. . . head

Why think tha

Fish head

Ortha

   Im thinkin is all

Is all

Was prompted

   By

You know

I do

   Yah  But you rather I saidhear me say it

Know me to a T

Know you all

                Never surprised when you present

Not after all these years

No

     Consorts too long

Correct

            It was the dream

The dream   Yah

                     Was explicit

Wonderfully explicit

Rare tripleX rates wonderfully

But it was

Likeminded

Mirrorminded

Thas mine

Thas ours

     the rope that nearly strangled the boy  Eggy in a Basket

went to sea

caught sufficient fish

                       had learned not to be greedylearned to tack hours to sour those who followed who wanted to discover his reefs

fishing is patience is knowledge was his fathers gift a cherished gift when his father didnt return

coming home through town packing a weighty canvas of gutted fish he didnt feel the rope come untethereddrag at length behind him

the bars closed

the strippers letting out

                         some evidently too exhausted to dress   an unexpected treat

one slippedin behind him wearing only a thong and flats her skin stillshimmering from makeup she applied for her performance  humourously she scooped up the ropelooped it round her neck like a collar her wrists like cuffs the rope a leash  resplendent bondage  his slave   only when she could no longer stifle her laughterbawled that he stoppedturned  realised   he was a butt of a joke

                                             My    She  Was  Young  And  Beautiful

And Fresh

            she hustleup to him wrapped him with the rope asif he were her slave and led him up the cobblestone street tugging at the rope asif he were being belligerent  he was dawdling

                                                                       Keep up or I’ll use this rope on your arse when we get home.

maybe she didnt know how wonderful her ass wasKeepup bullshite

maintaining the spectacle had someone been awake to see  over her shoulder she laughedasked  Where are we going?

At the intersection go left a block then another left up to the top of the hill . .

. . Overlooks the sea?

Yah

I love the sea. I’m a mermaid.

6AMish, 2sday,  14  5. 24

1009,  Thursday,  16  5. 24

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Awcomon man  Arya really tha vain

You’re not?

                I find that hard to believe.

To a degree yah

                  But not to the degree yare  Tip your glass but a bit an itll spill

   Tip my glass.

Yah

What do you mean?

Wha does it sound like I mean

                                    Don play stupid  Yet another glass we coud tip an see

Is it that hard for you to say simply?

Said simply an visually

                          The old adage  Pictures worth a thousand words

Yare vain

Everyone is.

Im not talking about everyone don go global on me keep yourself as reference

                                                                                    Please

If I wanted other peoples opinion Id ask them  Keep the lens on yourself

Generally speakin . .

. . Yourself

            Please

If you rather  I can put it in contextperhaps I shoud have begun there I usually do usually say wha I mean  used as a springboard

There you go, now we’re talking.  You usually do.

I do

     But your admission left me breathlesstha said  Ill say   Im not sufficiently vain to believe a woman any woman woud try to seduce me

   

203preferred,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  5. 24

0849,  Thursday,  16  5. 24

Carly Simon  You’re So Vain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lT7I40wWYAQ 

he stopped at a friends for breakfast before he walked to the docks to his boat to fish

he laid a coil of rope he carried at the doorstep

                                                 rapped the screen door

COME IN.

                  Christ man, hamany times I gotta tell ya?just come in.

Donwanna catchya with your pants down

Not something yaint seen before.

he nodded absently

                      But ifya had a gues . .

. . That dog aint huntin’.

abrupt

dropped it

              I appreciate the invite

I appreciate the company.

                            the old man had a specialty he liked to make but he didnt unless he shared  his grandmother made it for him when he was a boy  she was English  Eggy in a Basket

they had it with black tea Ceylon

took his black old man like his with milk and sugar

they sparred   they conversed

   

                                         he heard something outside the door  Excuse me

What?

Something

            going to the screen he saw a boy entwinedwrestling a substantial snake

as he went through the doorway Wasnt yours was it 

                                                            No it wasnt

I ought to let her snuff ya  eatya

the boy couldnt answer a coil over his mouth another round his throat was turning purple eyes bugging

   I really ought to let her have her way

he reached down touched the pythons head

she relaxed her grip

sloughed from the boy

became a sloppy twist of rope

How stupid arya didnt belong to ya Coil it boy then off hellaway

                                                                     Catch your breath as ya do   I know you  Yours

he let the screen bangshut as he went inside

Aint ya gonna watch to see he does it correct, man?

Doesnt

         Hell answer to her

old man tskedtsked

                      Yause your magic in the strangest fashion.

Nough

        Teas gettin cold

      

6AMish,  2sday,  14  5. 24

1216,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  5. 24

America  You Can Do Magic  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YxzEpxHmCIs

Jefferson Airplane  Miracles  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7m8izf-oXY4

he overheard the exchange

he was in the kitchen doing dishes

everyone else was watching television

hed rather be doing dishes  wouldnt be joining them

What’s the horse’s name?

It doesn’t have a name.

You haven’t named your horse?

You don’t name something you might have to eat.

                                                    there was a collective groan from the den

made him chuckle

                    hed eaten horse he wouldnt tell them that they wouldnt eat half the things he ate  have eaten

sometimes he thought he might be a secret Asian  ate everything but the oink moo bark baa bubbles it blew

waste not want not

never was picky

gave it two shots

NO

     afterwards wouldnt sit to eat  No thank you  excused himself

You’ll be hungry.

   I will

          never followed the abject necessity of stating the obvious   axiomatic

something he didnt do

repulsed him

   truly

made him think Eejit

Aaw why he do tha  eejit

                            reminded him of a homeless taking one of his tame ferals off his porch followed him to the woods where homeless was going to kill his cat eat it before he could turn he hammered him in the back of the neck his face hit a tree going down peeled crumbled bark face got torn he was cold checked his pulse  had one thought good  if he had killed him hed have to eat him

nothing but him for weeks

                           Jaysus

 

2037,  2sday,  14  5. 24

1045,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  5. 24

he didnt catch her quite

                           Idle  Whas tha

I’ll watch it, instead.

Watch it  Instead

                    Please  whaya talking about

Idol.  I told you.

Whas idle

The show.

Wha show

It’s Idol.

I don mean to frustrate you I apologise

                                          Coud you explain

Idol. There are singers, then there are idols.

                                                    exasperated American Idol. 

I don know it

                I don watch TV I don have one

   You don’t have a TV.

No

How do you not have a TV?

Bad memories

                  Ill leave you to your show

Ill read

You can watch with me if you like.

No thank you

1957,  2sday,  14  5. 24

1015,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  5. 24

    pictures of people you dont remember

he was going through family albums with his mother

                                                         . . . Aunt Frances Uncle Walter . . .

Scarcely remember Maw

. . . Aunt Helen Uncle Gerald . . .

Scarcely Maw

she turned on her hip on the sofa and looked at him   Really?

Sorry Maw I was a little boy when they died

                                                 I have glimmerings of time with them but theyre few  I was a little boy

Id bet the other kids woudnt have a clue

Why you have me look with you

   she hmmmd

Yah

You may be right.

Don get me wrong I love looking at the pictures with you

                                                            They never fail to prompt memories thaya share

Were not really dead until no one talks about us tells stories about us

That’s very, very true.

                               innocently Who told you that?

he threw his arms around her kissed her hard on the mouth

                                                                      You

Me?      

You

gave a bemused smile  I’m smarter than I think.

You are

          You are our historian the repository of memories our families Dad an yours  Ours

I love spending this time with you

Note the other kids make themselves scarce

                                               Albums come out  Adios

Because they don know whosin the pictures

   Cant blame em

I wish they would.

Well Ya got me babe

                       As Sonny an Cher woud sing

   Who?

Stop woudya

               singsang They say were young an we don know we wont find out untiiil we grow

Yah

Oh, oh yes.

See  Youre not a lost cause

                             Show me more theyd be even older pictures people he definitely didnt remember

but she did

1957,  2sday,  14  5. 24

0937,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  5. 24

Sonny and Cher  I’ve Got You, Babe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9JxIw58lkHQ

Mama Cass Elliot  . . . dream a little dream of me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZ0PZRYin2s

                                                                                                            howbout  dream

with me

would have

but Mama couldnt tarry had places to go people to see things to do

                                                                         left

he preferred places to go things to see people to do

thought that said a lot for him

                                spoke for him to him

dream  dreams

                Jaysus

bawdy

       but thats the reason why he went to sleep  to break on through to the other side

not Morrisons

                          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFeUko-lQHg

not Death

shit waited for him

                     dared him to take the wheel  be lucid

he could do krazy with the best of them

                                            but sometimes

he wanted to be a passive passenger

an amusement park rider

didnt have to worry how tall he was

                                       rather

how in command of his senses he was

                                          because

like any real good carnival car operator sketchy at best they intended to scatter his marbles

                                                                                                   Take your best shot

the best had attempted

                          wounded him

but not shotdead in the head

approximately 6AMish,  2sday,  14  5. 24

0830,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  5. 24

Tears For Fears  Head Over Heels  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sn6gVWJn9r8

leftie couldnt find the right spot

he slept on his back

                    occasionally turned to one side or the other but not for long shoulder surgeries had put the kibosh on that

   kibosh

             ask a Yid they smile demurely but don say

he knew better

                 he asks only to confirm his understandingbelief   belief  understanding which   he doesnt accept thinkhe believes

                    belief

fellow Kretins are opportunists whod rather lazily take accept   than create

big brains afford that

                       when he asked  the Yid wily accepted credit  when its wasnt due

kibosh sounds Yiddish

                         not Irish

its believed Irish early Nineteenth Century   derived in a London neighbourhood

when he looked in the dictionary its described of unknown origin

                                                                       just like the Irish race

if Jews can be a race

Whynot

          by the bye colloquial evidence kibosh may have been a derivative of caip bais  cap  death

leftie couldnt find the right spot

she slept between his legstucked up against his balls

like her mother used to

where she was born

second of three

between his legs

                 he had a deep abiding affection for her mother and siblings

for her restlessness he slept lightly episodically

                                                   anwhile he did he roiled in the realm of hypnagogia where visions dreams werent a narrative rather miredadmired  a mishmash of disconnectedstrange personalities uproarious imagery that bordered on phantasmagoric

                                   truly Escherish flirting with Irish again

tobogganing on a sleeve of corrugated cardboard down a steep empty rotting concrete parking lot that terminated in multiple alleyways which entering one sluicingnavigating hed be disgorged at the top of the lot to give it a go again

playing strip poker sitting across from a fat man who lost the hand and struggling finally got his tshirt over his head and tossed it aside sat barechested  he groanedblinkedSUDDENLY was across from a young woman who lost a hand and like a seal slipped off her ribbed tank sat barebreasted

sitting across from a stereotypical gypsy woman headwrapped baublesbangles candles flickered incense moldered who after he shuffled the tarot cards spread them in a Celtic Cross but before beginning she shook her head said No, that’s not right. Shuffle them again.

and more and different and sorted and on and on and on until he finally threw in the towel

Leftie

she sat up crawled up his body

he rubbed petted her

                        Whadaya say grrl Time to rise an shine get the show on the road  she answered a plaintive mew hopped off the bed ahead of him as he tossed the sheet and blanket aside and got out on the right side  literally

6AMish,  2sday,  14  5. 24

1046,  2sday

pull-quote:

           “‘Kibosh,’ (Joseph) Conboy (a railroad man whose hobby is Gaelic culture) . . . “comes from ‘caip,’ which means cap, and ‘bais,’ which means death. It originated in Ireland about the time of Judge Norbury, who was called the ‘hanging judge.’ When the people would see him reaching for the black cap he wore when giving the death sentence, they would say: ‘The prisoner is “finished. The judge is putting on the caip bais” – kibosh. Thus when we say we ‘out the kibosh on something,’ we mean we have disposed of it.” 

https://scholarsmine.mst.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1198&context=artlan_phil_facwork

https://www.learnreligions.com/tarot-card-spreads-2562807

heard the shrubjay

                        saw himherherhim in the twistinleafy boughs of the live oak above him

sounded mischievous

reminded him of he in his youth

had to get the last word inhad to fuckprovoke whomever raised his ire

didnt take much

   was always spoiling for a fight

                                     but

hed pocketed what few would have imagined he had

   training

a Golden Gloves boxer

                          a little shit

but who knew how to box

anwasnt keen on takin prisoners

shrubjay cawed

                   understood its advantage

No ya don

CAW

Donya dare

like thawas a threat

in startlinquicksuccession it dropped limb to limbworked its way to the least obstructed perch above him

Whacha gonna dobout it

fair question

   they did

nothing he could dobout itcouldnt even avoid its hotbullet trajectory

                                                                          hit him in the throat

sheheheshe cackled as they flew off

1240,  Sunday – Mother’s Day,  12  5. 24

2234,  Monday,  13  5. 24

James Gang  Funk #49  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_qHU_6Ofc0

. . . movies are stories he could never write

                                                 but he could write a movie . . .

1949,  Monday,  13  5. 24

Willie Nelson  The Scientist  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZKa0ZjvTjo 

FILE  #17

   not ITEM #17 not PORTFOLIO though wouldnt be portfolio or folio neither in his vernacular

                                                                                                      file

anwhy #17

not 17

       17 is a number   why reiterate

   his why was legit

it was his dream

the tyranny of dreamingUnless  like him

                                           one can manipulate it  lucid dreaming

which hes had down pat since his early 20s

worked like a dog

                    its paid off

but last night he went with it

seemed a dare

FILE #17 remained static on the back of his eyelids for a long time

he thought You started this

his patience after years of doctors waiting rooms surgeries recoveries had patience

                                                                                   nearly indomitable

helped to be an Other as perceived by majority fearful Whitey

                                                                  wasnt racist

race is like pornography

                            ya know it when ya see it

an most cant hide it

though they dearly believe they are

FILE #17 turned out to be an oversized 3-ring binder

                                                                Aah 3-ring circus

an it was

it wanted to come across like a dossier about him

                                                     but for a dream it should have been more accurate

it was frustrated

evidently dreams havent long memories

                                              forgot

   he was lucid

                  an distorted every page as it was turned

he dampened some HOT shit

                                    he knew it

but he was Authority

dreams  often they believe they are    think Freud think Jung think psychotherapists

NO

     had the reins firmly in his hands

good try though

                 nice try

have to see if it – they would remain diligent

6AMish,  Monday  13  5. 24

Eurythmics  Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cp58INalLYQ

Woudya quit   Please

                         Quit

Ya remind me of a chick

An youre neither cute or silly

I like ‘em . . and because I like to yank your chain.

Not yanked  An irritant

                          To add a little more fuel to the fire tell me the last time I yanked your chain  Something I dondo

I think you do.

Im all ears

            Tell me when an why

   I’m sure you have.

Positive I havent

                   Not in my wheelhouse

Also  I find emojis emoticons tedious

Why I rarely use them

                         Sometimes to humour  my favourite the semicolon followed by the concluding parenthesis

Which iswas an early emoji endeavor an to my mind should have been the extent of them

They’re playful . .

. . Irritating

             Save the keystrokes

Save em for someone ya wanna be cute an silly with

                                                         Also words nomenclature I rarely use

Save em for someone else   Please

I think they’re humorous.

Okay  Ive asked nice

                        Tell me the last timesince you were unable to cite when last I yanked your chain the last I recommended a comedy movie or told you of one I watched

 

  Yacant

Also

       Because Im rarely moved to harhar

I like witty I like grim

Also

Which you unfortunately fail at

You’re awfully cut and dry.

I am

      Im also someone who doesnt entertain or wishes to be entertained

My hands are full with me alone

Hence my zeal my pleasure surrounding my solitude

1419,  2sday,  7  5. 24

1205,  Sunday – Mother’s Day,  12  5. 24