Stop stop   stop  Before you go any furthur whos writing the soundtrack for this episode

Who’s writing the soundtrack? What are you talking about?

Gotta have a soundtrackheighten the suspense create moods  Itd be huge if we could sell the ideasell a pilot

A pilot?

         Are you making fun of me?

When don I Ya just keep teeing things up  Id be a fool an idiot if I resisted

Why are you making fun of me? 

                                  a quiet hurt flowed into his face 

Stop it donbe pitiful Suck it up

                               Better ya learnshould have by now to laugh at yourself because yare a wealth of materialcant make this shit up

You’re no better than a guy.

Im far better than a guy however yaint not my type

                                                       But ya have my attention because inadvertently ya make me laugh

I’ve heard other women comment on laughter.

Yah  make me laugh feed me chocolates

                                            Unfortunately your on-line gambit looking for love . .

. . Don’t say it like that.

Yare lookin in all the wrong places Excuse me yare correct 

                                                               Looking for sexthats more accurate better yare honest  Fuck companionshipright  Fuck   Companion

Ya gonna tell me ya donwanna have sex

Why do you have to be coarse?

Because  because youve gone into cellphone on-line meat markets with your head up your ass

My head up my ass?

Really 

Really

What do you say that?

I say because its exactly whaya said

What did I say?

Do you not think before you speak an when a woman replies areya not thrown that she bothered to reply telling ya kindly sharing feedbackwhich ya should have known before you entered so ya don flounder Not even rookie mistakes ifya will  Sheer ignorance

Doesnt make much of an impression

 

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Sayin it again  Really 

                        she fingered her skull like she was holding a pistol Lets use your omnipresent line WAIT I think neuron fire . .

. . That’s uncalled for.

No  Utterly called forparticularly  particularly when you said so

                                                                   Anya either cant remember or recall

Awright  Ill refresh your memory

Sure. As long as you quit beating me up.

Oughta beat ya senseless 

                           No hints Full tilt boogie 

I like to boogie.

Ya cant dance to this 

                       If I was her I wouldnt have wasted my time responding So not verbatimcuz I was appalled your jest was she didnt know if you were a bot a scammer or schemer ya didnt remember which or a pervert 

Why the hell if those three occurred to her would she bother Thats wha she lumped you in with

 

I suppose I got some work to do.

Really Dammit Ya said goin in  I just donwanna work that hard

Its flyfishing 

Although the sites sell ya on convenience

An yare big on convenience 

Spend your money on a pro

Sunnyday afternoon,  11  7. 21

1304,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  7. 21

Tennessee

Republicants 

                     Anti-vaxxers

Ohno

Yes Can you believe it  Theyre putting the screws to their own people 

Dachua

Come on man  thats horribly inflammatory

Auschwitz 

Its the state of Tennessee 

Ravensbrück  medical experimentation 

                                        Don roll your eyes  Theyre playing Gawd with peoples lives  Wanna play with your ownknock yourself out  Don dictate for others

1653,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  7. 21

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Woudya stop

Me stop. You’re the one in denial.

Christ everything with these clowns seemed like an argument theyll disagree with him slightly agree with him slightly shades of pale wanting to appear more than relevant anyet telling them they ARE relevant doesnt satisfy them 

Did you cross your fingers behind your back?

If I did one of yawoud have seen me Idve been reported by your collective unconscious Morse Code or however the hell ya communicate

                 Ya got me surrounded yare at keyholes playing angles off lookingglasses goofin around at my synapses calling to each other Comon in the waters fine Surfsup

Yareally think I could cross my fingers behind my back tell a lie  to youse 

If yah ya must be forgetful youse me 

                                          A facet of me but me

Somebody gonna acknowledge that  please

since Denial was carrying the ball she answered

                                                   he liked that his females cohorts had ballsbusted his he hoped his boys were paying attentionlearning something

That was a suicide attempt.

A cry for help not an attempt

It was an attempt, you put it out in the world when you wrote about it, when you confided out loud, what? maybe taking measure of the Universe?she sneered The Multiverse?

Yasaw as I saw He was docil . .

. . Asshole, he was a she.

A she A Mommalonglegs

A Daddylonglegs; she’s still a Daddylonglegs.

Doesnt that strike you queerdon answer lets play  Would ya agree to harvester rather than harvestmen mired again in the Daddylonglegs lexicon but   but  we could say opiliones 

Wait for it

What are you talking about?

Wait for it

Waiting.

Comon  a sense of humourwhy so dour

Might be my humourless time of month.

Plausible 

          But youve always been a bit curt 

face could have been made of stone he couldnt read her he wouldnt want to play poker against her if she didnt want such a big cut hed play poker

                               I’m waiting.

Actually I was waitin so see if someone else would surface

At the risk of getting their ass kicked . . out in the world?yah . in front of everyone?yah . Nah.

Ruling the roost huhbabe

For the time being.

Ah 

You forgot. 

            Didn’t you?

Yare makin an ass out of yourself 

                                     Ya know better ya know better than try to provoke me

Once upon a time you were easy to provoke.

Once upon a time

Listenin

 

Been waiting.

Definitely a period not a comma

Damn she wasnt breaking character

Awright  Opiliones

Yes, get on with it; formerly Phalangida.

I thought briefly  too  Phalangilda

stoic

Gilda

I heard you. Clever.

                     You want me to call you clever.

Thats unnecessary 

                     Calling me clever is redundant

Redundant? How?

Im clever without you saying That old wholesome gem It goes without saying

So, thought, briefly. 

                     If not Phalangilda, what?

Opilioness 

            It would have played better if you hadnt dropped Gilda on us

from the back of the room from outside the door through the keyhole he heard snickers a couple of muted HAHAs from inside his head 

                 that was acknowledgment enough for him

she gave him stonyeyes

Ya can give that up It didnt work when my Mom tried

Oh my goodness! almost gay Sometimes I forget you were birthed, had a mother.

Well sweetie 

              Im your Maw

You are, don't remind me; and what happened was a suicide attempt.

A cry for help

               She wouldnt have perched on the bottom of the tub  patiently  unmoved  making her presence known

She didn’t make her presence known.

a few Uh, I wouldn’t say that. percolated from without and within 

                                                                     he saw she was getting peeved

peeved and on her period wasnt good

Seems were getting unsolicited acknowledgments 

Nobody’s talking to th . . 

. . Were always talking

                         Ya know better

However the fact remains 

                            I gathered her up in a glass she didnt resist I released her outside among the poppies she scrambled off pretty as ya please

   

2348,  Monday,  12  7. 21

1237,  Twosday,  13  7. 21

how did he talk

                    his windpipe dangled out of the scarlettinged leather of his throat and over an empty space where his ribcage and lungs should have been

how did he cry

               his eyes were shrunken and dessicated blackraisins leaning on graywebs of moldy tissue before combed sinuses filled with spores

the back of his head was missing

there was a scrabble of something in his remaining skull he might conclude was brain

although he wasnt sure 

he smelled of meat rot

 

he stood collapsed against the interior of a fieldstone foundation and long lengths of gray weathered barnwood roughcut studs and crossmembers

tattered

despondent

he was dead

but he was un-conscious he was dead

pitifully he tried to talk

but his tongue was ravaged inarticulate

his bridge was missing and had tumbled down the shambles of his tall body and got hung up in his yet-meaty bowels and jutting bone pelvis

his jaw akimbo was unmatched to his maxilla

teeth were missing 

repulsed  yet he could not resist him

he could not

 

what was he saying 

after 2004 before 2008

1100,  Saturday,  10  7. 21

It’s a purity test, 100 percent.” Landon Brown  Wyoming Republicant state lawmaker “If you don’t vote this way, you’re not a Republican.”

this way he assessed was the way the mango Former wants underlings and toads and cowards to vote

lions and tigers and bears ohmy 

                                   somebody ought to note that OZs beasts had teeth and fangs and claws

underlings and toads and cowards are pitiful in comparison

he imagined a cage in a circus center ring

the Former with a whip and chair

OZ would eat him alive 

then vomit 

he struggled to imagine purity  being submissive to a someone who wouldnt have his back in a fight

purity must depend on stupid ambitious people

                                               gotta suppose thats all Republicants can offer

bootlicks

cunts

and connivers 

handsdown he prefered lions and tigers and bears

1459,  Twosday,  13  7. 21

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       bassline begins  drum picks up 

                                                why 25 or 6 to 4 jumped his head he didnt have a clue there were manymany things he didnt have a clue about or jumped onboard like a journeyman hobo at a freight train   maybe in time hed remember why lotsa things traipsed across his mind although they dont walk heavydont stomp their feet leave footprints  hed need an Indian tracker to learn their waywhere they went

                                                                               sometimes acid helped elucidate  happy hallucinogens   hogtied rope around his ankles yanked him up in the air swinging swaying above the neocortex terra firma only a thin silver of occasional drool spittle laces the dirt suggesting where he passed in pursuit

real slim pickins

the tracker shrugs

Cantya see the real me

Look harder

I don bite

              hard

Comon now smile   that was worth a smile 

                                                grin  and bear it 

 

25 or 6 to 4 mounted him fourfive times through the day out of sudden speakers to either side of his head

25 or 26? to 4  maybe he was picking up

334  335

4s Happy Hour

where he lived he could walk to the bar in 5minutes 20 to burn

Whadaya mean No

No  Ya mean its morning

4 was Closing time in his heyday

leave the table

leave the sticks on the table

head out separate from the others to clear his head

a bite to eat

Superdawg Drive-In

Parsies hot dog stand

maybe breakfast  coffee   a greasy spoon

then beat it back to the bar

opens at 6

the 2hour delay making it the longest time he ever took to clear a table

severe straight pool clever manipulations English draws combinations

the next rack will be the nail in the coffin

cat was returning they had to leave their stakes there he tucked his cash in a corner pocket

he tucked his in a side pocket

if he ever got too fucked up there were only 2

he could count to 2

if not in one side he could lay across the table and reach into the other

cant do that from one end of the table to the other

he knocked them down

left one to the right of the rack

he muscled it into the cornersmashed the other balls

real easy pickins

shy half the rack he dropped the 100th ball

                                              Thank you

616

a thick fold in his pocket on his thigh

cat had small bills against their big bet

25 or 6

 

2121,  Saturday,  10  7. 21

1202,  Monday,  12  7. 21

Chicago  25 or 6 to 4  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUAYeN3Rp2E

The Who  The Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2h1MY70uag

Green Day  Brain Stew  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjBHiX9agSw

lemmings

   awbrutha  when youre tossed a reprieve catch it and run like hell

the lemmings were smiling

                          ridiculous grins smeared across their pussgivin each other thumbsup highfives

after all these years it was nice to witness

                                           and stepping outnahreally they were forced out  forced to concede

they knew they were licked 

so they obliged

              snickering as they walked away from the cliff and the sea below

a new life form was replacing them

a new life form willingly taking on the ignominy that had been the lemmings since   wha 1958  Disneys White Wilderness

Step aside vermin; it’s our turn now.

                                       they didnt want to share the limelight

the new life form 

formed by denial

                     acquiescent thats a big word  yathink theyll understand   Republicants

2300,  Monday,  12  7. 21

1202,  Twosday,  13  7. 21

White Wilderness  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xMZlr5Gf9yY  https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2021/jul/08/fears-of-new-us-covid-surge-as-delta-spreads-and-many-remain-unvaccinated 

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/state-republican-chairs-become-chief-enforcers-trumpism-n1273935?cid=eml_mra_20210714&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951  

abject lemmings

 

she texted  :  :  How are you? What are you up to?

she obviously hadnt seen but he emaled her articles and copies of antique folios regarding flowers exotic South Pacific reef fish and jellyfish 

                      the folios preceded the advent of photography biologists artfully reproducing what they saw 

unfortunately common folk didnt see

he texted  :  :  I’m writing and managing a bee sting, inside my left forearm – first time I ever saved a bee from drowning and was stung for my effort – I’m sorry to say the little bee died for stinging me.

                                                                                               he thought  Man thats all in lil bugger didnt sit on a fence But maybe his attitude got the better of him

he also thought 

                 I had skin in the game but it wasnt gonna kill me

Was this a cautionary tale

Nope

      next time in a pool and he found a drowning bee hed do it again

  :  :  What are you up to?

writing is an unsatisfactory answer

when he finished upwhenever or if unfinished hed stop pour himself a beer after 4 keep writing by 5 his brutal housemates cats would inform him it was time for their dinner outside cats tooby default

sip beer watch politickles pause start reheating a lentil/leek soup

dinner

dusk

outside to gander at the new moons and Venus proximity last night they virtually sat in one anothers lap before going down behind the hills the horizon at the same time  for Gawdknows what kind of mischief 

definitely again tonight

simple things 

he could scarcely wait to see  experience it 

                                            then memories firingtrying to see through the haze of gunpowderthe illumination of the unearthly the imagined 

                                             then  maybe see through a neighbours window their nubile teenager experimenting with her sexualityher budding prowess

                                                          safely 

he didnt start it

he was the recipient

her family was religious

they thought he was a kook for not believing

Gawd works in strange ways

                                malicious blackhumoured    fuckin hilarious 

if He existed 

             they probably would have gotten along famously

1330,  Monday,  12  7. 21 

Emancipator  The Way  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TosjHtgQxII

 

  Pennsylvania

                  Republicant 

                                  PA  R  hed bet the clown had to cheat to make par  his name

gotta have a name or a piece isnt legit 

not he 

they

them

non-binary

          thatd make this cuss choke

hes State senator Doug Mastriano hes got a Mangobug up his ass the Former he fills his cup frequently and enthusiastically drinks the punch

punchdrunk beyond reason rationale or truth he projects 

                                                              “What we are seeing is a convergence (whos putting words in your mouth Dougie) of scare tactics . . . to intimidate county officials (who on January6 made known their tallies and winners and presented them to Congress for certificationDONE) and obstruct a forensic investigation.”

if he and his ilk werent antidemocratic  pitiful   he might have sympathy for the pudpullers

  

1049,  Monday,  12  7. 21

The Castaways  Liar Liar  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDEdFxUZ01s 

Emancipator  Elephant Survival  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kRGMIN8UmrI 

 

jac – ti – ta – tion

JACTITATION

excitation

 

   the restless tossing of the body in illness

                                               or a twitching limb or muscle      when he listened to music

he knew a girl who restlessly tossed a tit 

she was no Jacques

though she was a Jacyln

she had ample to toss

he hoped for a concussion

a nippleprint smackDAB in the middle of his forehead

like an attempted bluntinstrument frontal lobotomy

but ones gotta have a brain to be lobotomised 

he was a naïve 2dayold OZScarecrow

AwShucks  ya missed 

Wanna try again

                   rearing back to try again she snarled Screw the lobotomy, I’m cracking your skull wide open. but before she lunged he stepped forward and took her rabble in hand

he wrestled themtook them both on reduced them to a pair of young pups who prior played together inside her sweater

HANDS ON

             bridled  confined

his juggling 

her jiggling

                Uhoh awawawaah ejaculation

by jactitsation 

other volcanic flashessplashes going off around the room were fuddy-duddies heads blowing up  HOWD THEY GET IN

             Awawawaah Jaclyn  like moths to a flame   

1838,  Reggae Friday,  31  3. 17

1541,  Saturday – 104degrees,  10  7. 21

Bicep/Boiler Room  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPIFUWOLc2A

 

       musing

                     musing while taking a cool bath to offset the heat of the daythe continuing heat at night   

thank Gawd it wasnt humid it wasnt that kind of heat the wholesale sweating  lying in it until the sweat chilled the sheets and he was able to fall asleep as he did in his youth in Chicago

a nice cool bath

he thought it would ease his body his mind

rather he mused about mortal remains 

                                                 he hadnt given a thought to them in a very long time

he had to seriously considered them when his wife died 

when he stoodup in the gathered room and excused himself  Everyone youll forgive me I have to go the chapel to the crematory he upset the entire room

                                   virtually everyone there  his entire family his daughters his parents her parents their siblings other family close friends stood and barred him from leaving She’s gone, there’s nothing more for you to do. Why would you submit yourself to that?  there were whispers of That seems ghoulish. 

                                                                                           the reality was the truth was

they wouldnt submit themselves to her cremation

when he tried to press forward through them the tears and wails began  No no  NO hands gripped him held him fast

he tried to escape but he wasnt able

nothing short of violence would free him 

on the wall above four doors that exited the banquet hall a huge round whitefaced clock read Ten her cremation began at Ten

he was late

he hadnt conceived of a wholesale deployment of grief of repulsion frankly revulsion 

she was the first of the family who wanted to be cremated

                                                             that she was being cremated not buried upset a slew of them

but thats what she wanted

she was going to have what she wanted

they didnt talk of anything beyond that

maybe they should have

then it would have been known he wanted to attend her cremation

since

       given that upset then that near irrevocable violence  hed missed two cremations

when they died he was at their bedside  

he was keenly aware he missed them 

though it seemed no one else was

in a cool bath on a terribly hot night he mused regret

0111,  Sunday,  11  7. 21

1206,  Sunday,  11  7. 21

Cream  White Room  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5BF1V1pbTs 

Emancipator – Rena Jones -- Flowerpulse  Iceland  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7RSaFAnu04

 

he was mistaken

 

it wasnt the weight of their deaths that confounded him

rather he struggled the weight of their transformationstruggled to affirm honour  relate to their beliefs

he loved them deeply

they were irreplaceable 

he hoped desperately that they did indeed transform

                                                        that spars formedtheir sails filled with whitehot or coolblue breaths of rare atmosphere and that they sped unerringly to their destinations on fleet ochreyellow sienna wings gloriouslyconceived one with them as a birds butterflys dragonflys

    

1323,  Twosday,  5  6. 18

1514,  Saturday,  10  7. 21

Jefferson Starship  All Fly Away  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48dKEtrK7xU

 

he heard Al Greens voice in his head as he laid in a cool tub eyes closed running circles around himself Im so tired of being alone Sing it Al  he couldnt hold a tune for his life  he didnt mind a singer fronting himpleading his case

Im so tired of being alonehere by myself

the dumb fuckinretarded  redundant circle   what didnt they get

                                                                    they knew he lived alone 

they knew when he returned to the real world he had to react quickly to a virusthe Trump virus  which he didnt know existed 

       THEREFORE  safety demanded he disappeargo underground

during quarantine he took or made only occasional telephone calls  once a weekmaybe 

                                                                                             he didnt talk with anyone regularly 

NOW

            What’s wrong with your voice? You sound funny.

Really My voice

Yeah, you don’t sound like yourself.

Ifya don use it ya lose it

Do you got to be cryptic, cant you just say?

Cryptic  Just say

                  Whas so cryptic bout ya lose it ifya don use it  Everything weve enduredeverything befallen us  we are still livin on the same planetarent we 

                                            Unlike you I live alone  

Yes, I understand you live alone.

Good Got that straightgot that out of the way

                                                Livin alone a year an a half  Who am I talking toexercising my voice so I don sound funny when I talk 

I suppose you’re not talking to yourself.

Yare sharp thickskulled Polack 

                                My voice is different because I don use it I don sing to records I listen to jazz asya know  Dig

I do, I do, I’m just saying your voice sounds . . weird.

Deal with it or don call

 

he imagined he sounded like a Trappist monk who completed a vow of silence    HA  closer to Gawd 

2304,  Reggae Friday,  9  7. 21

1439,  Saturday,  10  7. 21

Al Green  Tired of Being Alone  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tdw7kxD8eUc

Nina Simone  I Put a Spell on You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ua2k52n_Bvw

Jefferson Starship  Miracles  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7m8izf-oXY4