he sat in the sauna with the Intent
to meditate the Intent was illkept fat
an slovenly(mutually exclusive) for him meditationdespite
the offputting Intent was to sit in the hotdark an let whatever would wash
across his minddaub fingerpaint watercolour
let it have at it
All
yours baby!
while walking over to the gym he
may likely have sullied what would be his meditative process
he read a passage from DeLillos
White Noise where Wilder the son tells his father Jack What do I know of what I
want What if what I want are just
neurons firings randomly coursing between the hemispheres of my cortex their brightheightened imaginings as they
masturbate that
was his Delillo couldnt have the masturbating
he sat on the cedar bench in the hotdark
after stoking the thermostatkicking up the heat
he glared at the door
at the narrow pane of plexiglass
set in it
then he snappedshut his eyes
the
pane followed him in
he wore it inside his eyes
it quivered like exhausted death then changed from an upright rectangle of soft
amberlight to a sharp defined harrowingblack
with very little effort he turned
it on its side an on its side it shrink
to the size of a censors slat that covered the eyes of once-upon-a-time nudes
he meditated
was the black slat a censors job to mask the
nudes identitythe nudes desire to remain anonymous although he understood the nudes were
exhibitionists he didnt think an
exhibitionist would want to be anonymous
or was the black slat legislated required(queered)
to uphold the National prudery
he meditated
how much he dug those black and
white pictures how the black slat seemed
to add somethingseason its erotic appeal
it did create an complete
anonymity to him
the eyes are the windows to the
soul
snatch those eyes awayblack slat
them he had no idea who a person was it
must be why celebrities wore sunglasses it
wasnt the reason why carpenters wore sunglasses they say they wore them to protected
their eyes from nails sawdust what they didnt
say was that nobody could look inside them and see that when the opportunity
presented itself they watched women undetected
he meditated
he didnt like sunglasses
he didnt wear them
he wondered if hed wear black
slats
Saturday
afternoon, 30 12. 17
1241,
Sunday, 31 12. 17
Michael
Stanley A Friend and Nothing More https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QX7lhumnsS8
