15.9.19




her smile was electrifying white teeth deep dimples 

lovely  captivating

she was blonde


usually blonde did nothing for him

which was probably why she intoxicated him

blondes rolled out of his eyes asif he had never seen them
                                                               but she stuck

she stuck because when he nodded at her Im beside ya at the window kiddo she stuck her left heel into her seat and stoodup yetcrouched then deftly planted her right foot in the aisle  effortlessly she raised her leftthe seat went up  she posed momentarily on one leg allowing him to slip inside her pass her and take his seat
Marvelous         
            Possessed a dancers an athletes agility

Thank you he said

Of course. she stepped onto her left and swaying her fanny past the seats arm to sit she leaned in towards him  near enough so he could smell her freshscrubbed skinno artificial scent  which also attracted him 

in that nearness interstice small intimate space he returned her smile
                                                                          he extended his hand Im Joe   

leaning back seating herselfstill the gorgeous smile on her face she took his hand  Im Maria  she rolled her r  Spanish

Maria Like West Side Story Maria

Pronunciation yes  Argentinian not Puerto Rican

he hadnt expected a blonde from South America but he was thickhe didnt travel outside the United Statesstill too much yet to see of the stateshis own country  country he had meant to see but was drafted he didnt qualify his tour in Nam as travel no  that was a state of mind ugly he remained troubled that America still consistently sought to embrace ugly some dogs are dumb and cant learn new tricks  ugly money apparently was just too good
Joe?

Ahyes yes  Went away didnt I  Argentinian Youre very lovely

she blushed it looked good on her highlighted the freckles across the bridge of her nose across her cheeks Thank you.

No Thank you Ive nothing to do with your beauty I am pleased however that you can blush with a compliment It speaks to your personality  Attractive within and without

she tried on sober  Do you always say what’s on your mind?

No You obviously interrupted what was on my mind that I didnt share  although I have a keen propensity to always remark on a womans beauty 

she blushed againdeeper

Im thoroughly enjoying your colour Maria

she sputtered Thank you. You’re embarrassing me.

Dont be embarrassed Im being honest I havent time for anything other than honestySo what are you doing on this flight

My my! Such a sudden transition.

I didnt think you could take another complimentHa  he smiled

she smiled if possible bigger yet You’re flummoxing me.

I havent flummoxed a woman in awhile  he winked Please The true story of your travel this morning


as she related her story inside he reminded himselfnot that he was sorry he asked  however when asking for someones story it is the same as asking someone sincerely How are you  if you dont really want to know  dont ask

he listened intently

his heart nearly broken

she was so vivaciousso young so flung and buried by lifes circumstances  circumstances we never imagine befalling us


we play the hand were dealt

throw Reason away

throw Why away

those considerations can break your backcrush you

Ah she said it She had her religion




It was love-at-first-sight.

Love-at-first-sight Thats never happened to me love-at-second-sight Where were you when your love-at-first-sight happened between you and your husband

At church.

Church  Arent you supposed to be loving someone else at church I . . I think you were cheating on someone

she burst out laughing  

the tears shining in her eyes went out You’re a terrible tease.

Im not religious that did not give her any pause Correct me if Im wrong

a beautiful smile rose on her lips I fell in love with him the moment I saw him. He told me that he fell in love with me in that moment too.

Maria Thats. . thats impossibly remarkable and beautiful  Im terribly happy I heard it from your lips



her husband was bedridden  half his body paralysed by a stroke days after an emergency surgery on a benign tumour growing in his brain  the surgeon couldnt get all of it 
                                                            three and a half years ago


she was going to Cancun

her family bought her a four-day reprieverejuvenation  

they arrived from Argentina from Japan to stay and care for her husband while she away

when she returned her husband was going to Stanford for another surgery

his tumour metastisised  cancerous

either surgery

or not


Shannon, my husband, knows that if this is his time, if God takes him; that when I die we will be joined again and live for eternity in Heaven.

he sighed Eternity

her eyes shined  Yes. Live for eternity together.


Youll excuse me Maria
 
Wouldnt living with one person  forever  be boring

gay laughter peeled and throbbed out of her throat Oh! You make me laugh so.

Laughters excellent medicine
 
You’re a doctor now?

If I was Id want to examine you immediately Try to discover how your beauty resides inside and out at the same miraculous time

I truly hope medical science has an answer for you and Shannon

Yes.

God willing.



he didnt give a fuck for God he just wanted Maria and Shannon to succeed survive win out


  
1143,  Twosday,  27  8. 19
1616,  Saturday,  14  9. 19
Mad Soul Child  Breath  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wK2jZBn8CDk 

14.9.19


ALLOW ME TO REINTRODUCE MYSELF ... @realDonaldTrump at 8:44 a.m.: ‘A Very Stable Genius! Thank you.’“

Sounds like hes trying to convince himself


FAKER couldnt convince him
2335,  Saturday,  14  9. 19
Rolling Stones  Sympathy for the Devil  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f47TZePukuQ



The Weather Channel

                          who the fuck thought commercials on The Weather Channel was a good idea

he appreciated it was a platformbut really
                                             choke five minutes of tropical storm Dorian coverage  possibly gaining hurricane strength  to advertise Botox cosmeticsadvertise young women flaunting their fleet feet and untouched faces not real clients  models advertise Dermal fillers trademarked BBL BroadBand Light Forever Young Chemical/Laser peels Microneedling & PRP Platelet-Rich Plasma therapies Coolsculpting Fat Scarlet & Agnes RF Radiofrequency w/PRP trademarked Halo Hybrid Fractional Laser resurfacing with non-ablative and ablative wavelengths diVa Feminine Rejuvenation reduce the redundancy of vaginal tissue/improve vaginal tone Laser hair removal trademarked miraDry treating Hyperhidrosis SWEAT! who doesnt like sweaty girls IV Nutrient therapy aka Myers Cocktail the CALM IV intravenous therapies trademarked Skintyte and hopefully last Ultherapy non-invasive ultrasound
                                                                                Yes    At last Last   

had The Weather Channel existed in the 50s 60s  Yes  Impossible  though had it this kind pandering wouldnt have passed muster with the National Association of Broadcasters Seal of Good Practice Television Code

the Television Code was oversight

he maintained that oversight is critical 
                                         his assessment was based on the famous promises he heard as a kid the three promises guys made  and made should have been doubted out right out of the gateright out of their mouths
liars

Number one  The checks in the mail

Number two  I love you

Number three  I promise I wont cum in your mouth . . between your legs

Harsh
         Nah he didnt think sohe was a white malehe spent time in locker rooms with these kinds of shitshe would be hard to convince that any of these fucks had a mother sister or aunt

he couldnt relate


but maybe the Stone Age he grew up in couldnt speak to the slickslippery Electronic Silicon Age
                                                                                                     yet some truths are accurate eternal no matter the time the eon they are human truths human traits Book of Face participants might try to refute or ignore them but that would be to their harrowing detriment
Think
       Theyve pissed away their anonymity I wanna be a celebrity be known (I Wanna Be a Cowboy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9Jmo3yGrSg  Boys Don’t Cry)  Yippee ki yay

Fuck em



inside the airport he was an inmate 
                                       a being toyed withmanipulated by the Security State the Fed Oh arent they

Federal laws intent to either squash or inhibit ones personal liberties civil justices  
                                                                                      because the cowherd of Congressional representatives and the Executive branch went along with some thinktank policy paper dictate and didnt challengedidnt wish to appear unpatriotic in a time of national emergency national distress                                                                                             
which wasnt either                                                                                                                
which became an abject response  and dismal failure he saw it coming he was no genius                                                                                                            
which should have been pursued internationally through Intelligence agencies

covert                                                                                                                                        
not splashy                                                                                                                                          
not political
             however politics needs and wants its theatre its footlights stage  it needs and wants its accolades  the applause  the rahrah the cheerleaders

politicians just cant seem to do their job and let their decisions the affirmed results speak for them 

they need adulation like a junkie needs a fix


they were cunts

                     unfortunately the few cunts among them are also cunts




The Weather Channel


The Weather Channel finally came back on
                                              the story remained Dorian  tropical storm Dorian growing in strength  expected to strike Puerto Rico and the Bahamas

Ah Puerto Rico  one of Drumpf/FAKERS shithole country an American territory
                                                                                         he couldnt help but wonder if FAKER would order the military to neutralise Dorians eye with a nuclear warhead as it passed over Puerto Rico

Yaknow


Kill two birds with one stone 
                               Country Joe and the Fish https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3W7-ngmO_p8 played softly in his ears



0637,  Twosday,  27  8. 19
1313,  Saturday,  14  9. 19

Don McClean  American Pie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iX_TFkut1PM

13.9.19



his daughter lunged for his shoulder as he stepped into the crosswalk

feeling her hand at it he considered shrugging her off then opted to grab her hand and pull her into the crosswalk with him Are you crazy? she barked

she couldnt break his hold and stumbled into the street behind him

quickly he tossed a glarestabbed at finger at the driver of a late model white Suburban


. . I rent only white vehicles now his daughter told him I’ve discovered it’s easier to see the dents or blemishes that they might try to hang on you.

How smart are you

Well, Papa, I like to think I didn’t fall far from the tree.

No you havent  Its a little spooky You remind me of me

I’ll take that as a compliment.

I’ll take that as a compliment
                              she smiled her dimples went off she and her sister had their mothers dimples he saw her in his girls It was lovely though bittersweet


Are you crazy?!
                 he didnt answer hertheyd converse once they crossed the street 

the Suburbans brakes bitscreeched  its body dippedthe driver glared

letem glarepricks glare pricks think they own the road

this motherfucker probably had his nails manicured  was waxed

a white Suburban

a huge intersection

dent  Obvious

blood  Obvious
                 anif he wasnt hurt too badly hedve gotten upyanked his door openyanked him out of his drivers seat strangled him with his seatbelt


that was the script



on the other side of the street his daughter was back on him He could have hit you; us.

He could have but that would have been stupid of him

You pull this shit regularly?

Every opportunity I get

Christ, Papa.

No Christ baby  He aint got a damn thing to do with it

Why do you risk getting hit?

Somebodys got to draw a line  I suppose Ive assumed that responsibility

Papa.

Dont get frustrated baby Im just fulfilling what apparently is my calling My job is to vex authority and assholes

Theyll have to kill me to stop me


Ever think of me and Sis

I do An I know you both know who I am  I havent been different since you girls were littlehave I



No

No Good  Then we understand each other

Hard to teach old dogs new tricks An Ive been an old dog since I was a young boy


One day, one day your action, decision, may turn ugly.

Im at my best when things are ugly

Id think youd know that

I know that, that you’ve said; I just don’t think I want to witness it.

Are you being chickenshit

Christ, Papa, chickenshit? Really?

Ive always taught you and your sister by actions not words Why would I step back from that now that were older Or rather  I am older
I wouldnt

I wont

Youre stuck with a gregarious old man

Thats why I maintain my physicality  my health

Ill be no pushover


That’s my Papa. Crazy muthafucker.

Yup

Remember it was me who taught you to tell people  You can suck my cock

                                                                         
1320,  Friday the Thirteenth, 2019

The Record Company Goodbye to the Hard Life https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vkehnvXZiT0

12.9.19



he looked up from his book as he sat waiting on his flight at the airport 

to his leftabove him The Weather Channel broadcasted  Dorian  he caught the tailend of whatever it was that scrolled across the bottom of the screen “ . . can create a lot of missouri.” 

Ohbrutha missouri  Really
                                  
                                       but on second thought he stopped rolling his eyes sneaking in the backdoor was a memory of his parents taking the family southwest on a car trip to look at property a possibly investment

while his parents were taken around by a real estate agent for an investment firm  lakeside property he and his brother walked down to the lake from the cabin provided for their family 

they ran into some of the local boys who took exception to them  they talked funny

We talk funny? they were from Chicago You listening to the words coming out of your mouths? his younger brother was an agent provocateur


his father told him when he was even younger if a fight seemed imminent “Throw the first punch; lotsa fight are won by one punch.”

fortunately his brother was as crazy as he wasthey were only a year apart he knew hed have his back

too bad he didnt have more arms

although he did have the advantage of surprise

two on five was a stretch

maybe some adults would converge and separate them


the adults took their sweet fucking time

they probably recognised he and his brother werent from around there



despite the split lips black eyes bruises more of them went to the ground and more often than they did

they had an older cousin who was obsessed with boxing 

Jimmy knocked them both around his parents basement

but he also knocked some skills into them too


Jimmy would have been pleased


their parents werent




they left the next morning their parents said it wasnt going take two days for them to realise the lots were over-priced

nice of them that they hung their reasons for departing on the investment company


as they rolled out of development past the lake he and his brother couldnt resistseemingly spontaneouslyrolling their windows down HEY! and flipped off a couple of the battered local boyshe wanted to bellow FUCK YOU! but he was within striking distance of both his mother and father

he used restraint
                  it was an awful tether that he often slipped when he was on his own






“ . . can create a lot of missouri.”

missouri

misery

same ball park
                he didnt feel any particular missouri about it figured it was more for the boys who werent out playing as they left

he felt noses give way


0637,  Twoday,  27  8. 19
1339,  Thursday,  12  9. 19

11.9.19



he wondered how this would go



he hadnt seen her in a year

a year

              others who cared for himloved him were perturbed that he hadnt seen her
rather  she hadnt seen him

he extended himself

she was unwell

she refused


he wasnt bothered or upset


they spoke or texted every day
                                usually


because she wasnt well he didnt sweat it if she didnt communicate with him

he let her reach out firsthe didnt want to disturb her

he told her long ago to selfishly care for herself
                                                 she was her first priority

he wasnt going to renege



“Still . . . “ family friends argued

he laughed
               then clearing his throat  Not real comfortable in your relationshipshuh

One should know their worthshould be good in their own skin

he couldnt think of a time since he was a young teenager that he worried about how other people reacted to him or thought about him

he wasnt around to please them
                                  it was his life
hed do as he wanted


coercion wouldnt make him submit






Ah
        it went just how he thought it would


0951,  Twosday,  10  9. 19   


                 what I had to do I did

                                                            bittersweet 


Im back

1018,  Twosday,  11  9. 19

27.8.19


                                                              Theres something I have to do




I thought I had done it

but then I woke up in my bed alone

I hadnt laid down in it


that afternoon my father-in-law begged off a hike we agreed wed make 

but he couldnt have

he died twelve years ago



and in bed when I collapsedspent we were spent on top of my lover  rolled off her moist backkissing her shouldersmelling her fragrance she turned onto her side to face me
                                                                         we kissed feebly still catching our breaths deliciously  shes beautiful   shes 24 

she was 24 ten years ago







Theres something I have to do

Ill be back

0959,  Sunday,  25  8. 19