weighed

down

by

death

 

he didnt work at that

                       just came to him

if thoughtful  it could have screamed at the top of its lungsDUCK

   but didnt

death doesnt give you that

                                 Yasay something

   she said Say something?

You didnt say anything

What did you think I'd say?

   Perhaps   Duck

Duck?

   Duck  duck  duck  duck  duckcirclin the playground circle

                                                                    Duck duck    GOOSErun like the blazes

Not to be confused with Goose goose  fingers slickgooey

                                                           Tha kind of goose

   I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about.

A heads up

Heads up?

Yah

   Yeah?     Elaborate?

Woudnt think Id need to

So   No duck

   None.

Okay

           Okay

Were good

Are we?

 

DUCK

weighed

down

by

death

0916,  Monday,  24  3. 25

2001,  Tuesday,  25  3. 25

Moliere or Teffi

                       Seventeeth Century    Moliere came first

Teffi  born 1872

                  get this

gave herself the name Teffi

                                 maybe   because

Nadezhda Alexandrovna Lokvitskaya was her given name

got to have a sense of humour to endure that

   they said

               Life is a tragedy to those who feel and a comedy to those who think. & Life inside a joke is more tragic than funny.

Hendrix sings Dylans All Along the Watchtower  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLV4_xaYynY

   There are many here among us/Who feel that life is but a joke

Take your pick

Life tickled him most of the time

1430,  Saturday,  22  3. 25

1255,  Tuesday,  25  3. 25

https://www.goalcast.com/moliere-quotes/

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2019/jan/14/teffi-life-of-letters-and-laughter-edythe-haber-review

he couldnt let it go

                       Mebbe you coud help me remember this

he amused her

                 Is this something of yours . . which would be difficulthard . or someone else’s?

Someone elses  Yevgeny Zamyatin

Oh.  I believe I’m familiar with that name.

We

YES.

Youre correct ya remembere . .

. . You made me read it when you finished.

I  made you

she tipped here head like a little bird

                                       Made.   Told me you wouldn’t go down on me until I read it.

Cant deny tha

I was incentivising you

                           It worked

Read it in two days.

You did

          Then nearly tore my ears off 

Can’t deny that.

they laughedthey were so fuckin funny

 

I’m happy to help.

Thank you

As best I can.

We can remind each other  two heads are better than one

Sixtynine.

   Oh no you didant

I did.  You’re rubbing off on me.

Ill rub one off on you

Big talker.

After

   After?

Then let’s get on with it.

Thas my grrl

Whas germane   Empty  an light

                                           Sounds blissfulhuh

she closed her eyes  felt it

                                 Yes.   Blissful.

Its from We

Oh.  That’ll help.

Thaswha I thought

D-fivehundredthree and the free-spirited woman . I-threehundredthirty.

Yes

Go on.

“. . . now I am healthy: I am completely and totally healthy. I’m smiling: I can’t help smiling: a splinter has been removed from my head and now it is empty and light.”

Empty and light.   We can remember this.

   I thought so too

 

wolfishly  I’ll help rub.

1450,  Saturday,  22  3. 25

1205,  Tuesday,  25  3. 25

Hey man found a challenger to Wittgensteins whereof thereof

Dammit.   I’ve no idea why I can’t keep that saying in my head. Again.

I got an idea

               Wanna hear

   Do I have a choice?

Not if you want to hear the challenger

Then I have no choice.

See how smart you can be

                             Yacant keep the maxim in mind because you believe  evenifits an opinion  you have a right to express it

No fact

           Just opinion

Tha ya also believe has to be heard

 

   For instance.

Vasectomy

 

 

You gonna say?

You got an opinion  Ive had one

                                  Whereof one cannot speak thereof one must be silent

Silent

No opinion

Yawanna spit go ahead

                                Doesnt look like it tastes good

I disagree.

Keep it to yourselfdisagree with yourself Ive no interest in hearing

                                                                             DRUMROLL brrrrruumm  the challenger

All set

he was miffed

   All set

What?

Latin first Ubi nihil vales ibi nihil vells

                                                  Yawanna try it

You want to hear my opinion?

Yah

Nihil means no.

                    Something no . . . and . something . . no.

Yah an

 

Thas your opinion

Would you just say itquit poking the bear?

Bear

Mightyhigh opinion of yourself thasaid

                                          Wherein you have no power therein neither should you will

But you will

Cuz yacant help yourself

   Credit Arnold I don know how to say it so Ill spell it  G  E  U  L  I  N  C  X

                                                                                      Sam Beckett was a fan

his expression said it all

Irish novelist playwright poet

after 3PMishmash,  Sunday,  23  3. 25

1055,  Tuesday,  25  3. 25

Flemish philosopher  Arnold Geulincx  https://iep.utm.edu/geulincx/

Samuel Beckett  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MXSmXNvS3VY 

a rap at the door stilled their cross words

                                               a muted Housekeeping. through it

One moment please

                      taking a breathsuppressing his anger  If youre ready to go for breakfast Ill let housekeeping in

Breakfast? she glared  You might have ruined my appetit . .

. . Have a Bloody Mary then

Just one more moment please

Youre ready

grabbing her purse hanging off the deskchair As ready as I’ll ever be.

he stepped aside as she rushed the dooropened it inward

                                                              sidestepping the housekeeper she managed a smile a Good morning

Good morning, ma’am. the housekeeper said to her hustling form padding down the carpeted hallway

she was unexcelled at swinging through moods

                                                   he on the otherhand wasnt  he grimacedgrit his teethran both his hands over his face as if washing itrubbed his closed eyes with his fingersthey finished at his temples

opened his eyes

                  the housekeeper stoodframed in the doorway

Good morning glanced at her breasther name stitched there  Wanda

Sir. Good morning.  she was stout looked Eastern European  a block of a woman

                                                                                     If I may?

May he thought before he said it outloud  May

                                                   What

The madam.

Madam

           The mad damn  woman

a smile curled on her lips

                            Mad damn.   I have not thought that before.

he smiled  Ive had lots of practice

                                       Yes  You may

she stepped inside the roomwalked up to him patted his shoulder with what he thought was compassion  he could be wrong

            Without fear . . . there can be no control.

1843,  Sunday,  23  3. 25

1005,  Tuesday,  25  3. 25

      Im  he smiledshe knew   Im anally  aligned nice play on words  inclined

Moanastic  

             she played

M  O  A  N  A  S  T  I  C  he spelled

she laughed  breathtakindimples

                                   Look at you . . . ahead of me.

I have my moments

 

   You make my bum sore.

Any complaints yashoudve said 

gently shook her head curly tresses accordionedbobbed No.   None.

                                                                 Not at all.

Who knew?

We don really know until we try

0006,  Tuesday,  25  3. 25

0901,  Tuesday

in the car on the way to breakfast they didnt have enough seatbelts

                                                                                   he didnt want to take two cars

he argued  Live a little  Im here

begrudgingly

                they lived

his granddaughter sat on his lap

                                     Lets finish up our conversation about spidersHUGE spiders

Glassspiders  ghostspiders

Do we have to?

We have to

             Well concluded itlet it go with one  simple   question

his daughter said Don’t let him suck you in, honey.

he laughed

             couldnt see his granddaughters face

A simple question kiddo

                         I believe  despite your looks you can handle it 

You know what he said to me, Mom?

Probably.

He said I’m not as smart as I look.

He’s told me the same.

wished he could have seen the contortions on her faceDAMN

                                                                For cryinoutloud  A simple question

Youre simple enough to answer it

MOM.

Man’s unrelenting. Answer his question.

                                               Dad?

Yah

Simple?

Woud I lie to either of you

Let Grampa ask . . you answer.

Goodlord happy thas behind us

                                    So kiddo spiders   How afraid ofem arya on a scale of zero to nine

Zero to nine, no.

Yah

The scale is one to ten.

   Baby aint nothing in this life a ten

                                          But there arewill be some things we couldnt give two shits about easypeasy rate a zero

Follow my gist

   Mom . . .

probably justbefore justafter 2200,  Saturday,  22  3. 25

1250,  Monday,  24  3. 25

   nevernever a one off   he knew better

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZ3w7RgXRXE  &  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jnml3cHQzk4  &  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AV3GoAM30Cg

                                                                                                      evidently felon isnt the only administration official who has their head stuffed up their ass

1917,  Monday,  24  3. 25

wasnt a dealkiller

wasnt his body

                  he respected her enormouslyappreciated her autonomy  knew she had brought herself up the hardway  defiedbettered the circuitous route of poor turns she had made

They were mine.

I was obligated.

I’m accountable for my decisions, my actions.

   How do you not fall in love with someone like tha  he thought

                                                                            he had

they dated a good while

tookup living togetherwhich surprised them both   to the marrow in their bones

                                                                                     they were committed to their own time

their wont

not to share

                                 

didnt occur to them they were

                                 Can you believe how well we get along

No I don’t, I have to pinch myself.

   he pinched her she pinched him

 

 

 

Wha do you think of babies

I don’t.

   No

Not really.

                         What do you think?

I grewupround babies

                         Im good with them

What are you asking?

                              Are you asking . me . . . . if I want . your . baby?

   I cant have one

                   Since we havent talked about babies I believe its a good conversation to have We converse better than mostHell better than any couples I know

Ohyes, far better.

                    Honesty gives us that.

Brutally so

she noddedsmiled Gawddamn those dimples

                                              Brutally.

   You think I want to ruin this beautiful bodyyou enjoyI enjoy that I worked so hard to attain?

Is it ruin

Jeez.

       You want a baby? Now?   Get a surrogate.

   Yasaid  now

Now.

        I’m not keen . now . to suffer a parasite for nine mont . .

. . Twins  Pairasites

she smiled lovely again humoured   rad dimples

                                                   P  A  I  R.   My clever lover.

You know I love you very much.

his turn to nod no dimples  I love you inside out 

 

   For now . . I only want us to share our pie together.

Yes  Our halves

Yes.

   Im selfish   Too

Yes. We dig.

                  Let’s table it for some other time.

I can do tha

 

   their relationshipso delicious was that they alwaysalways returned to territoriesconversations they paused for another time

   they had crazylong memories

after 2100hrs,  Saturday,  22  3. 25

1137,  Monday,  24  3. 25

Woud you walk 

she was shufflindown the hall looking up at the ceilingat its corners he was walking behind her

Walk

     Wha arya doin

whispered  Spiders.

Wha ofem I told you they tend to keep to the ceilingwhy

   Why?

Yes   Why

I don’t know.

Down here sidestepped her motioned with his handspalms flat small circles hipheight they entered the livingroom  Spiders tend not to be here because of the cats the cats will kill them

I like that.

Yes

      I thought you might         But let me show you something

What?

   Glassspiders

                      Ghostspiders

What?

Youre not as smart as you look follow me got cats

                                                    she caught the slight but he was rolling steamrolling and she knew from experience hed go right over the top of her to get to his point

                                                                               led her back into the hall left into the bathroom pointed at the slab of rock encrusted with seashell fossils sitting on the sink cabinet

Theres this strata thathey inhabit oohsooquiet

                                                       Look

Do you see

What am I looking at?

Glass  ghost spider

                          See the real fine  web

Where?

Between the back of the rock into the cornerstrung on the texture of the walls to the mirrors edge

I don’t see anything.

Watch  Im going to blow eversoslightly into the corner

                                                          Watch

he exhaled

   a shimmer  shimmered

There

I see.

So very  fragile

Yes.

Like glass

Like a ghost.

You see

Yes yes.

Youre not afraid

No.

      I’m not afraid of this spider.

But the ones overheard who remain in their websscarcely move about   frighten you

Maybe.

          Because I can see them very easily and theyre . . big.

Ah  Perhaps a matter of scale he chuckled

                                                         sounded like a hick What we got here . . a failure . to communicate

What?

   Yasay wha an awful lot

But like I said

Lets go  Familys waiting on us to go to breakfast

2100,  Saturday,  22  3. 25

1008,  Monday,  24  3. 25

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WUyZXhLHMk