she touched his shoulderleaned
down a bit she
was tall I’m leaving. Would you see me to
the door?
he looked left from where he sat
on the sofa
the front door was right
therewouldve been hard to get lost from here and there
she looked upset but not messed up
although to be fair he once went to a bathroom to take a leak and ended up smoking a joint
with a clown in the shower
a male clown
hard to find female clowns
kinda like Shakespearean plays in
the day all the roles were played by men
or perhaps their sex shut that shit down taking themselves more seriously than men do
You want me to see you to the door kind
of lyrical he thought I can see the door
Please?
Okay okay
in some heyday in LAhe wasnt
paying attention evidently she was
someone noticeable
he stood up he still had to look up into her eyes he was six foot
had he been attracted to her or she was fifteen years younger he might
have said Damn Youre a tall drink of
water
he went to the door opened it for her let her pass first and followed her outshe didnt have to draw him a
picture
outside the door snugged shut behind him she turned
on her heels He’s angry with her.
Angry
Yes. You can see it, can’t you?
No
You don’t see he’s angry?
No I dont see thatches angry Why would he be angry at her
Because . . she’s going to die.
he had a hard time following herpeople
like her who must forget themselves who have to forget who he is that theyre
talking to a sisterinlaw badmouths his
wife to him a brotherinlaw badmouths his wife to him friends of a good friend badmouth his friend
to him her she who she was talking about to
him was his daughter he was his soninlaw
Jesusfuckin H Christ Whas the fuckin disconnect Must be that fuckin priest collar wrapped
around his throat that only they can see seein him as a kind of confessor
she was his daughters reiki
mentor
he tried to let the silence drag
between them like a fuckin stone in hopes
that she might gather her wits and remember who he was
it didnt usually work
it didnt usually dawn on them of
the intimacy he shared with the people they maligned
She’s going to die.
didnt take the silent bait
he may have to start braining
these people
Eventually yes shell die Eventually well all die she began rolling up on him asif
she was confiding But youre referring to her
imminent demise
she rolled back on her heels stared
into his eyes
maybe she thought hed flinch
blink avert his eyes she
had his laser attention she didnt know himshe knew of
him she wouldnt know he had the temerity of a junkyard dog who had no qualms biting
You should talk to him, prepare
him. You know, from what you were through before.
Through before he thought through before the vaguery it twists him why people who believe they are in possession of facts or innuendos choose to be ambiguous pussyfoot around skirt the issue rather than just saying
directly what they mean
he let her hang on her before
she referred first to his
daughters ailing his soninlaws
anger then she contends he knows because
of his wifes death
before
words in placepronouns in place
of peoples names
present
deceased
alive
dead
without breaking looks he said Hell find his own way Hes not angry hes concerned hes frustrated and frankly as her mentor with your extensive training I would imagineyour
submersion in the culture you should
rather be concerning yourself with Anniels ailing her transition invigorating her overwhelming her with your abilities and
energies
Or I can be wrong
they held their eyeball clench a moment
or two longer then she said You’re mistaken.
To which aspect are you referring
I have to go.
Thank you for stopping It means the world to Anniel
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