he was going to write Creamy

                               but a knock at the door interrupted him

padding down the hall he hollered HELLO

a HELLO. returned

                   he couldnt make out the man in the doorway

HEY JOE.

he recognised himbarely

                          Greg in his shock he didnt immediately open the door

a soft understanding smile spread across his face YOU GOING TO LET ME IN?  

Yes he cleared his throat  I we  havent  seen each other in a long time

NO.

     I WANTED TO MAKE THE TRIP TO SEE YOU THOUGH.

opening the door out holding it for him

                                         Please come in

Greg had been a big man  strapping

he looked strapped shrunken

                                  weary

Care for coffee We can sit in the kitchen or on the porch outside it

YES. OUTSIDE WOULD BE VERY NICE.   I’VE FOUNG I REALLY LIKE THE SUN. I’VE MISSED SO MUCH OF IT. I DON'T LIKE THE NIGHT THOUGH, THE MOON.

I havent any milk or cream Blacks okay

BLACK’S FINE.

 

they sat in the sun

their conversation rambledran over many unexpected subjects

                                                                   they had been coworkers but rarely worked together

as a matter of fact hed been a thorn in Gregs side

Greg headed IT information technology and he informed Greg of most of its failures and demanded immediate or as immediately as they could be corrected

                                          frankly

he made Greg work

but he headed customercare and his customers werent getting their moneys worth when Gregs programs dropped the ball

Greg didnt appreciate him

he didnt care

               Im doin my job do yours

sans collegiality

WHEN THIS THING BEGAN DOCTORS GAVE ME A YEAR.

                                                              IF I GET TOMORROW I’LL BE HAPPY.

he listened

I DON’T LIKE YOU.  BUT I RESPECT YOU.   I WANTED TO STOP AND TELL YOU THAT.

                                                                                              I HOPE THERE ARE NO ANIMOSITIES.

None at all Thank you Greg

YOU’RE WELCOME. I APPRECIATE YOUR HOSPITALITY. I HAVE TO GO.

                                                                      he struggled to stand 

helped him up

Greg let him

THANK YOU.

they walked out of the house wordless he got the car door for him helped him in Greg started the car no seatbelt pointing to it I’M LIVING DANGEROUSLY. LET’EM TICKET ME.

he chuckled

              Life of a criminal

YES.  BRIEFLY.

                    SOO, I’LL NOT SEE YOU.

he nodded

            I wont see ya

wry smiles around

Greg backed up turning left drove down the hill

they didnt wavegoodbye

he didnt look into the side or rearview mirrors

   understood

earlyAM,  Sunday,  10  12. 23

Why do you stay in prison, when the door is wide open?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GCCnesv8nhQ

Creamy . .

. . STOPright there

peeved What?

Get off the hamsterwheel woudya

You don’t even . .

. . I do

       Know exactly where youre goin cuz you cant leap or fold or wormhole like me

Youre chain links A to B to C to D to E  or numericallywhaever

Now tout your linear reasonplease

Gay men in America.

See youve been playin with statistics as evidence again Thought we put tha to sleep

You can’t refute it.

Estimations arent evidence Theyre odds

Everything is odds.

Ifya play fast an loose At best they are estimations at worse inaccurate biased prejiudiced Which is why I discount em

This is where you bring up AI

AI . .

. . Would estimate

                    How many jellybeans in the candy jar Count em

When youre done counting youll have evidenced your facts

                                                               Otherwise

I don wanna hear

That would be time consuming.

   Tha  would be accuratewoud be true

I have my phone right here. You wanna know what America believes . .

. . STOP

         Wha it thinks  Theres a difference an it aint semantics

Alright. What America thinks.

No  I don care what America thinks

                                      Tha think will be prejudice by upbringing culture other turns of the screw  Did they suffer a minimal ten conditioned checklist to discover if they woud be reliable intelligent to participate in the estimation

I have no idea. Random. Stochastic.

Which means it may be analyzed but may not be predicted precisely

May not doesn’t mean it won’t be.

Wanna put your neck in tha noose under tha guillotine blade Russian roulette pistol pressed to your temple though better under your jaw out through the top of your skull

Not me

         Also tha thas not been takin into account

 

What’s not been taken into account?

Wha might yathink nots been taken into account

                                                   Knots been he had to humour himself because he couldnt count on Links

Aside from your ten point check list?

Yes

I don’t know I don’t know. I thought this would be entertaining.

No you didnt

              Youre as zero-sum win-lose as someone gets Prance out some obscure statistic you cherrypicked to appear knowledgeable Happy you provide you your knowledge but not at the expense of my I coud care wha America thinks You thinkin for America now Thad be switchinup  Usually you speak globally

Well, I know something you don’t know.

No

    You know an imperfect statisticpossibly sloppy as you cant attest as to how or how legit those individuals answering the question are

Also whas not be taken into account

Which you seem less than enthusiastic about

                                                Id be making you work you prefer others labour

Goddammit.

               What’s not been taken into account

The Nest

The nest? What nest?

The LGBTIQplus Nest has yet to be unearthed

                                                 When it is  Or when revealed Itll blow your mindAmericas mind

You’re so full of shit.

1340-ish,  2sday,  5  12. 23

1615,  Saturday,  9  12. 23

he broughtuplaughed 127 every time they managed to insert IQ into their conversations  hurr   equations

during one

            “A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away. It is already over. Nothing can be done to change it. It is a story of love and loss, brotherhood and betrayal, – not to be confused with betrothal – courage and sacrifice and the death of dreams.”  

Do you have to do that every time?

You mean bringup Richard Feynman

No.  Star Wars.

   No

      Do you have to return to IQs standard deviationsHA its bell curve

Pen an paper here do you want to draw it to illustrate wha I neednt see  Again

However they exis . .

. . Exist for those who need them want to deploy them   For instance  You

Again. trying to cleverly playoff his again Why do you have a problem with them?

Weel   Again

               Product of eugenics

You recognise that’s an abrupt . .

. . End Or ought to be of this discussion

                                             I try my best to humour you but today Im in no mood

I was just trying to explain a standard deviation.

Which I understand Fifteen points one side or the other

Sixtyeight percen . .

. . Yes

   Yes? What?

Yes Population

                No mood

You say you’ve never been tested.

Not to my knowledge

                         Mood

A standard deviation . .

. . Wanna call it S D

You don’t like acronyms.

No But itll recall something else to mind when you use it

S. D.  S. D.  S. D?

                    I don’t know. What will it recall?

Tha youre a sadist

                    An ifya really get on a roll S M Sadomasochism  Rolling  B D S M an B D an D S an which I think youd love A B D L

                    he laughed

The joke’s on me?

Yes

You gonna say?

You wanna guess

                    Well find out your S D or if S Ds

No. You’re too humoured.

                            Spare me. 

Donsay

No. Spare me as in saying so I know.

But youll forget A dismal aspect   Low retention

Maybenot.

Adult Baby Diaper Lover

Jesus, man.

Forgetawready

No. Gimme your pen I’m lobotomizing myself.

1430-ish,  2sday,  5  12. 23

1212,  Saturday,  9  12. 23

https://www.forbes.com/sites/quora/2016/11/08/richard-feynmans-iq-score-was-only-125-and-he-loved-joking-about-it/?sh=3148de362c42

https://monthlyreview.org/2022/09/01/intelligence-under-racial-capitalism-from-eugenics-to-standardized-testing-and-online-learning/

. . . Yagetit yagetit cracking himself up the three syllables split apart under his torrent of laughter

bro sighedrolled his eyes

                           he was always a few steps behindcouldnt keep up

which was alright

often he couldnt keepup with himself

like trying to walkup a landslide an avalanche

                                                  yet

despite the backwards descentthe swift disarray

he could still see the apex endgame

itd just take him a little longer to get there

I didn’t hear you.

wiping tears from his eyes

                             Do you understand  You don hear me a lot

A curious excuse

sighing and rolling  It’s not an excuse.

Context

          I framed wha I said in the context of our conversation so  unless you didnt hear the last five minutes of it its an excuse

Nobody likes explaining jokes

There was a joke?

My first inclination is to say yes youre the joke  but thawoud be unkind

                                                                           Second I refuse to believe youre so dense it didnt penetrate he chuckled

defensively harsh That’s not funny.

Ah he noddedhumoured more so  You did hear me

                                                    But as always  uncomfortable with the subject which you must understand is why I return to it as often as I do Like picking a scab But yaknow no matter how picked a scab is it eventually heals it scars becomes callused  desensitises

                                                              Somehow you capably defy that Id say its deepseated an Id say thas not good

bro looked like he was going to blow

                                      he growled Ever think you might be a faggot?

No

      You think you might be

Fuckyou.

Brother if I coud I woud I think Im a tasty piece of ass  No complaint has ever been lodged against me

                                                                                                            Too exhausted  Too breathless

But this is about you

Your terrible aversion

Despite insisting faggots homos gays   They don bother you

he clasped his arms tightly across his chest the fetal position when one cant lay down

                                                                                       You don’t shaddup up I’m gone.

Im gone its your place

                        I aint shaddingup

   measured Then you need to leave.

Lemme know when you return to earth  Appreciate the cup of Joe

 

he had walked 

it was a lovely sunlit blue sky day

it still was

      he chuckled said to himself

                                     That was funny

he had said Gays get more ass than heterosexuals  Yagetit . . .

1430ish,  2sday,  5  12. 23

1020,  Saturday,  9  12. 23

. . . A horse woud be insulted

You can’t insult a hors . .

. . Yacan I did

                  I did by only being set atop it  Bucked me kicked me in the back when I hit the ground  I am not fond

Although

           Ill stand up for one if they were being insulted or beat  In a heartbeat

That makes no sense.

All the sense in the world

                             However no sense to they who are ignorantYOU he didnt wait from him to ask

So you’ll insult me?

Youd insult a horse yes

I think I know. By your own admission you do not hang around with horses.

No.

     My ex-wif . .

. . Nothing to brag abou . .

. . Excuse me . .

. . All to hell  Do I have to hear an ex-wife tale

I helped her with her horses.

Wha a guy

              Up until you she was doin awrighthadnt needed any help

No. But why wouldn’t I?

Why woudya

                She help you out with gobs an gobs of sex

This has nothing to do wit . .

. . It does

fucking guys face went flush

                                It.  Doesn’t.

Does

      Youd insult a horse

Confirmation is the correct vernacular.

No

     Configuration

No. Here. I’ll find it.

before he could tell him not to he had his trusty phone out and was Googling

   Here. No. That’s not it.   Confirmation. Isn't that usually have something to do with church?

After First Holy Communion Ya get to choose a sainted middle name  Ojoy

Were you confirmed?

No  First Communion nearly killed me

   Confirmation.

Not confirmation

Oh. No.   It’s conformatio . .

. . Which is different  

                       An frankly no better still insulting

                       

But it’s not configuration.

Youre killin me Bleat your conformation

Conformation. The shape or structure of something, especially an animal I was right.

An configuration

It’s not . .

. . Wastin my time look it up  Yaforced me to humour you an your trusty companion

Unlike your ex-wife

Quit with her . .

. . Sooner you look it up I will  Shes leverage

   Configuration.

                     Hmmm.

Whas it say

It says . . . an arrangement of elements in a particular form, figure, or combination.

BAM

No bam.

Youre an idiot tellya wha

What?

Are you going to say?

Rather than insult a horse Tellya wha

                                          Walk up to any woman an say  I coudnt help myself  I had to come over an compliment you on your conformation  Might get popped in the chops   Same woman  Compliment her on her configuration  Shell take tha as a compliment

                                                 Figures in it

Formation sounds dumpy

Id be forced to bet on it

  

   Fuck you.

Lemme guess

                   Semantics

1414,  2sday,  5  12. 23

1506,  Reggaefriday – John Lennon,  8  12. 23

Lennon  Woman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y0jTA0DtZvY

he was talking with his Dad

chewing the fat

getting caughtup

sharing what books they were reading or intended to read

what was new with the family

conversation slipped to his youngest brotherKids a character

                                                              That kid’s a character. his father echoing his thought

which made him laugh

all his siblings were

                       Ah  But yaknow where tha came from

Came from? What?

What characters your children are

Careful, son.

               I want you to rememberyou were there, remember that your little brother fell off the slide at the family picnic, landed on his head. You may also recall that the doctor said children are bouncy, your brother had that going for him, but he warned there may have been a brain injury that wasn’t apparent then, though may exhibit when he was older.

I remember

               But hes always been a bit touched

Are you really saying that about your brother?

I am

         Hes number eight Dad

Lemme say this   Im number one I know full well that the attributes genetics ifya woud  tha entering this life I helped myself to the top shelf  Im assuming that each an every of my siblings took from whawas left   As number eight

Id guess slim pickings

his father nodded as he spoke

                                  There is that, son, there’s that.

But if I also may say

                       he waited maybe his father didnt want to hear  hed spare him

Yes.

Me and my brothers and sisters weel   we didnt fall far from the apple tree

his nodding stopped

                      What are you implying?

Nothing  I said it

                   Were characters because you an Maw are characters

his nodding began again

                            although he didnt say

that which prompted the vignette was his father telling him that his brother had spent an afternoon the past weekend

   So he’s going to leave. I gave him a big hug and a kiss. As he stepped back from me I said to him, you know, either I’m shrinking or you’re getting bigger.

It’s you, Dad. It’s you.

                         The kid’s a character. 

they laughed

1303,  Reggaefriday – John Lennon,  8  12. 23

GOT CATS

                 it begged asking

he was returning some fouled DVDs to the library desk

Michael who he knew from working with before Michael became a librarian helped him

he asked him if he was getting excited to see his kids for the Holidayswhen was he expecting them home from college

They’re not coming home.

Wha

      he remembered his excitement when his girls came home to spend Christmas and sometimes New Years he woudnt hold tha against them  New Years was a time to be with friends  he hadnt spent a New Years with his parents since last century

No. Not this year. My wife and I will go up during the interim, while they have time off, we haven’t firmed up the time yet.

Weelshit Thas a bummer

Yeah. They have cats.

he tilted his head like a dog to a whistle

                                            Furred commitments  I get it   I got em too

Yeah.

        We didn’t give them the option of leaving their cats home with us. Their pets, not ours.

that stung a bit 

he covered his girls

he covered his wife

although when she died she couldnt take them with her 

1330,  Thursday – Pearl Harbor,  7  12. 23

1126,  Reggaefriday – John Lennon,  8  12. 23

he wasnt going to say

                         but then he was provoked again  by an inane feckless believer who could take their Faith and shove it up their ass

last Tuesday House Speaker Mike Johnson addressed the National Association of Christian Lawmakers (NACL) he was “grateful” the Press wasnt allowed inside

the NACL founded by a former Arkansas state senator Jason Rapert thas unfortunate coud be spelled Rape-rt or Raper-t  expressed hope that in 2024 Americans “will re-elect Jesus to be on the throne here again in our country.”

     he had been willing to let things go since his girlfriend laughedmocked him of his inadvertent acronym for the former

       I can’t believe I’m beating you to the punch.

Whastha

Fat orange eunuch.

Thaswha I said

Yes.    Awrightee.  Your acronym he flincheddidnt like em is FOE.

   Obrother

You said it.

snorted

          Though apropos

Yes. Very.

hed been willing to let it go not fixate on former  malignancies untreated usually kill their host

                                                                                                    but re-elect Jesus to be on the throne again chapped his hide

he thought it was Orange Jesus

then no sooner had he read re-elect Jesus he read Red Caesar

                                                                   all he could think was

if given a shot a chance

                          formerd be called black an blue cunt hur  BBC

which he thought might not chap the British Broadcasting Corporations hide

1642,  Thursday – Pearl Harbor,  7  12. 23

0955,  Reggaefriday – John Lennon,  8  12. 23

https://www.msnbc.com/opinion/msnbc-opinion/house-speaker-mike-johnson-moses-speech-rcna128126?cid=eml_mda_20231208&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2023/oct/01/red-caesar-authoritarianism-republicans-extreme-right

“I can stand in the middle of Fifth Avenue and shoot somebody, and I wouldn’t lose any voters, OK?”

                                                                                                           Right                        

he was happy at least he didnt concluded his offensive remark with right OK is more aligned with the formers intellect

ZIP NADA   NONE

also at least he appreciated that former admitted he would kill someone who wouldnt vote for him

                                                                                                        however

what he would have most appreciated would have been it not be a boast  rather that he would have said the time and date he intended to stand in the middle of Fifth Avenue

hed take a plane

rent a car

              Right

1550  5s!  Thursday – Pearl Harbor,  7  12. 23

1213,  Reggaefriday – John Lennon,  8  12. 23