turning on the television MSNBC flickered on screen politickles she thought Of course it was

                                                                                                Did you want to watch this?

You donwanna watch it no

I can watch it.

Can an do are two different things

                                     Find something youd rather watch  Im busy with the Bloody Marys

But if you want to seelisten . .

. . Find something babe Were relaxinchillin

    Did you here that?

No I was talkin with you

Woman just said F A F O, the others on the panel nodded.

                                                             she turnedlooked at him over her armover the back of the couch F A F O.

he nodded absently  was doling horseradish into pint glasses halffilled with icecubes

You know it?

No

Why are you nodding?

Nodding tha I heard you

                           shook Worcestershire over the ice

What?

F A F O

         I wasnt one of the cool kids so no I wasnt privy to code acronyms thas remained unchanged

What do you think it means?

Without context I havent a hope in hell buckwheat

                                                      doled out three large green olives pimiento quickslipped olive juice in each

I’m sorry, I missed the context it was used in. It’s a political show. They’re berating MAGA . .

. . I know tha one . .

. . You’re hilarious.

I may be cooler than I thought

                                poured vodka no measure freshcrushed black peppercorns

You doubling down on hilarious?

If Republicants can why not

Excellent point.

You gonna look it up on your phone

Do you want me to?

Inquiring minds

                  I wannabe groovy

You are.  watched him freestyle tabasco

I’ll look it up.

Thank you Almost ready

                            poured spicy Mr and Mrs T mix

rinsed broke stalks of celery greenleaf at top thicktall green onions stirred the Bloody Marys with them

I think were good

                    grabbed a couple of paper towels sweat  theirs the glass’

    Oh jeez.

Howstha

F A F O. Fuck Around and Find Out.

Clever I like it

                 Ill forget it

I’ll remind you.

Na Zdrowie baby  Bottoms up

they sipped

Not shabby

No. Not at all. Delicious. Think I’ll be bottoms up when we finish.

Oh baby I hope so

Is that the plan?

I can wish

1743, Thursday, 15  8. 24

1816, Saturday,  17  8. 24

 

   he had a habit

                   say that juicy morsel out loud an like the commercial When EF Hutton talks, people listen. theyre on it like flies on shitcant seem to help themselves

Do you mind?

I don’t mind. Continue.

hed disappoint them

he didnt have a salacious habit

his was mundane

                     thought  Whas more mundane than mundane

DULL

Very good

BORING

Good

DREARY

Yes

ANNOYING

It is

BANAL

Fuckyah banal   Banal

                            Thank you

Youre welcome

not only were his shehes heshes Johnny on the spot

                                                        they were freakin polite

his habit was advertisements through the mail unwanted enveloped solicitations bills that included a last page THIS PAGE INTENTIONAL LEFT BLANK

                                                     it isnt

neednt label the obvious

                          tacere plural tacenda (goes without saying)

his habit was collecting those pages keep them on a clipboard an scribblewrite on them when something occurred to himTHINGS always occurred to himWheels on the bus go round an round round an round round an round

                                                                                                                an for tha because he didnt take shorthand in high schoolIDIOT he would have been the only boy in the roomIDIOT FUCKIN IDIOT how didnt he see tha then

                             an for tha tryin to keep up with himself afterwards he often struggled to read his handwritingDAMMIT

                        Whadoes tha say

heshes shehes shrugged You wrote it

You wrote it was ballsy

                         like father like internal cretins

he digressed

when he finally translated the transhated transmalpractised transfuckedup sentences letter by letter word by word memorialised them in fashions of personal letters journals emails textmessages Letters to the Editor hed flip the page for shitsangiggles to see was at home on the other side

sometimes sobering

                     not a week earlier he turned several pages to find he wrote on the backs of an unreferred letters of reference letters of recommendation from managers senior executives he worked with – not for – with

he was not a team player

they he rememberedrecognised all their signatures after much grandstanding worrying wrangling realised exactly what he told them Give me my head stay out of my way let me do my work

the lay of the employment landscape changed while he worked

when the company was bought they who acquired it brought in their own players he was out

not that he was surprisednot when he walked out of four interviews

                                                                        he did endure one

hence the unreferred pages

                             whell looking on the bright side which was not his forte he usually kept to traipsed on the dark side to informprovide others who were blinded by the shinybright klieglight

he finally got some use out of them

some time,  day-between-2-Ts,  14  8. 24

1310,  Reggaefriday,  16  8. 24

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SX7ZEotoFh0

Manfred Mann’s Earth Band  Blinded By the Light  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rzk3x3HZbJI

sometimes reality isnt large enough

it gets tiresome

maybe not to others but to him

                                 a draaag

who could give fuck

sowha Elon Musk used illicit drugs

                                     Wall Street  ooooh

hed shoot himself in the head before Wall Street would influence him

                                                                             although  to be fair

hed really have to think hard to comeup with anyone who could

                                                                    figured

if when he was a boy lying on his belly up on his elbows on the threadbare livingroom carpet watching Saturday cartoons all morning on a black and white television set that an uncle gave them that commercials geared specifically to children didnt influence him

whell

        unlikely anything would

he was not a consumerEXCEPT to feed hydrate quaff sip

                                                                  EXCEPT

drugs

now being legalised

                      took the edge off the high  illicit upped the ante

freaked his parents out

they werent square

unenlightened

Why? they asked

Maw Paw

            Sometimes reality isnt large enough

1123,  Reggefriday,  16  8. 24

Shinedown  Monster  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EzsCb7ZwlQ0

freeing flies

entering the kitchen he found a white cat whisker on the living room carpet an easy find contrasted with the earthenbrowns an dreads pattern  

squatting he picked it up returned to the studio he just left for a cup of Joe an placed it in a desk drawer inside a white security envelope with others he savedWHY fuck if he knew if he had to guess an it was a guess they seemed good juju anif he had to believe in something antha rhymed with Jujyfruits or Jujubes two of his favourites then he was awright with the world an it likely unknowingly awright with him

                                                                             pay attention one of the exceptional times hell ever refer to himself in third-person  an illeism  ill-ism  certainly is

                                                       Gaia an Joe

sitting in a tree

K I S S I N G

he humours himself

entering the kitchen déjà vu he crossed to the counter where the no-frills Proctor Silex coffee machine sat to the right of a window that looked directly at a neighbours weathered woodplank privacy fence the window was above a pale pink he was confident in his masculinity thirteen gallon plastic garbage bin that begged his attention when first he saw it it was tacky he sported a tacky streak if he hadnt Pop art would not have interested him  

What the hell he thought Lets change it up for this one cup

                                                               helping himself to his choicean array of cups an mugs how the fuck is it he acquired them threedozeneasy although at tha thoughttha accusation he knew the story of each who gave them an why  even casual giftgivers knew his priorityprimacy Irish whiskey medium roast coffeebeans an buffalos eachany an easy thoughtfulthoughtless emergence merger

changing it up he crumbled hardened darkbrown sugar into his mugstayed his hand from the blackstrap molasses it was an awfully good day but not tha good

                                     poured threequarters full

the topquarter contains the coffees oily aroma an before he drank a damnthing he inhaled first before he ate a damnthing he inhaled it before sex he inhaled the woman who graced him

turning to leave he saw three flies buzzingbanging at the window I can see the outside, how come I can't get there? flies dont know glass any more than he knew the age jeune se qua of a healthypile of whaeveranimal or human excrement

he set his coffee on the counter stepped to the window sprung it there was no screen freeing the flies that most likely gravitated to the garbage that they could sensesmell but he couldntAH

                                                                           the fortune of being a feeble human

1013,  Thursday,  15  8. 24

1012,  Reggaefriday,  16  8. 24

Shinedown  A Symptom of Being Human  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6s2j0Ys3d0

he knew nonfiction at night didnt play well

                                              though he hadnt known that hed debate himself hypnopompic which riled him awakeKahrist got up took a leak returned to bed debate greetedhassled him hypnagogic  took a commercial break blacked out only when revived debating hypnopompic again  volleying   neither taking No for an answer

    Whayamean  Shes a contrarian

                                          Contrary

If I meant she was a contrarian I woud have said tha

But you didnt

No  I did not

But the word youre using isnt a word

Arya kiddin me WeWe make them up all the time

Not in these states

These states are still us still we

                                    Agree

Nominally

How nominally

If you were knocked out in a fightknocked out unconscious  yathink tha word would occur to you

Have to plea Whereof Thereof Wittgenstein

                                              Not ever have been so I cant say

Although I woud say very likely because I recognised it hypnopompic hypnagogic

   The word again

Catastrophicean

NO

Wait My example is protean

                               From god Proteus protean roots protos- proto- having a varied nature ability to assume different forms diversity variety versatile

                                              However shes mired darkly  pessimistic

A contrarian on steroids

Hell lurks behind every door

I believe catastrophicean is just

   I don know

Howbout this

               Lets drop it think on it we can return to it this evening tomorrow morning in whaever state

Id like to get a bit more sleep sneak in a couplethreefour nonsequential dream episodes  Dig

Awright

          Later

a reprieve

he had no idea tha existed in the AM  REALLY

                                                  on the heels of his PM experience

6AMish,  Thursday – 16th anniversary,  15  8. 24

1238,  Thursday – 16th anniversary

nonfiction at night

doesnt play well

tha aint right

no matter the subject

he had plenty

A Year in the Life of William Shakespeare

The Free World

The Age of Grievance

The Scheme

The End of White Politics

The Price of the Ticket

Policing the Womb

Eve

The Rigor of Angels

better toss some fiction in

Purgatory

Toad

The End of Days

Journey to the End of Night

Nightwood

take a breath

nonfiction at nightwho woud do tha to themselves

like wearing a hair shirt cilice woud appear more appealing  lashing themselves

get Religion mortification

flagrum

lashing to irritate to welts to bleeding woundsHOLD ONHOLD ON lets not get nuts

No

      Lets not do tha

Although pain keeps you present

So youve said

Why are we talking

I interloped

Well lop back out

Are you sure

You want me getting physical

   they left

nonfiction doesnt play nice at night

2330,  day-between-2-Ts,  14  8. 24

1144,  Thursday – 16th anniversary,  15  8. 24

the texts began with a simple foray into AI he say simple

buddy likes hanging his hat on it

                                   Ray Kurzweils singularity 2045 the combinationall rolled into one mans natural intelligence cybernetic intelligence expanding intelligence a millionfold

                                                                            can you say cyborg

he on the other hand did not

                               If you think Man is lazy now  Wait

he had been listening to a conversation between Jon Stewart and Mark Cuban  Cuban referred to manipulating AI

he texted buddy

  :  :  listening to Stewart, The Daily Show, and Mark Cuban

Cuban made reference to manipulating AI

You understand programmers – their inherent prejudices

  :  :  I understand they are susceptible, as humans are, to be biased, yes.

  :  :  great place for AI – prejudice

  :  :  Can’t AI recognize that obvious flaw and supersede it? I hear it’s pretty smart.

  :  :  No Prejudice is hardwiredsoftwared indoctrination squared cubed an on an on if I were AI an my parents had me go to church I’d think I could be Jesus, I could be Gawd, I could be the freakin’ Holy Ghost watching women undress women masturbate because men unfortunately are all about their needs, satisfying themselves, leaving women in a lurch  Unsatisfied

  :  :  You been drinking craft beer? two beer emojis followed why use emojis . . . it’s programmed or capable to know all knowledge including human biases

  :  :  craft beer

it’s programmed knowing biases doesn’t stop the machine from using them any more we do my Dad’s racist, you think that stops him from saying nigger?

and when AI does something it is not programmed to do programmers shrug that’s not acceptable

  :  :  I would trust the experts on that . . . once they acquire “consciousness” they take on the human or life’s self-preservation trait

. . . greed??

  :  :  if you suggest machines take on human traits GREED is at the top of the list – it’s certainly not humility

Coors, my brother fed me, lotsa girls dropped their pants for a Coors

he hooked me up – back when Coors wasn’t available East of the Mississippi  you may recall I was living in Miami

Coors was an aphrodisiac then 

lots and lots of pussy – too bad you were in missionary California

the song: Girls Just Want to Have Fun MEANS grrls wanna fuck

  :  :  Cali never seen as missionary . . at least not after the final Mission was completed . . . I’m glad Coors had that effect on your ladies . . . they seemed to prefer wine here

  :  :  wine

missionary position

or else you wouldn’t be prudish, dude

threw on last year’s Super Bowl – too much fun

  :  :  Relatively prudish compared to you but not by a more normal standard a winking tongue stuck out emoji

  :  :  “normal”

howbout Cali abnormal?

  :  :  Cali setting the political/environmental and cultural? direction of the country

  :  :  Cali evidently sexually underwhelming

  :  :  I don’t know what studies would show . . . you and I make a small sample size as WE like to say

  :  :  like you LIKE to say

either inhibited or not

sex is salad dressing he tried extending him a bone buddy sometimes had three different creamy dressing on a salad

  :  :  Inhibited or not? Bifurcation or black and white fallacy . . . it’s a spectrum like assertiveness, intelligence, risk tolerance

  :  :  no

it’s sex

no intelligence required

feral sex

sex is feral

if you’re thinking you’re not fucking

Whardya go?

Feral sex a bridge too far?

  :  :  The mind is definitely a partner or participant in sexual behavior . . . think of what goes on in your own dome

. . . it’s an accelerant

  :  :  your perception of sex is skewed

brain is not a partner, it went next door after it asked: “We’re going to do what?”

Hightailed it

majority of sport is reaction ya think, you’re a step behind, you’re beat

  :  :  Maybe feral/reptilian sex involves a limited portion of the brain but humans are much more complex . .

  :  :  regarding sex, it is reptilian

my regrets to your partners

  :  :  When you see a proportionate ++ set of tits it is the brain that interprets and says “get hard” . . .

Don’t think even Playboy would agree with you . . .

  :  :  want to explain your argument?

no, Penthouse would

  :  :  I don’t think a brain dead dude would be a desirable lover

  :  : brain dead? is not reptilian

desirable lover?

I can see you’ve never been ravished or ravished

  :  :  Reptiles lack a cortex . . . mostly reflexive . . . helps with jumping but not much else

Ass-umptions . . . ravished I’ve been

  :  :  jumping helps with SEX hed jumped from moving cars that wouldnt stop when he yelled STOP so he take the opportunity to meet strange Wowmen

sex does not think – now your partners have my condolences, not just my regrets

  :  :  They never completed about Big George a thumbs up and a smiley face emoji

  :  :  “Completed?” Freudian slip? they may have lied

what did they say about your tongue? your fingers? your imagination?

  :  :  Possible assumed it referred to “they may have lied” . . . but not probable

  :  :  apparently you went out with simps

  :  :  The BRAINS  Imagination . . . my point exactly

Simps would enjoy Reptilian men

  :  :  I’ll let you stroke Big George

Simps would be uninhibited

Great sex when uninhibited

  :  :  Of course . . . Trump likes freaky ones . . . way uninhibited

  :  :  nice try

you’re ridiculous

former – missionary as I understand

according to Stephanie Clifford

  :  :  Who?

  :  :  stage name professional name Stormy Daniels  her name is Stephanie Clifford

  :  :  I know that

  :  :  Aw good

seems you and Bozo might be attracted to the same kind of woman

compare/contrast

we’re in different leagues

  :  :  I’ve done just fine over the years thank Gawd no emojis it was rife for one . . . quality over quantity definitely

  :  :  The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen

  :  :  You are in a league of your own in many ways

  :  :  quite the assumption: quality over quantity – I enjoyed quality and quality – feral and imagination go hand in hand

standards, bro . . . standards

And I have high standards

  :  :  Of course you do, bro . . . Valerie name changed to protect the innocent a good example

  :  :  thank you

she was

as the share you’ve enjoyed

  :  :  You pitied them moments ago . . . change of heart?

  :  :  pitied?

No.

Short-thrifted.

1731,  day-between-2-Ts,  14  8. 24

1026,  Thursday – 16th anniversary,  15  8. 24

Cyndi Lauper  Girls Just Want to Have Fun  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRr5EasAq84

The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1K9vE8LgqTM

stumbled upon an old acquaintanceSLASHfriend he did remember

                                                                        unlike J. D.

initials acronyms threw him

Hermes Trismegistus Thrice Great

                                           How the fuck could he forget him

now if he could only remember the wellspring springboard he went off to find Hermes again

if he were patient

                      when he put his mind to somethingdidnt push cajole it from behind  itd eventually ask Remember

an eventually he would

Whawas I thinking

Thas your trouble

Thinking

Thinking too hard too much

                              Relax    Breathe  Let go

AHhe entertained quotes by Italian cryptologist Blaise de Vigenere French painter Nicholas Poussin

                                                                                                           spliced them together trying to help a friend quit failing at his execution

from which he pratfellrecalled Thrice Great his his as much as the Bibles Jesus teachings Hermeticism

he took a breath

Good Look at you

and another

              Thank you

the springboard to remember Hermes Trismegistus was how he vehemently disagreed with yet another take on Gawd

All things preexist in GawdNO He is the nature of the cosmos being both the substance from which it proceeds an the governing principal actually principle  but he had fun whenever he could the governing principle which orders it Get me extra onions and tomatoes on that burger please He is the nature of the cosmos yet the things themselves  the cosmos  were all created by GawdNO

Hermes Trismegistus was revered

                                     his teachings proceeded the accumulated gnostic Corpus Hermeticum fifteen tractates and the Perfect Sermon the Asclepius

Gnosticism really didnt irritate him

                                      although it chaffed the hell out of the thenforming metastisising Catholic Church which hunted Gnostics  destroyed their texts scrolls with the fervor the earliest Judeo-Christians sought to destroy eliminate venus figurines Mother Goddesses

   stumbled

               thought to himself  Wha a nice trip

   

0740,  2sday,  13  8. 24

1211,  day-between-2-Ts,  14  8. 24

Frankie Goes to Hollywood  Relax  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yem_iEHiyJ0  he keeps waiting for Ryan Gosling to remake this video for the Obvious

https://sacred-texts.com/chr/herm/index.htm

https://archive.org/stream/asclepius.theperfectdiscourseofhermestrismegistustranslatedbyclementsalaman/Asclepius.%20The%20Perfect%20Discourse%20of%20Hermes%20Trismegistus%20translated%20by%20Clement%20Salaman_djvu.txt

https://www.firstthings.com/article/1992/11/the-death-of-the-goddess

https://lilith.org/articles/blaming-jews-for-the-death-of-the-goddess/

https://www.artslookup.com/prehistoric/venus-figurines.html