8.2.17



Did you hear the joke about how senior aides to Drumpfs National Security team are pressing for more information regarding Poland readying to invade Belarus?


Its not funny

You have to wonder where theyre getting their information or who is providing them such questionable horseshit

Day-between-Two Ts morning,  8  2. 17
1442 days remain or less

7.2.17







whenever Free Fallin blindsides himsneaks up on him over a P A or a wandering radio it nearly turns him inside outfucks him up for the pain he has to catch his breath with both claws so it cant rise out of his chest crawl into his throat and choke him  make him croak and sob

it had for nearly 20 years


when Free Fallin caught him he had to consciously sidestep it pull it by its tail and yank it back down inside him stuff it with a blunt ramrod let it loose in the dark labyrinth living inside him  he snatched away the ball of yarn it tried to secret to use to find its way out again  savagely he crossed his fingers hoping that the hoary Minotaur would find it and unmercifully render it limb from limb so its flung parts could not find one another again and reassemble his heartache
and heartbreak





                                                                              two times now


when you are young and believe you have found your great loveyour one love   and then you are forced to survive her bitter deathbecause you do not die  you do not believe it is possibleit is fantasy that you might find a second great love
a second impermeable love who flies on what you mistook as waxed Daedalus wings because she could not possibly withstand the bright hot sun of your first loves memory  only to realise that her wings are true  and real  and not intricate fabrications   you gasp    you weep     who should have a second chance at love
certainly not you

but you did

you want to write their names in the sky


your second great love dies


                                              gonna free fall out into nothing

                                                             gonna leave this world for awhile


they were good girls

they freely shared their lives with you  and now you have only their fierce memories to hold(you want to hold them) and share(you want to share only with them)                                

they are true and real

                 as true and real as your heart becomes heavy  as it aches and breaks and always always catches you unprepared



you free fall(no one can catch you)
 



1910,  Saturday,  4  2. 17
0603,  Sunday,  5  2. 17

1443 days remain or fewer

Johnny Cash  I Wont Back Down  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N8i5NLyXZdc

5.2.17




the old torqued twisted tree  itd take two men to embrace her trunk  a trunk cowed by Nature that fashioned it nearly flat its first five seven feet before she abruptly reared and went up rightangle into the sky to mingle with her kind and her neighbours crowns which grew furthur up the creek bank  Cautiously he thought     


the old tree stood under the winter rain in the swollen surging creek  and while her uppermost roots were swept naked of soil fallen leaves debris and careless litter they mirrored her stark overhead branches 
she was unashamed and unembarrassed

her hard taproot went deeper than the sniveling upstart water table 

she was unshakeable  


she had withstood more than a hundred years of weather and whatever the planet threw at her



growing gamely behind her directly east was a sapling(and if one had any kind of imagination they might see he as a hardy devotee)  he stood in the broad protective wake of his master

the younger had its beginning in recent decades as water became scarce  we suffered more droughts  but for his Providence -- if you would – he grew ramrod straight and tall nearly as tall as she

he believed she was a she – his evidence after all was the like-sapling 

when the creek water was rampant and might have uprooted the younger her queer low trunk deflected the punishing water round him


walking the dry creekbed he recognised the pair many years ago 

he could also admire them from the overlook of a concrete bridge built in ‘21

the gnarled tree was hard to miss

she looked like a boats cutwater in the Spring if it rained

the timid second made him laugh  it was a nervous skinny tree that kept awkwardly to her shadow while the sun set



today though  he was very grateful for the pair
  
                          the homeless mans dead body pinwheeled in the deepcut channel in its aerated turbulence and slosh rolling over and over and when face up smiling a nearly imperceptible smile  the knife wound at his throat
         and when the creek went right and the mans cat-fed weight and inertia forced him left her weathered bow tossed him back into the channel and the sapling slapped away his outreached arms as if saying Keep to your way
No berth here 

the dead man spun around and tumbled around the treed bend


that was the last he saw of the homeless man who he sent on his way  and since he didnt read the local paper or watch television it was also the last he heard of him

though the true last he heard of him was his sharp surprised bark and the slight redbubbled gurgle



he had fawned and always been fond of that unseemly pair in the creekbed

but nevermore than on that rainy day
   



1616,  Monday,  16  1. 17
0901,  Super Bowl Sunday,  5  2. 17

1445 days remain or less