2.11.24


she tipped her head  like a bird  like she was listening underground
                                                                          You don’t think that’s an odd thing to say?
He says a lot of odd things.

I do
      Sometimes odd is just plain being honest
An aint tha something this world coud use a healthy fat dose of
                                                                    Like threescoop ice cream cones  I hear
I don eat ice cream

You don’t?

He doesn’t.

Are you from a different planet?

Am I alien Thawha youre askin
                                     Im leaningravitatin to wha works for me
Coudnt give two shits bout status quo pop culture social media

Got me a silo for one
                       On the beachfront  With a fishing pole

    Is he real?

I could pinch you.

Pinch me, why?

To confirm you’re conscious, here and now, listening to words I hear a couplethree times a month.
    Why I asked you here this weekend. Wanted you to hear what I gotta put up with.

Hes addicted
               Ask himbout our relationshipwatch brother goup over the moon

Would you quit that?
No
     We have a relationship Like you
Boy friend  Girl  friend

Agreed.  You’re my boy . friend.

He doesnt know tha

He better wrap his skull around it. I’m not jeopardizing a friendship.

Bro

he muttered something under his breath

What?

He says repeating me  I don know tha
Wanna shut your mouth?
Quit
       No hard feelings Im being honest
An often the truth is hard


We’re getting sidetracked. she said

We certainly are

Back to my question.

Cowboy  Remember her question


    Her question
I don’t.

You don think thas an odd thing to say

Verbatim.
           How this whole conversation began.

Right on girlie
                Ill answer you
No
    Callin him my human isnt odd
I rarely interact with others except for long telephone calls
                                                              Which is exactly how I want it to be
Socialising is exhausting

But you can do it.  he said

    As Ive toldya before
                           I did it when I was paid to do it

after 459preferred,  Sunday,  20  10. 24
1943,  Saturday,  2  11. 24

he woke

had to orient himself

                                                         yes . . .
blind date failed

saw her to her car

walked down the block to a wine bar that entering he inquired if they served hard liquor
they did
          The selection isn’t deep though.
before he could ask the hostess sharp girl handed him a wine/liquor menu
                                                                                aah Redbreast twentyone years
Bingo

Thank you Are there seats at a bar or  only quaint café tables

We have a bar.

Youre sharp kiddo Thank you
                                  tipped her a fiver
helped assuage his failed date
                                   happy though they didnt spin each other   virtually zip attraction

as he walked in a woman sitting at a table turned obliquely caught him in the thigh with her elbow even in the subdued light he saw she flushed
                          Oh, I'm terrible sorry, I apologize.
No harm no foul
                  Ifya fouled me Idve screamed bloody murder
a wonderful smile spread across her face
                                            she laughed gayly  didnt cover her mouth
then she laughed harder
                           You’ll excuse me, I didn’t see you coming.

at the chair to her right hooked on its back a white walking cane

Well shit he laughed with her  girl was rightup his alley
                                                             I was going to have a drink at the bar
Might I join you  Woudya care for a drink

she turned to the table deftly touched the stem of her glass
                                                                How am I doing?

Don know where you started Not two inches in the bowl inchanahaf

Is that a word?

A word

Inchanahaf.

I tend to slur words Swear  Havent had a drink this evenin

This is my first.
                 If an inchanahaf again that wonderful smile  don’t mind if I do.

Excellent What is it

Lannie, the bartender, knows, he surprises me this is my haunt.

Ya aspook

Ohmy laughter leapt from her throat
                                         Aspook?  You’re a card.
As my mother says
                      She also believes Im charming
But youd think a mother woud think that of her offspring her blood
                                                                       Now if only Id quit sayin fuck
She tolerates it because Im here favourite which is sayin something
One of nine
Thasaid the eldest
                     We were intimate The numbers siblings afterwards didnt have tha kind of time 
I was fortunate

She sounds like a peach.

Thank you On her best days she is
                                         Lannie Not Lennie Lennie Small   By George
Lannie.
Hate to get off on the wrong foot Ill be right back
                                                    he turned to walkaway then pause  spun on his heels
If I may youre a peach too
                               Im somewhat an expert
she chuckled
               Thank you.  Is that the extent of your expertise?

Sppose well find out

                                                                                          

                                                         yes . . . 

what time was it

he turned his head to the nightstand

a digital

wasnt to her benefit

maybe a throw for normalcy she couldnt thoroughly partake in

2:68

           maybe not


he watched
             was curious if it wasnt his continuum the non-stop no-reoccurring film of his living
life has edges
                 conscious  unconscious  REM  dreaming    subconscious imports

had no subconscious either
                              will be bummed when the reel the real   ran out

2:69

he rubbed his face

smelled his hands
                      delicious   her
Emmanuelle
              she told him it meant God is with us

if he is
         he smells damn good too
 

3:10
      there we go there we go

Emmanuelle stirred

he didnt want to disturb her

he turned on his shoulder she was on her left he spooned she sighed  was warm  her hand came up to her bicep he puts his on top of hers she wove her fingers between his

You’re awake?

Yes

Time?

Threeten

Threeten.
             I really like your slurs.

   Care to go again

Oooh.  Hee’s baack.   chuckled

Sometimes expert is only a really good jack-of-all-trades
                                            she laughed     I see.

after 459preferred,  Sunday,  20  10. 24
1319,  Saturday,  2  11. 24

Whaswid dese drug companies

Christ! not again . . yet another of your hard-ons?

Yah bet your sweet ass
                          Romantising drugslemme  lemme correct tha  illicit once  illicit cannabis  romantise the hell out of them   but prescription drugs unromantic Not a damn thing romantic about takin drugs thamebbe your life depends upon
                  Necessitys not romantic

Awright.  I’ll play.   Which drug this time?

Called Cabenuva An antiretroviral medication for HIV/AIDS
                                                                  Funny how we forgetlet slide  our great oldfashion American amnesia  Cant begin to tell you how many funerals my wife an I attended
Fuckin government Gays brought it on themselves
                                                         Until straights began to croak

Trumpvirus rears president  government  lying   slow on the uptake
                                                                              Maybe the right people were dying
I lost count
            April  a milliontwo nearing three  then countries quit publishingsharing their numbers  But even then more than a hunred Americans a day
                                    Then

Ive no recent numbers

You followed American deaths?

I did
      Out the gate I knew Trump was lying  Its wha he does

But I digress
                Cabenuva
Yes.

Whadamean  yes

You said.

    I said romantising

I recall.

Yawanna stretchout  Take a guess
                                      Ive offered all the hints I can give without givin it away
What away?        

The romantising  My bitch my hard-on

    I don’t know.  I can’t guess.

Christ
        Casanova                                                                                                                  

I sppose cant teach an old dog new tricks

1820,  Thursday – Halloween,  31  10. 24
1055,  Saturday,  2  11. 24

chimed Time to take a shit and got up from his desk puzzled his cats  all his words puzzled his cats except  except their namesthey knew their names

taking a shit talked to him  muummbled FARted
                                                   frank  sometimes tart words of bodily wisdom

thoughtfullyrequisite he nodded  listened hard    replied Whagoes in has to come out

and finished wiped  standing he turned indeed to look see in fact how the movement had been  had it reached his expectations   did he aim too high
                                       usually they were in accord
occasionally
             Oops didnt see tha comin   like a newborn who doesnt look like either parent
fathers always suspicious


   they were in accord
                         back to his letter                                                                                     
1002,  Saturday,  2  11. 24

1.11.24

I woudnt excuse him let alone pardon him

ex-president
              “Let’s put (Liz Cheney) with a rifle standing there with nine barrels shooting at her.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6VHP68I2j2w

interviewed by Tucker Carlson (the Hyena)  Giggles

theres not a brain between them

1504,  reggaefriday,  1  11. 24

hes heard stick to the script before
                                     but he preferred acts that are extemporised  improvised thought of scripts as that thing which happens between point A and B a direction a direct line between them because of it
off script
           B  is still arrived it


    case in point

he was doing a reading with a young woman who kept improvisinghe could keep up  was a fascinating volley as they rolled he wished it had been recorded they created side stories stubs which would have been remarkable to elaborate  develop
killed him to interrupt
                          Listen  I cant tell you how much Im enjoying you enjoying this interpla . .
. . But stick to the script as is. Correct?

Yes but only because its what I do

she pursed her lips
                     You don’t strike me as someone who follows orders. If you did you wouldn’t have been as game as me to elaborate . create . . be mischievous.

Well we were playing off one another so well  Im so delighted    Were simpatico

We really are.
               And since we are . . . are you willing to take a risk to understand why I can’tI really can’t . . stick to the script?

    I am curious


Are you brave?

I don fear I don know if tha qualifies as brave
                                                     But surewha the hell Im brave
I thought you might be.
                               When I go off script it’s because, within, my creativity demands it anif I deny it it’s tantamount to lying.

Lying

Pinocchio style.

Pinocchio

Yes.
        You trust me.

I trust you as much as this brief time interlude  has allowed

You don’t strike me as faint of heart.
No

Go with the flow?

    As our improv proved


they were sitting on an upscale velour couch
                                                she ran her hand over it the seat cushion
I trust you. 

You won’t be inappropriate.

Only when asked  he chuckled
                                   If Im inappropriate my mother materialises asks me what the hell Im thinkingwho raised me an drives home the point with a crack across the back of my skull

I am not

I like your mother.

Don count your chickens before theyve hatch
                                                she laughed musical didnt cover her mouth that attracted him terribly
You’re funny.

Shes all business Pleasure only lumbers in when all work is complete

Great segue.
              Let’s get to work. I promise I’ll follow the script . despite.

she stood

he thought Despite

she began disrobing it wasnt a strip

                                            she had a marvelous body though he was aware
she was unashamed


she sat beside him again

their knees touched
                      Okay. she said looking him in the eyes  Let’s begin again.

they volleyed their lines
                          and then in the exact same place they went off script earlier she stayed true
line after line
               and then  she began to weep

the script wasnt sad  frankly upbeat
                                        and then  extraordinarily    she began to grow and grow  proportionally

she said Pinocchio

it was her speech

she kept growing

he dropped his line

she picked it up to be able to continue hers

she kept growing

wept


when they concluded
                        his knee
rested against her lower calf


tears wetted her cheeks throat chest
                                       he played in lakes with colourful beachballs
he wasnt going to be inappropriate
not that he wasnt tempted
                                 How tall are you

she stood had to stoop a bit placed her chin to her chest
                                                             A bit over nine feet.

Annow  wha

she sat beside him again
                           he stood went to the coat tree beside the door fetched his camel Chesterfield and covered her

she whispered Quite the gentleman.

I want my Maw to stay right where she is

AMish,  reggaefriday,  1  11. 24
1106,  reggaefriday
Art Shaw  Begin the Beguine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TK2mhzXf9AA

31.10.24


    she said assuredly  lighted in ivory candlelight
                                                         You can’t satisfy me . . . . religiously.
savagely Don bet your bottom dollar on tha


she was ethereal

he wasnt sure she was really there
                                      a ghost  wraith
a Presence
             only her taunting voice made him feel she was real
he wanted to pinch hernot himself  confirm she was flesh and blood   and sass
                                                                                         he stepped closer
whispered
               Religiously

she smiled it titillated him  Make of it what you will.

    Wha I will
                      a wolfishsnarl formed on his face  We talkin missionary
her eyes started
Ill fuck you insideout six ways from Sunday
                                              she gasped
maybe he hit the nail on the head

she didnt slap him


    religiously doesnt necessarily have to connotateobsolete  religion
                                                                         he thought outside the box
with a little help from his new friend
   
AMish,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  10. 24
1342,  Thursday – Halloween,  31  10. 24
Joe Cocker  A Little Help From My Friends  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXV4WyQMHFM

I wonder

Howstha?

Recall when former was being tried in New York

The thirtyfour felonies?
Yah

I do. What a shit show he put on day after dayfallin’ asleep in the court room I’d’ve had the bailiff crack him on the shins an wake his sorry ass up.
                                  What disrespect, disrespect for the Law, disrespect of the American people, democracy.

Yes We saw it alike
                      Remember the days of farce when politicians showed dressedup like him wore ties like him

OhChrist!had to remind me, I almost had processed that out of my memory, fuckin’ tools.

Good good ya recall

Yes. A clutch of wannabes waitin’ beggin’ their chance at the mike.

Brayin asses

Full of shit up to their eyeballs.

Hellyah
          So Im wonderin

Yeah?

Yathink when hes sentenced November Twentyseventh to prison that those queer dogs and MAGA faithful will dress in orange  tribute to the felon

1636,  Sunday,  20  10. 24
220preferred,  Thursday – Halloween,  31  10. 24

thoughts unthoughts


butts
burned

ignored

tag time
with acrid incense

smoke dribbles up

in fine threads
                 fan rib weaved

fabric stretched thin

embraced engulfed
                       emptied in space

   and thoughts
unthoughts                                                            

like wheat  raked  chafed

hand hurled
kernels dance
spin pointy-toed
                   and collapse
sapped

wait

patient

            shrug



resuscitated


thoughts

unthoughts

                      again?

Saturday morning in the bath tub,  19  3. 11
1241,  Thursday – Halloween,  31  10 . 24

he went outside to take a leak a bird lighted on the fence
                                                                 WHY
leak in the toilet
                 leave the porcelain throne for bowel movements
                                                                     HELL
he had a favourite pear tree limb to hold stabilise himself while vomiting

he ceded the outdoors all sorts of moist organic pleasures

happy happy lawn trees insects  weeds

                                               as he leaked he watched the marine layer come across the western hills the ocean not ten miles off a hazy gauzy ribboned apparition sleuthing under the blue skys belly like lazy sugarsyrup

a tendril turned towards him
                                  crept

                                                  creeped him out  a bit
at its bow
           an ephemeral gimleteyed figurehead fixated with him  stared watched him

he buttonedup his pants

kept an eye on her

                         Well friend   You enjoy
she flattened  spread 
                       felt her cool breath caress his face   only answer that could suffice

Headin in baby  I appreciated your attention your affection


Christ, where yabeen?
                        I missed my shot . been waiting on you.

Howdya miss tha dead on into the side

Don’t go there.
                      That was some kind of world record piss, friend.

I wasnt just takin a leak I had fans feminine eyes  On the fence a cedar wax-wing ogled me while the marine layer snuckup to join her  takin looks
                                  Who was I to denyem

    What the hell are you talking about?

I told ya

My shot
 

he ran the table

0104,  Sunday,  13  10. 24
1126,  Thursday,  31  10. 24