7.10.21


the girls wanted ice cream
                            looking into their eyes he saw they were adamant

he didntwasnt interested  he began humming Whatever Lola Wants

they dressed him down in stereo eyes   suggested he might wanna cut that out

Wha he wasnt convincing 
                            he was playing  shesh No sense of humour

For that his wife said  you’re having ice cream with us.

Thats fine Im happy to have ice cream with you

No, I mean have, eat, ice cream.

Id prefer not

Com’on, Dad his girls said excitedlypicking up on their mothers derision have ice cream with us, that’d make it a real treat.
no sooner than they closed theirs mouth they worked him with their eyesthe three of them  his wife and eldest had huge brown eyes touted their hereditary brown eye treatmenthe watched guys jump hoops for his wife before they dated IDIOTS he told her when they began dating that that wouldnt work on him though only with extreme effort was he able to resist  not that he told her his youngest braided him with her greenishhazel eyes  as huge as her mother and sisters

felt like he had fallen headlong into the 60s film Village of the Damned


he went along with themthe path of least resistance 

he couldnt remember  yahhe could Sanibel Island Florida after hours of swimming in saltwater under the sun refreshing blizzards at the Dairy Queen without fail their girls were little
                                                                he conceded


it was a bright yellow ice cream parlor

there were booths

the girls had sundaes
how could they eat that much ice cream 
                                      he had a cone
they convinced him to have two scoops  creamy coconut ice cream

as they fell mindlessly into their feasts spooningingesting his cone unraveled the scoops falling into his hand
Manohman he saidbarely attracting their attention
                                                        I get a discount for eating out of hand 
they looked up
he took their barrage of laughter in good humour
                                                   Yes  Very funny  Someone wanna hand me a napkin please
the dispenser at the table was empty

his youngest boundup to the counter

she returned with a spoon
                           They’re out of napkins, something about an order unfilled, it's late . . I brought you a spoon . figured you could eat your ice cream cone out of your hand. she laughed  that tickled her

Out  of  my  hand
                     he tried to keep his anger in check  anger warms the body

You always say, Dad, waste not, want not.

Thank you doll for your thoughtfulness

You’re welcome, Daddy. that wasnt necessary  Daddy  unnecessary
                                                                             she fell back to her sundae  his problem wasnt hersher ice cream was getting warm


he ate down to the unfolded cone then with melted ice cream flowing down his forearmdripping off his elbow he stood and walked up to the counter  he apologised to the clerk asked for the manager for the mess on their floor from their failed producttheir lack of napkins

Originally he said to the manager I was going to ask for a discount
                                                                       but sticky as I am I prefer to be reimbursed for my doublescoop coconut cone  Im wearing half of it  Shared a portion of itoff my elbow with your floor

the manager correctly obliged him


the girls had exitedwaited outside for him
                                            they knew when he got something into his skull hed to be sure to get what he believed was reasonably his

they learned from his exampleparticularly his daughters
                                                           he always made them standup for themselves against adults when they were children

while they werent keen about it as girls they thanked him more times than he could say as young women


gratefully they didnt ask him eat ice cream with them again

0343,  Sunday,  3  10. 21
2313, Day-between-Two-Ts, 6  10. 21
Sarah Vaughan  Whatever Lola Wants  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Oa6oM5kzBg 

 

publicly politicians obfuscate make word salad he understood that
                                                                        however when in private conversation with party colleagues he expected their discussions to be frank their points succinct and distinctly able to clarify their positions
Don play politics with cohorts


“Respectfully, Senator Sanders and I share (pause here Senator Manchin yare not sharing but . . have) very different policy and political beliefs. As he and I have discussed, Senator Sanders believes America should be moving towards an entitlement society while I believe we should have a compassionate and rewarding society.”

Manchin has refused to define an entitlement society and now believes we should have a compassionate and rewarding society however also fails to define that

Sanders Senate Budget Committee chairman who is helping mold the presidents ambitious priorities into legislation wants specificity “. . tell us with specificity – not generalities, but beyond generalities, with specificity – what (Manchin) wants and what he does not want, and explain that to the people of West Virginia and America.”

West Virginia elected Manchin with just north of 209,000 votes

the country elected Biden with a record 81,284,000 votes seven million votes more than the disgraced former

1021,  Thursday,  7  10. 21

https://www.pewresearch.org/fact-tank/2021/01/28/turnout-soared-in-2020-as-nearly-two-thirds-of-eligible-u-s-voters-cast-ballots-for-president/  https://www.cbsnews.com/news/joe-biden-popular-vote-record-barack-obama-us-presidential-election-donald-trump/

6.10.21

 

the eyes have it

   correct       eyes

how many times had he answered stupid questions with eyes  hopeful that who asked it would pickup on his GIVE ME A FUCKIN BREAK and either withdraw the question or restate it
                                                                he usually encouraged withdrawal despite aligning himself with theres no such thing as a stupid question  unless its reallyreally fuckin stupid  hence    eyes

he never worked on the lookhis eyes in the mirror
                                                       it hurt when he did
starteddistended eyeballs bathed in unsupportive arid air
used them only when necessary
someone would have to be blind to miss them

of recent perhaps because of the Ahole times were living in despite eyes the offender waits

Awright really playing stupid
                                he then offended them unsparingly with his tongue usually beginning with he was sorryhe didnt like offending women he hoped they grant him absolution Areya a cunt                 

cunt really drives his point home

with men

with women
             he was especially riled when women whom he held in higher regard asked a stupid question and saw  yet disregarded his eyes


his last go-round was with his manager hed been sitting out Trump virus couldnt remember her name now she was his fifth managerfifth wholesale management changeover in four years
                                                                        Are you here to pickup your check?
                                                                                                                  eyes
I don’t think I have a check for you.
                                     no she wasnt a thinker she was another in a long line of nonthinkers who thought they lorded over him by virtue of their title

You don

I didn’t think so. she Cheshire Catsmiled
                                             What can I do for you?

Nothing I just happened by

Is there a form you need to complete?
                                          eyes   hed have thought that Nothing I just happened by would have concluded her questioning  the eyes   the beginning-to-slide-away

No

What can I do for you?

Nothing
        three strikes and yare Out

he knew he made a mistake coming in but this was the last place he thought he might find what he was looking for

rudely he turned his back on her


he failed to find it

he left without saying buhbye
she made his eyes hurt
0343,  Sunday,  3  10. 21
1637,  Twosday,  5  10. 21
Alice Cooper   No More Mr. Nice Guy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=huKbLK5aC6Q

 
it was a small airport concourse
                                 though considerably larger than the one it replaced which remained standing next door because a wellknown wateringhole and restaurant operated out of it

one went through Security hold then into an open-air patio before entering it to access the gates

whenever he flew infrequently he made it a point to keep to the patioto the fresh air than mingle with the thin crowd indoors
        decidedly so since Trump virus had taken root he wasnt wearing a mask any more than he had to
                                                                                                               he knew what time his flight boarded so until then he found a chair set his carry-on and bookbag on it he stood before it reading hed be sitting on his ass soon enough and more than he cared so this helped him mitigate the inevitable he also kept a clipboard paper and pen at hand to make notes if he was inclined
                                                                      he usually was

occasionally prerecorded or informational broadcasts were made into the patio via artful PA horns mounted in protected corners their acoustics were obviously assessed the sound was crisp not overwhelming almost conversational
consideration was also made not to pipe canned music into the space elevator music recognising that either personal music or the anticipation of travel was sufficiently stimulating

two people sat directly behind him at a small café table
                                                          he assumed they were together but each was at their smartphone  smatterings of quiet talk into them or otherwise manipulating apps

occasionally they addressed each other in an unfocused warm manner soon theyd be sitting side by side for hours

over the PA a stunning new voice braced themDEMANDED their attention
                                                                             it wanted a passenger precisely enunciating their name  Immediately come to Gate 4 it repeated their name once again  Gate 4
                                                                                          Oh man he thought rather he thought he thought
                    the couple at his back laughed
he turned to them 
                   Said that out loudhuh
they laughed harder 

Yeahwell whoever it is he said he wants to talk to sounds like theyre in big trouble  Sounded exactly like my old man when he meant business first middle last name  I was in trouble

they nodded

Yup no way Id want to be that passenger Sounds like theres going to be hell to pay

they nodded enthusiasticallycontinued laughing

Happy yare following maybe were long lost half brothers an half sister which could possibly be unfortunate for you yare married I think there are laws forbidding thatexcept in the South 

they laughed harder yet

his trip was starting off on the right foot
1142,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  9. 21
1044,  Twosday,  5  10. 21

5.10.21

Here here, take this exitthis exit . . HERE!

  Easy does it
                       wasnt like he needed to take a shit
he wanted a Dairy Queen
made more sense if he was stonedhis urgency
                                                he wanted a Dairy QueenNOW

they were driving through Long Beach the industrial shipping part of town hell of a place to locate a Dairy Queen by his memory a clean well-lighted place 
You sure

GoogleMaps says so, Google’s God.

Tell me how ya really feel

Just get me to Dairy Queen; take a right at the top of the ramp then a right at the next intersection.

The intersection

Right at the next intersect . .
. . Name

Why do you need a name?

Im driving  sufficient enough

Jesus, name . . . Gulf Road.


as he approached the intersection
                                    Looks like a gulch Why a Dairy Queen in an industrial district
he took Gulf
            immediately to his left was a fertilizer company depot across the street a diesel maintenance shop furthur up on the left an auto wrecking yard right a ruststained warehouse and various Quonsets rusted outbuildings  Ya fuckin kidding me he braked for a rat left a yard for an asphalt blacktopping company kattycorner a not-so-gleaning white well-used put-away-wet Dairy Queen
THERE!

Dude thats a Dairy Slut

Shaddup.

he pulled into the small parking lot avoiding potholes abandoned shopping carts

You want something cool and sweet, maybe chocolate-coat . .
. . To hide the ptomaine
                         No thank you

Suit yourself, I have to use the head first.

By all means


as he walked back to the car Get the door for me, willya? he had two tall ice cream cones one was chocolate-covered with nuts

he pushed the door open for him
he got in
he excused himself as he leaned across his lap to shut the door
                                                                   You could have gotten out of the car and done that.
An leave my scent for the Blob to follow unlikely
                                                   Just shaddup an eat your cones

I will; gotta say that that bathroom was right up there among the worse bathrooms I’ve ever been in. he took a bite out of the bright white cone
0343,  Sunday,  3  10. 21
1226,  Twosday,  5  10. 21

 
stopped him cold in his trackshe actually stumbled
                                                     not on anuythingnot on an invisible crack that tripped his wife and daughters regularly fortunately they were adeptagile superior athletes                                                                                                                               they didnt appreciate his HOHOs  they always wanted to know how the hell it was he walked and read and never tripped or stumbled
                                                                                            where were they now
words he read tripped him
page30 Carol Andersons White Rage: The Unspoken Truth of Our Racial Divide  ought to be put in hands of every American child they ought to be taught not to fear the truth no matter how ugly American truth and myth is

“ . . . in the spring and summer of 1866, the South’s descent into an orgy of anti-black violence signaled the final break between (President) Johnson and the Republicans. gotta know your history In New Orleans, nearly fifty Africa Americans were slaughtered and more than one hundred injured for meeting to discuss voting. When one of the killers, who had just bludgeoned a black man to death, was warned that ‘he might be punished,’ he scoffed. ‘Oh, hell! Haven’t you seen the papers?’ he said, ‘Johnson is with us!’” (citing A. G. Langguth, After Lincoln: How the North Won the Civil War and Lost the Peace, page148)

Johnson is with us


Trump is with us

the former is the worst   Johnson second    Andrew Johnson the third  America would have been better without them

1418,  Twosday,  5  10. 21

anuything: anything nuthin


third person
           Ever speak of yourself in third person
queer
ungainly

 to him
          obviously he wrote in third person


he was confident some people were comfortable perhaps intrigued referring to themselves in the third person
                                                                                                                 the Former  although he is a false human beingHOW does a false human fool other people
he hadnt a clue
               the guys been a Bozo since he read of him last century

a friend reminded him of his fortune that he didnt suffer the slings an arrows an manipulations of social media
                                                                                                                   NO
but that didnt make him smart
                               he wasnt fond of immediacyfond of 24/7anything shoved down peoples throats by commercial entities that monetised anything they could get their hands on
he wasnt fond of greed
                       when the whole world had fresh water  a pot to pee in  nourishing food
then greed


Inequity
         maybe that allowed some people to talk of themselves in third person
wouldnt God talk of himself in third person
 
1517,  ReggaeFriday,  10  9. 21
1241,  Sunday,  3  10. 21

4.10.21


he loved staggering in the front yardhead thrown backmouth open catching big fat snowflakes on his tongue

his father came out
                    they were heading outdriving over to the liquorstore to buy beer liquor for a party his parents were throwing  Come on, screwball, let’s go! 

Catch a snowflake on your tongue first Dad

No, I don’t think so; I got, we got things to do.

Theres so many Dad just open your mouth Yacant miss
                                                          staggering boots slipped he fell onto his back  Look at me Dad laying down Im still catching them on my tongue  he lolled his tongue side to side exaggerating himself

Come on, Joe, you’re a screwball. Get up, brush yourself off, we gotta go.
                                                                           DAD just one snowflakejust one  Theyre delicious

They’re snowflakes, buddy, one tastes like another.

When was the last time you ate one when you were a kid Id bet
                                                                   he started making a snow angel close as hed ever get
You’re right, not since I was a kid.

Comon Dad lay down beside me make an angel catch snowflakes on your tongue  You afraid someones gonna see
You could teach them some things  mebbe teach some parentsremind them theyre nothing but big kidsCOMON

Comon, comon, comon . . . you’re a pain in the ass, Joe.
                                                          he walked over sat down in the snow laid back  made an angel beside his son gobbled snowflakes  You’re right, boy, the snowflakes are delicious.

a neighbor came out in his shirtsleevesBob! Are you okay? What the hell are you doing?

What’s it look like?

Man, looks like fun.
                    he was in his stocking feet  he walked out onto his front yard sat laid back  Fercryinoutloud, I haven’t done this since I was a snotnose kid.

2214,  Sunday,  22  8. 21
1344,  Sunday,  3  10. 21
Youngbloods  Get Together  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rxvU1wkyec 

 

theres fallacy
                      then theres phallusy
    lies
          lies told by men 
lies told by men to gain way into womens panties

lies told by men to other men to garner acceptance stature  hyperbole  colouring polishing tales


Go ahead look it up its in the dictionary 
                                             If it isnt it ought to be

1535,  ReggaeFriday,  10  9. 21
1132,  Sunday,  3  10. 21
Sons of Kemet  Through the Madness Stay Strong  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v5fBOvvcUmE       

 

Otto  
he cringed

Oughta
          Dig
he wasnt humoured
                         Otto oughta opt out


Otto had long ago 
                  when push came to shove hed acknowledge his initials  G-O-Fgruffly rather than admitgive testament to his given name  should anyone want to address him they could call him by his nickname
                                                                                                a happy perhaps mythic tale of nurses who conferred a nickname on him that hes carried forth since  he was the only baby boy in the nursery probably the last time he worked a room of females
                                                       according to him it was too bad females didnt remain or retain the muteness they had as newborns  it would have pleased him endless 
he didnt care for opinionated women                       

You seem to prefer women who havent a brain in their head

I haven't said that.
Yahave 
        Whas the matter with you

They have opinions; I've usually found them not based in fact.

Ya know that

I know it’s likely a coin toss.

A coin toss

Yes.

Hmm  youll excuse me all to hell I cant help but imagine the women youve preferred associated with over the years
he made it a point to beat him regularly that women are superior to men If a woman couldnt hold her own with me intellectually usually bettering me no matter how attractive they areBuhbye Ive enjoyed the genuine fortune of having the company of intelligent attractive women

Come on, you’re dreaming, the two don’t jivedon’t go together.

Pray tell  Ot-to
Don’t call me that. he snarled

Yakiddin me Suits you to a T Spelled the same forward and back
                                                                      An easy test for women you dated  only have to remember two letters  to letters

You’re so fucking cleve . .
. . See  anif I was a women you wouldnt have dated me ya wouldnt have had to bother tossing a coin

I've dated intelligent women.

Im listening
            Ive listened to you tell of your soirees  Whas always presentedyouve presented are the womens physical attributes  as much the men theyre big approximate height weight athletic played football basketball asif their physical prowess was a measure or a mirror  You were able to hold your own with them

Women ya don catch big fish in shallow water

The hell you know.


I know better than flipping a coin 
                                     he didnt necessarily storm off not like a woman would when she had enough of your guff  he turned and walked away rapidly 

he supposed Otto did opt out
 
                                  O   o 
                                                   -- 
  
1527,  Reggae Friday,  10  9. 21 
1022,  Sunday,  3 10. 21
      

3.10.21


when he should have died but didnt made him laugh
                                                       he laughed maniacallystrap him up in a straitjacket please hed prefer it teastained Hmm  teatstainedthat wouldnt that be a sign of mental illness that would be  alacrity take the attendants off the scent he meant a lactation laxity screw the r  a lalecheleague rogue there the it is  the r  (use your imaginationyoull get there)


when he should have died but didnt made him giddy
                                                       Lizzy BB  How do I love mee? Let me count the ways.
he counted 9

cats have 9 lives

he loved pussy

had 8 5 in 3 outside the house

he counted 9  they were legit

inches one way or the otherDEAD

his old man reiteratedhe took him at his word
                                                It’s hard to hit a moving target, boy. he couldnt say he was moving in every instanceNah  Bouthalf the time 
he wouldnt nix his old mans premise
every time he hunted rabbit hed wait for the spooked rabbit to stop running rearup on its hindlegs to look around  then take him
          never failed   only once he didnt wait  should have died that afternoon in the Everglades  a firefight shotguns five guys stoned on something or other a handful of different prettycoloured pills rabbits scattering in all directions allaround an inbetween them  blasts  he felt muzzleheat  had to have birdshot pellets dug out of his shoulder an earlobe piercedwouldnt recommend it returning to Miami he stop in Claire’s at the Dadeland Mall and bought a starter earring   Don’t you want the other earring? the gal asked   Baby if my other ear was pierced Id be dead   she looked confusedpossibly frightened  he wasnt about to console hershow her the back of his shoulder bring her back to earth or perhaps spinning off into orbit

                                                            one of 9

9s his lucky number

        that gave him pause

hed have to be alert

maybe hes used up all his yuckyuck

                                                  thatd be a drag

1543,  Thursday,  30  9. 21
1216,  Reggae Friday,  1  10. 21
America  I Need Youme  Me you  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAQq0PV2yow 


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Employees must wash their hands before returning to work. 
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employees
            Duh
Obvious

buy a togo cup of coffee The contents are hot (, fool).
                                                                              DUH

Why was it up to others to protect people from themselves
                                                            letem enter the arena after theyve been educated          
if their education was ignored or didnt stick
                                             Wellshit  thats on them


he always came down on the side of accountability
                                                     punishment 
when he decided to do something wrong he weighed the riskthe punishment  get away with it  mighty pleased   didnt well  he was willing to suffer the consequences

suffer the consequences

its curious who the people are who suffer consequences and those who dont
                                                                                 get that shit worked out
then were talking

1309,  Saturday,  2  10. 21
The Shaolin Astronauts  Scarab  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwwODYxDkkI 

 

      memorys  he liked how it looked 

                  of things long gone
quiet silhouettesshadows drifting on wet mist  lazy ash blown  siftingdiffuse like flour fine sand  intimate conversations
              yet his HOWL at him dog him wont let him blink or pause for fear he may forget may not remember
they wellup out of the distant past hurtleup out of deep chasmstunnels humming vibrating poignant remembrances that will not escape him
                   they haunt him some say  which he was okay withokay with the scattered bags the lopsided freight figures who tried to frighten him but could not
                                               they formedup statically pictures cells snapshots  his lifefor some reason composed to effect them


dutch elms on either side of the street that grew together above it forming cathedral ceilings

smell of leaves burning in street gutters which incentivised him as a boy to rake lawns clean  the smell of fresh cut grass  the smell of fresh snowfall

his boyhood home painted gray
                                 heavy screens to hang for the summer heavy storm windows to hang for the winter
the girl next door

the other girls

rabid nights in Miami

quiet nights in Montana

ranch work hunting fishing
                              he could pickout individual days from among them crystalclear  magnified clarity  but when relating what he remembered to people who he shared moments with they had no recollection
sometimes he doubt himself
his mother would set him straight
                                    I don’t know why, but you remember things since before you were two . . always have been some concern to your father and I . but you remember correctly; you should not doubt yourself.
Perhaps your long memory is a gift, my son; or a curse.
 
      gift        curse
             gift

when he dreamed he didnt distinguish between a dream or a nightmare
                                                                                apparently he was a hoarder

1018,  Reggae Friday,  1  10. 21
1122,  Saturday,  2  10. 21