20.4.24


Careful
        Careful

walking to the grocerystore 

made him chuckle

an orange pedestrian diamondshaped warning sign mounted on a metal sawhorse

                                                                                           STEEL
                                                                                           PLATES
                                                                                           AHEAD
a head
          Please pleaseplease  Lemme round the corner an find someone standin there
    No  
       not a soul
GODDAMMIT

then looking aheadacross the street
                                           another orange warning sign  BUMP
Yah
      a steel plate in ones head would leave a bumphowever  had to say bump like Peter Sellers Inspector Clouseau would  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebkY0u1-NKk

high Noon,  Reggaefriday,  19  4. 24
1216,  Saturday,  420 ‘24

Im no renegade Ive just never been afraid to speak my mind

   tryin to be menacing Saywha

Wha
       Whaya want me to say

Say  No   You go ahead
                            Speak your piece
laughed
          Wanna get your foot off the back of my neck

No Called leverage cunt  Thas Leverage

Thas not leverage  torture   Ill only tellya whaya wanna hear  pain can be a potent driver  

Yathink yaknow whaI  wannahear

Got a good idea
                     Yaint tha bright
he stepped firmer

hed been stepped on before
                              hed blackout before hed say whispered to himself Let go
      went black
cold

Fuck
       was he to revive him or supposed to let him recover on his own

he wasnt tha bright

1652,  Reggaefriday,  19  4. 24
1039,  Saturday,  420 ‘24
Rihanna & Eminem  Run This Town  (Renegade)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NscJweAwGBM

 
   420 baby
              hail ’71 San Rafael Waldos
hail Lagunitas


in the day he was a head
                              Were you a hippie, Papa?
May have been thought to be but I identified with Groucho Marx refused to associate with any group thawoud have me as a member

I asked Mama.

Yah

She said you were a freak.
                             A freak, Papa?

Your mothers accurate
                        But then she married me Bit of a freak herself

   Jeez.

1000,  Saturday,  420 ‘24
Damian Jr. Gong Marley  Trouble  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNNBJFaLEYA

19.4.24


the back was still acting up
                             he took umbragedenied body parts that tried to hamper him as not his
his would not fuck with him


   needed a hot early morning bath
                                      the back remained unbending
eventually itd bend

turnedup the tempthe hotwater  endured
                                           closed his eyes as the tub filled

when the water reached his throat he terminated the tap
                                                             it was HOT
then opening his eyes seeing he croakedlaughed gloriously
                                                                      he needed that humour
on the textured ceiling above him seeing by the dawns early light a shimmying black spot
by candlelight the night before
                                    it wasnt there
dusty bunny on speed
                        he didnt think so

   he thought Lets see where this goes
                                          it asif aware it was being watched probably was moved deliberately

it was twoinches in diameter

a healthy spider
                        HELLlo he whispered

it walked upsidedown on the ceiling eighteyeballing him on invisible spunskeins
                                                                                                                 
it bobbed directly above him

he muttered This had better not be a suicide
                                                 he remembered appleseed
three times she tried each time he plucked her up just before she would have gonedown the drain he left her to dry on facial tissues

she tookup spun a web in the corner above the sink diagonally from where his head was when he took a bath


bobbingbouncing along the ceiling it DROPPEDsuddenly  
                                                          fell inches
bungeed rather had a sense of humour
he didnt flinch
              imaginedconceded  this was the perfect time for a spider to fuck with him

cunts back was out on strike without reason
                                               at least without a specific reason one he was able to identify
although  he had been asleep

violated he snapped to
                        MOTHERFUCKER
the back dared Goahead punk Move  I dareya
                                                  Ill fuck you up three ways from Sunday
it had the upper hand

he submitted


   as he said bungeed
                          it reeled back up to the invisible strings bobbled its way towards the center of the ceiling

as he watched he saw a smaller black mark spider   angling towards it
however
             cautiously

he grewup in a white suburb

there were no black children

when he was a high school freshman a white family moved in that adopted a black boy

his name was George Washington he did not take his adoptive parents name

George was the only black kid he knew until he went to city college

it seemed to him then that if another black kid moved to the neighbourhood they and George would naturally gravitate to each other  become friends

senior year albeit briefly another black fella came to high school

there was no attraction no coming together
STUPID
          how many white kids didnt he gravitate towards

Georges picture is beside his in the yearbook

curiously
           he and George Washington were friends
they genuinely liked each other

as genuinely as these two spiders did not
                                            although  he sensed the smaller was male and perhaps feared being eaten by the larger female

he couldnt relate


they went their separate ways on the ceiling


they remained
                spun webs in opposite corners

his back paid them no mind
                              reserved its ire for him

0606,  Thursday,  18  4. 24
0842,  Reggaefriday,  19  4. 24

18.4.24


Scarlett Johannson
                            she gets under his skin
saw liked The Girl with the Pearl Earring  Johannes Vermeer
saw the painting at San Franciscos Legion of Honor
                                                       blew his mind the fortyfive minutes he spent with the canvas
mebbe obsessed  painted circa 1665
                                       made her twohunredeightynine years older than him

was pretty damn sure Ms Johannson got the role because she looked the Girl though it wasnt until he saw her character in Don Jon snapping gums talkin Bronx that he paid any REAL attention to her

   then she crushed him in Under the Skin 

                                                  fuck
been a fan sincenot a fanatic  her CGshit is tough to take
                                                            but a girls gotta pay her bills
Under the Skin was her ripe red cherry atop the sundae
                                                             but he had to eat it replace it with a freshnew cherry when he saw her Saturday Night Live performance as Alabama freshman senator Katie Britt giving the Republican rebuttal to President Bidens State of the Union address
                                               Christ
Wha the hell was the senator and her handlers thinkin  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cCfLpuLdF8Q
last night in the tub,  day-between-2-Ts,  17  4. 24
1229,  Thursday,  18  4. 24

Don Jon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2A63Ly0Pvpk 

dessert

Thursday night Farmers Market

walking past a barbecue joint he saw two coworkers seated at a window counter having a bite

he rapped on the glass waved

they motioned him in

   walkingup behind them two coeds who were sitting beside them stood to leave  they offered him a stool

Hey thanks kiddos

they giggled
              Buhbye. continued giggling heads together as they walked off

Kiddos? Charlie asked  Yakiddin’ me?

Comparatively  They aryah

Yes. They are.

Howbout dinner?  Have dinner, I’ll pick it up.

I appreciate it Tim though no thanks
                                       Catching my bus turning he checked the illuminated Dixie Beer clock in twenty minutes I got leftover Kapusta eyeballs queried pork ribs  sauerkraut  in the icebox
Icebox?

Yah

People still say icebox?

He just did, Tim.

I heard him, I’m just saying.
                                 Howbout a beer?

No thanks I woudnt want to rush it
                                       I saw yahs in the window thought to stop

outside someone rapped the glass it rattled in its wood casement
                                                                     Mary
hilarious Mary curly blonde Mary six feet tall   a build that took ones breath away

they laughedrapped back she had startled them  

Mary waved expansively
                           in tow were five galpals wordround the office was they were taking Mary out to celebrate her divorce decree from a really shitty guy
                                         he cheated on her
Mary was on fire ecstatic  glowed honeyvanilla  buttermilk
                                                               HEY boys!feast your eyes.
grasping her pullover blouse at her belly she yanked it up over the top of her unfettered breasts pressed them against the glass
Jeez they gasped

stepping back  the cool glass prickling her nipples  she cupped her left breast hefted it  circlelicked her nipple  talented tongue
JEEZ

dropping it she laughed crazily pulled her blouse down roughly
                                                                  Later boys!
she walked off the covey behind her stumbled after her laughing uproariously

   Charlie   Tim   said nothing

Donsee tha everyday Mighty pleased I stopped
                                                       Well gents not a damnthings gonna outdo tha Think Ill stroll over catch my bus  Tomorrow


next morning he walked passed Marys cubicle
                                                 she was obviously nursing a hangover
Hey kiddo Good night

A fine night, the girls treated me real well.

It  definitely was
I didn’t know you hungout with Tim and Charlie.

I don just happened by

I knew they were having a bite, wanted to give the old timers a thrill.

We were thrilled

You’re not an old timer.

Oh but I am

Not by my book.

Youre sweet
                 Can you look again in your book
My book?

Yah
      Got a free weekend night coming up

   This weekend.

Dinner If you like
                     Anif you havent a dropdead favourite when I eat out I enjoy Italian because I havent the skill to make it at home  Figure why dine out on something you can make at home

she sat up eyesclearing I make sensational Italian.

he looked quizzical If you say 
No.
     I crush Italian come over to my place.

   Your place
                   Ill tellya wha  ifyare cookin lets go shopping after work  Ill cover the groceries  wine

You don’t have to.

I invited you to dinner

I like cooking.

Awright awright  I appreciate tha thank you    Sounds like weve got a date

emphatically A date.

Excellent

Oh. And dessert.
                   You like dessert.

Maybe mebbe I can have what you had last night

her blush was savage
                        though outdone my her grin and dimples

midnight,  Thursday,  18  4. 24
0956,  Thursday
Stephen Marley  Let Her Dance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAjudNmHNwk

17.4.24


return to grim reality
                      hes AMAZED that Republican politicians continue to ask  Are you better off today than you were four years ago? https://www.cbsnews.com/live-updates/coronavirus-pandemic-covid-19-latest-news-2020-04-17/  
blows him away
                   whats the disconnect
how are they even holding office

as of 18March 2024  1,217,703 Americans have died from Trumpvirus hed suggest thats an underestimate  

as of this evening  1,219,487 deaths
59 deaths everyday for the past 30 days  

“ . . . Out in the street they call it murder”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-SCf7OAAYU

1913,  day-between-2-Ts,  17  4. 24
Damien Marley  Welcome to Jamrock

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

had to changingup rearrange his vernacular

when things stared him in the face he cant blink  can Not see
                                                                   onceseen cant unsee

maybe not changeup
                       an augmentation

bitchslap had to remain

couldnt toss it wholesale to the side  discarded
                                                    might need it again   someday
enter
       Brookeslapped
more pleasant than it sounds

it simmered a longwhile before brought to a suddendeserving Boil
                                                                       onceseen cant unsee


it struck him odd that pool parties he attended as he got older had nothing to do with the pool

he was invited
                 accepted

conversations alcohol  flowed

the majority of people wearing unwet swimsuit worked their way into the house

he swam

Brooke sunbathed

he had the pool to himselfwhich was dandy

he liked Brooke exactly where she was
                                          on a chaise lounge wearing a pink thong
her tannedfanny was built for a thong
                                         on the Seventh Day Gawd must have created it for her ass


Are you going to quit swimming, quit with the laps?

they only knew of each other through others met oncebriefly prior

Theres plenty of room if youd like to swim

   No. This isn’t a swimsuit.  I thought we’d get to know each other better, but how can we do that if you’re swimming.

Ill tellyawha Im not tired
                          Howbout this Ill proposeyou propose  a subject subjects an when I return havin given it some thought  well discuss

that was how then next halfhour fifty minutes progressed


she laughed
Im being serious
Go on. or That’s impossible. or You’re crazy!
                                              she had a delicious gay laugh deep dimples which he dug  the laps bought him time to conjure the ridiculous their chain was continuous  engaging

   Arya gonna come in

I’m . no . this isn’t a swimsuit . . we’re . . . we’re spending the night. he forgot she had a boyfriend I think I’ll go in.  I’d rather shower. 

Ill join you her head tipped birdlike
                                         Im spending the night too
Lemme take five fast laps

   absently Five.  she stood pickedup a diaphanous shell to cloak herself
                                                                  Five.  I’m counting.


coming out the shallow end she accurately tossed him a towel she took from the cabana

Thank you

Can’t have you dripping all over the house.

Straight shot inanup the stairs Brooke

You’ll drip.
I wont
        toweled off

Awright lead on right behind you There is a God

   she smiled coyly You won’t lead?
OhHellno
          he winked Id rather follow No matter yare a wonder from every angle

I’m a wonder?

I wonder

then silently likely each in their own headhe was in his they crossed the wide flagstone patio to eight steps up onto the deep porch

mesmerised he hot on her tail two steps shy of the deckshe stopped he banged into her almost knocked her over
Jesus kiddo taillights  Excuse me  Pullup short tap the brakes

she laughed playfully gloriously  Gotcha.
                                            he caught her dimplestheir reflection off the slidingglass doors  shed sipped mojitos to his beers poolside

inside they crossed the great room and went behind a vast sectional to the flight of carpeted steps leading upstairs crossing behind it she pulledup again
he walked into her again
                           she laughed before he got Taillights out
starting up she sped up the steps
                                    landing  the bathroom was directly across an eightfoot hallway that seconded as a gallery family photos interspersed with small objet d’art paintings

feeling like a kid he sped after her

threetwo steps shy of the hall she hit the brakes again
                                                          he cracked her on the ass
and because they were enclosed  ceiling and walls  the CRACK sounded louder than he had actually cracked her

she didnt OWspun to face him her smile remained laughter gurgled in her throat

You provoked me

backing into the bathroom she asked Shower?
                                                      You promised.
I said Id join you
                   Come in

   No.  You promised.


if he promised he promised

neverever went back on his word


   in the shower
                    An open relationship  No shit

2300ish,  Sunday,  14  4. 24
1247,  day-between-2-Ts,  17  4. 24

struggling with a bad back
                              happens occasionally
he hurt himself as a teenager and like an old acquaintance who thinks theyre a friend they come around but since they dont come around much he tolerates them contends
theyre good for a laugh
                         although fail to comprehending the laugh is on them
theyre the butt of the joke

   but hope springs eternal

he anticipates ONE DAY theyll get it
                                       in the meantime
YUKYUK

he yukyuks pain
                  blatantly it reminds him hes alive
hes dandy with that

this morning tenderlygingerly sallying his way doorframe to doorframe to the bathroom  entering he lunged to catch himselfGRABBED a hold of the sink top so he didnt drophis right leg palsiedplaying patsy
                                                                                               a hot ZINGERelectric sputtering
couldnt catch his breath
found himself facing himself in the mirror
                                           his green MIAMI tshirt read IMAIM
had to laugh

then sighed Yeees
                   and at that very samemoment he wondered  wondered about people who were waiting
he was always occupied
                           never waited
and cut of that cloth
                      wondered why they were waiting
he thought they could pursue an exit but   You hear listen to yourself   I do   If they pursued an exit strategy   Yesyes  They woudnt be waiting   Precisely
                                                       conversing with one of his Mariachis
often he answered his questions without askingmost of the time without parlaying with a Mariachi but some were as forward as he  which is why they got along
                                               yet the interrupt woudnt stop himthem from asking
Whyya waiting Lemme guess Gawds decision

When my Maker calls, I’ll go.

Mariachi  Don do it don do it Ohno ya don
                                          when his back straightens out he was going down to the Pacific boardwalk and have a coloured tshirt printed Wha colour  MAKER
                                                       and stay away from mirrors
was no MIAMI

0859,  day-between-2-Ts,  17  4. 24