he heard parabola as he woke

                                   reminded him  Rosebud    Citizen Kane

couldnt remember the last time he heard  either

Rosebud  Kanes childhood sled

parabola  high school math

                              type of a curve made by an object  a hardball  thrown up in the air and it falls to the ground landing elsewhere

symmetric

Emma  math class  told him his face was symmetric

                                                        he blushed actuallyblushed  he liked Emma

didnt pursue her

she might have liked if he did

he didnt find outwas shy till senior year  then all hell broke loose

zip confidence went overt overdrive crazed

    he survived a winter hi-speed highway rollover that killed two grievouslyinjuried two  he made it out without a scratch

                   years after he quit going to churchbelieving in God

maybe He was throwing him a bone

he didnt bite

 

How do you think that happened?

Wasnt my time  Im partial to cats

                                      Nice to be aroundgrounded  part of a brethren  feral cattery

Brethren?  Cattery?

Nine lives

             I believe I have two  possiblythree left

Are you serious?

Hey  You asked me how that happened 

0400,  Wednesday,  4  6. 25

2007,  Wednesday

Beyond the Ghost  Hearing Voices  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyhEin2Olvo 

Joe.

                           Invidious.

steelyeyes Pardon me

You get it?understand.

Youre fuckin hilarious Think Im dense

You? Dense?   No.

                      What do you understand?

Understand

              Methinks not youre throwin awayI assume  your ridiculous penchant for nicknames no matter how well deserved

                           Wha do you understand

It fits.

It does

         Shoehorns need not apply

You’re not going to say?

No  I know

              Knock yourself out

Who knows  Maybe youll impress someone  Of the opposite sex

 

    Likely to arouse or incur resentment or anger in others.

Lifted out of the dictionary

                             Gonnabe tough to shorten four syllables into somethingNah I almost said clever

But thad be like mixin oil an water

    Regarding invidious, or us.

Tacenda

            Youll recall

Was just this afternoon

this year, ’25

1916,  Wednesday,  4  6. 25

Ingested  Invidious  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmFLFvlC7_k

You mean titillate or irritate

They're two different things.

I disagree Wha irritates titillates

For instance?

Really

    Yeah. You demand examples explanations out of me all the time. Shoe’s on the oth . .

. . Other foot Yafuckin kiddin me  I gotta spin my wheels reminding you

Evidently.

Anal Perineum  Digitally stimulated or with ones tongu . .

. . Shaddup.

Irritated

Coud be irritated Meaning annoy make angry make impatient its first definition  Second  Biology  Physiology  Stimulate To produce an active response  Third Pathology Annoying  Abnormally excite make sensitive

Shaddup now

My disagreement noted  Understood

                                           I irritate you

It got me hot

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The Power Station  Some Like It Hot  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYOFX5T90zw

they constantlycontradicted each other

frustrated  How you must think.

Ya don wanna know  Nonstop

                                 Watchin True Detectives first season one character the others partner asks  Did you sleep?

they reply  I don’t sleep. I dream.

A fair assessment of me

                          Inside my head a Mariachi battle of the bands playing at once or the innards a carnival mirrored Fun House

You woudnt want it coudnt handle it

Practise

Ive a lifetime of practise

Sounds like it hurts.

Not so much

               If pained Id suggest commiserate with your son an daughterinlaw chiding you  the era of parent pushback

Generational

I enjoy how they come after youpull no punches

                                                   But theyre adults too  Hence commonground

They don’t come after you, you’re their uncl . .

. . I didnt raise your son They also know tha in their absence I put the screws to ya keep you warmedup from when they visit you visit

You realise that’s ganging up.

Gangin not necessary

                        Kinda like Batteries Arent Included  Goes without sayin  Tacenda

What is that?

Latin Things best left unsaid matters passed over in silence Silencio  Look at me a fuckin singular word polyglot

Rather than take exception enjoy the ribbin  We cant laugh at ourselves weve no right to make fun or laugh at others

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Keep it upya keepup hawkeyein keep listenin for errors listenin too acutely  mishear  mangle wha I said  which I didnt say

Oh you said.

his chin set mouth hardened sounded like Youre lyin  he beat men or got beat for that

                                                                            Were friends  or friendly

This may be tough to hear

Youre the last person I woud have repeat to anyone wha I say  Ya hear whaya wanna hear

Keepup this bullshit Ill bring tape an a cassette recorder so when we talk you can hearIll fuckin transcribe it if necessary you can hear wha was actually said not distilled by your ears sifting through your brain

Seems a theme

A theme. What do you mean?

    he waved the back of his hand as a magician might

                                                             Wha do ya think I mean

I’m sure I don’t know.

You press points  I makeem

                              If you made points wed more easily conversebut  youre tightlipped for whaever reason reasons

Degrees of separation.

Thas abrupt  Whaofem

I mentioned twopointthreesix degrees of separation.

                                                         You laughed.

I did

I was making a point.

A hilarious point  An inaccurate point

                                        Six  Where did the twopointthree preface come from 

That’s what I heard or read.

From who from where

I don't recall.

Wrong  Cant support it with evidence nonsense

                                                   We agree were factbased  Verify who where

If I can’t remember, how can I?

Research  If yacant remember ya shoudnt have said Wittgenstein Whereof Thereof

                                                                                              Im sceptical

You insist you are

I coudntwoudnt let tha fly

as a matter of fact It’s twopointthreesix.

    I disagree

                 The premise is based on peopleperson to person  Whos a pointthreesix person

It’s based on averages.

                         You understand averages . . . don’t you?

I do However I don divvy people up into pieces

Averages.

Fine

     Introduce me to a pointthreesix individual

Youll take my breath away

Arguments arent fashioned by opinions

Like assholes   Everyone has one

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evidently   was awfullyiffy

                               haste not only makes wastealso makes for  surprisingly  an improbable fleshwound  he pinned a knife with his hip as it fell from the counter to the cabinet beneath after jabbingmissing its slot in the knifeblock

                                           fallingclattered on the counter

fell to the floor

under him was shy

    he was readying to feed her october and bomber his cats

pinned it with his hip

a slight slice deemed no stitches necessary

                                               coldwet compress  dishrag  that he held in place with a bungeecord wrap

he fed the cats indoor and out washed their dishes put down freshwater groundmade a pot of black coffee checked the wound   it slowed to oozingas he said

                                                         a fleshwound

could have been worse

                           say

emasculating

but as luck would have it

                            luck wouldnt have that

he couldnt imagine the ambulance ride the conversant EMT or paramedic

imagine  cauterising

                                    with a styptic pencil   Awcome on  

0756,  Wednesday,  4  6. 25

You know  you know  he told himself     scolded You do

                                                                         Haste makes waste

it also made lousy coffee

and being accountable

he was going to drink the whole pot of weakass coffee

                                                          he forgot   didnt look

forgot that before he went out of town he poured twonearlythree cups of water into the carafe by its measure

he put freshground coffee for eight cups in the basket

                                                             he was accountable

    looking out the kitchen window after taking the first sipAwfuck

his reflection mirrored his facehis distinct  displeasure

                                                                it winked

then it spoke to him in his head  There is a correction

A correction

                     he shook his head no

his reflection didnt

                      Theres a correction

he winked at it

it didnt

exasperated Wha

Blackstrap rumthink molasses  Christ  Make a hot toddy woudya

                                                                      then one of his mariachi a faggot taunted

When life gives you lemons . . .

 

    made for a helluva morning cotangling with his reflection and a flamin mariachi       

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he was listing     noticeable   right

                                         he knew he was

walking down the street people noticed too

several asked if he was okay

                                 truly out of concern

kindness of strangers is not dead it only seems that way on television screens political shows talking points intentlyintensely covering felon his cabinet picks administration

                                                                       Thank you     Thank you

Its a condition

    they didnt pry

which was fortunatehad they

                                hed have to try to explain creative circuitry weighed more than reason

he tipped right

he was lefthanded

circuitry weighed more

 

 

 

    that he understood was all that mattered

going to sleep at night he counterbalanced

                                                laid on his leftside

                                         

its worked this long

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The First Edition  Just Dropped In (To See What Condition My Condition Was In)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJAs7-i3H8o

he chuckled

                  Visualise this they were high

Do I have to?

No

     If not you can make up something for us to visualise

    Me.

Were the only ones here

                          Im game provocation would fall short he didnt tell stories let alone visualiseem  enactem   play the parts

I think not.

No

Hard no.

they had been talking about a couplestill in summer pajamas doing breakfast dishes side by side who were seriouslyconsidering putting down  euthanising their very old dog

                                                                       Dog  Butch  interjects

After all

What do you mean after all?

Its his life theyre talking about    After all

                                              Butch interjects  Under one condition

The dog.

    Its a story

                Yacoud have made something up but begged off   Begged off    Begged off

I get it.

Its either an epizeuxis or alliteration two words for the same animalyet again another discussion weve had an disagreedbut  we digress

                               Butch interjects  Im in under one condition

He figures his humans can grant him this because   well  theyre humans

Gods

    You could appreciate a dog thinkin tharight

Right

Yeahright.  Right.

They ask him wha it is

He tells them he wants to be reincarnated  or rather my word  reincarcerated   as a human being

I come back, you can euthanise me.

 

 

And?

As in the twentyseventh letter of the alphabet until the wayearly Twentieth Century   Ampersand

Whatever.

 

Dishes done the husband walks off to the corner of the kitchen

                                                                   Theyre keeping Butch to the kitchen for the linoleum  Kitchen  Backporch   Outside

Wife looks over at Butch

Butch is licking his balls

I hate that about your dog.

                              Whenever Butch licked his ballssince he was a pup Butch was her husbands dog Outdoors  Other places  Younger  Regal lookin Either her dog their dog

Husband either didnt hear her or reply quick enough

Repeating herselfstepping back the counter obscured him  she sees him

                                                                                   Hes licking his balls

Reincarceration

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    Woudya let it go

I can’t.

          I’d like to know why.

Yaknow since I promised myself I woudnt say because because my parents beat me senseless with it  Ive said no

          Take tha  Gospel

But why?

            It makes no sense, you make no sense.

I told ya  Rope

                 I love ladders

So you’d let an opportunity to get up Half Dome escape because the trail turned rope-aided in order to scale, say, a football field length portion of it, getting up an over an incline.

    See  You do understand

But why? There must behas to be a reason.

he laughed

    What’s funny?

The reason is no

                    Ya understand no means no  Its tha simple

You’d agree there are reasons why someone says no, there’s reason behind it.

Id agree

Hence.

 

    Hence.   

There’s a reason behind your no.

Yes  Its no

           Do you do things you don want to do

I do.

I don

       An I wont exercise myself to seek anything beyond having decideddetermined no

Waste of my time

 

I don’t get it.

Not my problem  

1037,  Tuesday,  3  6. 25

BIDET rules the day!!!

Ohwoudyashaddup how did he fall in with these squeakyclean assholes

Come on, you have to admit, when you wipe, all you’re doin’ is smearing yoursel . .

. . Clean  I live in California  Waters a concern

You’ll let urine accumulate in the toilet until rancid.

Yes

Bet they don’t do that north.

Because it is somewhat akin to Washingto . .

. . The Great Pacific Northwest.

    Great

Try it. You’ll like it.

I aint Mikey

Seriously.

            Try it.

No thanks Toweling my ass off after takin a shit sounds too labour intensive

                                                                                  Old dog new tricks

Methinks not

You won’t even try it once?

No

I’ve not known you to be closed minded.

Nice try . . .

             this collection he musedlaughed to himself colonlection close enough  hes known since they were kids save his daughter the Midwest tookem until now to come West

                                                                        The West is the best Morrison The End

they show not two years ago  Bidet

                                       Deybe allbout da bidet   Christ

Nice try . . . Please Can we let it go

                                         Youre barkinup the wrong tree

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I toldya I toldya  I toldya not to invite me or have me invited to parties where Ill have my way with you

    I cant help but embarrass you

You don’t embarrass me.

I don   Im not an embarassment

 

You think you are, but youre not.

                                    there was a small clutch of people mostly women along the cabana where a table was set  liquor  finger food  plates napkins  Igloocoolers on the deck  beers white wines winecoolers within

I think I can

             Ever read the story of the Little Engine to your boys when they were small  I think I can I think I can I think I can

    I can

to the collection I have to saystartled them

                                                Our host  Its thoughtful of him to throw this soiree

A toast  Holdup your glass

Don’t.

To our fine host Na Zdrowie  Polish for Cheers

Cheers! everyone remarked

Don’t.

The only fault I can find with the man

    Don’t.

He has sexual no-go zones Like hes a vampire and garlic is hunghe hung it  to keep himself at bay

Ive asked about the inside of elbows behind the knees nape of the neck throat wrists

Hes not keen or ever wants to go down flip a woman once over butteredbasted eggs

                                                                                            Our host isnt keen

This was kind of a bet

                        Thasaid  To my mind

When rompin  Nothings off limits

Not a damn thing

man was mortified

                      couldnt even clear his throat

Ladies  Particularly the ladies

                                 Are we in agreement

party tookoff  SPIKED

                       he walked into their midst  Any single women here  Im Joe

    finally the host excused himself  I have to check on the my other guests.

1952,  Saturday,  17  5. 25

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