Hey, Joe . . . it’s just Mom . . Sorry I missed you.

just Mom  just Mom   what does that say

crazy voicemail on his home machine

                                        it occurred to him to torture the truth out of the machine but torture eventually produces only what the interrogator wants

                                              and if an interrogator wants lies to support their theory theyll get the lies from the mouth of who they torture

queer how intelligence communities try to sell that they can get the truth  or get at the truth

they extract what serves their purpose and hand it off as reality  

one should remember intelligence agencies are built on plausible deniability

in the United States it has allowed them to assassinate political and religious leaders when they either stepped too far or went over the tips of their skis 

                                 amazing  in the Land in the Home of the Free and the Brave

cross power 

             itll cut you down   

all you can hope is that those who are behind you will not be intimidatedmade fearful

living in fear isnt living

survival 

         isnt living

he called her back the next morning

he was at work when she left her message

Hey

Hey what? Is that how you greet your mother?

My mother maybe not my mother however you cast aspersions when you said its just Mom makes me think youre implying  just Mom that perhaps I have another mother

What?

Youre not just Mom youre Mom  Correct

You knew what I meant.

I did not

I cant say Ive ever left a message where I said  its just Joe

But you parse words, Joe, you always . .

. . Maybe I should have been an attorney

Maybe you should have; you’re argumentative enough.

Umm  Id say confrontational  not argumentative

Parsing words.

Oh JustMom Get on with it Why did you call

Your father and I were watching the news yesterday and we saw that two men, two murderers, were in your neighborhood.

My neighbourhood

Yes.

My neighbourhood  Or California

Stop. In your neighborhood.

In my home town

No, not your home town . .

. . Then they werent in my neighbourhood awright

No matter. We just wanted to be sure you were safe.

Thank you JustMom Ill assume the murderers were white They killed people with guns

Yes.

Then likely they killed people they could victimise  Last thingId think a murderer wants to do is try and kill someone who can defend themselves  hurt them   kill them

Don’t be too sure of yourself, Joe.

Thanks JustMom  Ill keep that under advisement

One of the men shot themselves.

So  then I need only worry about one white man

Well, no, he surrendered himself to police; walked up to a squad car and told the officer he was a suspect; I wish the cop would have shot him dead. 

JustMom  The cop he surrendered to was white

Yes.

Well  the cop wouldntve shot him  White cops only shoot black men.

Oh my, Joe, you’re terrible!

Terribly honest JustMom

Would you stop with that Just Mom crap.

So there isnt another Mom in the picture

No. I’m your mother.

Think again If youre owning being my mother youre owning some responsibility for who I am And sometimes I dont wanna own up to who I am 

But like Popeye I yam what I yam and dats what I yam  Im Joe

You’re a screwball.

Im your screwball  Gotta go Maw  I love you

I love you, Joe

.

1523,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  8. 19

1552,  Friday,  9  8. 19

Fela Kuti  Why Black Men Dey Suffer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvmKcB-nziE

Popeye  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzHmunZxJeM

aah  Faker speaks reads from his teleprompter   gawddamn  how isit he reads words that dont appear on it 

riffing?

while addressing the heinous mass shootings by white terrorists – Faker wont use those words – in Dayton Ohio and El Paso Texas -- he had to suppose the recent murders at the Garlic Festival in Gilroy California by another white terrorist was news too old – Faker says Toledo  not Dayton

hmm

       but maybe given enough time Faker would come around and say he meant to say Toledo  he wasnt incorrect

because

          hes way out ahead of everyone  actually what he was doing was merging Dayton and El Paso  DUH  he created a portmanteaux on the spot  Can anyone appreciatepossibly realise how difficult that is before a national and worldwide audience 

                       hes that sharp!

on the fly he took three letters from each city equality three letters from each city to create Toledohe wasnt referring to Toledo Ohio OHHELLNO! why would he do that  Fakers sly like a fox

he took from Dayton its D and T and O and from El Paso took its E an L and O   JUMBLE doesnt everyone play JUMBLE 

DTOELO  

           Comon  How freaking obvious!

Christ not only does he have to console the nation but edumacate it too . . . he really really hasnt time for this shit  it cuts into his unstructured time that 60% of his time thats so critical to him functioning as the president of the United States

                                                                                                  

his staff caught him gazing out the window at the flag before the White House Mr. President? Faker doesnt hear them its a little game they play in the Oval Office and on the White House grounds Your Highness? he smiles glibly and responds Yes? Your Highness, you have a question? Thank you for noticing, yes. Why is the flag at halfmast?

Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  8. 19

Bon Jovi  You Give Love a Bad Name  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KrZHPOeOxQQ

a student runner breathlessly entered his junior high classroom with a summons in hand 

her eyes went around the room as she went to the door to exit as Mr Carter pronounced his name Joe Mr Sweat would like to speak with you there were several Joes in the classroom but those Joes knew Mr Sweat wasnt asking to see them

he tarried to rise  he wasnt going to give her snoopy  as he knew her to be  the satisfaction of learning who he was she was one of many who saw themselves fitwere selfappointed to inform the junior highs rumour mill but all she was going to know was that it a Joe from Mr Carters fifth period English class

hed have no face  and without it no fingers pointing him out 

                                                                  ah sacred anonymity

Yes Mr Carter

Joe Take this hall pass 

Sir we have only another  wha tennine minutes of class left  Why not wait until its over and then Ill make my way down to Mr Sweats during passing time

No. When you’re summonsed by Mr. Sweat he means Now. You’ll not keep the principal waiting. If you did it would imply that I do not understand what a summons is. And I do. So please take this and leave; after school today come back here for your evening assignment. Thank you.  

Well he thought there was that  wasnt there

he quietly collected his books got up from his desk went up the aisle to Mr Carter and took the pass from his hand  Thank you sir

Joe.  I don’t know if I should say you’re welcome. I’ll see you later this afternoon.

Yes Thank you sir

leaving the classroom he didnt look at any of kids they had no idea why he was summonsed though he did  and he imagined the forthcoming conversation with Mr Sweat was going to be  ah humourous  some people have thin skins

Mrs Neely the secretary had him take a seat along the wall in the outer officethe antechamber although when he said it he imagined its spelling as antichamber he was usually on the opposite side of the argument he appreciated Mr Sweats job  but he had more appreciation for himself  he knew he ruffled feathers but he certainly didnt think his actions required Mr Sweat intervention Crybaby

                                            he took his favorite seat  it was a wooden armchair that was across from a really tall window that looked out over the campus lawn into the old elms growing there and through their crowns to the blue cloudy sky beyond 

he was so fond of that chair that with graduation this year he was going to ask Mr Sweat if he could buy it

Mrs Neely wasnt in Mr Sweat office but a moment and returned she stood at its thresholdshe didnt shut the door  Joe. Mr. Sweat will see you now.

Damn under his breathhe hadnt even properly settled into HIS chair  Yes Mrs Neely Thank you he squeezed the chairs armgave it a wink  Later sweetheart  Im sure

he crossed behind Mrs Neelys desk that stood like a rampartbarricade before Mr Sweats door

he passed her he could have walked under her arm if she held the door she was a long tall drink of water

Mr. Sweat was rising from his chair behind his desk as he entered

they shook hands across the desk both of them leaning forward Mr Sweat was a short man but barrelchested  he was bald on top but wore a wreath of brown steelystreaked hair around his head that reminded him of a Roman emperor

Have a seat, Joe.

If you dont mind Mr Sweat I would prefer to stand I dont think this will be a long conversation Do you

Perhaps not.

Do you know why I’ve had you come?

I have a pretty good idea

Fine. What’s your idea?

If I may before I share my idea provide some context that may or may not have been shared  which provoked  your uh  your invitation

Please. I think we know each other well enough, you understand that I’m a fair man.

Yes sir  You are a fair man  with an understandable  leaning

Leaning?

Yes sir You couldnt hold this job if you didnt lean Correct

I don’t know I would describe it as . . leaning.

No sir I wouldnt think you would

Okay.

I understand.

And your context?

Yes sir  Have you eaten the raisin pie in the cafeteria

The raisin pie?

No. I have not, I’m not fond of raisins.

I am

Fond of raisin?

Yes sir I had it once before and when I couldnt finish I asked for my money back  I was refused Then at the time I said if my money wasnt returned then the least the cafeteria  she  could do was not make it in the future Maybe two piesI dont think Ive ever saw more than two Rather I suggested she make other pies instead and not torture the raisins serve them separate in a paper cup in their natural state

I was privy to your remarks.

Ohgood But you didnt call me into the office for that

No. You werent . necessarily . . . provocative.

Do you really think I was provocative  this time

I believe you think you weren’t.

I believe you can believe  I wasnt

they quietly sat stood across from each other both ramrod straight

Mrs. Sheehan . . believes . otherwise. She asked me to speak to you regarding . . what?

Regarding my language obviously

Yes.

She could have made other pies

She does.

Yes  But she has continued to make raisin pieswasting resourceswasting her time

And?  You didnt have to choose the pi . . 

. . Excuse me 

              Excuse me Mr Sweat I had to be sure And sure I returned it again after one forkful  I returned to Mrs Sheehan as I did the first time and asked again for my money back though more firmly

Yes. More firmly. More offensively.

he couldnt restrain the smile that broke over his face when he composed himself he continued Mr Sweat you must recognise that was clever

Mr Sweat didnt smile Clever?

Certainly he wanted to say it like Curly of the Three Stooges said it Come on you wont agree I was clever

And you said?

Awright 

I said if she was determined to continue making raisin pies she ought to at least provide a vomitorium for the cafeteria Five syllables Rhymey  Mr Sweat Clever

Mrs. Sheehan took offense.

Obviously

You don’t think you owe her an apology?

I  believe  not

Her raisin pies offend meyet she makes other fantastic pies And Ive told her soIve complimented her other pies

If I were to . . 

. . Please dont Mr Sweat I wont

What am I to do with you, Joe?

Mr Sweat 

           Thats your problem sir

July, 2019

1234,  Thursday,  8  8. 19

Curly  Certainly  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlH7h-_QQw4             

for shits and giggles 

                       https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sB0wWEFIr50

well  honestly 

                  just to shit on Drumpf  Look, Mikey likes it!

2330,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  8. 19

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLQ0LZSnJFE

he doesnt call it terrorism but his answer is what he wanted for the Central Park Five

wooden  emotionless  this is what the President of the United States looks like when he reads from a teleprompter and says when words are stuffed in his mouth as his vapid Vice-Puppet Pence behind him over his right shoulder

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CznjqYW3l9Y

Gilroy California? 

Toledo Ohio?

Drumpf regurgitates:  “ . . . we vow to act with urgent resolve”?

he also mimics:  “In one voice, our nation must condemn racism, bigotry, and white supremacy.

“We must recognize that the internet has provided a dangerous avenue to radicalize disturbed minds and perform demented acts.

“The perils of the internet and social media cannot be ignored, and they will not be ignored.

“ . . . we must stop the glorification of violence in our society. This includes the gruesome and grisly video games that are now commonplace.”

he regurgitates “our nation”  “we must” 

                                          though what will he do  what will the president do?

“Today, I'm also directing the Department of Justice to propose legislation ensuring that those who commit hate crimes and mass murders face the death penalty, and that this capital punishment be delivered quickly, decisively, and without years of needless delay.”

                      

OhOkay He must think weve forgotten his involvement in the Central Park Five  https://www.nytimes.com/2016/10/18/opinion/why-trump-doubled-down-on-the-central-park-five.html

Drumpf remains steadfast in calling these shootings hate crimes when they are perpetrated by white men . . 

           

He should call them truly what they are  acts of terror committed by white American terrorists

1237,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  8. 19  Im late  I was out of town

https://www.rev.com/transcript-editor/shared/F4EpWBodk2NZ3A6Xy1Vb6TUI9ckO_Ui6OFx6iNbgABGlJakHi1MKCRs7km3rSXa_zGysWiONJqz9r49Yyap4-Guuenk?loadFrom=DocumentDeeplink&ts=5.88 :

"Good morning. My fellow Americans, this morning our nation is overcome with shock, horror, and sorrow. This weekend, more than 80 people were killed or wounded in two evil attacks. On Saturday morning in El Paso, Texas, a wicked man went to a Walmart store where families were shopping with their loved ones. He shot and murdered 20 people and injured 26 others, including precious little children. Then in the early hours of Sunday morning, Dayton, Ohio, another twisted monster opened fire on a crowded downtown street. He murdered nine people, including his own sister, and injured 27 others.

"The First Lady and I join all Americans in praying and grieving for the victims, their families, and the survivors. We will stand by their side forever. We will never forget. These barbaric slaughters are an assault upon our communities, an attack upon our nation, and a crime against all of humanity. We are outraged and sickened by this monstrous evil, the cruelty, the hatred, the malice, the bloodshed, and the terror. Our hearts are shattered for every family whose parents, children, husbands, and wives were ripped from their arms and their lives. America weeps for the fallen. We are a loving nation, and our children are entitled to grow up in a just, peaceful, and loving society. Together, we lock arms to shoulder the grief. We ask God in heaven to ease the anguish of those who suffer, and we vow to act with urgent resolve.

"I want to thank the many law enforcement personnel who responded to these atrocities with the extraordinary grace and courage of American heroes. I have spoken with Texas governor Greg Abbott and Ohio governor Mike DeWine, as well as Mayor Dee Margo of El Paso, Texas and Mayor Nan Whaley of Dayton, Ohio to express our profound sadness and unfailing support. Today we also send the condolences of our nation to President Obrador of Mexico and all the people of Mexico for the loss of their citizens in the El Paso shooting. Terrible, terrible thing. I have also been in close contact with Attorney General Barr and FBI Director Wray. Federal authorities are on the ground, and I have directed them to provide any and all assistance required, whatever is needed.

"The shooter in El Paso posted a manifesto online consumed by racist hate. In one voice, our nation must condemn racism, bigotry, and white supremacy. These sinister ideologies must be defeated. Hate has no place in America. Hatred warps the mind, ravages the heart, and devours the soul. We have asked the FBI to identify all further resources they need to investigate and disrupt hate crimes and domestic terrorism. Whatever they need. We must recognize that the internet has provided a dangerous avenue to radicalize disturbed minds and perform demented acts. We must shine light on the dark recesses of the internet and stop mass murders before they start. The internet likewise is used for human trafficking, illegal drug distribution, and so many other heinous crimes. The perils of the internet and social media cannot be ignored, and they will not be ignored.

"In the two decades since Columbine, our nation has watched with rising horror and dread as one mass shooting has followed another, over and over again, decade after decade. We cannot allow ourselves to feel powerless. We can and will stop this evil contagion. In that task, we must honor the sacred memory of those we have lost by acting as one people. Open wounds cannot heal if we are divided. We must seek real bipartisan solutions, we have to do that in a bipartisan manner, that will truly make America safer and better for all.

"First, we must do a better job of identifying and acting on early warning signs. I am directing the Department of Justice to work in partnership with local, state, and federal agencies, as well as social media companies, to develop tools that can detect mass shooters before they strike. As an example, the monster in the Parkland High School in Florida had many red flags against him, and yet nobody took decisive action. Nobody did anything. Why not?

"Second, we must stop the glorification of violence in our society. This includes the gruesome and grisly video games that are now commonplace. It is too easy today for troubled youth to surround themselves with a culture that celebrates violence. We must stop or substantially reduce this, and it has to begin immediately. Cultural change is hard, but each of us can choose to build a culture that celebrates the inherent worth and dignity of every human life. That's what we have to do.

"Third, we must reform our mental health laws to better identify mentally disturbed individuals who may commit acts of violence, and make sure those people not only get treatment, but when necessary, involuntary confinement. Mental illness and hatred pulls the trigger, not the gun.

"Fourth, we must make sure that those judged to pose a grave risk to public safety do not have access to firearms, and that if they do, those firearms can be taken through rapid due process. That is why I have called for red flag laws, also known as extreme risk protection orders. Today, I'm also directing the Department of Justice to propose legislation ensuring that those who commit hate crimes and mass murders face the death penalty, and that this capital punishment be delivered quickly, decisively, and without years of needless delay.

"These are just a few of the areas of cooperation that we can pursue. I am open and ready to listen and discuss all ideas that will actually work and make a very big difference. Republicans and Democrats have proven that we can join together in a bipartisan fashion to address this plague. Last year, we enacted the STOP School Violence and Fix NICS Acts into law, providing grants to improve school safety, and strengthening critical background checks for firearm purchases. At my direction, the Department of Justice banned bump stocks. Last year, we prosecuted a record number of firearms offenses.

"But there is so much more that we have to do. Now is the time to set destructive partisanship aside, so destructive, and find the courage to answer hatred with unity, devotion, and love. Our future is in our control. America will rise to the challenge. We will always have, and we always will, win. The choice is ours and ours alone. It is not up to mentally ill monsters. It is up to us. If we are able to pass great legislation after all of these years, we will ensure that those who were attacked will not have died in vain.

"May God bless the memory of those who perished in Toledo, and may God protect them. May God protect all of those from Texas to Ohio. May God bless the victims and their families. May God bless America. Thank you very much. Thank you."

Peace

even if he had the words on his teleprompter Drumpf couldnt deliver this kind of speech for peace  because he lacks the moral conviction to believe the words or its fine ideal

theres nothing in it for him   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fkKnfk4k40

“ . . examine our attitude toward peace itself. Too many of us think it is impossible. Too many think it is unreal. But that is a dangerous, defeatist belief. It leads to the conclusion that war is inevitable, that mankind is doomed, that we are gripped by forces we cannot control. We need not accept that view. Our problems are manmade. Therefore, they can be solved by man. And man can be as big as he wants. No problem of human destiny is beyond human beings. Man’s reason and spirit have often solved the seemingly unsolvable and we believe they can do it again.”

1404,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  8. 19

he suffers a kind of dyslexia 

                               whether reproducing telephone numbers haltinglyregurgitated at him into the passiveagressive registers keyboard  numbers he accuses of being tattooed to the backs of the reciters eyelids  or eyelid  one gal closed one eye and twitched around seeminglystaring at her closed left eyethat was a first  as opposed to others who cast their eyes upwardstare at the ceiling or over the top of his head at the blank wall above the ice coolers   

he was provocative hed lean back staring up at the ceiling with them  Where ya lookin I dont see no freaking numbers
 

it was humour 

                everything goes better with humourparticularly when you force people to laugh at themselves

if they didnt laugh he kept a ballpeen hammer on hand to encourage them  ballpeen hammers had a way of being very persuasive 

            particularly if one wields them with enthusiasm and mentions the pigs theyve killed with single savage blow struck between the eyes

We gotta eat

he flashed to a website called Distractify looking for the young actress who appeared opposite DiCaprio in Upon Once a Time in Hollywood

                     Julia Butters   

shes on American Housewives 

                                 though itd be a cold day in hell before hed venture anywhere near that shit

good thing Miss Butters excelled at her audition

he wouldnt see her again until her next role in cinema 

little screens are little screensplaces where actors cut their teeth

hed rather toss them teething biscuits than suffer television 

                                                               its not where he roamed

he had other curiosities to satisfy

nevertheless his dyslexia 

                             whether juxtaposing numbers 3437 3473  or words Distractify  Decrucify                                                                                                                     

Decrucify acquired his attention 

whether correct or incorrectly

how would one decrucify pull nails pounded through flesh defrock of a crown of thorns  reversing a Centurions spear jab would be difficult  he couldnt unless he could rewind time

but if he could rewind time hed be curious to look at the primitive black and whites of Adam and LilithEve wringing her hands back in the Garden the serpent seducing herslipping headlong between her thighs gooble gooblegooble Eve buckingEve holleringEve almost suffocating the serpent   

hed been a serpent many times he could relate  have sympathyhave empathy

                                                                                       but not a terrible way to die

up to your eyeballs in cunt

Yah Decrucify attracted him

but if anyone had it in their playbook  it had to be Christ 

Why didnt He flex his superhero muscles and lay waste to the Roman Empire 

Didnt He get they were a bunch of dagoes

Saturdayafternoon,  3  8. 19

1739, Sunday,  4  8. 19

Zappa  Montana  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smZA9Jv3qH0  

its called terrorism

Ah  now 2 white male shooters https://www.npr.org/2019/08/04/747989695/9-killed-at-least-16-injured-in-shooting-in-dayton-ohio?utm_source=npr_newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_content=20190804&utm_campaign=breakingnews&utm_term=nprnews&utm_id=28916831

lets stand it on top of his prior entrykinda like making an ice cream sundae scoops and scoops and more scoops of White hate

he was inclined to lay the whole terrifying bloody mess at Fakers feet

"he worked all dayjust got home

“while he heated up some leftover beef kidneys and egg noodles on the stove he went to his computer  to his Hotmail

“The Nation reported  rather rereport a TomDispatch article  Adam Hochschild’s America’s Real War  http://www.tomdispatch.com/post/176592/tomgram%3A_adam_hochschild%2C_america%27s_real_war/#more

“there was also a horrific NPR offering  20 People Killed In El Paso Shooting; 21-Year-Old (white) Suspect In Custody (the shooter didnt have the courage to put the weapon in his mouth and pull the trigger)  https://outlook.live.com/mail/inbox/id/AQMkADAwATYwMAItOTA3MS04MGZhLTAwAi0wMAoARgAAA3WjpKc7cPZFny%2BrLdaubrMHAMepe1zO4DpMpnJXM8BCucMAAAIBDAAAAMepe1zO4DpMpnJXM8BCucMAArQVNB8AAAA%3D

“things remain to be seen

                           however theres a wretched possibility that Drumpfs violent words – in translation -- have cut down 20 lives”

2310,  Saturday,  3  8. 19

“Try not to hurt him. If you do, I’ll defend you in court, don’t worry about it.”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIs2L2nUL-0 

 

1642,  Sundae,  4  8. 19

almost makes one desire a simpler time  Neil Young  Ohio (4 dead)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRE9vMBBe10