he looked over at buddy hes so concerned about paedophilia might be because he was a teacher once and had been privatelypiqued

                  priests privatelypiqued  let their freak flags fly

    hes subdue whenever he points out an attractive child

                                                              Shell be a heartbreaker when she growsup

as a teen he dated a string of heartbreakers

                                                they   yes

broke his

but not before some intense foreplay

                                       played right up to the doorstep but resisted neither wanted to get knockedup

he had rubbers

                   but

his father confided that his youngest brother sixteen years his junior   rubber failed

                                                                                           Lesson learned

Coud be paedophilick came at him out of the bluealways better that way always so freakin delicious  eyeballs bulge

I think we ought to get in on tha

panicked What? adored his alarm

Don judge Gimme a sec to explain

                                        Its brilliant

No harm no foul no jail time no goinround a neighbourhood knockin on doors Hiya neighbour Have to let you know Im a sex offender

                               threw him that sex offended

I don’t think so.

Hear me out

                  Brilliant

The things you think are brilliant.  Christ.

No Christ  A possibly Jaysus

                                Were late to the game Kids children have beat us to the punch was hoping for a glimmer of interest not that proverbial lookin at a dead fish look of his

    Children are at it

Heard of Instagram

I’ve heard.

Part an parcel of Meta Friend of Facebook

I have.

Have you heard of chatbots  Chat  Bots

Bots?

Robotish

             Online chatting

Awright. tha was his buddy liberated it used it more than him a wee irritating  he actually thinks he coined it

    abruptly Continue.  was also his GO

Never guess the name of a chatbot

No. Don’t imagine I could.

Ya woudnt

                 Submissive school girl

You coud finally get your freak on in the privacy the intimacy of your own home

                                                                                                          grinned nodded

    

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Elton John  All the Young Girls Love Alice  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQBoetp2GRQ

he tried to pronounce it in its native accent   butchered it

                                                             as he butchered Spanish French Italian Irish Scottish  East Indian

he quit askin him to stop

                           instead laughs wholeheartedly at his attempts  untampeduntrammeled gaiety

What’s so funny?

You

I'm funny?

Your accents shit

                      Any idea wha tha is

How peopl . .

. . You

         How you say not they

They woudnt understand your pronunciationwha the fuck you uttered

                                                                              Although

I have to admit I enjoy the phonaesthetics of a string of Na Zdrowie Anything tha helps offset abolish belittle Tolkiens cellar door Im for

    As you well know

Im sorry you dropped your string unaware of your contribution

I did, didn’t I?

Unfortunately

Is it curious how quickly you responded?

Dog on a bone man dog on a bone

                                           I resent it

Passionately

Passionately.

Ja

        Wha are you passionate about

I’d have to give that some thought.

Friend

         Donbother

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1132,  Saturday,  23  8. 25

he didnt agree

but buddy did

                  A complex brain disease.

    Complex  Brain  Disease

Are you mocking me?

You  Not youwhoever cuz youll not remember where you heard it saw it read it   Them

                                                                                               Im mocking pronounsbecause remarkably  thas all you ever have

No not you

It is an addiction. 

 

You have no sympathy.

not one to waste words shook his head no

None?

shook his head again

scrutinizing himeyeing him Why?  People are sufferin . .

. . Suffering an excuse

                          Pure unadulterated uncut not stepped on cause an effect

That’s harsh.

Not so

Not so. trying his hand at mockery  but one has to be susceptible

                                                                        Are you going to tender a defense?

I have a question

A question?

saw that sentence in his head disliked its redundancy  question ending with a questionmark  Yes

Routine

 

Ask.

I did

Routine?

Ja

   Whas a routine  Ritual

You know what they are.

A fixed  nicehuh fixed  program sequence of actions  regularly followed

                                                                             Also an addiction

Not an addled brain

    

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the old man upset him disturbed him

he was amid adream alive action Paprika

                                              Doctor Atsuko Chiba

DC Mini

          a device intended to help psychiatric patients

its technology allowed users to enter and explore their dreams

    the old man

                     fixated

watched a sea turtle butchered in a tuna purse seiner hopper

                                                                so engrossed he began fingeringhandling the turtles entrailsscooped out an eye from its severed head with a serving spoon then turnedwalked into throngs of people on the wharf who moved among fishmongers selling from twowheeled handcarts and truckbeds

lurching from one unsuspecting group to the another he yelled Animal eye. Animal eye. thrusting it at them relishing his sudden notoriety his sudden  power      

he  unable to walk away  his irate dreamedself came up behind the old man banged his elbow  the eye flopped onto the wooden planks  collapsed on itself looking like  an enormous raw broken egg

the old man turned angrily to confront him spit at him he sidestepped it missed  Ass he cried Its a turtles eye call it wha it is

                     thinking to himself Say what things are

spoon still in hand the old man transformed it into a jambiya dagger

                                                                         in his haste lungingslashing at him he threw himself off balance staggered fell onto his belly where withouthesitation he drove his boot into the bridge of the old mans nose collapsing his head  it looking like an enormous raw broken egg

melee ensued

                women shrieked

men behind them who did not see the old man attack him rushed forward intent on capturing him

he snatched up the jambiya waved it slashed left slashed right backed them off thwarted them momentarily and in that instancebackpedaled  fled

the mob chasing him

    if he hadnt been able to fly he wouldnt have escaped

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0903,  Saturday,  23  8. 25

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PIUqozzyW2k

Service Model  Adrian Tchaikovsky

                                          credit where credits duehowever

he was certain the sentence wasnt meant a sentence for comedians

                                                                          maybe bad ones

wheres the old Vaudevillian hook dragem kickin an screamin offstage

wasnt going to hold his breath

 

Tchaikovsky

               It had a plain humanoid chassis, grey plastic and a blank face, not even the suggestion of features. Whatever adornments it had once worn, whatever distinctive look it had carried into children’s parties or comedy routines, only the bare name was left.

grey  plastic  comedians

                             wouldnt wish that on his worst enemyhadnt any  beauty of hermitic ascetic living

neither communicable

he liked dark comedians

                            jokes told heard  groaned firstlaughed maybe the laugh drowns out the groan

Carlin  Hicks   Marc Maron

 

    religion would do well to suffer some comedy

great venues

acousticallyfashioned

broad pulpits

occasional runways

                      made mingling with the masses easier

some had moats

                   runways actually drawbridges

the congregants faithful  trusting

                                     fail to eyeball their confineswhy he didnt like church

every one he had a legitimate reason to attend had him sit his back  to the door

                                                                                       hed stand on the aisle

one or another Station of the Cross glaring down over his shoulder

he wouldnt sit in any establishment with his back to the door

long longago he determined since he has no choice but to go he wanted to see death coming

                                                                                                   no sneaky World War II Jap shit

                        hed no sooner fall for someone looking past him over his shoulder What the hell is that? an turn to look than if someone approached him with a subpoena called him by his name

   glances  a stranger

acts like he didnt hear

they blew their cover

he waltzes on by

                   hes John Doe

he has to face the door

    stupid doesnt

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I cant keep track of time

hed written 2202 on the prior pagehad a thought

thought seemed lingering

went to write I cant keep track of time and time-noting as he did it was 2206

                                                                                  felt a mightylong four minutes

mariachi flushed like bats at dusk 

                                    Ya know why

I don

We witnessed it up close

                             Your brain informed your body you havent long to live so it gathered your senses an not only did they conspire to slow time

people observing   Would you look at him. He looks like he’s moving in slow motion.

                                                        They actually won  Prevailed

They slowed time for you

    Im the beneficiary of Lucretius De Rerum Natura First Century BCE   Nature is chaos

                                                                                                 A chaos of inexplicable and contradictory phaenomena

Riot restored  Tranquillised   Composed

Adam Smith wrote

                      . . . while we have been endeavouring to represent all philosophical systems as mere inventions of the imagination, to connect together the otherwise disjointed and discordant phaenomena of nature, have insensibly been drawn in, to make use of language expressing the connecting principles of this one, as if they were the real chains which Nature makes use of to bind together her several operations.

    an assault on the objectivity of science

 

was Smith sincere in his provocation

he thoughtchuckled louder than usual

point of contention

worked for him

he was dying

    hes been dying since birth

no sweat

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eyes slipping  doing what they want

                                       Hey man   See  anew

Donbe a pill

A pill  Annoying

                     Youre really mine

Yah

       Come now  seal the deal

Fetishist looked funnyhuh Silent Catastrophes   Catastrophes looked funny too   Wha did you see

they were lookin mighty superior

    Awright  Ill admit it

                             Fetishlust  Castrate trophies

Fetish   Again

I blinked to clear  youse

                           Fetishflushed occurred

Castrate trophies really threw ya

Ja

     I thought Idve seen tha on my own without youse going rogue off the reservation

   Reservation   Insensitive

OhferChristssake

                       Bored

Nah nah

             Our condolences

We thought with the deaths of two people dear to you you might  lose sight   of whaya usually command rule lord over

    A wellness check

Wellness

Yah

Thank you

              I appreciate your concern  consideration

Eventually I woud have

Weve no doubt absolutely no doubt

                                         Might say we missed you

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1033,  reggaefriday,  22  8. 25

Heart  Crazy On You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZ7inhwScSQ

have to like Freud quite the Jew though he was partial to Jung  . . . it is natural “a certain degree of fetishism is

[. . .] habitually present in normal life, especially in those stages of it in which the normal sexual aim seems unattainable, or its fulfilment prevented.”

accordingly W G Sebald the fetishistic tendency only becomes pathological when the fulfilment of the sexual goal proves, by comparison with the previously imagined bliss, to be a bitter disappointment.

slipped into fetishism before he had coffee  it was still percolating

                                                                         Freud & Sebald reiterating what he believed common sense

Are you kiddin’? Common sense?  What you believe common sense isn’t held by the majority of people.

Comon Yaneed to quit speakin for everyone an speak only only   Im beating this drum all the time speak only for yourself

                    My concept defies yours  Whas true

I didn’t say that.

Then wha do you say

                         Ill quote Sebald again  . . . fulfilment of the sexual goal proves, by comparison with the previously imagined bliss, to be a bitter disappointment.

The epitome of common sense

                                  The actual sex act pales in comparison to imagined gymnastic sex

Yea or Nay

One or the other

    Are you trying to say that imagined sex is better than actual sex?

I didnt say tha

                  Comparatively   A bitter disappointment

Cant have the classic orgy  you – me – me an me – you – you

                                                                 I cant have sex with my girlfriend doubledup

Or she with mes

Probably kill us if we coud

Yasee  understand   the disappointment

 

I don’t know why I bother talking to you. You’re ridiculous.

If you didnt thered be no ridiculousness in your life

                                                        Youd be buried with your inside-the-box life

Or cremated  Distilled  Blendered  Mycelium bag hypae-denatured

Whaevers your bit

    Ya truly don believe if not bitter   a disappointment nonetheless

I can’t say. I haven’t thought about it.

Howbout this

               Next time youre masturbatingimagining some unattainable gal  Think

Tellya wha

  

Sydney Sweeney

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Stones  Angry  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mEC54eTuGw

Ja Ja  once upon a time yacoud call a woman a homosexual   Not no more

                                                                                 Shes a lesbian

Unless pronouns she prefers to be called something else

a scent of disdain Lesbian. She’s just trying to be more like a man.

point of contention

Karl Krause

                The bleakest prospect for a fetishist is having to do with the whole woman.

point of contention

W G Sebald

                . . . afford(s) an insight into the pathological reciprocity of love and coldness [Liebe und Lieblosigkeit – lovelessness] which appears to constitute the holy state of matrimony.

point of contention

            . . . laying bare the impossibility of a continual renewal of intimacy, presents, by contrast with  the earlier ideal, a truly appalling degree of estrangement.

point of contention

he thought about it

                     he had buddies whose girlfriends chewed gum

same girlfriends the twoanhaf years their relationships lasted  he left  yet during that time not one of his girlfriends chewed gum

if they needed to chew on something he gave it to them

point of contention

he thought

             the only thing uglier regarding human anatomy than a penis  is a scrotum

 

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muttered Project to himself  shook his head like an old lion

                                                                was contending with the death of Ken Bruen  his favourite author

death of his barber Milo who he had seen not a month earlier  he was struggling  cancer   struggled four years

his little sister went ten

though she was much younger

                                       Project  The fuck I hope I wasnt

though he had his suspicions

 

he was invited to a gathering for an acquaintances birthday

the acquaintance invited him

                               Seven this Wednesday Black Sheep biergarten Havin’ brats, fixings, potato salad, simple.

I’d like to have you there.

Wha do you drink

No gifts.

            It’s a few guys, you’re familiar with more than a couple.

spot on

bakers dozen

intimate

          should that term fit apply to guys

 

inside a couple hours it willowed down to five

                                                      Gents

heads up eyes glancedround

I have a question

curiosities were piqued

    Has anyone tried to make a project of you or you of someone

                                                                       Askin  I warned my wife not to

I wasnt bendy

Think she tried anyways

I had to have been her biggest frustration

Kiddo  I told her when we started dating

                                              Whaya see is whaya get

he knew that two who remained there remarriedknew they had said  they were going to try and help their wives come along  trim up  get fit

asif in church in unison they said  Project?

No, no, I wouldn’t say so.

Me neither.

Not at all.

Project.  I doubt it, it wouldn’t have gone over well for either of us.

I’m sure I don’t know what you mean.

                                                  though looked like he had his fingers crossed behind his back

Me neither Not at all lied

was a shitty game  Texas Holdem

                                        they knew his hand  he showed it

chuckled to himself

                    Listen man  thas why their acquaintances  Dinner  Beer  Tasty

Cost you zip part of an evening

You finished ahead

                   Thanks guys  I was curious is all

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