15.8.21

 

So what do you call your writing?

Mosaic

Why?

Bits and pieces tossedfused together as they capture an arrest my imagination

For example?

A pensee

I don’t know what a pensee is?

Either did I I liked the wordawfully close to penis to pen  to scribble scribe palimpsest  limp pensee limppenis 


A pensee is a thought or reflection put into literary form an since Bradbury suggestedRay challenged me for the hell of it Id id give it a go

The first line is the subject two syllables    

Awright
         Ill write Eldritch

Line two is a description four syllables

A betrayer

Third line is action seven syllables

Who slays with tactics and lust

Fourth line setting eight syllables

Comes up from behind through the woods

Line five final thought six syllables

Killing without remorse

 

Yasee that really hasnt a home
                                   But then is right at home in a mosaic

the ink is similar: 1350,  Thursday,  12  5. 11
1346,  Saturday,  14  8. 21

14.8.21

 

Faulkner

Light in August

he dropped those early in conversation

if eyes didnt glaze over if their voices didnt catch in the phone line he continued

if he thought their reaction was kneejerk Who hasn’t heard of Faulkner? or they thought it was unlikely hed mention August if Faulkner hadnt written it he salted them with a favourite combination
                                                                                    He was not old enough to talk and say nothing at the same time.  Memory believes before knowing remembers. 


crickets

the coup de grace
                    Even a liar can be scared into telling the truth, same as an honest man can be tortured into telling a lie.

even if they didnt know the quotes were from August they should have been able to expound upon themshare what they thought of them with him

      crickets
                     even fireflies quit flashing their lanterns

those were short conversations

short and sweet and telling

Oh.  You’re going?

I am

Well, it’s been nice chatting with you.

Thank you  Its been nice talking with you also

then he either excused himselfstood up from the table or said goodbye and hung up

 

when he met Allie he knew he couldnt let her gohe was holding onto her

she held onto him

they knew somehow they were extraordinary together  unexpected


the other couples they had met at different venues and at other peoples homes 

they always enjoyed their company

 

that night he asked Allie if he could take her out for a drinkfor a lemondrop martini
                                                                                        that was the first cocktail he ever bought her she wasnt disturbed when the bartender told them that the dishwasher hadnt shown for their shiftthat they were behind and he couldnt serve her in a martini glass

she said that was okay
that was a strong inkling he liked her
                                        which was then fortified when she left early with her date who took her homewho had taken exception that they were hitting it off they had come to the club to meet friends who were dancers   

he told her he didnt dance

she didnt mind

 


they ran into the couples at a favourite bar
                                             mechanic Mike and clerical worker Jacklynn she was a walkingtalking lovely portmanteau her father was Jack her mother was Lynn the other couple was Elaine who preferred Laney and her girlfriend Rosa

the six took a large booth near the rear of the lounge near the Fire Door the Fire Door was painted fire red if conversation ever lapsed all one had to do was eyeball it black magicmarkers were placed in an antique soapdish screwed into the jamb people were encouraged to write thoughtful graffiti conversations were usually rejuvenated by random injections of the banal and profound written there
he was responsible for several the lounge laureate

taking a seat they riffed on the coincidencehe didnt buy into coincidences that the six had converged that night his denial helped fashion the aggressive conversations that went around and across the tableoften speaking over each other
it smelled like blood
he was having a ball 

                            before they got too terrible tore up he suggested they take the party to his place hed drive
he had a late 90s four-door benchseat Chevy Tahoe affectionately named Tatanka 

loosely it was agreed to
                          Fine Ill settle the bill collect your things Ill be right back

the hostess was also the cashier

who knew this place would be hopping on a Wednesday night

a little later longer than he thought he squared up and made his way back to the red buttoned Naugahyde booth

walking up the aisle he saw Allie facing him intoxicated bemused confused  thats how he read her expression

at the booth he looked across the table
                                          Laney wheres Rosa
She left.

to his right
             Jacklynn  wheres Mike
He took off.

We shelving the party

the three answered Hell no!
                              but didnt get up

Awright awright Sit tight Ill bring the car up nearer the door
                                                                 Need some water while Im gone
Yes.

Ill have the busser bring three glasses Back in ten

Yes.

leaving he decided hed take his time let the girls come down a bit walking out he wondered what transpired between the couples
             the blood wasnt that ugly
Jacklynn was very feminine wore a floral tied shoulderstraps sundress the modest Vneck couldnt secret the swell of her breasts
              Mike was lucky
Laney on the other hand wore a blouse slacks and highheels she was sixtwo without  her blouse plunged her breasts aplenty
         Rosa was lucky 



he found a spot to park down the street beyond the lighted lounge front before empty grassy lots that were maintained 

Im back
         Jacklynn had moved and now was on the aisle beside Allie she slid over Laney was immediately at her left shoulder
          You three look cozy we still on
Yes.

Everyones cool

Laney laughed
                 I’ll take Jacky’s arm, you take Allie’s . . scoot girls.

he took Jackys elbow helped her up turned her into the aisle as he took Allies elbow and helped her up hands full he looked at Laney as she scooted towards him
standing upright he had quite the view 

when Laney cleared the booth and stood she said I ought to charge you admission.

Ya oughta Make it reasonable an we can go again

Allie? You listening to your boyfriend?

He admires goodlooking women, you could have charged me admission too.
Me too! chimed Jacky

Seems were all fans Laney he said

Yes, well thank you very much, but I can only show real appreciation to two; you’d have to suffer mere appreciation.

Im sure Id appreciate it

Oh you know it, babe. 


he and Allie lead the way out and down to the car

he unlocked the doors held the rear door for Jacky to enter first

Jacky didnt sit and slide she hiked her skirt got in on her hands and knees to crawl the back of her thighs were appealing

Step aside, gang said Laney this looks like a job for me.
                                                            she reached up between Jackys legs grabbed her left thigh ran her thumb between her legs
they figured shed bolt
                        she didnt
she squatted back against Laneys thumb over her shoulder she said Oh, man, that feels good, feels real good.

awkward
           for a fleet second
Crawl forward, baby. said Laney never once stopping her massage Lemme in.

Jacky crawled

Laney saddled up

he opened the passenger door for Allie so she could get in

she smiled lazily Mind if I sit in back too? Jacky was still wiggleworming to the opposite door Laney was still diddling her blouse fell open to either side of her breasts

No babe Help yourself

she smiled ridiculously large
                               helping her in Laney turned onto her fannystill with her hand between Jackys legsJacky beginning to pant and taking a hip Allie slid up against Laney and grasped her exposed breast

he closed the door

he closed the passenger door

he walked around the front of Tatanka to his door and let himself in

it smelled wonderful

he slipped the key in fired up Tatanka

before pulling away from the curb he adjusted the large rearview mirror to look into the backseat

it was the first time he didnt bitch it was too large

dreaming early Monday morning,  9  12. 21
1226,  Saturday,  14  8. 21

13.8.21

 
just when he thinks hes outhas escaped sexcapades hes flung headlong back into itup to his eyeballs or buried to his neck cant beat the view
                        an old girlfriend once told him While you’re down there look for my car keys; I’ve lost ‘em again.

there are worse places to be


he was reading Unwell Women: Misdiagnosis and Myth in a Man-Made World by Elinor Cleghorn 

page 85 Chapter 6  Contagious Pleasures

time place character

elemental for writing

1850  Robert Lee
                    “. . the speculum-denouncing professor of midwifery at Saint George’s Hospital of London . .” 

“What really lay behind detractors’ objections was the fear that the speculum would unravel the tightly laced sexual morality of Victorian women.”

“For some gynecologists, the speculum threatened to unlock Pandora’s box. Many believed that if a woman’s vulva, vagina, or cervix were stimulated by the speculum, her body would unleash a torrent of sexual urges that she couldn’t control.”

that was a loaded end-of-paragraph beginning-of-paragraph eyeballpeeler
                                                                               a speculum threatening to unlock Pandora’s box

it was unlikelynot that the Gods of Mythology werent clever or creative that a type of speculum might have existed to penetrate her box the first he heard were found in excavations of Pompeii more likely heavenly dildos existed that could have pried an quivered Pandoras quim

in mythology the box wasnt actually Pandoras 
                                                 if memory and trivia served him correctly it wasnt Pandoras to open it was her husbands  naughty naughty Pandora so according to men she was fingered for unleashing all the worlds ills and by all intents and purposes fingered women for all time
                                                                according to men
                                                                                    because men notoriously need fall guys and many men are too vapid to realise or understand that if they havent a fall guy then its he  such he-men  which closescinches the circle hymen which returns him to women and is definitely destroyed by digits dildos and speculums

that those uptight physicians ofcourse they were uptight they were Victorian believed that women couldnt manage their unleashed torrents of sexual urges JESUS theres a gal hed like to meet is fictitious
                                                                                    but what a fantastic bill of goods to sell to purvey  Stand back there, you; you’ll get your shoes wet, shouts the pervert at the helm 

    Christ
           he wondered how women put up with men
they could have strangled them with their umbilical cords
he thought at the very least they ought to be grateful

maybe next time around

 
Twosday early afternoon,  10  8. 21
1147,  Reggae Friday – Friday the Thirteenth,  8. 21
The Irish Rovers  The Unicorn Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfhZ4rw6R4g

12.8.21

 

Youve entered a brave new world I think if yare to succeed yare gonna have to step up adjust  lego of old ways

I don’t know if you’re someone who ought to be telling me about this brave new world; you’re not part of it.

No I have someone I love someone Though to be honest if something went awry with it I still wouldnt play your game Id be oldfashion it still works its just not as easy or convenient as a cellphone in hand
                                                                                                  Which  if you think about makes everyone involved  easy



Nothing


Not really, you ought to count your lucky stars that you’re in a good relationship.

Luck hasnt a damn thing to do with it
                                        As you know all relationships demand work Don wanna work don enter it 

Alright. I’ll bite.
                  Step up, adjust, let go of old ways.

Now yare talking

What’s your recommendation?

Ya kiddin me Wha am I always knocking you about

You knock me all the time; say you’re keeping me on my toes.

You need to be on your toes

According to you.

I think if I shared you with a lot of people Survey says! yaknow the old Family Feud plot is that show still around

Are you kidding me? Hell yeah.

Richard Dawson Hogan’s Heroes he still the emcee the host

He’s not, but the show goes on . .
. . The show must go on
                           Until it doesnt     However were off point  Adjusting  Mobius Strip

That’s thin. Mobius Strip what?

Whas it look like from the side
                                    Its also mathematical anya love math Ill bump the play up once youve answered

Where you going with this?
Fuckin humour me
                    Im owed that for putting up with backwards you Answer the question before ya forgetbefore a neuron fires an dislodges it

A Mobius Strip.

Correct

Then, from the side . . . infinite sig . .
. . CORRECT
              An eight laying on its side anya dig the number eight or as you like to beat like a dead dog yer immense dislike of even numbers thereby two cubedto the third which allows inserting an odd number to satisfy yourself

Wow . . you know me like a book.

Sadly a comicbook
Stop it!

Im allowing myself some fun man
                                     Youll admit you like the shapethe lemniscate as its called in algebraic geometry  which you succeeded in whereas I failed but earned a hard-won D

Yes, I do like its shape.
THATS the admission I was looking for
                                          It is a pleasing shape Makes ya wanna kiss itdont it

Kiss it?

 Sure
       It looks attractive enough to kissI mean if you have to kiss an algebraic geometric symbolhuh


Okay – no idea where this is going – yes, if I had to kiss . .
. . BAM there ya go  youd kiss it

If I had . .
. . Ohyado

Oh I do?

Yado
      Yacant make this hurtle  go buy yourself a girlie magazine some lube an jackoff 

What the fuck, man; what the hell are you talking about?

Kiss the geometric symbolLove it up
                                       Or stroke

 

Dazed and confused Zeppelin wrote your theme song

I don’t get you.

Lemme help ya
                 Lemniscate    Picture it


Yeah, okay . . pictured.

Picture yourself kissing itya love it youve admitted it
                                                          Do it 

Okay.

Use some enthusiasm cunt

You gotta be mean?

Aint mean
            Youll meet some real enthusiastic cunts anif yare not up to the task yare going nowhere buddy nowhere  just home to stroke your cock

A woman turned on her side from behind on her back legs parted
                                                                     Ya kiss that lemniscateya lap it up
 Adjust   Lego of old ways

Sunday afternoon,  8  8. 21
1313,  Thursday,  12  8. 21
Zeppelin  Dazed and Confused  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w772GXG5LnE


Ive got a question 


every time it came out of his mouth he thought of his daughters they primed him
                                                                                           they were curious as cats  intelligent  relentlessly queried himhis wife until their often exhaustive explanations finally satisfied them

when they were first pregnant they decided that when their child had a question they would always encourage them to ask it  if they didnt know the answer theyd learn together
                                                              they also agreed at no time would they ever answer Because or Because I said  they endured that as childrenhad been frustrated being dismissed out of hand and would be damned if they ever Becaused their child

 


Ive got a question

Certainly.

Its pronounced soitenly
                           I try to acknowledge The Three Stooges whenever I can

That’s very unStoogelike, wouldnt you admit?

  No that they went by Stooges didnt mean they were stupid they made Hitlers kill list for their parody You Nazty Spy which was probably more damning than the fact they were Jews

I didn’t know that.

Yah  Those are my boys

                                   So  my question

Ohyes, I forgot you had a question; although you always seem to have a question.

Family trait Were selective about what ignorances we choose thus ignorant not prejudiced although Ive had to listen an contend with arguments refuting that

I'd be tempted to refute you.

Thatd be fine  after my question

Certainly . . er, soitenly.

Thank you for correcting yourself

If I hadn’t, you would have.

Bet your bottom dollar
                          My question  Why don you just quietly admire that dude who runs by and not bring him to my attention  Hes not interesting

I’m not interes . .
. . Perhaps not anyet you alwaysit never fails  comment on him draw attention to him   Just stop Admire away Leave me be

He runs like a deer.

Enjoy him  Go nuts   Stop including me I prefer looking at women to men  Zip zero interest   Please

It’s not tha . .
. . Save it  Please 


Honestly . . I don’t know if I can make that promise.

 

 

they usually met for coffee across from the park on the same day every week hed remind him when they sat down on the patio

1632,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  4  8. 21
1110,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  8. 21

We will not comply

parents in Tennessee accost a health official who appeared and encouraged the community to wear masks

the parents screamed We will not comply; we will not comply; we will not comply . . .

he thought the obvious chant back at them was
                                                   Then die; then die; then die . .   poetic
theres no point to be empathic with idiots 
                                            an made him again ideate that in order to have children individuals have to pass a test

https://news.yahoo.com/anti-mask-parents-threaten-doctors-230542575.html

1712,  Thursday,  12  8. 21

triage

              when unvaccinated people present at hospitals with Trump virus symptoms looking for help

send them home

Seek solace in God.

1734,  Thursday,  12  8. 21


11.8.21


How did your R O I work out

Return on investment? Look at you rocking an acronym; this a breakthrough?

35 No  If I said Roy you wouldntve followed me

35? You’re calling me 35 now?

I am 


You want to remind me why you’re calling me 35?

Arent ya a little distressed yare asking me to remind you
                                                            Lemme give ya some time  It was two days ago that we had that conversation

Time won’t help . I’ve told you I can’t do two things at onc . .
. . Ill sit here quietly admire the view the birds

No. I’ll be distracted that you’re waiting on me.

You cant disregard meI could go into the house  outa sight outa mind

No. I’ll know you’re in the house waiting for me to remember . . that’ll distract me tooI can’t do two things at once!

SHESH 
        Okayokay  relax take it down a few notches  Im not meaning to get you excited irritated

Just tell me, please; I’m not distressed I can’t remember, I'm really not.


Yare gonna crown yourself  Sure you don wanna a hint
No!

Awright awright  I call you 35 because you told me when you began dating apps you had been divorced 35 days

Yes, I recall, I did say that; thank you for not making a hint.

Ya would have remember

Or maybe I wouldn’t have, then I’d really've been upset.

Ya would have remember
                          Anyway  you mentioned ya got a new fish on line

Yes, but first lemme say this about Roy . . I think she wasn’t her, she might not have even been a woman.

 

You talked to her

Oh . . you’re right, I did.

She sounded like a woman

She did, she did, I don’t mean she wasn’t a woman, I meant to say I think she wasn’t who she said she was.

Since yare in an alternate reality youll have to explain what you mean  You can do thatyah

  Yes.
        She might have been catfishing me.

Catfishing

Yes, catfishin . .
. . Repeating it isnt describing itdefine the term
                                                  Alternate realitys a different world  Gimme a break

Oh, you don’t know?


Wittgensteins seventh proposition

Ah, hence your silence.

 


Okay, okay, I get it.
                     Catfishing, catfish, is someone who pretends to be someone they’re not.
Why

I don’t know why, it’s social media, a catfish pursues deceptive on-line romances.

Why

A chick could be a three-hundred pound dude.

Fourhunred

What do you mean four-hundred?

Former

Former? Four-hundred?

Possible  he aint svelte

Three-hundred isn’t svelte.

No Threehunred pounds isnt
                                   Nevermind

Okay, anyway, this is my logic from here forth; catfish me once, shame on you, catfish me twice, shame on me.

Clever  Catfish  
                 Ya blew the line

I did? That’s wrong?

Its pluck catfish out  Fool me once, shame on . . . shame on you. Fool me – you cant get fooled again
                                                                                                          Bushs riff an homage to The Who

What are you talking about?

Nothing
           Apparently  absolutely  nothing

1614,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  4  8. 21
1446,  Twosday,  10  8. 21
The Who  Won’t Get Fooled Again  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHhrZgojY1Q 

 
as a boy he knew there was something about these people that turned him off made him coldmade him walk away from them in midsentence
                       ordinarily he wasnt rude
he found he couldnt abide them
they scarcely had anything in common

business people

because they irritated him so distinctly it didnt take him long to learn another word to describe them
                                                                                                         sociopaths All for me and me for myself

they were grotesque


all these years later theyve only become more grotesque

 

therefore it disturbed him when he was talking with a friend I’ve been divorced thirtyfive days. and counseling him if counseling was the correct or appropriate word not to go off halfcocked because he thought he got a whiff of interest pussy

it disturbed him that as he explained what 35days might want to consider 35 cut him off
                                                                                             R O I. he said I follow your thinking, your strategy.

he recoiled from acronyms Jesus R O I Cant speak Englishcant just say
                                                                          Im talking that before you pop for a trip her way you recognise the expense youll incur Ya might wanna talk some more alotmore first

R O I is return on investment, my brother's in finance; I understand what you're saying.

Return on investment

That’s what you mean, right?

Yes . . I hate myself right now
                                If I knew an had to shorthand wha I was saying Id have said return on investment

Right. R O I.

Wrong Return on investment

You’re a stubborn motherfucker.

Nah a whole other matter altogether Some other time we can talk about it but in the meantime youve got an iron poker in the fire

1614,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  4  8. 21
1127,  Twosday,  10  8. 21