she beat him up regularly about his lack of compassionhis hard line regarding who earned it

she believed it ought to be doled out without questions 

                                                         Yare foolish he countered Ill quote someone I respect regarding compassion We have it or we don’t. If we must cultivate it, it not being an innate quality, then although our person is improved we are yet indignant of it. A shallow compassion is treacherous. Henry Miller So I have compassion It will not be treacherous because I hold the reins to determine if someone has earned it I will not distribute it according to your insistenceyour blind faith

You’re a sonofabitch.

Ya ought know ya married me Ive been brutality honest about who I am You may have made up strawman and believed he was me  deluded yourself 

Oxford American Dictionary passion pati to suffer thus compassion from com- with and pati to suffer to suffer with

he had no want to resent compassion out of hand he would suffer with whom he might have compassion for but they had to qualify he would not assume their circumstances were beyond their control put simply he wouldnt suffer their pains with her if they werent worthwhile if they were suffering their accountability 

You’re a cold, cold bastard.

Hmm Yare welcome to as Ive always welcome your assessments However again shallow compassion is not viable If we choose easily to offer compassion to suffer with them as easily we can turn our eyes away ignore them and cease our discomfort

Shakespeare Hamlet Polonius to his son Laertes Ill take the bards advise To thine own self be true 

                                                                                                           Love I would recommend that to you

Love . .  she screwed up her face

it hurt him to see that however the hurt did not chasten himdid not alter what he told her many years ago she knew him out of his own mouth 

                           Ive never lied to you because Ill never lie to myself

1315,  Friday,  24  1. 92

2343,  Twosday,  1  12. 20

 

he dug science dug its blamelessness  it didnt prattle or point

                                                                  purportedly Jesus said Let he who is without sin cast the first stone something like that he said so in defense of a woman charged with adultery

                                                                                            it seemed to him that men werent accused of adultery or had he ever read of a man dragged before a crowd and threatened with stoning where was that womans partner in crime  what isnt said is every bit as important as what is

it wouldnt be fair to take him at his wordhe recalled very little of those attempts against him that he become religiously be indoctrinated hed concede the Bible was filled with great stories 

                                                                    but great stories arent gospel even if some call them Gospel we have a prattling president who criespresents his word as Gospel asif he were an unquestionable authority his words crumble and are closer to that of a braying ass

he remembered one wasnt to use the Lords name in vain it was sacred only to be exalted during the reading of text or when His Name was invoked during prayer or when pleaded to

he loved prayers 

                   Lord, let me hit the Big Lotto. Jesus, save me, I swear if you pull my ass out of this fix I’ll never forget you; I will submit to your Way.

he couldnt help but wonder if Gawd ran a collector who took a piece of the actiona modest piece of pie and shook down those who were conveniently religious the wannabe Saved for a price

the Mob aint offbase ya ask a favour granted a favour may be asked in return

 

1308,  Twosday,  21  1. 92

1334,  Twosday,  1  12. 20

Henry Miller Big Sur: People prefer to believe in and worship a God who is remote rather than live out the godlike nature which is their inherent being.           

 

the president has a ssh its a secret drawer full of pricks OhShucks dildos that he pulls out to pleasure himself

one is named Joe diGenova 

the man likes to take Joey deephe leans backhis head on a silkupholstered camelback White House sofa while Joey numblyincoherently mumbles and is jiggled about CISA head Chris Krebs Joey coos he ought to be taken out at dawn and shot OHOH OH OOOH hes a class A moron Oh OOOH He should be drawn and quartered OOOOH

                                                                                                                 aint a damn thing worse than chemed up on Viagra or otherwise get a hard-on and orgasm but not ejaculate

to be fair Joey has his set of thick slick silicone dildos ones named Donny

                                                                               coincidence

1956,  Twosday,  1  12. 20

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motherFUCK

             things can go sideways if one doesnt pay strict attention to what it is theyre doing

hed been doing it for better than 8 years and in a moment of haste he erased a history he wished he could have back

the spider creeped her out

they were laying in bed after making love and she saw an itsybitsy spider crossing the wall at the foot of the bed on a long lazy diagonal towards the cleft between the wall and ceiling

Look.

he looked and saw he may even had hmmd in acknowledgment it wasnt worth words while he was still sucking air and still outofbody looking down on them making love asin video  asin voyeuristic   asin their near-perfect sexual complement  

Are you going to do something about it?

About the teenytiny spider

Yes, what else?

I thought meybe our sex was like Chinese food and you were hungry again I am But Im always hungry for you your body

No.

    although she did smile real large sported her great dimples he wanted to keep her dimples permanently in placemake her smile all the time they were together

Really No  Does it change things or count if Im hungry for you again

No. It’s creeping me out.

That smidgen of life is creeping you out

It is.

Sorry babe good chance if I tried to catch it Id crush it Im too full of life and being alive right now to risk death

she frowned it was insincere it was fraudulent  a fraudfrown  

If you stick your lower lip out any furthur Im dropping my cock on it Hear me

she stuck it out furthur

                       he rolled over to herstraddled her chest an stuck his cock in her mouth  Game on

 

     sometime later  they were exhaustedlaying side by side again they looked and the itsybitsy spider had only crossed the wallnearly at the ceiling almost parallel to the edge of his side of the bed

Fuckin guys taking his sweet time huh

You could facilitate him.

Naw Hes sweethes far from descending upon you and ripping your throat out

Your pillowtalk needs some work.

Donusually talk in bed 

                       My mouths full

You animal!

Im your animal

 

the spider had stopped

they fell asleepnapped

he woke her when he cuddled up behind herSUDDENLY hungry again

she turned and faced him 

                            and turning she looked up at the spider  Your friend hasn't moved.

Or she hasnt moved

turns out he or she died

he or she had been up on the wall this whole time

a deliciously odd reminder of their morning and afternoon together

they werent together now

taking a broom to bring down accumulated spiderwebs  because it was time again  he was brashnot mindful and itsybitsy teenytinys desiccated exoskeleton his or hers  got caught in the sweptwebs and bristles of the broom

in a haplesscareless moment he erased a delightful memorial and remembrance

he knew better than that 

                         wha an asshole  accountability is a bitch

1249,  Sunday,  29  11. 20

1456,  Monday,  30  11. 20

Erykah Badu  Danger  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0BtDhU97dc 

 

 

Everything about human is determined by DNA.

 

his buddy bought into it lock stock and barrel he may have dared call it gospel except religiosity would be impliedan they couldnt have that

                        neither were religious

You, according to DNA, as your DNA presupposes, prefigures what you believe, you therefore haven’t free will; it’s been induced.

Yafuckin crack me up Give yours away not mine

Yours? You only think you have free will.

No I dont think I do I do Might wanna shaddup so one of us  you  dont get hurt

There you have it, you think you’re exercising free will as you speak, though more than likely your ancestor were violent and their violence has come down to you . . through your DNA.

Are ya listenin to yourself asshole

Asshole? So now you’re using your genetic violence to belittle me, calling me names?

No Yare off base Your antics regarding DNA is horseshit You believe in a Republican brain versus a Democrats a religious brain versus an atheists youve made other comparisons but Im not wasting my time Yare offbase

Not really. Think about this, Weked – Smythe . .

. . Nah I dont hyphenate my name  I use Weked my fathers name

You dishonor your mother?

Yare one to speak You go by a nickname rather than your given first name  your fathers name

I apologise.

Apologeez accepted

                      Carry on with yourah proof

It’s simple, really, you’re a Weked. One of two of your parents, nee, father, is Weked. Agreed?

I agree

Their parents, of four parents, only one was Weked, correct?

Correct

Their parents, your great-grandparents, only one of eight was Weked, and on and on. Generations, hundreds, thousands of people, you’re related to, their DNA is distilled in you. There are lots of echoes and determinants that have preceded you in your enormous family tree. You have to admit it is plausible and reasonable their predilections, DNA-sourced, have silently become yours.

No Not regarding my mind

                              Lets run your argument around I am Weked from one of my two parents an Weked from one of my four grandparents  As you say correct

Yes.

The Hatfields and McCoys

his eyes flutteredhis head bobbed weaved almost imperceptibly 

                                                                 Hatfields and McCoys? I’m sorry, your point?

Im debunking your premise anhavin a little fun  he smiled dimples would have upped the ante but alas he hadnt dimples

Debunking it how?

As you said Im Weked because one of my two parents was Weked The siblings birthed to the Hatfields and McCoys their parents were Hatfields both and McCoys both as very possibly their grandparents were too 

Had to be slim pickings in those remote mountains and woods Id rather brother sister than father daughter mother son Incest doesnt tip me You can only play with yourself so long

 

Jesus Christ, man.

Kinda stands your DNA generations of people on its head

You don’t know that.

I dont but it wouldnt be reasonable to dismiss it because you dont know either

his jaw set

             he was angered

                                he was bitched No. I don’t know. However, if we admit your odd happenstance, that does not preclude a Hatfield or McCoy not being informed by their genetics. You have said as much.

I have

Yes. Your nephews. You’ve maligned your nephews, that they, having male children, are who would take your name, Weked, into the future.

I have

And you’ve maligned them . .

. . Because they are not Wekeds Not my kind of Weked

Not your kind?

No Never to beunfortunately my kind They are lacking

                                                           This is where your DNA horseshit ought to present They are unlike me Unlike my brothers Unlike my brother who is their father

They are a grim smile came across his face then brightened with broad luminescent hilarity They are WINOs Weked in name only

somber it wasnt a titch funny to him

 

he thought it was a riot

1725,  Saturday,  28  11. 20

2139,  Sunday,  29  11. 20

 

Rotten Peaches  Elton John https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DKeFEO52ilM 

                                                                                    Oops  stepped on some toes he wouldnt apologise not for ROT  https://www.msnbc.com/all-in/watch/both-republican-candidates-in-georgia-runoffs-face-question-about-stock-trades-96901189754

Red ROT could suck his cock

1843,  Monday,  30  11. 20

$269K -- Killed

Atlas resigns at last https://www.politico.com/news/2020/11/30/scott-atlas-resigns-trump-adviser-441597 how many did his influence help kill h e l p  k i l l  thats not what doctors do Atlas violated his Hippocratic oath just for a moment in the bright light of infamy

seems pieces of shit are like mercury in their keen ability to attract and coalesce

1831,  Monday,  30 11. 20 

 

Never Never NEVER hire a man who cant find his cock without both hands longhung silk ties are a tip

                                                                                                         Yacan take that to the bank if four years didnt gave US anything it gave US that

Christ pinch yourself the nightmare is ending no matter what the white supremacists and Proud Boys say Cub Scouts on steroids

          he knew a few lifters who shot up  they were batshit

1727,  Monday,  30  11. 20

https://www.statesmanjournal.com/story/news/2020/11/29/salem-police-response-black-lives-matter-proud-boys-protests-criticized/3766157001/

 

Drumpf continues to make fallacious remarks 

                                              but theres a reason for that he thinks hes making phallic remarks and for a man who cant get it upwho hangs his hat on a touted hypermasculinity ACTUALLY  cant hang a hat on it it aint a peg its a wet overcooked noodle

1649,  Monday,  30  11. 20

https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/laurie-garrett-believes-we-won-t-see-large-scale-vaccination-until-well-into-the-spring-96892997572

 

they mixed it up politics culturebut not pop culture they were clueless unwoke  inevitably he drove their conversationhe was a storyteller the others werent how hard was it to tell a story

                                                                       so because they wouldnt he drove their yapping he introduced vampires and zombiesrelated a Canadian movie hed seen called Blood Quantum a crazy take on cowboys and Indians zombified

he related how the Red Crow Indians scabbed-together a haphazard fortress on their reservation to endure and survive in the months after the zombie apocalypse a woman is found wandering outside the ramshackle sheet metal walls during a hunting trip  of course shell turn into a zombie  and when she flips she flips while shes alone with a stupid fuck who thought he had gamewas Gods Gift to women lotsa guys like that

three men realising Romeo is missing go looking for him and discover her eating him they enter the room from behind her she turns slightlyturns her head over her shoulder in her hand is Gods Gifts cock that she had torn off before they can put a bullet through her head she bites the head off the cock chews it opened mouth 

                                                                                            MAN OH MAN! makes sense

they groan asif their cocks were chewed

                                         in that groanmoment he began relating a story he often told a conversation about him and his Maw and cannibalism she insisted she wouldnt eat human flesh to survive I’d rather die. of course his reply was  Great babe just more for me to eat GROANS

that story never missed a groan

What wouldn’t you eat? his brotherinlaw asked

To date he was thoughtful  I dont think Id eat Okie afterbirth though truth be known Ive had a buddys wifes placenta that she made up in a cheese soufflé grated Comte Gruyere and Parmesan It was tasty Philip couldnt bring himself to eat it  you know the punchline

they looked at him a trio of bovines

Really

        Really guys

What? What’s the punchline?

Christ Yaint listenin

they shrugged

he cleared his throat I said he waited a couple of beats to see if one of them would say but their bland expressions said it all it wasnt coming  I said  Great babe just more for me to eat

didnt miss a groan

 

1550,  Saturday,  28  11. 20

2236,  Saturday,  28 11. 20

https://www.indiewire.com/2020/04/blood-quantum-review-indigenous-canadian-zombie-movie-1202227657/

 

-teria  suffix  denoting self-serving establishment  The New Oxford American Dictionarys example is washeteria, on the pattern of cafeteria

a washeteria hadnt heard of that is otherwise known as a laundromat

huh  the only reason he got into this game was thinking of vomiteria  which is incorrect  the word is vomitorium  which are entrance and exit passages in a Roman amphitheater or theater  he preferred theatre  not according to popular misconception  a place where ancient Romans went to vomit while feasting to make more room in their stomachs for more food

           he held that popular misconception BOO  there is however a vomitory  where one would go to vomit he still liked vomiteria best    

he wondered what the other –terias might be

ah  a favourite plant of his  wisteria

a favoured attack against women  hysteria

Yuck!  bacteria

               he counted 12 prefixes for –bacteria  say eubacteria  simple cells with rigid cell walls and often flagella for movement  a flagellating cell  he happened into one once upon a time for shits and giggles  three cracks of her whip he used the safeword   

-teria was his criteria

hatteria or rather tuatara (only one living species in New Zealand  Maori “peaks on the backs”) its a greenish-grey lizard-like rhynchocephalian (beakhead) reptile   

Santeria  similar to voodoo  based on Yoruba deities and Roman Catholic saints his money was on the Yoruba deities on countries like Nigeria Benin Ghana Togo Ivory Coast Sierra Leone Liberia and Brasil 

arteria  Latin word meaning artery

and lastly some genera for birds and flowering plants and trees

                                                                  WHO KNEW?

he didnt

all he wanted was to have been correct about vomiteria

now hed have to put that away

meybe live with vomitory

                           say   a mens or womens dormitory on any major college campus BAM

0012,  Saturday,  28  11. 20

2119 or 919pm,  Saturday,  28  11. 20

 

he was Freud slipping on slick snowcovered ice when he got stoned

                                                                     he knew it

so he was mindful not to talk too fast where his words merged or hopped around like playing a mad game of musical chairsno holds barred

as a kid he was a vicious playeryanked chairs out from under kids who hadnt thought to grab the chair beneath them as they sat

            they ended up on the floorbruised their butt crying he cheated

a teacher or roomparent sided with the crybabies asked angrily What were you thinking?! 

I was thinkin possession is nine-tenths of the law I wanted the chair more than they did otherwise I wouldnt have gotten it

hed cut through the circle to get a chair on the other side and while other the kidsthe losers whined That’s not fair. he ruthlessly thought Stop your cryin ya didnt want it bad enough 

                                                                   but they were a different breed of kids than he  he was the kid who grew up on the other side of tracks

grew up across the tracks 

                          for him a badge of honor  he wasnt no namby pambyhe knew the hard facts of life  no silver spoon stuck in his mouth

but on occasion stoned it seemed something was stuck in his mouthrented space beside his tongue liberally oiling it and his words

he was yappin rantin against the thief in chief and decried if the muthafucker wasnt going to fulfill his loathe . . Did I say loathe . I meant oath if he wasnt going to uphold the constitutional obligations he swore loathe . . did it again . oath oath to protect Americans against enemies without and within then he shouldnt have accepted the office

 

his stoned brotherinlaw asked Loathe?

Little slow on the uptake bro oath I corrected myself off my back I just got out ahead of myselfway ahead of myself I meant oath but he loathes to be honest A fuckin liar Have do we have a liar as presidenthow do so many millions stand behind him or stand up an cheer him at his despicable rallies The mans a jokehes been a joke for a long long time

You said loathe, instead of oath.

                                   his eyes were bloodshot looked like two pissholes in the snow

I did an I corrected myself in the same breath

That’s funny.

 

Yare really high huh

 

That’s funny.

Yare funny

Ha, haha, HA.

Maybe we ought to sit awhile quietly enjoy the sun Its a beautiful day

What?

Don say anything for a while

Will I?

Yare playin with while tryin to be clever

Well I . . .

he wasnt going to be baited  he could still feel the invader inside his mouth keeping a keen eye on his words  if he didnt speak meybe itd get bored and wander off  that would be something to behold  if he felt it move hed open his mouth and use his iPhone screen as a dull mirror to catch its reflection

he sat there openmouthed

iPhone in hand

iPhone Ihand

hmm

his brotherinlaw sat across from him watching him

he opened his mouth

he held his smartphone in his hand too

monkey see monkey do

he closed his left eye

damn if he didnt close his eye too

Big Steve promised his strain of weed was potent rather Fucking Potent.

Big Steve was never one to quibble good to his word like Maxwell House good to the last drop

he opened his left eyecleared his throat  he could still feel his companion

brotherinlaw opened his eye and cleared his throat too

meybe he supposed it was a game

his mouth was drying out he leaned forward and with his left hand took his bottle of beer off the picnic table between them and took a sip

brotherinlaw playing mirror image took his beer off the table with his right

Havinfun

I am. I’m playing with you.

Playin

Yes.

Yare playin monkey see monkey do

Oh. You caught on.  his face fellhe was disappointed

I did

What gave me away?

Yare not clever yare stoned

                             Nice try though

I’m . . oathed to agree.

he smiled itd be a great time to have dimpleswhich he didnt  Yare a funny guy

little past 1400,  Thanksgiving Day,  26  11. 20

1212,  Saturday,  28  11. 20

Yacrack me up

                 he faked a poke to her chinbarely touching her with his fist  slightly turning her chin left

Ouch!

Stop I didnt hurt you Besides part of my attraction to you is that Ive always thought you could take a punchan in that amazing momentthat incredulous shock youd retaliate  rock em outa their socks

                                                                                    Yare a bad muthafucker

Can you call a woman a muthafuc . .

. . I just did Yah

she smiled dimples  she was a tough grrl an no ones fool

How do I crack you up?

Yakiddin me

No. I don’t think so, but things about me tend to humour you.

No doubt babe yatickle me endlessly

So how am I cracking you up?

Odor fraud

Yeah.

       What is that? I’m so confused.

Odor fraud

Yes. I’ve said already. The Lieutenant Governor of Pennsylvan . .

. . Ohshit  Yaknow his name

I do. she smiled enormously large like she was getting something over on him Yes I do, do you?

I do

Who?

Yareally wanna play this game with me

I do. Let’s call it a little test.

Whas in it for me

In it for you?

Yare labouring me Well call it skin in the game Yaknow Im big on that put up or shaddup

Now you’re getting cocky.

Whas in it for me

What’s in it for you?

Ill go down on you

I don’t know that’s fair.

Hows it not fair

Because I think you like it more than I do.

I do

she smiled lazilydreamily 

                            You do.

I do But you do toobegrudgingly  Which Ill never understand

It’s because I kinda lose my mind . . and I like to not lose control of myself.

Around me

Im learning more and more about myself, because you help me to be fearless.

Fearless . to lose control . . . to me

Maybe.

Between us there is no fear an outside us theres nothing to fear  If something were to come after you theyd have to go through me first 

                 Yacan take that to the bank

she leaned overgave him an ample look down her blouse then kissed him deeply

when she sat back from their delightful kiss she teased You’re dragging your heels.

Im not No So before we take another step Again  Whas in it for me

Oh.  Yes.  We didn’t establish that.

We established Id go down on yo . .

. . I’d reciprocate

Thas wha I like to hear Lieutenant Governor Fetterman 

                                                           He saidwhich tickles me  an I quote  This Amway Convention slash carnival barker and snakehandling at the Gettysburgs Ramada doesnt change any facts about Joe Biden winning it

You’re spooky.

Thank you But due tell me of your odor fraud

I’m sorry. That’s what I heard, it threw me off.

                                                 I think that they were comically chastising Republicans; that they smell. That corrupt they’re corrupt to a point of stinking.

Which makes odor fraud make sense

Yeah! Don’t you think?

Yaheard whacha heard while hustlin over to see me

I did. I’ve been thinking about it the whole way over. I couldn’t have heard it right, I mean, odor fraud, really doesn’t make any sense 

                  Does it?

It doesnt

It doesn’t?

It doesnt

What was it?

Lemme give ya a moment But please understand I really truly dig your odor fraud Yawere out ahead of me

I was?

You are

         Anso

she smiled sheepishlyher dimples scarcely presenting Fuck She is beautiful Voter fraud?

Voter fraud

Seems I’m going down on you.

Got an idea Lets flip it You on top  Sixtyni . .

. . Oh you’re bad cat!

An yer delicious

2314,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  11. 20

0137,  Thursday,  26  11. 20

 

Ah page 231 he remembered page 229page 231 in quotes he wrote Zottas who thought they could speciate and overcome death 

               asif death was a curable disease

a curable diseaseHA what a joke

he didnt think hed be standing reason on its head to ask the opposite was birth a curable disease

of course abortion was an option hence curable  pull that palliative cure away and birthed one will die

it is fiction to think otherwise 

all one has to do is think of Egyptian mummies built like sleek bullets for the Afterlife

                                                                                          how many Eternal mummies were burned in European fireplaces to warm entitled familes or tossed in locomotive firesstoking flames to keep steam engines running

Zottas were full of shit

                      when they turned their backs on the process because theyd died the humoured charlatans sucked whatever wealth they could from the surviving family THREATENING if they did not financially maintain critical system upgrades theyd cease the process maintaining their loved one  they didnt care for deadbeats leverage

DEAD is DEAD

page 231page 229 was from Cory Doctorows Walkaway

                                                            it was nice coming away knowing where his sensibilities lay

1835,  Monday,  27   8. 18

1327,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  11. 20