muttered Project to himself  shook his head like an old lion

                                                                was contending with the death of Ken Bruen  his favourite author

death of his barber Milo who he had seen not a month earlier  he was struggling  cancer   struggled four years

his little sister went ten

though she was much younger

                                       Project  The fuck I hope I wasnt

though he had his suspicions

 

he was invited to a gathering for an acquaintances birthday

the acquaintance invited him

                               Seven this Wednesday Black Sheep biergarten Havin’ brats, fixings, potato salad, simple.

I’d like to have you there.

Wha do you drink

No gifts.

            It’s a few guys, you’re familiar with more than a couple.

spot on

bakers dozen

intimate

          should that term fit apply to guys

 

inside a couple hours it willowed down to five

                                                      Gents

heads up eyes glancedround

I have a question

curiosities were piqued

    Has anyone tried to make a project of you or you of someone

                                                                       Askin  I warned my wife not to

I wasnt bendy

Think she tried anyways

I had to have been her biggest frustration

Kiddo  I told her when we started dating

                                              Whaya see is whaya get

he knew that two who remained there remarriedknew they had said  they were going to try and help their wives come along  trim up  get fit

asif in church in unison they said  Project?

No, no, I wouldn’t say so.

Me neither.

Not at all.

Project.  I doubt it, it wouldn’t have gone over well for either of us.

I’m sure I don’t know what you mean.

                                                  though looked like he had his fingers crossed behind his back

Me neither Not at all lied

was a shitty game  Texas Holdem

                                        they knew his hand  he showed it

chuckled to himself

                    Listen man  thas why their acquaintances  Dinner  Beer  Tasty

Cost you zip part of an evening

You finished ahead

                   Thanks guys  I was curious is all

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   sighed  This conversation is getting a little strange.

Arent they all

she shrugged

                    Stranger?

I don think so   stroked his moustache beard

                                                    Weve had stranger

Im think how I parlayed it is throwinya off

People usually presumecorrect me if Im wrong  presume opportunity to be a good thing

    Not to be suffered

Suffer the opportunities

Regrets

 

 

Have I regrets?

From opportunities youve suffered

                                     Entitlements you enjoyed growingup mine pale in comparison Im curious hence I asked

Are yo . .

. . Ducked bullets

                        Knowingly

Or regret

 

You usually say.

                   When you ask me questions you usually say first.

Ja

    No

No regrets?

Ive given it thought  Only one nears itbut didnt seal the deal

                                                                        Going to college

You thought you may have regretted going to college?

Thought

                Then decided nah

I cant say I regret anything

                                Once out the door up the road don check the rearview mirror

You

Opportunities suffered

 

she shrugged again

                         Such a queer way of putting it.

Yeah.

           But maybe because . . . . I’m . a woman?

 

 

 

What do you think?

Im not

            Thas why I asked

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. . . so  we can agree

buddy shrugged

Whas tha mean

                   Open your mouth an say

I don’t know.

You disagree theyre spectral

    I said I don’t know.

From out your mouth  Sativa an upper Indica downer Hybrid in between

No.  I think not. I think along the lines of them being situational.

                                                                     Getting what you want for the moment.

Situational   For the moment

                                      Gimme a break

Theres a spectrum yes or no

                                  Thas wha Im getting at

I don’t know.

smiled slyly  But  you have an opinion

                                                 You have opinions even when you don know wha youre talking about

Careful.

Warning me

                 Arya nuts

Weve had tha discussion

Handed you your ass 

Whereof thereof

What’s your point?

Types are spectral

                     Id suggest full-spectrum the strongestwhaever end of the line you wanna place it

Left or right

Dancing Middling  Isolates

Other end are distillates  Focused effect though lacking the complexity the entourage effect of full-spectrum

 

    Can we agree

You’re throwing an awful lot of terms at me, I . .

. . You like how they taste rather than wha they do or are

I like what they do.

closed his eyes

                    You like  lemme count the ways

Clementine key lime kiwi black cherry white grapefruit melon peach watermelon green apple blue raspberry peach mango tangerine pomegranate

                                         Chocolate

opened his eyes

                   Me

    You?

Pineapple habanero

Yes. You. Little too warm for me.

Youve said  Bottomline

Bottomline?

Taste  Not inciting a particular mood

 

I could probably agree with that.

                                          Are you being critical of me?

Hellno I woudnt be getting high if it werent for you

                                                          Dondoubt for a single moment I don appreciate your generosity

 

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https://www.exploresherpa.com/blogs/our-blog/full-spectrum-vs-isolate-edibles-which-one-is-better

https://food52.com/story/27111-best-cannabis-edibles

Don Rogall  Pulp Jazz – Doom Noir  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Z1MCZd3aLg

Yeah. You know.  EDP.

he didnt know

they were talking on the phone twothousand miles apart

                                                              EDP  Wha am I supposed to make of tha

You know.

I don

       Ill assume its an acronym used liberally in the Midwest

Ive no ideanot a clue

Obviously it occurred to you within the context of what we were talking about

Yeah. You said demented.

I said dementia

                  The illness  unfortunate disability

Whas EDP

Jeez man.  It's an emotionally disturbed person.

Ah  Hence your demented 

You meant it in the sense of someone acting demented not actually suffering dementia

Yeah.

Anyone come to mind

Yeah.

        Let’s not go there.

No

    But your EDP fits  If the shoe fits wear it

Yeah.

Learn something new every day

You think you’ll retain it?

No

Because it's an acronym?

Ja

    Theyre useless I don maintain useless things  Not in my skull

You say an emotionally disturbed person Ill be on it with you

Otherwise, no.

Ja

    Sorry. I thought everybody knew EDP is.  

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cat owner(s?)

bemused look on his face   hint

                                        So.    Explain to me . why?

Comin in out of the blue

                            Your expression suggests were departing our conversation

Unintended consequences

Either not thorough

                       Or

Coudnt give two shits

 

We are. Why do you say you’re a masochist?

Because I am

                 Be aware

An answer persists in my I am

    Pain.

I toldya before Im a masochist my mother was a sadist

She wasn’t, really?

You never met her  Youll have to take my word for it

                                                         Thasaid

Was our relationship

For furthur clarification

                           Pain

Id rather it physicaltake it  I refuse emotional pain

    Not a cutter

Cutter?

Please

           No

I’ve really no . . . whereof thereof.

Good plead

                Look at you

I believe selfharm my masochism is selfinflicted only in the sense tha where someone else steps away I step up step in

                 Selfharm

Methinks cutting beats suicide

The need to feel   something

Pain keeps one present

I don mind it

    My answer earlier

I am

Yes.

I

An accountable

Masochist

    Why my cats are feral have nails

I woudnt have a dog

 

You have a dog

I do.

Look how nonmasochistic you are

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he knew who

buddy was floundering

he wouldnt throw him a life preserver ring

                                                   not just  yet

Come on . . . help me here.

You know who youre talking about

I do.

No rush no hurry

                      No harm no foul

You knowdon’t you?

I do

Then say.

    Don be impatient  Itll come to you

Hes Italian

He is.

What’s his name?

Weve read all his books except White Holes

Picture them in your mind

Turnem over in your hands

Seven Brief Lessons on Physics

The Order of Time

Yes, yes.

Look atem

    Guido.

Jaysus

          Guido

Giuseppe?

Ohgawd  Carlo

Rovelli.

Atta boy

         Giuseppe

That’s Italian.

Thas a restaurant you frequent

    It is.

You remembered Rovelli

After you gave away the store.

I didnt

         You were looking at the books  Carlo was a trigger

I should have known.

You did

            More accurately

Ya shoud have remembered

Im tryin to bolster tha

                           You need to be patient

Not if you know.

But you know Ill know

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ice cream

favourite

            Once upon a time Baskin-Robbins 31 Flavors  Daiquiri Ice  sherbert   butter pecan  I  C  E  when he was a kidbefore he could spell or read his parents took them out for I  C  E

he didnt bring it up

                       buddy did     buddy

an I  C  E addict

plus toppings galore  think caloricgalore

 

How do you do that?

Not eat ice cream

Yeah.

I don think about itdon walk the refrigerated aisles at the grocery store for anything except frozen vegetables  usually shelled edamame cut okra

I‘ll acknowledge your will power.

Its not will power if one doesnt think about it

    Alright.

               Then I’ll celebrate your won’t power.

Wont  Clever

              But again not thinking of somethinganything negates any power whasoever or hold over someone

An unharmful ignorance

                           No unintended consequences

Unlik . .

. . Unlike?

    Ja

Could I complete your thought?

Am I tha obvious

Transparent.

Have at it

Unlike AI.

Correct

         Got to love it when an app Ive only heard about this  when an app performs some function its programmer did not design or anticipate anwhen asked how the event happened not only don they knowthey have no idea but  they also have no intention of learning determining why

    Id call tha malpractice

Leaves people who use it practising malpractice

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Overtly broad Id agree but difficult to debate   antithetical to our historic human species our human nature

The end justifies the means

Leave aside morality

Its been left aside

Any means?

Any an all

             One can appreciate the intent of morals 

Twothousandsixteen Michelle Obama

                                          When they go low, we go high.

Those days are longgone

We go to meet them

Beat them there

Beatem senseless

    Though one coud argue sense has longago left the building

I can’t agree.

Praytell

I can’t cast my morals aside.

Can put them downremember where you leftem

Pickem up again after

                        If a plausible after exists when they can be reclaimed  possessed

Idyllic

Currently idiotic

You’d set yours aside?

My ethics mean more

I think you’re confused.

                         What is moral is an internal code. Ethics, is externally imposed.

Be honest

            Who makes up my clan

Clan? You?

              You’re a freak, a one-off.

I agree

Thereby according to your happy Venn diagrams my ethics subsumes morals  Anfurthur  your internal morals internal code  Questionable  I believe the Ten Commandments are fundamentally a moral code informed from without

Form  shape   behavior

                            Behavior  How you conduct yourself

    I act without concern of what others might think my conduct

 

 

Id recommend it

If offended I offend

      

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I like proportionality

That’s bland, undescriptive.

                                  Where ya goin’ with that? 

    You

I’m uncomfortable agreeing unless I know the impetus of your remark.

I have impetus

she smiled damn those dimples

                               We know not a damn thing comes out of your mouth that hasnt ricochetted, rebounded, banked off the insidesurface of your skull, penetrated your brain.

Aww  How nice of you to say

                                 Yes  Theres a cause to my effect

I was wondering wha it woud look like if it were a womans body

A woman’s.

               I’m assuming, physical proportions?

Id say thas all tha matters but I know you better than to insist

                                                                    Butif you woud  try to imagine

Am I going to be . . . disappointed . . dismayed?

    I am

Might sppose I need some companysome  comfort

incredulous A shoulder to cry on?

Not necessarily

Gather more bees with honey.

                                chuckled  I’m not keen on flies. Never know where they were last. 

he laughed

               Lets call it company

Lets call it witness

Witness?

             Will this be dark?

Know me to be bright an shiny  Sunny

No.

     If you were I might not recognize you.

Though you do have gay moments.

I do

    Awright. I’ve prepared myself.

                                       A woman’s proportions.

Anif I may before I say  Ive always been terribly fond of your proportions.

Honey?

A dab

I’ll take it.

 

Proportionality

   

                     Imagine what a womans body woud proportionally look like as to compare Gazan Palestinian deaths to Israelis

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