words often turned his head like
good looking women
and words that yanked his head
around like those rare times by even
more attractive women
he couldnt help but submit
it would be against his nature not to and if there is one thing he
learned very early as a boy it was to submit
an elderly artist he befriended
advised him
some young men when asked who their male role model was growing up often a
kneejerk response
they replied their fathers
in the company of those young
men he really wondered then wondered out
loud
if in fact their role
models were their fathers
his wasnt
and as often as he heard or made the question himself it seemed increasingly so he was an odd bird who did not
and
he wondered if they werent just riffing because others may have spoken before them
or they didnt wish to seem ungrateful to their fathers because their fathers
had supported them as boys and teenagers
not to see their fathers as their
role models was sacrosanct
even if he aligned the question
with the preface your mother and father
chose to have a baby and you happened to
be their child
few budged
and
even more became irate with him accusing
him very nearly of patricide
What kind of Man are you they demanded
being he was eminently confrontational
he went to his very shallow wishing well
for his two replies An honest man
My
own man
it seemed fanatical how some men threw
themselves at him because they felt he slighted them
when all he did was answer frankly
what they asked him
his artist friend then
also advised him to expect the anger or resentment
but to always always
remain true to exactly who he was
there was less trouble in that
than to be inauthentic
in light of this much walked path bearing few other footprints besides his
his head got ripped around
axiom
[ak-see-uh m]
noun
1. A self-evident truth
that requires no proof
so perhaps its the ‘see’ part of its pronunciation which alludes to
truth requiring no proof
and sounded remarkably like a
soundbite or peeling bumper sticker
he couldnt remember the last time
outside of mathematics he met anyone who uttered axiom
not a soul
he was attracted to its [aks]
part
as he was attracted to sharp
brutal implements that were strictly no nonsense and forged to do a particular
job
do it well and could be used again and again
if it
became dull it could be worked with a
steel or grindstone honed and sharpened bright to be used again proficiently(when was the last time hed heard
that word from someones mouth)
he was something of an [aks]
probably why he was attracted in
the first place
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