

when ya got a fish on ya play it try not let it spit the hook

                                                            Wha kind of dup        

Dull.

Excuse me Sis not hearin ya clearly

trying to swallow Dildup.

Onmy hearin dildo . .

. . a choke . Dildup . dup. nah dough.

How do you serve dildo

she swallow cleared her throat  Dill DIP, DIP . . not dough.

Nother DIP would have thought yawere performing doo-wop  dipdipdip doo-wah

Dildo?

Wha I thought ya said

You serve it on a cracker, smartass.

After

Shesh . . . of course after . I believe the salt might smart.

Unless one likes rough sex  Dunno

Yes, there’s that. SIGH  Let’s start fresh, Joe, Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas Sis

1144,  Saturday – Christmas,  25  12. 21

1050,  Monday,  27  12. 21

The Flamingos  I Really Don’t Want to Know  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PndT6D0HPho

 

the badlands

                 the two thought theyd have another skull to fuck

                                                                         he saw but arrived too latesaw how they tracked down the hopeless youthhopelessly lost saw them play him act friendly as though theyd help 

                                                                                                 then fell on him

tormentedtortured him

they laughed as he died of his wounds

                                         the last thing hed ever hear 

then cravenly they took turns fucking his mouth while he was still warmstill had spit

he arrived latecouldnt save him couldnt have save him

                                                                  but he could avenge the stranger

he made himself hopelessly lost with knives

                                                 played to their fuckedup game

they enjoyed it too much

                        bought into it hook line and sinker  into their hegemony

he didnt think he saw eyes open wider than theirs when he slashed their throats panickyunsuspecting

                                                                                                              it was delicious 

as they bled out in the sand he saw shadows of vultures wheeling overhead

he stripped them naked he didnt want clothing to hold up the meal train

                                                                           as a boy he remembered a vulture feeding on a deer . . its head completely up the does ass

overnight,  Sunday,  26  12. 21 

2234,  Sunday,  26  12. 21 

The Everly Brothers  All I Have to Do is Dream  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbU3zdAgiX8

JesusChrist

             thas all he had 

Not there in California?

Theyre here in California but Ive never been inside one I saw them early on as Mom an Pop store killers money wasnt gonna stay in the community  It was a muscular professional football blitz against a beleaguered undersized offensive line  Theyd do just fine without my money

                                                Youre a member

I am.

I am

     I like that you don offer a defense   Because

Because there’s no arguing with you.

                                       I understand your sentiment. Besides . . if I tried you’d steamroll me with an array of economic, domestic, facts an figures that I don’t pay attention to because they bore me to tears.

Its good to be bored to tears  therein lies the truth

                                                      They count on you being bored They count on your disinterest

I’m not arguing.

                 I save money.

You save money on the backs of people

I save money.

You do

        Ya save money at an enormous boxstore thatas youve now informed me  sells coffins  he snorted I suppose they sell headstones too  

Yes.

JesusFuckingChrist

2115,  ReggaeFriday,  24  12. 21

1435,  Sunday,  26  12. 21

Ella Fitzgerald  Cry Me a River  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSw8KaZIzYg

 

intereffigial unspace

                     Whar da fucks that   supposed anywhar he wanted 

its Miévilles

had to tip his cap to China

                           cats waaayoutahead of him but hed thank him for direction

couldnt say how many times he sought ithadnt been afraid to ask

                                                                     punks earnestly offered him misdirection

funny

      to them

they managed a thinned dollop of frustration

                                               but his camel had a stout back they threw on straws

all they did was sidetrack him for a bit

                                              eventually he endedup where he was heading arrivingholding in his hands more history than he knew what to do with

                                               he committed thatvaulted it in his skull

queer when it exitedTADAH like when pants split or a woman suffers a wardrobe malfunction notorious to the entertainment field 

                 feeled

intereffigial unspace was a comfort

                                     I am droit de prestidigitateur la magie magicien sorcier illusionniste looksreads better in French

          but ofcourse

                       he sought to moisten panties worked hardlike a muthafucker on his accent  when out he shut up  he let them wrestleplay out the rest

                                   who wants to fuck local Im gonna fuck me a foreigner. Fuck me strange. then they had stories to tell their grandchildren who a generation removed might listen their children were contemporarytoo close to the bone maybe too inexpert  liesreally good lies need time to mellowbecome effortless seamless become facile believable particularly if one is a bad teller

a bad teller SHAMEShame shame 

                                   it helped to tell stories as a child he entertained others then there were the stories he told himself  they were most satisfying 

                                         You believe that   I do; wouldnt you have me believe?

he did 

never was keen on rhetoric         

once upon a time in the early Twentyfirst Century

0036,  Saturday AwwChristmas morning,  25  12. 21

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2011/may/14/china-mieville-life-writing-genre 

Tony Allen  Selfish Gene  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vr3p5NKIaf8

 

A place belongs forever to whoever claims it hardest, remembers it most obsessively, wrenches it from itself, shapes it, renders it, loves it so radically, that he remakes it in his image.

                                                                  Joan Didion

he preferred the sentence up to remembering most obsessively

                                                                   remaking a place violates it

those that attracted him were unspoiled

he obsessed they remain untouched

when barbed wire went up he cut it down midspan the posts at their bases

he painted blackface TRESPASSERS WILL BE VIOLATED signs sure hed be forgiven

he knew the land  entered on foot if pursuedpush came to shove he could ride the river out

he kept vigileyes peeled from secluded overlooks

he had books all the time in the worlds

the landowners no they didnt were tenacious

he was obsessed

obsession dominates tenacity

somebody wouldnt know if they met him

earlier this Century,  mebbe 2010 mebbe not

1411,  Thursday,  23  12. 21

Tony Allen  Never Satisfied  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08nuPYZBFMo

 

Believe Im gonna take my chances on the rong man rong r-o-n-g  a rong-walker

Man, the way you talk; you really like beating up the language.

Beat itHell I abuse it Its the only language I got so I like to keep it agile resilient  stretch it out slap it around a bit Whas rong with intentional misspellings portmanteaus scattered here or there Think of it as spice or seasoning Sugar comes to mymind then immediatelyId venture people early on didnt give a rats assa thought for the black slaves

people on whos backs made it possible for them to enjoy sweet

                                                                    Blood an sweat for sweet

An obscene equation

Im being mindful playful   experimenting 

R-o-n-g?  Really?

Im transparent  Rong

                       Is that wrong Not the way I see it

I should expect that, yet you constantly catch me flatfooted, an I know you better than most.

Quit entertaining those people

                              My turn  I could give a rats ass

I can’t help mysel . .

. . Only you can  Yare no ones providence

                                            Anif I ever go on the lamb Ill have to deal with you before I leave Might not be a tenable situation ya might wanna precede me out

You’ll let me know?

The least I could do for a buddy

A buddy?

Using your terminology flattering ya Don wanya to be uncomfortable

So . . your rong-walker? Who are they?

Cat I met we really hit it off

                             Names Dante canya imagine  Dante

No.

    I haven’t the imagination. Where you hiking?

Strap in possibly these are the promised peeks

                                                  Were swimming up through Figian Murimuria onto the caverns of Naraka Sanskrit into the shade of Japanese Yomi  anif I got the legs balls enough  onto Welsh Annwn or rap at the entrance of Mictlan Aztecs

You aren’t hiking.

Not with my legs

                 Myminds got legs

Won’t be sending me any postcards.

Ill see wha I can do

                     No ressentiment

Resentment?

Not the same

No resentment. Are you fucking with the language again?

No Ressentiment is legit

                           Look it up while you looking up Murimuria . .

. . I’m not.

No

No, I’m not as curious as you. Maybe you’ll let me know when you get back.

Fingers crossed

0824 or 2024, he liked, this evening, Thursday,  23  12. 21

1337,  ReggaeFriday,  24  12. 21

https://www.pilotguides.com/articles/a-short-history-of-slavery-and-sugar-cane-in-jamaica/https://www.pilotguides.com/articles/a-short-history-of-slavery-and-sugar-cane-in-jamaica/

Tony Allen  Path to Wisdom  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1bba1BGXWA

   he kept his eye on it

                         stared it down when he had to surreptitiously if need bepeeking round a corner after it or in full view wearing sunglasses like carpenters who insist theyre protecting their eyes from nails sawdust but are really using them to hide their stare so women walking past a job site couldnt see them ogle

                                                                                     asif she was densecouldnt put two an two togetherwouldnt realise their banging fell silent

hard to pound nails while looking elsewhere

he kept his eye on it

he wanted to be all in but was losing faith

   optimism

               was becoming miserly  he was miserable

he fashioned it a new name  a blend word a portmanteau cinchedup tiedtightly   optimism & miasma

   optimiasma

                       since it was looking an beginning to smell bad

it would have to do

hed be gawddamned if he threw in with pessimists

                                                       his glass remained half full

however what it held looked polluted

1026,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  12. 21

1030,  Thursday,  23  12. 21

 

the superintendent approached him during break and told him his sister called and at the end of day he was to stop at her place

          She went to your place, gathered up some nice clothes, you’re to shower there, you have a date tonight.

A date

That’s what she said.

Thats all she said

Stop at her place, you got a date.

he didnt know what to make of that

                                       Thanks Dean

You betcha.

she answered the door

Wha this all about Sis

Stop right there, I don’t want you dragging that filth into my house. Go around to the back porch, I’ll get you a towel, strip out there.

I got a date

You have time. Get showered, dressed, all laid out on the bed, I’ll tell you about it then.

I couldn’t help myself, hell, I was attracted to her, you know how much we’re alike. Just couldn’t let her go without taking a shot for you.

I imagine your approach was disconcerting

No not at all; particularly in light of what I’d overheard. I met Patti for coffee, but she got a call and had to run. I still had coffee, most of a slice of caramel pecan, the paper too, so I sat tight. She, Circe . .

. . Circe  witch  enchantres . .

. . Shush would you . . Circe, I know what Circe is, sat at the next table facing me. She’s beautiful, it was hard to take my eyes off her, and so animated; she caught me looking at her several times, each time acknowledged me with a nod.

Her friend, checking her watch, said she had to get going. They stood, said their goodbyes, hugged, and sitting down again she smiled at me and said hello. I said hello, and I thought, and then I got up and went to her table, introduced myself, I asked if she didn’t have to be anywhere might I join her. We must have talked two hours.

Where am I meeting her

At the Bodega on US One, just down from the jazz club. I made reservations under your name.

How are we to know each other

You can’t possibly mistake her. She’s . . how should I say . . . ah . she’s, Circe is cineticamente estetico.

Would you quit Im a carpenter I struggle with English  Can you just say

Cineticamente estetico, it means . . wait for it . kinetically aesthetic.

AwJesus I think youve got me in over my head

You? No way. You can’t miss her. You’ll thank me.

he couldnt have missed her

1954,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  12. 21

1220,  Thursday,  23  12. 21

Tony Allen  Ariya (A Ray of Hope) (PsychejujuMix)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGcVrvAFfKc

 

he asked peopleif they could would they describe how they dream not what they dreamed but rather how

it caused more confusion that he thought

he apologised Here lemme say how I dream

                                               I dream shallow mercurial pools that shiver an squirm like heedless worms I act within them swim on their bellys or over the top of their surfaces I go through doors an panes an cell walls with the liberty of ghosts  I crow nonsensically at fearful shadows some who rather than face me an play commit suicide

that was no help

1330,  Sunday,  21  8. 21

1259,  Thursday,  23  12. 21

Tony Allen  Time to Take a Reste Suite, Pt. 1  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LnATWMgEQN0

 

   roue

          sounds like badsmelling cheese Limburger Pecorinu Hooligan Ardrahan Stinking Bishop  Epoisses  Maroilles Greensward Torta del Casar

Any idea

             Didnt think so

he found it written on a slip of paper  “. . . the roue will die protesting his mistress is pure”

From where

he quoted it so its not his  

Where o whar did he find it a rolling stone collects no moss  he had some digging to do

Paydirt

          O but ofcourse William Cowper Brann  known as Brann the Iconoclast he plucked the phrase from “There is no secret a man will guard with such vigilance as his amours, no copartner in iniquity he will shield with such fidelity as a paramour. The bandit may turn state’s evidence, and the assassin will confess the noose; but the roue will die protesting his mistress is pure as the driven snow.”

Nice nice to know

a debauched man is a roue

                            a rake a rogue a degenerate  if one had coin anasked hed stop to have a drink with them

seems a making of an innarestin time

no freaking idea – likely this century

0929,  Thursday,  23  12. 21

Kologbo  Another Man Thing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chjBUryG-Os

 

go in haste hie hies hied hieing hying

                                          Middle English from Old English higian strive pant

he hied in the past without knowing he had

                                             Hiyaed because he hadnt time to stop and talk

he cooked the same way                                

                                 evidently

she said Ah, a salmagundi . . excellent.

A wha

Salmagundi. Usually a salad, though you haven’t greens, it incorporates meat, seafood, cooked, raw vegetables; sometimes fruit and nuts.

It has a name Thats nuts

she laughed nice music What do you call it?

Dinner rang like a dull bell

                               I open the fridge see wha I got make something of it Good way of dispatching leftovers in as savory a manner I can muster

                                 If I had to push come to shove Id call it a casserole

I’m looking forward to it.

You wont be disappointed Im as good in the kitchennot baking though as I am in the sack  Might wanna keep that in mind as you eat

Ohmy, you’re terrible.

Get in line seem to rub women that way

                                           Ofcourse goes without saying but I am I wouldnt use it on guys  although Ive fixed dinner for friends he laughed  Boy friends

she laughed because he did

                               Boyfriends? 

No  Boy friends

                 Got a brotherinlaw who cringes when I say boy friends he pushes the nouns together as you did I separate them Who the hell wants to say male friends no colourno spice this way those who want to twist on a line can twist I live by the credo Fuckem if they cant take a joke

What does he call his boy friends? she giggled in spite of herself

Buddies

That’s appropriate.

Neutered

          I say butties more cringeworthy than boy friends

Sounds like you enjoy cringes.

Yes cringes  offcoloured  provocation anything but milquetoast  Are you familiar with Caspar Milquetoast

Caspar Milquetoast?

                        No.  Can’t say I am.

A comic strip character The Timid Soul his creator H T Webster referred to him as the man who speaks softly and gets hit with a big stick

                     An obvious spin on Teddy Roosevelts Talk softly but carry a big stick An iron fist in a velvet glove isnt as appealing to me

My, the webs you weave. Sir Walter Scott.

Yes

Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practise to deceive. From Marmion . .

. . they spoke over each other  A Tale of Flodden Field

You would not practise to deceive me?

   No

        I definitely want to get in your pants

no freaking idea – this Century he thinks

1609,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  12. 21

Escape the Fate  The Webs We Weave  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=csAEVmN7TyA

 

foolhardy they exercised their prerogative without a care or thought of what others thought

                                                                                                they werent wellschooled

Ah shit he stood up from the park bench he sat on an walked towards them muttering Nahnahnah shaking his unbrushed woolly head stroking his beard

                                 the first he came upon he rapped on the forehead with a knuckle Ya donwanna keep this up keep it up an someones gonna get hurt they kept it up hed x-ercise them

the boy stepped back rubbing his forehead he was well out front of the others maybe he didnt see he was swinging in the breezerecognise hed take the brunt

                                         That would be a mistake, old man.  

yahoo should have tried to deescalated the situation not try to buy time not provoke him he didnt know his old man raised him that if a fight was eminent throw the first punch

the rap on the skull emitted a soundlike rapping a melon  it suggested he didnt have a bonehead he drove his fist between his eyes lights went out  

the several behind him paused tentative is not good in a fight

                                                                    he bullrushed them howling

they scattered

Dammit gawddammit

                       frosted his fanny only one would paid for their mistake

he shook his head they wouldnt learn anything wouldnt see the error of their ways these kids wouldnt see they were wrong

he turnedwalked away

                         he walked a bit before he realised he was singing softly  Yubby dibby dibby dibby dibby dibby dibby dum all day long Id biddy biddy bum if I was a wealthy man

                                                                       he laughed hard out loud

he finally understood wha biddy biddy bum meant even though he wasnt a wealthy man

ReggaeFriday,  26  12. 14

1357,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  12. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5fCqKbSC7M