3.3.25


if it was a squirrel a groundsquirrel a driver might speedupswerve to hit it
                                                                                  but it was a chipmunk
a very fuckincute chipmunk

   and it knew it


he saw it fiftyeasy yards down the road when he glimpsed over the top of his book to discern the lay of the land before him as he walkedread so he wouldnt walk into something  into someone
                                                                                        very few someone ever                
Pedestrians
                 pedestrian

cars rushedup behind him as he kept to the shoulder of the road no sidewalks
                                                                                   who wants to cleanup the mess a twohunred pound man would make on the roadwould make of their car

but a squirrel groundsquirrel no sweat 
                                           discriminately offing one no accountabilitynone
Hell even after an animals killed on the road other cars often came along and smashed it rendering it to an unrecognisable pulp of gore


   but not this chipmunk

cars slowedveered towards the center of the road
the wholewhile the little critter fucked with them
played chicken with them
                              he or she actually rushed cars as they approached

   Well he thought not really playing chicken   Mebbe  cricket

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1236,  Monday,  3  3. 25

she flinchedhead recoiled she knew betterknew him well
                                                        Do you have to be so severe?
Always  Absolutely

Absolute?
               Nothing’s absolute.
There is

pursing her lipshinted her dimples which were marvelous fullblownKahRist
                                                                           There isn’t.
If I may

You mayest. on came that grin of hers  hed fuck her dimples

he smiled he hadnt dimples
                            You  absolutely woudnt have sex with a woman
Anymore than I woud with a man

Absolutely
We weren’t talkin’ about se . .
. . No  Absolutes
                       Correct      Right

   Do I have to concede?

No  But itll cost ya
What?           

Ill think of something
OhChrist. Don’t leer.

Lets get back to the issue you have regarding my severity annot let me get sidetracked by thoughts of lust with you
Lust?

Kiddo  Yah
             Absolutely


Our thoughts are coloured by our senses  experiences

Yes.

Given my addictions reading   writing . . . 



Yes?

It is not extreme or severe tha I woud think woud say  illiterates   better off dead
Dead.

Dead

   Why dead? I’m sure an illiterate person would have other qualities you could tolerat . .
. . For how long
                  People torture themselves tolerating othersthink  think of all the bad marriages relationships people suffer  tolerate   when they coud separate
Howbout this

   Ones highachieving the other theyre paired   is dead weight

Theyre walking along

High finds themself well in the lead pauses  turns back   Woud you please keepup

They wait while they catchup

Walk further

Highs ahead again Woudya please  please   please try an keepup

Just posing this is exhausting  They cant keepup
                                                          Woud you agree

 

one barelydiscernable nod

Yes  I am severe
                   But I am to highlight I understand my extreme  the beautiful stark shiningwhite full moon has a darkside

I remind people things have darksides
                                          Brightshiny things sold have downsides that seem to be overlooked
Ignored

 

You can’t ignore shit.

I cant
       Way Im wired

As my Maw said
                   Don’t suffer fools.
Suffer  Tolerate

  Theyll steal our precious time  

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1149,  Monday,  3  3. 25

his reading was interrupted by rain
                                       tucked Meachams And There Was Light Lincoln in his armpit under his sweatshirt
endedup just  walking
                             but

along the way home he remembered so many walks in the rain in Miami

walks with his last girlfriend
                               the only one who ever didnt think he was nuts when he asked if shed like to go for a walk in the rain
pausedtilted her head
                             Why the hell didn’t I think of that?

he didnt answer smiled   question was rhetorical
Sure.

Sensational Lets do it

they did

got soppinwetsoaked to the skin

back at the house they stripped on the back porch she ran a hot bubble bath he made mugs of spiked hot chocolate over minimarshmallows and joined her
                                                      a simple wonderful pleasure


when he got home he shed his clothes on the back porch began a hot tub lavender oil poured himself three fingers of Redbreast and laid down breathed deeply
                                                         inhaled

                                                      a simple wonderful pleasure

3PMish,  Sunday,  2  3. 25
1045,  Monday,  3  3. 25
Supertramp  Take The Long Way Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Pts0jqX-yY

Blind Faith  Can’t Find My Way Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jlLBs6YawM

2.3.25


Have you looked closely


   This feels like something comin in out of left field.   Is it?

Not ifya looked closely

At what?

His signaturehis black Sharpie signature

His scribble?

Agreed
          But look closer

Itd be fun if it were something else

Fun?

Hellyah It tickled me
                            Ya interested in a little tickle

   OhHell, why not.
So ya know when he turns the binder containing Executive Orders to the Press  the cameras


Yeah.

Woudnt it be fun a great joy if his signature were actually a display of arrhythmia
Looks like one
                   His handwriting nothing more than a looped electrocardiogram readout    

Looks like to me
An Im anxious for it to flatline
                               Him shakin the hell out of the pen no ink is expressed     Ooops

   One for the books

after 1500hrs,  Saturday,  1  3. 25
1302,  Sunday,  2  3. 25
Fat Waller  I’m Gonna Sit Right Down and Write Myself a Letter  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZZRAU3DeOo

She said she has to see a pulmonologist.

From wha youve said  Cardiologist

No. She said pulmonologist.

Is it her heart or lungs respiratory

The discomfort isfeels like . . her heart.
                                           Her left ventricle is thought . .
. . Descending aorta  Feeding blood to her legs
                                                       She walk much
Not really.
              Descending aorta.
Yah
        Whas above the ventricles

Auricles.

Hmm Yasay tha an I think oracles little judges tucked in our hearts bathedslathered in warm blood woud be a good livelihood gig if one coud get it

shook his head

Methinks however theyre no longer called auricles Atriums in todays nomenclature

Methinks you’d be wrong.
Phone
         Refute me do it in the moment cuz ifya put it off till later youll forgetwont pursue it You carry your phone around like the rubber in your wallet Anif your rubber vibrated like your phone youd be wearing it now  I woud

Talk talk. You don’t carry your cell.

I do not

Because it is your home phone.

Yah As Ive said

But it’s a cellphone.

Which I don need while outanabout
                                       If Im gonna have a conversation itll be in the privacy of my home
Makes sense to me

Anif . whaif . . something happens to you while you’re out?

Someone will have a phone
                               A good Samaritan
Which you couldn’t be.

No Not immediately
                       Though to the best of my ability

   You really ought to carry your phone.

Howbout this
                We do not do anything we do not want to do 

Thasaid  some peopleyourself do things they insist they did not want to but did dumbdumb insist they were coercedput up to it

   Horseshit


Christ you can be a prick.

Yes I can

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1209,  Sunday,  2  3. 25

. . . they'll get their just desserts.

Desserts or deserts
                      Youre partial to desserts pair of Ss

That’s how it’s spelled.

   Spelt
Spelled.
Spelt
     Anno  Deserts of just deserts is spelt with one S

I . .
. . Phone  Look it up
                      I know me tellin you isnt satisfactory
Look it up

Anwhile you do I prefer karma hot karma not cold

Would you quit talking to me I can’t do two things at once.




   Wellshit.

Hot karma

What?

You heard me

Karma’s karma.

Disagree

Hot now  Cold Aintround to witness it
                                         As a matter of fact  mine woud be a hitman karma

shook his head You understand that’s not how it works.

I do
     However cant hurt to put it out into the atmosphere  ether


Where do you come up with this shit?

   Im just the messenger

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1115,  Sunday,  2  3. 25

All of me, why not take all of me . . .

                                                           from Stardust  Willie Nelson


he wonderedwasnt one to scratch his headdig a toe in the dirt or sand
                                                                             . . . Why not . . .

why disturbrender something that is whole an entity
                                                       leave it be   let it remain

   disturbed    disturbing
                              gravely upset him


however he followed the logic the mal-reason its intent   contempt

                                                                            human nature

permission structures today have granted the right to be coarse cruel    unapologetic
to refuse to acknowledge when one is wrong
                                               believe
they shouldnt be held accountable



   why not 
 
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1032,  Sunday

1.3.25


rolled past a sign mountedanchored on two fourbyfours  painted white black lettering

JESUS IS THE ANSWER.
                                       as they passed he asked the front seat You see tha
they asked What?

The sign had been to our right

No.

It said Jesus is the answer

No. Missed it.

Whats the question

they laughed

No  Seriously
                  I cant think of a question thawoud be answered Jesus

Who makes a mean tamale a wet burrito
Jesus’ food wagon

Dig your Spanish pronunciation.

Thank you
              I have my occasionsmoments


I was being facetious
                        Any idea for a question questions

None.

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1200,  Saturday,  1  3. 25

edibles kicked in
                   they enjoyed the gentle confluenceeddies of the THC and liquor in his case
liqueur in buddys
                    dude had a penchant for sweet viscous if a chick maybe fond of giving blowjobs

   but he digresses


Question

What you got?

I often catch you using itcorrect you  but you cant seem to help yourself an continue usin it

What’s that?

Interesting

I find a lot of things interestingas do you.

I don

Yes you do.  You’re more curious than me.

Probably why cats an pussies get along with mebut I digress
                                                                  Is interesting how you woud describe yourself or  or     or something more descriptive

   Say  impulsive  for instance

I’m not impulsiv . .
. . You are particularly when pushedwhen  cajoled Ive witnessed it
                                                                            Ya rollover

I don’t.

Ya do
        Interesting  Well agree again
Is ambivalent
                As vanilla as fuckin vanilla can be   Correct

Yes. We have agreed.

   Then explain to me why it remains in your lexicon your vernacular cant bite your tongue


I don’t think I use it as much as you think I do.

I know you do
                I flinch when you say

I truly suffer a physical response when you do  Thas how ingrained repulsed I am

You’re being ridiculous.


Im not



You don’t find your . . . reaction . . ridiculously interesting?

   I know yadidnt do tha on purpose

What?
       What on purpose?

See Seems innate to the beast you are

Innate?

May I repeat you

What’s to repeat?
You
said
questioned
            not a moment ago
tha my foul reaction
was
I quote
ridiculously interesting


I said . . interestin . .
. . An unaware you had
                            Man it aint the weed or booze its a redundancy youll not shake
But it suits you

How does it suit me?

Youre noncommittal not aggressive combative eager to please unwilling to cross anyone

 

You see it suits you
                      You cant deny my short litany

Say it Ill step on your toes
                              My promise to you
Once my revulsion quells an allows me
 
I promise


You’re so fuckin’ strange.

No
    I like really words
I likeem more than you

An I like ya

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1104,  Saturday,  1  3. 25

they werent familiarhad met at a party a mutual friend threw

she looked at him over the sugaredlip of the lemondrop martini
                                                                    saidsoftly  Aaron.

Thaswha I thought you said

Yes.

Early tonight I met a woman named Shawn  S H A W N 
                                                             Also typically a guys name    Im on a roll
She was attractive  as you are

Ohmy, thank you.

Youre welcome

Aren’t you polite.

No
    Get to know me youll find out Im not

she sipped her martini   swallowed
                                             Are you challenging me to know you . . better?

I woudnt mind
                  You might though

I don’t know, we’ve been checked her wristwatch talking together . . uninterrupted . for nearly fifty minutes . . . and you’ve been forthcoming . accessible . . and I believe . honest.

Honesty You can count on me for thaI woudnt lie to you

I believe I can.
                   It seems to me as a kid growing up you were, no big head now, an influencer.

Arya suggestin as now how influencers are described alluded to

Somewhat, though modestly.

Look at you threadin a needle 
                                    Though Im not  not an influencer then or today

It strikes me you could be.

he chuckled

she smiled fine excruciating dimples  he dug thembeen digginem the whole of their conversation
                                                                                        No?
No  I can affirm tha
                       As a kidas I told you growingup oldest of nine   I was an enforcer
An enforcer.
                 Excuse me. sipped her martini   Now that you’ve said . . . I can see that.

Thank you for the acknowledgment

You’re welcome . . . very welcomethis is nice.
                                                  she smiled warmlysoftly

It is  Im really enjoying you
                                  You fascinate me

Wait till you get to know me better.  

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0940,  Saturday,  1  3. 25

                                                                    Bush league ambush

Bush  referencing the debacle of the 43rd president  his September11an forth  OH felons January6

he was appalled by the ambush
                                       yet

   unsurprised

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