3:17 on 3/18 of 2019

                       it was hard for him not to get caught up in numbersthey tickled him

his happy joke regarding them he admitted was when he discovered what 36 – 24 – 36 meant his fascination and attraction and abstraction multiplied significantlyexponentially an he learned what the figure meant before he learned in school that the number-line also had negative-numbers

1 plus -1 equaled zero

1 plus -3 equaled -2

1 plus -3 equaled -2 equaled debt  equaled an obligationan indebtedness

                                                                                possibly equaling I am in your debt

debt upset him

it as a leverage a cudgel

                           one could be owned if they incurred excessive debt

the number-line was terrifying

so as a boy he decided to try to remain to the right side of zero 

                                                                   an later reading Mario Puzos The Godfather he saw what an obligationwhat indebtedness might entail

an inability to refuseto say No

he said No often

most often he said No to himself quietly honestly quizzing himself if he needed it or wanted it

3:17,  Monday,  18  3. 19

1149,  Twoday,  19  3. 19

Dear cunt or cuntess --

after your batshit blitz of tweets this weekend

                                                 which made you sound like a trained mynah bird rather than a sentient human being  it occurred to me that you may never have enunciated mulled over or even considered one of the tenets of your office the Declaration of Independence:

                                                We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their creator with certain unalienable rights, that among these are life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed. That whenever any form of government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the right of the people to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their safety and happiness.

I quote them hoping you might read(read?) or recite them before you choke to death

during the evening while watching Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Killer,  Monday,  18  9. 19

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoE8pd_C45w

not a good coincidenceif one bought into that kind of horseshithe didnt he poured the last of the black coffee into a mugthe last of the Irish from a bottle of Jameson into a shotglass

fittinghe thought they expired at the same time then done hed be left high and dry  grey ash of a fine fire

what a fire it was

                   he knocked the corned beef and cabbage out of the park after bitching about it for more than two weeks in the runup to St Paddys Day which he latently discovered was also the Feast of Saint Dionysus

hed been cryin that his corned beef wasnt savory

hed been picking brains

he took in some ideas an made them his own

the corned beef cabbage carrots onions potatoes  spiced up with horseradish was sumptuous  or maybe it was Guinnesses and Jamesons or maybe it was maenads who showed upwho rolled up his drive thinking they were actually on a road going up into the hills

perplexed  Maidens he asked 

No. Maenads.

Whats that 

Trust us, it’ll be better if we show you. 

he had been drinking since shortly afternoonafter wriotingafter getting his creativity out as was his practise every morning for more than five years 

                                    Awright Im up for anything Its a celebratory day

they laughed together

                        Anything?

Whynot  my drive is Frosts the road less traveled

the taller blonde smiled quickly  I’m familiar with that poem

Yes smilinghe closed his eyes Yet knowing how way leads on to way I doubted if I should ever come back 

Two roads diverged in a wood and I  I took the one less traveled by                                                   

And that has made all the difference

when he opened his eyes the small blondeher hair curly maybe itd been woven in cornrows earlier stooped across from him as he sat on the sunwashed porch steps

her stooping made him happy

beyond her very large green eyes he could ever-so-subtly look down her blouse enjoy her bralessness

she didnt right herself

she was keenly aware of his eyes 

her keenness honed her nipples aroused them

Then she said are you extending us an invitation, as we have come up your, your road-less-traveled

he looked her in the eyes then looked up at the tall one behind her who tilted her head birdlike  curiously   slowly  deliberately    attractively

he smiled rather large 

                        Maenads whatever that is are welcome

1300,  Monday,  18  3. 19

http://zeroequalstwo.net/the-feast-of-saint-dionysus/ 

https://sabazius.oto-usa.org/dionysus/  

Ben Harper  Amen Omen  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWoafpw0rg4

no  it is no secret  

"It is no secret Trump campaigned on white supremacist ideology, on division and fear," CAIR Executive Director Nihad Awad said in a public statement Friday. "He campaigned against immigrants, Mexicans, against African-Americans, against women, against Muslims. Muslims have received the lion's share of his attacks. During your presidency and during your election campaign, Islamophobia took a sharp rise and attacks on innocent Muslims, innocent immigrants and mosques have skyrocketed. Your words matter. Your policies matter." 

https://www.newsweek.com/new-zealand-muslim-shooter-donald-trump-blame-ties-manifesto-trump-supporters-1365302

our white nationalist racist president cries foul 

                                                  Chicken Little

in light of his words he has nowhere to hide

Yes Drumpf it sucks to be held accountable

1608,  Monday,  18  3. 19

https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/what-s-behind-trump-s-weekend-tweet-storm-1460433475815

the fence between himself and his neighbour his neighbours fence had two breaches in it from the high winds that the rain rode more than three weeks past

the lengths twelve metres between posts were three lengths apart 

the missing northernmost length was inconsequential

it showed their mortared barbecue pit fireplace and chimney

the southern one however exposed their great room their livingdiningkitchen areas to him should he chose to sit on his back porch

which he did

which he took his morning coffee on

which he took his afternoon reading writing letters fruit and tea on

he wasnt going to be shy or change up anything he had been accustom to doing for the six years he lived there

it was their fence

it was their obligation to replace

yet they were casual about it  they were late to removing the collapsed sections and as yet apparently lacked concern for their privacy

if he wished he could stroll bold as day to the property line and stand there watching the goingson inside their home  he could cross the mere twenty metres to their sliding glass door and rap on it to borrow a cup of sugar a cup of flour  not that he would need either

his privacy was inviolate

he considered they might have been more concerned for their daughter

over the years he thought their children were boys

apparently she was the bigger onethe eldest

she was very physical  apparently very tomboyish though not that he knew then 

he knew now

her dance with puberty had inordinately reconfigured her  it seemingly had outrun her mental acuity or conscious reckoning  the sudden loss of her younger girlishness

her tshirts didnt hang straight down

her hips and thighs violated her shorts

when she bounded athletically across the lawn her agents went where they wantedthrowing her offstep

she was not shy or selfconscious

the fence once upon a time helped enforce her modesty

with it downmissing so it seemed also was her modesty

he thought he could use it to incentivise her parents

                                                          they seemed oblivious  

or were oblivious until she began missing the softballs her brother threw to her as they played catch and she ran into his yard casually preening exercising her rising self and sensuality  

                                                                    her girlishness moulting her sexuality burgeoning

he chose not to look away

maybe now theyd repair the fence

more than a wooden fence had been breached

1558,  Sunday,  17  3. 19

1115,  Monday,  18  3. 19

Ben Harper  Please me like you want to  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSamruywO1o

the burger jointwhy he went offered a side of Cascabellas small yellow hot peppers if you wished to have with your hamburger

he wished

although he always felt he was getting away with something when a stranger offered him a kindness suspicious he assumed while always forgetting he was kind and didnt expect anything in return his daughters and girlfriend reminded him

the Cascabella offered notoriety to the hamburgers he failed to see that the additional slices of onion and tomato probably helped too almost a kind of reserved salsa

the peppers were definitely a pick-me-up

it was nice to enhance regular fare making it something more

the cold beers with them didnt hurt matters  they helped make the heat smile

frankly the Cascabella reminded him of the Latina who caught his eye earlier her eyebrows fashioned with dark makeup exquisitelyrather than existentially he kept trying to imagine what she might look like without them although on closer inspectnot that he was inspecting he sawrecognised she had them tattooed she said hybrid feathertouched tattoo of which he hadnt a fuckin clue he didnt even know that was a thing out of the mouths of babes eh

she was definitely a babefit as a fiddlebodyformed to his fondest imagination

she was striking at a distance an downright uncomfortable in the nicest way upclose

it was difficult not to stare

You seem very intrigued with my eyebrows.

I am Although thats not to sayoverall youre very intriguinginticing Id assume youd rather have me eyeball your eyebrows as to your other assets  as wonderful as they are

That’s quite the compliment.

Yes I didnt have to make it up either I just cant help myself Im tryin but I really cant help myself I cant stop looking Im between fascination and mystification 

Youre very Egyptian looking

Im thinking Cleopatra

Im thinking Elizabeth Taylor

Excuse me?

Ohno Nah nahnah You dont know who or what Im referring

No.

Youre killin my buzz youdexcuse me  shit  if you sawif you knew 

Trust meplease  thats an enviable compliment

he liked that she didnt trust him she was immediately at her smartphone  Ohmygoodness, she’s beautiful. Who’s Elizabeth Taylor? Who’s Cleopatra?

Guess Im edumacatin you

Edu ma cating  me?

Educatin though being more playful You seem to me to be someone who enjoys playfulnessbeing playful

You’re spooky.

Not as spooky as you

 

2225,  Friday,  15  3. 19

1326, Saint Dionysus Day – rather than St. Paddy’s Day,  17  3. 19

Jimi Hendrix  Little Miss Strange  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwbdN8v91Y0

I know what he saw by what he painted 

he wasnt unlike him

                      I know what I see what I feel an try to communicatethough imperfectly by words  by what I wriote what I determinefashion with twentysix characters  like musical notes arrested by a score  artistic brushstrokes fingersmudges quillrendered paper  fixed by lines brashcolours or subtly  harrowed expressed incited excited by claylike thickness or vibrancy or dreamy opacity  happy or dismal  our lives mixgenerously anointed trembling throes of black an white 

“When painting a flat landscape,” VanGogh said, “I see eternity. Am I the only one to see it? Existence can’t be without reason.”

“Maybe God made me a painter for people not born yet.”

he drew with words  threw white luminous clouds uprisen like meringue saw yellow dirt unhappyuninhabited shale made drunken vultures  laughed with wrens chirpingdancing with exquisite finches 

                                                                                               he wriote of ruins to happen children that will disappoint odds defied happy fools who mull an those who dumbly electrify 

                                                                                                    because he agreed  Existence cannot be without reason 

maybe his job was to assess assign  reason

                                                   whatever reason meant

he was an unsatisfied nomad a waonderer   an inquisitor 

he looked for truth mucked lieshoping for illuminating kernals  once they were cleansed

   

2314 & 2323 & 2326 & 2328,  Friday,  15  3. 19

1312,  Saturday,  16  3. 19

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt6938828/videoplayer/vi478001945?ref_=tt_ov_vi

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYmK3PYQnGg

he knew things were more lax in California at least the things that laxness should be applied say less conservative more creative not walking in Nazi lockstepmilitary doing exactly as your toldunquestioningly  Who the fuck are you

as a baby he lived in Chicago down from Riverview Amusement Park then as a toddler moved to Norwood Park  and then as a boy moved to the suburbs Des Plaines 

there his house number was 1018  the house east of his was 1014  west was 1022 Riverview addresses were similar as was Norwood

a new structure had been erected next door to a classic 40s building that housed an optometrists office 

that structures address is 5920 the optometrists is 6480 there wasnt three feet between the buildings 

he couldnt begin to elaborate on the businesses located in those three darkened feet

when he pointed it out to his brotherinlaw he said he was mistaken

Excuse me

The 5920 structure is on West Mall. The optometry office is on Palma.

The entry to each is off West Mall

They are.

If the entries ingress their exits egress is off West Mall  why is the optometry office a Palma address

Probably zoned, located that way, a long time ago.

Palma isnt a long street  Runs north and south between Traffic Way and San Jacinto  Theres a schism at Traffic Way Palma jumps eastwha a hundred metres then runs three short blocks south again before deadending on East Mall There is no Palma south beyond East Mall or north beyond San Jacinto

Yes. Correct.

Not odd

No.

I thinks its odd

You think its odd, but you aint from here. his brotherinlaw virtually spent his whole life there

the Midwest was flat for as far as the eye could see prairieland  the West Coast was jammed up by plate tectonics shale was turned on edge in some places nearly ninety degrees 

it was a good place to live to get stoned

                                            an he got fuckedup in more places than he could count unlike his brotherinlaw 

1457,  Thursday,  28  2. 19

1147,  Reggae Friday,  15  3. 19

her text woke him at 0659 Up up and at it as she did approximately every morning Monday through Friday he was her backup 

if she didnt text by 0710 the time he set an alarm for he called hershe never answered  if he was calling her she was already late to the game he followed the telephone call gone to voicemailhe didnt leave one with a text  Move it, sweetcheeks

often he was tempted to reset the alarm for another ten minutes but didnt he figured he wouldnt fall back to sleep in that time anif she hadnt texted him to say she was up hed pop her one more time then her circumstances were beyond what he could dohe did what he could

this morning he was no help

she didnt text

he called at 0710 then promptly fell back to sleep hard

he slept through her 0734 text shit im late 

when he woke it was 0823he could have sworn he just turned onto his hip arranged the pillow under his head and closed his eyes

0710 to 0823 the time gone in a flash

the sunlight in the bedroom changed

it was the only thing that made him look at his cellfonerecognise a text was waiting on him shit im late

Awbrutha shed be up to her eyeballs at work and wouldnt have time to respondnot that he would write her at work she was working it was a boundary he didnt cross people didnt pay other people for them to conduct personal communications on their time

besides

         he had to pick up a rental car at 0900 and it took him a halfhour to walk the distance there

he came off Traffic Way into the alley behind the old renovated hotel three contractors lost their shirts to the project one was still being sought on criminal charges the only reason he got the bid was because he was a local boy done good at least thats how he was portrayedhow he liked to see himself painted his familyan old family in town was politically connected he knew him personally he knew the monkey bit off more than he could chew when he disappeared with threequarters of a million city dollars he wasnt surprised he washowever surprised how much of the community was surprised 

just inside the alley he found a bright shiny silver dollar laying on the mustardcoloured concrete 

he couldnt imagine how anyone walking either last evening or this morning could have possibly missed it  as huge and as bright as day

fifty feet later he found a bright shiny quarter

he was up a buck twentyfive on the day

ten feet more a dime

up a buck thirtyfive

things come in threes

although he was more accustom to deaths coming in threes

still he kept his eyes to the ground

down from the shiny coinsstill behind the hotel he found a wet turd DairyQueen-tipped dark like chocolate pudding

the contrast couldnt have been more stark

definitely an end to a beginning

hed quit looking

he didnt wanna find two more shitshealthy or not

he disturbed himself to wonder if the shit was a dogs the hotel was dogfriendly  funny that it didnt maintain a small grassy park in the immediate vicinity where dogs could shit or it could have been because halfblock away was a sprawling city park or if the shit was human these days people were hardpressed to be responsible dog owners or not be miscreants

to this sense of outrage he was up four – zero 

                                                four for four three times successfully hurling dogshit at dog owners and once hurling shit at the offending miscreant  none of the four wanted to up the ante

Pick up after your dog

Pick up after yourself

they obviously spoke English

he was interviewed by a cop

one of the clutch took exception to his action and called the police with their cellfone

they gave the police a wonderful description of himhis clothing the direction he was walking the rucksack he carried

he gave the cop short shrift

it seemed to him he explained there was a city ordinance against dogs defecating in public and the excrement not retrieved by the dog owner

I think if youll follow up the complaint youll find that their jackets a mess

Just keeping people honest officer

No You cant have my name 

You have theirs

If you need a name for your paperwork A Good Samaritan ought to suffice  now if youll excuse me I have an appointment                   

0847 & 0852 & 0905,  Friday,  1  3. 19

1548,  Thursday,  14  3. 19

Snow White and the Six Dwarves

first and foremost is Flipper  Thom Tillis of North Carolina

Flipper was joined by Colorados Cory Gardner Joni Ernst Iowa John Cornyn Texas Georgias David Perdue  and last and very least Arizonas Martha McSally who was tabbed to finish out Senator John McCains term

1601,  Reggae Friday,  15  3. 19

https://washingtonmonthly.com/2019/03/15/vulnerable-republicans-voted-to-support-trumps-national-emergency/

https://www.politico.com/story/2019/03/14/senate-republicans-trump-national-emergency-vote-1222367

Ya heard the bray an horseshit out of the FAKE PRESIDENT  his Breitbart offering

I did

Anyer take

Nothing to take

“I can tell you I have support of the police, the support of the military, the support of the Bikers for Trump – I have the tough people . . ”

You memorised it

I did if he didnt have the support of the policethe military  the support of the Bikers for Trump wouldnt have been half as funny To be fairaccording to poll numbers he ought to be saying I have mebbe thirty-eight percent support of the policethirtyeight percent . . Bikers for Trump say theyre onehundredthousand members strong  article I read said in their last quarter they had eighteenthousand sixhundred an nineteen dollars in donations eighteennineteen cents a member  Ferocious

1042,  Reggae Friday,  15  3. 19

https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/politics/2019/03/15/trump-deletes-breitbart-post-how-tough-his-supporters-can-get/3172413002/

https://www.dailydot.com/layer8/bikers-for-trump/