took a leak

took a look

clocks hands read 5:55

he knew he shouldnt have

                             now

his best playpal was going to be all over him

that wouldbe his hypnogogic gargoyle

5:55 IS definitely stimulating him or her or his hermaphroditic ditherer theyre excitable

You saw

I did

Whadaya think

Despite going back to sleep

Wha

     We went down just shy of Eleven Youve had a good seven hoursyou went years on less than five

I was younger then

So

I had a job then

So

I have neither now SO Id like to fall back to sleep

leftie and shyhis cats returned to the bedroom with him hoppedup onto the bed leftie tucked herself between his legstucked up tight to his crotch shy laid on his chest her head over his heart 

                                                                                  they were two little hearths  heaters  made him sleepy

No no  not yetnot yet ya don

Wha Canya make it quick

that makes his playpal squeal with delight

                                             Like we do quick Close your eyes Well begin     See

Yes  5 5 5

Howbout this  5 5 5 S S S

I see

Then 5 5 5 S S S 2 2 2

Where is this going

5 5 5 S S S 2 2 2 7 7 7

Lemme guess 9 9 9  If we went 1 1 1 wed hang ourselves  Nowhere else to go

Right on  Anthen

6 6 6

Then were exhausted

No  b b b

   Yes  Wha next

p p p q q q o o o

Roll to 0 0 0  bigger 0 0 0    Yaremember

Of course I do     0   0

                       _

                            Heres looking at you

O   0

   =     Whistle while you work

I did

You did Irritated those few

Who irritated me Ate at their cubiclesmacked their lipsbelched  because they couldnt see over the top of their cubicle they thought they couldnt be heard

Ya disabused them of that notion

I did

        Somehow they could hear me whistle

You werent loud

No I wasnt Neither was I in tune though

No

Are you still there

                      HEY

Bastard

          Went to sleepwhas he dreaming about  Lemme look

he was building a compound topped with razorwire fixedup against his familyhis parents house that was torn down twentysix years ago

a bit distracted  He goes there when he seeks comfort

                                                           I wonder what hes seeking comfort from  Hmmm

hed ask him when he got back

however now heshehermaphrodite was trying to turn away their feelings that hed be playing with his other best playpal  hypnopompic pompous ass

0555,  Reggaefriday,  17  11. 23

1110,  Reggaefriday

try as they may

                 thamade him laugh  loudly

they werent trying at all

they were photographic models primpedprimed airbrushed photoshopped now he assumed hadnt looked at a skinmag for years

those glossygirls couldnt supplantsupercede the sluts he ran with wrote slutsthey werent he couldnt resist supplantsupercede the sluts   poetic

three came to mind in particular 

he played his part to enhance their pleasurestoke  their imagination

squeakyclean petite blonde cheerleader who was very cool despite appearances  wasnt selfconscious had porcelain Chinadoll features  was a fivethree stack of athleticism grace flexibility  which all surfaced when they walkedher in the lead to a small disused graveyard she knew of just inside county forest preserves boundaries it was old  headstones scribbled with lichen wood headstones crumbling on some photographs of the deceased set in relief under convexglass

she found a grave she liked and laid on it

                                             lifted her fanny slippedup her skirt slippedoff her panties turned her head aside  then resting the back of one hand across her cheek

                                                               You fiend.   Do what you must.

he did what he must enthusiastically

it was great fun

no Lovers Lane for churchgirl

                               he actually met her at church at a youth function she was a group leader  he had taken his younger sister there because she was becoming curious about religionhe wasnt but he respected she was and honoured her he wasafter all her big brother

churchgirl was freckled  ruddyred curlyhair sometimes in blueshade it purpled he dug that he witnessed it in the candlelit nave in the pews she took him there because she wanted to pray she said

                                                                                         she held his hand tight

the youth group was in the basement accompanied by nuns and the priest

she whispered she liked him

I like you

Good.  I want you to really like me.

she pulled the hem of her skirt to her waist put his hand between her legs pushed it up against her warm soft white cotton panties and began rubbing herself with his knuckles she sighed became warm warmer  and warmer   and warmerGASPedher panties  moist

                                      she looked him in the face

hers was flushedher freckles fierce her mouth parted shinyspittle on her lower lip he close her mouth with a kiss and kissing her he pushed her down on the hardwood pew got between her legs  they dryhumped he clutched her clothed breasts kissed her more kissed her deep  deeper  humping  until GASPinghis shorts moist

naughty girl

she was taller than him older than him robusty in all the right places

first time he got her undressed on her bedtheir clothing thrown everywhichway he leaned over her on all fours she giggled she refused to part her legs had them clenched tight together yet writhed wiggled her ass she concealed her breastsclutching them in her hands as tightly as she held her legs

he tried to part her legs

she was strong

                 he wasnt going to hurt her trying to pry them aparther hands from her breasts he wasnt having any luck  nor could he manage to pry the terriblyhumoured smile off her face all his efforts failed

                                                                                             then

in a rare burst of intuition he slipped to one sideflipped her over like a log onto her face  she laughed  he grabbed her ass with both hands bit one cheekshe howled he bit the othershe howledlaughed laugheddeeply  Im gonna fit my cock in your ass  she howled and laughed   but that wasnt going to happen either  she was  rigid

                                                                                                       so

he cracked her on the assOh Daddy!  Daddy. Am I a bad girl a naughty little girl?

sincerely Yes you are  he cracked her on her other cheekOh Daddy oh daddy! Look, look see, I’m wet.  Gordian Knot had come undone

                    she became as supple as a snake

afterwards in the morning they had collapsedexhausted fell asleep entwined

                                                                                  still in bed

she told him he made her feel safe he had a goodness a humor   she giggled You’re like a playful, curious, little boy. 

it wasnt always like that

although he couldnt say he didnt enjoy it when she was naughty

imaginative creative women attracted him

 

idea undated

1131,  Thursday,  16  11. 23

he walked through a colourful leaffall

                                             in California of all places

akin to a snowflurry

closest to it

             reminding him as a kid when hed jump into a pile of leaves he rakedup then squatscoopedup handfuls and toss them into the air over his head

                                      a leafflurry

a leaffall

330preferred,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  11. 23

0927,  Thursday,  16  11. 23

he thought he knew that his career path had been eluding a career  which deftly assiduously he has done

but writing a text to his daughter he admitted

                                                I can say I’ve been wrong countless, too many times to count – actually, I might excel at being wrong – I THINK I’VE DISCOVERED WHAT MY CAREER WAS!!!!

she replied

            Better late than never! ;)

kids a fuckin riot 

apple didnt fallen far from the tree

1455,  Monday,  13  11. 23

0901,  Thursday,  16  11. 23

Dylan  When the Ship Comes In  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5c9_XkYYjTU

it was an intimate venue

                           in other words

small and jampacked

had to excuse yourself if you wanted to scratch your ass

though it did get ones hands down within desirable climes

if one could find a place to set down their pint of cider

                                                         a ciderhouse  yes

first time in the venuefirst time sipping cider

                                               first time missing a mug a handle

always misses his fathers mugs

                                   heavy cutglass

could pound nails with them in a clutch

he was enjoying the singer

wrote his own songs

his intimacy apparent

acoustic guitar

                 was accompanied by a female cellist easy on the eyes a virtuoso which played keenly to his sapiosexualism  Look it up

two hands in the audience went up

he turned to the woman beside him Excuse me  Excuse me   he tapped her on the shoulder Excuse me

she turned Yes.

Thank you Im sorry whadid he just say please

Jeffrey?  she was talking with a man beside her when he interrupted

Yes  Jeffrey

He asked if anyone in the audience was the son of a pastor; he usually asks, is this the first time you’ve seen him?

It is Pastor  Thank you 

                         My daughter recommended him Shes attended three of his gigs in Seattle

she smiled all teeth I’m a bit of a geek, occasionally I’ve followed him on tour.  You see we grew up in Portland I’m not a stalker. she laughed musically stalker amused her  I have friends here.

Hes awfully good

He’s freaking amazing, his lyrics heartfelt, so meaningful I love him, I really love him.

he smiled I’m happy to talk to such a devoted fan  Thank you for the moment.

You betcha have fun.  she turned back to talk with the fella he interrupted

Pastor he said to himself

                          he thought he had said bastard   he almost raised his hand

1222,  Saturday,  11  11. 23

1007,  day-bewtween-2-Ts,  15  11. 23

Jeffrey Martin  I Know What I Know  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n2VOchBLwuE

God Bless his teleprompters

if words had to come out of his own headout of his big mouth  nope

                                                                         not vermin

The noodle?ah I get it, they have no spine all wiggly . . No.  Not that.  

Great word ver min. Ver min.  Ver min. I’ll have to practise to get it right.  Vermin.

curious how his take on teleprompters has changed like his take on the 5th Amendment

   “I’ve always said, if you run for president, you shouldn’t be allowed to use teleprompters (October 2015). Because you don’t even know if the guy is smart.”  hes proved his point that hes not smart

   “You see the mob takes the Fifth. If you’re innocent, why are you talking the Fifth Amendment?”  hes proved his point that hes not innocent

not to mention hes particularly impressed with people sickophants who have formers back

                                                                                                say Campaign spokesperson Steven Cheung who is every bit as articulate as the former

   “. . . those who try to make that ridiculous assertion are clearly snowflakes grasping for anything because they are suffering from Trump Derangement Syndrome (TDS – not in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DMS)) and their entire existence will be crushed when . . . Trump returns to the White House.”

like other carnival rides  the wheels will fall off this one too

1606,  Monday,  13  11. 23

1142,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  11. 23

vermin  former  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vkXETDiunFI

https://www.axios.com/2023/11/13/trump-vermin-fascist-language-speech

Steven Cheung  https://www.mediaite.com/news/trump-spox-responds-to-firestorm-over-trump-calling-his-enemies-vermin-with-a-vow-to-crush-their-existence/

5th Amendment  https://nymag.com/intelligencer/2022/08/trump-takes-the-fifth.html

TDS  https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/donald-trump/trump-says-special-counsel-jack-smith-others-will-end-mental-instituti-rcna124953 

coming out of his backyard after checking on his feral cat that the mans dog chased who hes cared for for better ten years  the cat wasnt a springchicken  he crossed their drives began descending the driveway to the street

                                                                                                                Not cool man

No, it’s not cool. Sorry.

Cant keep your dog in line maybe . . . 

                                        neighbour lost his shitZERO to SIXTY DON’T YOU TELL ME HOW TO TRAIN MY FUCKIN DOG . . .

angrily he raised his voice

                             neighbour had the high ground advantage realisedunderstood menaced him threatened to hurl the piece of cordwood he held in his hands at him  

Seems to me a man cant keep his bitch in line aint much of a man

                                                                      then turning slightly askewleft he said to the girlfriend An it seems to me a woman who cant keep her obviously troubled man in line aint much of a woman either

it was unlikely either heard him over the bellowing DON’T TELL ME HOW TO TRAIN MY FUCKIN DOG NOBODY TELLS ME HOW TO TRAIN MY FUCKIN DOG. SHUT YOUR FUCKIN MOUTH OR I’LL SHUT IT FOR YOU. SHADDUP, HEAR ME? SHADDUP SHADDUP.  WHY DON’T YOU TAKE YOUR FUCKIN LITTLE WALK?  GO. GO. GO.

                                                                                                               somewhere deep inside epizeuxis surfaced gurgled oozedup in his thoughts  Go go go  it tickled him

yah hed go

              the neighbour kept raving good chance he might throw the splitwood at his headhe was on his toes  hopefully hed miss let him fetch then naturally hed waltzround to the front steps to return the threat the provocation . . .

   he didnt feel like raving

                           Good idea man  I think Ill take a little walk an read

he smiled up into his leering redblasted face

                                                then opening the book in his hands he turned leftdropped his eyes into it and ignored whatever was spewingissued from the mans mouth   he couldnt distinguish words now   he was reading about the Underworld the hadal zone about subterranean trenches below twentythousand feet

   its hard to hear underwater                                         

1950,  Sunday,  12  11. 23

1300,  2sday,  14  11. 23

she sighed Do you have to be morose?

   Morose You know morose

that irritated her Yes.

I like tha People not often use it A good adjectiveunderused  but good

                                                                            Im not being morose

Then what?

I was stating a simple fact It crossed my skullhad nothing to do with anything I let it roll out No sense being inhibited

   As a matter of fact . . .

As a matter of factyes.

Yes

      Continue

I lik . .

. . Like he smiled lustfully

I . . I love . .

. . Better

I love that you’re uninhibited.

After all this time its nice tha I can still make you blush

trying to suppress a smirk  Maybe anger, or frustration.

   Or not

a full-on lascivious grin dimples to die for Or not.

No

       I apologise  I didnt say it to upset you

As I said it crossed my mind  Anthas no easy feat . .

. . As we both know.

Yes We do

Any idea why? Or the usual?

Afraid the usual

You’ve suffered a lot of lost . . recent lost.

Comes with being from a big family  Inevitable

I’m sorry babe.

Thank you

             Big joys big sorrows cant have one without the other

So youll forgive me  he smiled hugged her tight

into his shoulder she mumbled  Forgiven.

. . . somebody dies everyday

eventually everyone dies . . .

  

1736,  Reggaefriday,  10  11. 23

1144,  2sday,  14  11. 23

they stopped at a fourway intersection

the passenger asked which way she thought hed go

across from them was a DO NOT ENTER barricade a couple of traffic horses fanny to fanny

acceleratingcrossing the roaddriving up onto the shoulder to get around a horse the passenger yelled Are you nuts?

without glancing at himeyes fixed straight ahead she said flatly No. This is the way he’d go. You want out?I’ll stop.

0505,  2sday,  14  11. 23

he thought to live dangerously

decided not to make his bed

anif he didnt

he wouldnt have to sleep in it

he recalled his Maws threat

                               You’ve made your bed, now you’re going to have to sleep in it.

Obviously

             that reasoning had a hole in it

which left him no choice but to exploit it

   maybe she would have been angry at him

but

      shed appreciate his astute conniving

0520,  2sday,  14  11. 23

he went wide

               caught out the corner of his eye the coloured shudder of clothing between the tall vertical fence slats

the unfortunate emerged 

                      I wanna talk to you.

Nothing to gain man I saw ya lost your shit so take all the time in all the world all the room yaneed to find it 

                                                                                                                  Aint helpin

You fucked with me, man.

No Your dog went after my cat

                                  Not cool

I apologized.

You didnt apologise for not restraining your animal 

I told you she was a year old.

I coud give a fuck 

                   Not on her on you Ya didnt restrain her nothing to do with her  All on your head

I should’ve . .

. . Brained me  With tha piece of cordwood ya threatened me with

                                                                       Missed An yawoud have because ya were so amped Idve used it on you

Yeah?

Fuckin damn rightyah Yamay have served but you aint wha you were  I don care where you servedwhere you volunteered I was drafted

                              Aint nothing makes ya more crazedmore a killer than being forced to survive

Fuckin leave me be

he turned his back on him

   no  didnt take his opportunity

he walked down the drive with a book in hand for another  little    walk

1511,  Monday,  13  11. 23

1001PM preferred, Monday

Doors  The End  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXqPNlng6uI

he usually likes to have his say . . but sometimes it is better to let people speak for themselves

"He lacks any shred of human decency, humility or caring," the former White House official told (Jonathan) Karl. "He is morally bankrupt, breathtakingly dishonest, lethally incompetent, and stunningly ignorant of virtually anything related to governing, history, geography, human events or world affairs. He is a traitor and a malignancy in the nation, and represents a clear and present danger to our democracy, and the rule of law."

1836,  Monday,  13  11. 23

https://www.rawstory.com/trump-stupid-ignorant-traitor-book/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_bHkPsSIGLw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mO2rR_iqdjk

I heard something I hadnt heard before  Maybe you have

I’m all ears, though by your expression should I sit down?

No Thas not necessary

                          Im bemused Id have thought with all my experience tha Id have noticed

Still, quite an expression, maybe I ought to take a picture so you can see.

No you don I can feel it  Ya know I don like photos taken of me

You did when you were younger.

Thawas transactional I was making money Since I walked away its been sorry Madonna  aint strikin a pose

I’ve seen pictures . .

. . They were candid  I happened to be in the field

You’re no fun.

Maybe this will strike you funny

                                   Bemused  No   Actually Im astonished

Astonished?

             You?

Yah me Astonished

Tell me

Think Ill ask

Ask me.

Are you familiar with breasts being dense  Or for tha matter less dense

Dense breasts?

Yah

       Id say virtually all the girls an women Ive been with have had similar breastsya know  breast size cup size  Dense Weight   Waterballoonish firm

                                             I don know  But I learned last night its a thing

I don’t even know what that means.

Yah

      Only thing tha crosses my mind is tha they hold their shape as a woman gets older  Gravity takes the backseat for the immediate future

I guess that would make sense.

Maybe less fatty tissue

                            Less jiggle

Ooh. 

Wha

I like jiggles.

I don know Im guessing

You don’t like jiggle?

Its fine  though as Ive been thinkinbout it   Id say  nearly all the women Ive been with have been athletes remained athletic

          Not manyif any tha I recall   were jigglers  

Were heavers

   I’d juggle jigglers.   

1714,  Monday,  31  10. 23

1157,  Monday,  13  11. 23

Madonna  Vogue  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GuJQSAiODqI

Looks like somethings got your dabber down.

   Thawas astute You surprised me

his face went a little slack

                              I . . surprised you?

Yah  scratched his earlobe with a fingernail Yes  Youre rarely astutehence  surprised

swayed his head like shaking off a punch Awcomeon.

Awcomeon nothing its probably only the secondthird time Ive found you astute Maybe someone else has lavished you

Although I do hold the bar high

more than a little deflated Whatever.

Annow I drop my compliment Really   Whaever

                                                    Wha a dismal reply

What do you expect me to say?

I woud have continued commiserating looks like somethings got you down

  

   he shrugged What’s up?

Thas better better than whaever Thank you

                                                  Anna  The woman Ive been dating awhile

Yes.

Have been considering asking her if she might want to move in together Half the time at my place her place Finances  Which sounds coldblooded mercenary  Financially it woud boost us both Put money away for rainy days   Because they come

Which makes sense.

                       If I met someonewe remained connected for a considerable time . . I might see moving in togetherasking.

he nodded

I like Anna.

I really really like Anna

                           I don use the word love lightly  Its an awesome   obligation

I understand.

Yes

What’s the problem?

Saying it sounds  petty insignificantIm not either

                                                      Not usually

Moving in together is an obligation.

                                       I’ve never lived with a woman.  Maybe.   No I won’t.

Why

I think . . well no . can’t say I thinkI know . . old school . my parents didn’t.  

                                                                                  You did.

We did 

An you did when living together was frowned upon . .

. . You have no idea Although tha woudnt have happened if I hadnt told Cindi I loved her prior We took more than a few on the chin

                People are ignorant

Annow maybe Im being ignorant

The problem?

Garlic

   You a vampire?

Clever  astute if you woud  an funny in the same day  Better mark tha down on the calendar

See?  I have my moments.

Yes

     But theyre spread so so  so very far apart

That’s called something, isn’t it?

Yes it is

          Wha

   I don’t remember.

                       But you do.

I do

Need time to find it resuscitate it

No. No. It’s lost under the rubble of my mind.  Please?

Epizeuxis

Yes.  I don’t know why I can’t ever remember it.

   Because I can

Is that a question or statement?

Yes

        Ya like tha 

Im pulling a you on you   Yes

Funny guy.

              But swinging back aroun . .

. . Garlic

Yes

     I like garlicreally love garlic  in my evening dinners On occasionalbeit frequently

What’s frequently?

Three sometimes four times a week

That’s pretty damn frequent.  I . . I can’t remember the last time I used it.

You don cook Dine out or microwave something

                                                    Works for youHell ya eat gas station fried chicken

Not going to let that go.

I am not

           But thasaid I do love garlic

What’s the problem?

Anna eats a head a day every morning 

                                           Every morning

And there are aspects of ingesting and  excreting  thamuch garlic

Use aerosols.

I do not like aersols at all Sam I Am

                                      Chemical scents phony scents disgust me

Then, I’d say, you’re verging on your preposterous one-strike and you’re out notion, it's a dealbreaker.

                                                                                                           Wouldn’t you?

   Woudnt I

Is that a question or statement?

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