I’m done.

            exasperation evident in his voice

You were so caughtupenthusiastic describing it without dropping any spoiler anGawd knows youre shitabsolute shit when it comes to ruining movies for others by not pulling backthinking ahead wha your words woud reveal

I don’t do it on purpos . .

. . You do it

             Thaya do itwhether or not on purpose doesnt matter

Reason why I don ask you about film

                                         Or ask for recommendations

Which of late cycle out of your girl friends mouthwho if I wanted Id ask her opinion

I don’t do it on purpose.

No matter Ya do it

                      So not droppin a spoiler was fantastic

Whas the name of the movie

I don’t remember.

Gave a great synopsis

Thank you.

    Cant remember the title

No.

     I can’t.

I think wha Im going to do is make a film called I Cant Remember The Name Of It an advertise it on marquees NOW SHOWING capital letters followed by nothing but negative space

You’re not giving it a title?

I have

        Just not going to advertise it

To be forgotten

Im givinya an out bro

    Likely I’d spoil it.

Ive no doubt

              Acted by no-name actors too

No way Id letya tear down my movie  spoil it

1635,  Saturday,  7  12. 24

1520,  Wednesday,  11  12. 24

as a boy he thought all he needed was his mitt he was lefthanded ball bat paperback science fiction books and Playboys

if black licorice red isnt licorice was tossed in the deal

                                                         he was in heaven

   then wants

                   demanded more than he needed  but he held tight his reins

   those he let into his life wanted a lot

then departed

leaving him their wants

                          that said

he still has his mitt ball bat paperbacks and Playboys

                                                           occasionally he gifts himself licorice

  

before 0800,  Wednesday,  11  12. 24

1234,  Wednesday

love is routine

sounds like hes dissing it

hes not

          he meant routine

in that he expressed his love daily words actions  but has to call love out because routine love is  rote love is  are matter-of-fact   love nevertheless is taken for granted 

it will be there tomorrow

he was mindful thoughtful his daughter believed to a fault

                                                                   anyet he dropped the ballbelieving with every fiber of his bodyhis being love goes on an on anon

                                           asif 

he was immortal

mortality breaks love

                        makes it a shadow

stone turned to fine sand escaping his handsbetween his fingers

                                                                     but hopefully

not before he dies

  

prior to 0800,  Wednesday,  11  12. 24

1205,  Wednesday

a suddenharshbreathrobbing Void in his life

    not the first

                  painfully  not the first

what intrigued himmade him curious

was how a void was filled

when he didnt know it existed

1250,  Wednesday,  11  12. 24

somehow he acquired a prick of a godkeeper to some  gatekeepers  anthis motherfucker was supported by a zealous overseer and therefore well-resourced provided his history  pertinent facts  worked overtimeworked hard trying to make him miserable whenever possible  often succeeding

                                                               he refused to play poker

because his pokerface was exhausted by this piece of shit whose throat like on-line commerce when its fucked someone and they want to return or have returned product and they want their hardearned money back  EVENTUALLY months of months later despite first promises by customercare agents then their supervisors then their supervisorssuperior Put my money back into my account. I have a receipt confirming the product was returned.

                                                                                         . . . this piece of shit like on-line commerce who he cant get his hands around their throat

motherfucker evidently alignedacquired assess to corporations possessed what remained of their souls recipes changed for the worse lesser ingredients products smaller  profits ups 

he made pricepoints if an item exceeded what he was willing to pay he didnt buy it

    motherfucker   corporations

                                   they ceased making some products altogether

DISCONTINUED innumerable items he enjoyed

                                                  some that he considered luxuries

which meant they exceeded his pricepoints but occasionally he afforded them

then the cheapshot they really hit him hard

                                               they

at the overseers direction a cunt of a cunt observed detailed to a fault kudos thorough reminded his godkeeper to revivespur his memory of how leftie the cat would jump up on his bed while he was making it to be petted hed chastise her never meant it part of their game then hed stroke her sidefingertips only and keeping her hindend up leftie went to a shoulder looked at himpurring as he loved her up  after a while he went around to the other side of the bed to stroke her flank and shed turn her headturn onto that shoulderhips still high purring unbroken

    cunt of a cunt said to the godkeeper Remind him he didn’t take one picture of any of those precious moments.

Accentuate. Precious.

What of his memory? Can’t we fade it?

I’ve tried. That’s a lost cause.

                                 We’ll just pique himtwist the blade.

Ohmy.

        I’m grateful I’m on your side.

cunt of a cunt grinned cruelly     

1336,  Twosday – leftie died,  10  12. 24

1051,  Wednesday,  11  12. 24

 

leftie died

in the wee hours of the morning

hes not wrioting today but for saying so

she was a character

                         a real character

heart broken bawled like a baby

I cant say

Nothing?  Nothing in your tagwords, theme, I imagine sex sex sex, politics, religion?

Theyre there

               But they don attract a crowd

What has?

Nothing I can put my finger on

                                   Truly

I write wha happens to cross my mind or something Id written long ago anthey resurfaced  Woud have bet against tha

Bet against? Why yasay that?

Yahave no idea over the years how much Ive writtenpacked in journals looseleaf in folders stuck in books  Scraps of paper paper restaurant napkins oddball envelopes Ive lifted from the trash because I hadnt paper in the moment

    Out of the trash?

Def

      Yah

But nothing you can fingerdefine?

No

     Lemme put it this way  Month or soago wrote about Santa Cruz Californianumbers popped

Round same time wrote Chinaman  Nothing went off in China

                                                                    Onepointthreefour billion Chinese cant be wrong

An China has read me hafagin more than the US

    More

Nothing to finger

    I like to think  serendipity 

1739,  Monday,  9  12. 24

Hmm

    What’s that?

Thinking

            he had just been listening to remarks regarding President Johnson providing rebel Civil War soldiers amnesty he was impeached

                     former

twice impeached by the House  however the Senate couldnt grow a pair

    What you thinking?

Sorry

         Sorry sorry  Thinking

About what?

Yah

       If former is the worst president in history . . . does tha make him the best worst ever

The Best

1639,  Monday,  9  12. 24

Meet the Press  Kristin Welker  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b607aDHUu2I

anybody else think Welker asking her questions  delivered them slowly deliberately  asif talking to a child

                                                                                                                  or Stephen Millers elder abuse to get former to deport brown people an on an on anon

she was ridiculous

her boy friend didnt think she was

he asked You actually think brilliant

Yeah, you don’t?

boy  friend stepped up

                          You don’t think so?

No

   Mass murderer  Obviously youre high

I think it’s realistic.

Yeah. Definitely realistic.

Youre both high

                  Do me a favour suppress itshut it down

Suppress it?

Yeah.

Because you think so?

Yeah.

    I feel like Im watchin cheerleaders at a junior high school basketball game    Yah

she sneered

               What do you think is unrealistic?

Please

Tickle

With a feather

A mass murderer

You think theyd laugh

                         Let alone tickled to death

she had proposed her boy friend seconded her

                                                   execute a mass murderer with a feather

Arya serious

It may take a while.

Cant do it twentyfourseven seven days a week

                                                   Thatd be torture

Torture?  together

                       definitely junior high and boy  friend was quite a bit older than her

marijuana never made him that stupid

Think Ill go

What? Can’t take the heat?

    Yah Cant take it

                               Fuckininane cockamamie

    Although

Although

Yah

Speakup

Offin himher in old age

Tickled to die

Kinda

               Shaddup woudya  I don charge for housing

1954,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

1446,  Monday,  9  12. 24

Jesus Christ.

    not a good modality like air whispering out of a childs toy balloon

Hey

he looked at him

                    yah  lights in his eyes were dimming

if this were an execution the executed would be dying  checkinout

                                                                           Whas up

I can’t think of the wordescaping my mind.

Can I help

The C-word.

Cunt

No. You were one.

    I appreciate tha but I am Ive many detractors who will say so at the drop of a hat

Not a cunt.

Next time Im accused ifya aint around Im callinya on the phone anyacan standup for me

Enough.

          The C-word.

Describin someone

Yes.

      lights dimmin like coals greyin

Counselor

No.

Confederate

No.

Consigliere

No. I said you were one.

I was one

Yes.

      You and your wife at school dances.

Chaperone

YES. Yes yes yes.

Thas enthusiastic

                     lights were brightening

Why couldn’t I think of it.

Because you never were

                           Missed out brother

I had better things to do with my time.

And likewise your wife wasnt involved in school activities

                                                              Despite four boys

I suppose because you had two girls.

An their mother

                 Tellinyaman  Missed out

I don’t think so.

    How shall I put this

Seven years

Every school dance

I worked the punchbowl all the parents remarked that in their experience  limited as it was I didnt see them seven years at every dance

In their experience

                      No one was as smooth as me

Thasaid

It was the girls who were drinking punch

An not to my chagrin   they were wearing dresses I coudnt believe their parents were okay lettinem wear let alone buyinem forem

Low cut dresses

Teen aged  girls

Je sus Christ

    If not punchbowl coatcheck

                                   Where they repeatedly returned to get something from their purse

Lemme say this bouttha

Bruce Springsteen

Glory Days

Wha about chaperone

I don't remember now.

1946,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

1113,  Monday,  9  12. 24

Glory Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vQpW9XRiyM

he cherished the unexpected

                               and unexpected must really appreciate him because it has treated him like a prince granting him innumerabletoo many to count surprisespleasures

if unexpected were a god

                           hed kneel at her altar  bring gifts of fruits and vegetables

Again

Something huh?

    If you think about it it makes sense People usually remember their birthdays

Yah, but somehow sayIm not that stupidCHRIST that Oregon authorities failed to tell him he was to report to the sex division every year on his birthday since released, for the rest of his life.

Cant imagine his victi . .

. . Victims.

    More than one

Apparently it was a drugfueled blitz.

Blitzed sex crimes

                       I have no words

It reasons tha it woud be his birthday

Why do you say that?

You think hed remember the date he was convicted

Good point.

Well  I should let you get going I know youre at work

Yeah.   Thanks for taking time to soothe my irritationirritability.  Anger.

Youre welcome kiddo

                        Thank you for the unexpected news

unexpected didnt need to be groundmoving

                                               he wouldnt have considered a drugfueled illicit sex blitz

no way no how

 

1938,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

1019,  Monday,  9  12. 24

they were so transparent

                              Donny  Dee   made him think donnybrook  apparently she took a joke wrong and Donny was standing in her cornertaking her side  galante

maybe rest of the evening hed call her tha  

ignore her confusion

                       Why Brooke?

No E

      Gender neutral

What’s with you?

Yeah.

      What is with you.

Nothingabsolutely nothing

                             Humouring myself Ive quit waiting for you

Not happenin

he saw their expressions they were going to come for himtry insults together believing they had the arsenal could gang up on him

I don’t find it funny.

Its not necessary you do

                            Im not beginning every sentence concluding every sentence with it  

    What if I . .

. . Take your best shot

                         I know who I am Im comfortable

that was what bothered them

                              You only talk about yourself. refused to call him an egotist a narcissist  incorrectly

Who woud you have me talk for

No, no.  Your stories.

he chuckled

                 I have stories

he stood  Youll excuse me

as he left the livingroom Brook said  . . . Angela, my friend, you know her, she thinks he’s awfully charming, I told her . . .

the bathroom was around the corner off the kitchen

chuckled again

                  his Mom always called him charming

Comon Maw You know me better than tha

But you are. shed protest

Maw Thas because I tell people to eat shit with a smilepleasantly antheyre not quite sure I just told them to eat shit

Who does tha

Me

Stop, stop, stop.

                   You are very charming, Joe.

Yes Maw

           Im charming

returning to the livingroom

                             abruptly Brook starts up again  I told Angela he’s crass, not charming.

he was

          nothing there to defend

Oh you’re back.

Yes  I was going to pour myself another drink

                                                  Thought maybe youd like yours refreshed

buy them more time  that was paltry                                                                                       

1635,  Saturday – Remember Pearl Harbor,  7  12. 24

2114,  Sunday,  8  12. 24

So   politically incorrect

                             then realises who hes mentioning it to     Nevermind

What’s politically incorrect?

Nothing I wasnt askin you

                              Ill wait for Dee to return  ask her

What are you going to ask her?

When she comes back youll hear

But you were going to ask me

I considered it changed my mind

    Why?

Youre a man an this question deserves a womans response  her appraisal

You ca . .

. . Im not

            When Dees back

she reentered the livingroom

                               sat on the loveseat across from themthey on upholstered chairs before a gentle fire  between them a small glasstopped table  base of coiledfused marine chain

I haven’t heard word from here in a bit.

We were waiting for you

He’s got a question thatapparently . . only you can answer.

Yah  It requires a womans a feminine perspective

                                                         Coud you have given me tha

he rolled his eyes

    she covered her smile  What’s the question?

Woud a woman who murdered someone take offence if she were called a murderess as opposed to a murderer  take wholesaleexception as some actresses might who prefer being called actors

I could have answered that.

Because youre a woman

No.

      I have an opinion.

 

Im not interested

                    Which is why I waited for Dee  Why I waited for a real woman

 

    That’s an interesting question, Joe.

                                           We don’t often hear the term murderess.

No we don

I wouldn’t take exception . .

. . Nobody asked you

I’d . . I’d have to give that some thought.

I thought it curious

What made you think to ask?

Were in the time of pronouns

                                 It just presented

I was imagining a fella seated in the gallery behind herover her shoulder calling her a murderess  she stands  sixfootone barefooted  shes wearing four inch heelsglares at him  mutters When I get out I’m gonna find you and cut you into tiny little pieces equal to that tiny little brain in your skull.

That’s severe.

Wha woudya expect from a coldblooded murderer

1313,  Saturday – Remember Pearl Harbor,  7  12. 24

1909,  Sunday,  8  12. 24

Its shittin time again he hmmmd his shit hmmmusin harmonising with him

                                                                                    Really

shit cleared it throat

                       This is my song Only reason its occurring to you is because it occurred to me  Youre welcome

he was unsure

                   however

before him

on the floor

             clarifying distinguishing themselves risingresonating  appearing up through the linoleum  its etched lines darkening  were Freud Joyce   Lenin

apparently siding with his shit

                                 “Oh, its cryin' time again, you’re gonna miss me.”

Thas not the lyrics he chided  . . . cryin time again youre gonna leave me . . . 

Yes

       I am

Its my song

Quit your whining

Im the one leaving

    shit was right

then to make its point

it clogged the toilet

    maybe if he kept piehole shut All pie is good pie Hit Man  it woudnt haveHA

                                                                                     linoleum Lenin

1005,  Sunday,  8  12. 24

1704,  Sunday

Ray Charles  Cryin’ Time  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvuxPKKWdRc

he called

           Hey.

Hey  Whasup 

I thought about it overnight . . . you seemed . upset . miffed last night as ya left.

puzzled in his head Miffed

Yeah.

No

      Ive no clue wha youre talkinbout

An observation I made.

Observation Eyes closed

                             Wayoff

Whawoud I be miffed about

We lost cutthroat to a woman.

Id be miffed bouttha

                       No

Yes.  It appeare . .

. . According to you

    Yes.  That’s what it looked like to me.

Then why didnt yasay something last night as I was leavin

    I didn’t want to upset you . more.

Upset me

            Upset  Losing

You seeme . .

. . Shoud haveyet again opened your mouth 

                                              Didnt think twice   A gamenothin more

Projecting

    Projecting?  What do you mean?

You understand

I was upset?

I wasnt

So what do you think now?

    Now About what

Come on.

           Losing to a womanbeat by a woman.

Ive no problem being beat by a woman Id rather a woman

Rather?

Beat by a woman

Beat by a woman?

Christ

        No problem  at  all  beat by a woman  Beat me off 

Take me in hand

Handmade

               You

    What the hell are you talking about?

Obviously   Absolutely nothing  

                                         absolute another can of worms between them

1303,  Sunday,  8  12. 24