it was an intimate venue

                           in other words

small and jampacked

had to excuse yourself if you wanted to scratch your ass

though it did get ones hands down within desirable climes

if one could find a place to set down their pint of cider

                                                         a ciderhouse  yes

first time in the venuefirst time sipping cider

                                               first time missing a mug a handle

always misses his fathers mugs

                                   heavy cutglass

could pound nails with them in a clutch

he was enjoying the singer

wrote his own songs

his intimacy apparent

acoustic guitar

                 was accompanied by a female cellist easy on the eyes a virtuoso which played keenly to his sapiosexualism  Look it up

two hands in the audience went up

he turned to the woman beside him Excuse me  Excuse me   he tapped her on the shoulder Excuse me

she turned Yes.

Thank you Im sorry whadid he just say please

Jeffrey?  she was talking with a man beside her when he interrupted

Yes  Jeffrey

He asked if anyone in the audience was the son of a pastor; he usually asks, is this the first time you’ve seen him?

It is Pastor  Thank you 

                         My daughter recommended him Shes attended three of his gigs in Seattle

she smiled all teeth I’m a bit of a geek, occasionally I’ve followed him on tour.  You see we grew up in Portland I’m not a stalker. she laughed musically stalker amused her  I have friends here.

Hes awfully good

He’s freaking amazing, his lyrics heartfelt, so meaningful I love him, I really love him.

he smiled I’m happy to talk to such a devoted fan  Thank you for the moment.

You betcha have fun.  she turned back to talk with the fella he interrupted

Pastor he said to himself

                          he thought he had said bastard   he almost raised his hand

1222,  Saturday,  11  11. 23

1007,  day-bewtween-2-Ts,  15  11. 23

Jeffrey Martin  I Know What I Know  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n2VOchBLwuE

God Bless his teleprompters

if words had to come out of his own headout of his big mouth  nope

                                                                         not vermin

The noodle?ah I get it, they have no spine all wiggly . . No.  Not that.  

Great word ver min. Ver min.  Ver min. I’ll have to practise to get it right.  Vermin.

curious how his take on teleprompters has changed like his take on the 5th Amendment

   “I’ve always said, if you run for president, you shouldn’t be allowed to use teleprompters (October 2015). Because you don’t even know if the guy is smart.”  hes proved his point that hes not smart

   “You see the mob takes the Fifth. If you’re innocent, why are you talking the Fifth Amendment?”  hes proved his point that hes not innocent

not to mention hes particularly impressed with people sickophants who have formers back

                                                                                                say Campaign spokesperson Steven Cheung who is every bit as articulate as the former

   “. . . those who try to make that ridiculous assertion are clearly snowflakes grasping for anything because they are suffering from Trump Derangement Syndrome (TDS – not in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DMS)) and their entire existence will be crushed when . . . Trump returns to the White House.”

like other carnival rides  the wheels will fall off this one too

1606,  Monday,  13  11. 23

1142,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  11. 23

vermin  former  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vkXETDiunFI

https://www.axios.com/2023/11/13/trump-vermin-fascist-language-speech

Steven Cheung  https://www.mediaite.com/news/trump-spox-responds-to-firestorm-over-trump-calling-his-enemies-vermin-with-a-vow-to-crush-their-existence/

5th Amendment  https://nymag.com/intelligencer/2022/08/trump-takes-the-fifth.html

TDS  https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/donald-trump/trump-says-special-counsel-jack-smith-others-will-end-mental-instituti-rcna124953 

coming out of his backyard after checking on his feral cat that the mans dog chased who hes cared for for better ten years  the cat wasnt a springchicken  he crossed their drives began descending the driveway to the street

                                                                                                                Not cool man

No, it’s not cool. Sorry.

Cant keep your dog in line maybe . . . 

                                        neighbour lost his shitZERO to SIXTY DON’T YOU TELL ME HOW TO TRAIN MY FUCKIN DOG . . .

angrily he raised his voice

                             neighbour had the high ground advantage realisedunderstood menaced him threatened to hurl the piece of cordwood he held in his hands at him  

Seems to me a man cant keep his bitch in line aint much of a man

                                                                      then turning slightly askewleft he said to the girlfriend An it seems to me a woman who cant keep her obviously troubled man in line aint much of a woman either

it was unlikely either heard him over the bellowing DON’T TELL ME HOW TO TRAIN MY FUCKIN DOG NOBODY TELLS ME HOW TO TRAIN MY FUCKIN DOG. SHUT YOUR FUCKIN MOUTH OR I’LL SHUT IT FOR YOU. SHADDUP, HEAR ME? SHADDUP SHADDUP.  WHY DON’T YOU TAKE YOUR FUCKIN LITTLE WALK?  GO. GO. GO.

                                                                                                               somewhere deep inside epizeuxis surfaced gurgled oozedup in his thoughts  Go go go  it tickled him

yah hed go

              the neighbour kept raving good chance he might throw the splitwood at his headhe was on his toes  hopefully hed miss let him fetch then naturally hed waltzround to the front steps to return the threat the provocation . . .

   he didnt feel like raving

                           Good idea man  I think Ill take a little walk an read

he smiled up into his leering redblasted face

                                                then opening the book in his hands he turned leftdropped his eyes into it and ignored whatever was spewingissued from the mans mouth   he couldnt distinguish words now   he was reading about the Underworld the hadal zone about subterranean trenches below twentythousand feet

   its hard to hear underwater                                         

1950,  Sunday,  12  11. 23

1300,  2sday,  14  11. 23

she sighed Do you have to be morose?

   Morose You know morose

that irritated her Yes.

I like tha People not often use it A good adjectiveunderused  but good

                                                                            Im not being morose

Then what?

I was stating a simple fact It crossed my skullhad nothing to do with anything I let it roll out No sense being inhibited

   As a matter of fact . . .

As a matter of factyes.

Yes

      Continue

I lik . .

. . Like he smiled lustfully

I . . I love . .

. . Better

I love that you’re uninhibited.

After all this time its nice tha I can still make you blush

trying to suppress a smirk  Maybe anger, or frustration.

   Or not

a full-on lascivious grin dimples to die for Or not.

No

       I apologise  I didnt say it to upset you

As I said it crossed my mind  Anthas no easy feat . .

. . As we both know.

Yes We do

Any idea why? Or the usual?

Afraid the usual

You’ve suffered a lot of lost . . recent lost.

Comes with being from a big family  Inevitable

I’m sorry babe.

Thank you

             Big joys big sorrows cant have one without the other

So youll forgive me  he smiled hugged her tight

into his shoulder she mumbled  Forgiven.

. . . somebody dies everyday

eventually everyone dies . . .

  

1736,  Reggaefriday,  10  11. 23

1144,  2sday,  14  11. 23

they stopped at a fourway intersection

the passenger asked which way she thought hed go

across from them was a DO NOT ENTER barricade a couple of traffic horses fanny to fanny

acceleratingcrossing the roaddriving up onto the shoulder to get around a horse the passenger yelled Are you nuts?

without glancing at himeyes fixed straight ahead she said flatly No. This is the way he’d go. You want out?I’ll stop.

0505,  2sday,  14  11. 23

he thought to live dangerously

decided not to make his bed

anif he didnt

he wouldnt have to sleep in it

he recalled his Maws threat

                               You’ve made your bed, now you’re going to have to sleep in it.

Obviously

             that reasoning had a hole in it

which left him no choice but to exploit it

   maybe she would have been angry at him

but

      shed appreciate his astute conniving

0520,  2sday,  14  11. 23

he went wide

               caught out the corner of his eye the coloured shudder of clothing between the tall vertical fence slats

the unfortunate emerged 

                      I wanna talk to you.

Nothing to gain man I saw ya lost your shit so take all the time in all the world all the room yaneed to find it 

                                                                                                                  Aint helpin

You fucked with me, man.

No Your dog went after my cat

                                  Not cool

I apologized.

You didnt apologise for not restraining your animal 

I told you she was a year old.

I coud give a fuck 

                   Not on her on you Ya didnt restrain her nothing to do with her  All on your head

I should’ve . .

. . Brained me  With tha piece of cordwood ya threatened me with

                                                                       Missed An yawoud have because ya were so amped Idve used it on you

Yeah?

Fuckin damn rightyah Yamay have served but you aint wha you were  I don care where you servedwhere you volunteered I was drafted

                              Aint nothing makes ya more crazedmore a killer than being forced to survive

Fuckin leave me be

he turned his back on him

   no  didnt take his opportunity

he walked down the drive with a book in hand for another  little    walk

1511,  Monday,  13  11. 23

1001PM preferred, Monday

Doors  The End  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXqPNlng6uI

he usually likes to have his say . . but sometimes it is better to let people speak for themselves

"He lacks any shred of human decency, humility or caring," the former White House official told (Jonathan) Karl. "He is morally bankrupt, breathtakingly dishonest, lethally incompetent, and stunningly ignorant of virtually anything related to governing, history, geography, human events or world affairs. He is a traitor and a malignancy in the nation, and represents a clear and present danger to our democracy, and the rule of law."

1836,  Monday,  13  11. 23

https://www.rawstory.com/trump-stupid-ignorant-traitor-book/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_bHkPsSIGLw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mO2rR_iqdjk

I heard something I hadnt heard before  Maybe you have

I’m all ears, though by your expression should I sit down?

No Thas not necessary

                          Im bemused Id have thought with all my experience tha Id have noticed

Still, quite an expression, maybe I ought to take a picture so you can see.

No you don I can feel it  Ya know I don like photos taken of me

You did when you were younger.

Thawas transactional I was making money Since I walked away its been sorry Madonna  aint strikin a pose

I’ve seen pictures . .

. . They were candid  I happened to be in the field

You’re no fun.

Maybe this will strike you funny

                                   Bemused  No   Actually Im astonished

Astonished?

             You?

Yah me Astonished

Tell me

Think Ill ask

Ask me.

Are you familiar with breasts being dense  Or for tha matter less dense

Dense breasts?

Yah

       Id say virtually all the girls an women Ive been with have had similar breastsya know  breast size cup size  Dense Weight   Waterballoonish firm

                                             I don know  But I learned last night its a thing

I don’t even know what that means.

Yah

      Only thing tha crosses my mind is tha they hold their shape as a woman gets older  Gravity takes the backseat for the immediate future

I guess that would make sense.

Maybe less fatty tissue

                            Less jiggle

Ooh. 

Wha

I like jiggles.

I don know Im guessing

You don’t like jiggle?

Its fine  though as Ive been thinkinbout it   Id say  nearly all the women Ive been with have been athletes remained athletic

          Not manyif any tha I recall   were jigglers  

Were heavers

   I’d juggle jigglers.   

1714,  Monday,  31  10. 23

1157,  Monday,  13  11. 23

Madonna  Vogue  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GuJQSAiODqI

Looks like somethings got your dabber down.

   Thawas astute You surprised me

his face went a little slack

                              I . . surprised you?

Yah  scratched his earlobe with a fingernail Yes  Youre rarely astutehence  surprised

swayed his head like shaking off a punch Awcomeon.

Awcomeon nothing its probably only the secondthird time Ive found you astute Maybe someone else has lavished you

Although I do hold the bar high

more than a little deflated Whatever.

Annow I drop my compliment Really   Whaever

                                                    Wha a dismal reply

What do you expect me to say?

I woud have continued commiserating looks like somethings got you down

  

   he shrugged What’s up?

Thas better better than whaever Thank you

                                                  Anna  The woman Ive been dating awhile

Yes.

Have been considering asking her if she might want to move in together Half the time at my place her place Finances  Which sounds coldblooded mercenary  Financially it woud boost us both Put money away for rainy days   Because they come

Which makes sense.

                       If I met someonewe remained connected for a considerable time . . I might see moving in togetherasking.

he nodded

I like Anna.

I really really like Anna

                           I don use the word love lightly  Its an awesome   obligation

I understand.

Yes

What’s the problem?

Saying it sounds  petty insignificantIm not either

                                                      Not usually

Moving in together is an obligation.

                                       I’ve never lived with a woman.  Maybe.   No I won’t.

Why

I think . . well no . can’t say I thinkI know . . old school . my parents didn’t.  

                                                                                  You did.

We did 

An you did when living together was frowned upon . .

. . You have no idea Although tha woudnt have happened if I hadnt told Cindi I loved her prior We took more than a few on the chin

                People are ignorant

Annow maybe Im being ignorant

The problem?

Garlic

   You a vampire?

Clever  astute if you woud  an funny in the same day  Better mark tha down on the calendar

See?  I have my moments.

Yes

     But theyre spread so so  so very far apart

That’s called something, isn’t it?

Yes it is

          Wha

   I don’t remember.

                       But you do.

I do

Need time to find it resuscitate it

No. No. It’s lost under the rubble of my mind.  Please?

Epizeuxis

Yes.  I don’t know why I can’t ever remember it.

   Because I can

Is that a question or statement?

Yes

        Ya like tha 

Im pulling a you on you   Yes

Funny guy.

              But swinging back aroun . .

. . Garlic

Yes

     I like garlicreally love garlic  in my evening dinners On occasionalbeit frequently

What’s frequently?

Three sometimes four times a week

That’s pretty damn frequent.  I . . I can’t remember the last time I used it.

You don cook Dine out or microwave something

                                                    Works for youHell ya eat gas station fried chicken

Not going to let that go.

I am not

           But thasaid I do love garlic

What’s the problem?

Anna eats a head a day every morning 

                                           Every morning

And there are aspects of ingesting and  excreting  thamuch garlic

Use aerosols.

I do not like aersols at all Sam I Am

                                      Chemical scents phony scents disgust me

Then, I’d say, you’re verging on your preposterous one-strike and you’re out notion, it's a dealbreaker.

                                                                                                           Wouldn’t you?

   Woudnt I

Is that a question or statement?

1020,  Saturday,  30  9. 23

1045,  Monday,  13  11. 23

If I have to be critical, which I’d rather not . . .

he laughed as a reply

Why are you laughing?

At your remark 

                 Donwanna hurt nobodys feelings   Fuck em

I didn’t said anything.

Actually yadid

How?

Comon  Seriously

Yeah. Nothing. Not really.

Then let me say if I have to be critical though  though    Id rather not  Ya remember Its called paralepsis not to mention it goes without saying

                                   Tha ring any bells

Oohyeah, now that you mention it yes.

Good good

            Go ahead an mention if you have to be critical but woud rather not  he laughed   guy always made him laughcoudnt help but step in it coud find dogshit without tryin

I got thickskin Ya wont hurt my heart either

Well . . what I mean to say is that . . well . is that your pieces are . are disembodied.

Yes

Yes?

       You’re aware they are?

Yah Lotsa dialogues

You know you rarely describegive physical descriptions of the individuals speaking.

Not often correct

Why is that?

Their physicality isnt important to the context of their discussiontheir agreement disagreement argument

I always find myself wondering who you’re talking about.

No whos

          You fill in the blanks you can imagine whomever whoever ya want  Bring in a paintbrush or crayons

Pencil  Pen

Im not writing to tell Im writing to share

But don’t you think that’s your job?

Awman wha do you think

earlyAM,  Sunday,  12  11. 23

Bobby V.  Anonymous  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GYmKqlmfQNA

he arrived late

it was a small get together

usually he refused his invites Bennie was the kind of kidder that one couldnt tell if he was being serious or notdidnt tip his hand constantly met eyes with deadpan expressions

                                                            angiven that on more than one occasion he became the butt of a joke  not that softhumiliation is the worst thing one can suffer

it certainly isnt something one pursues

BUT

    theres always a BUT

Bennie invited Cari she was a screwy chick hed taken a serious liking to

                                                                              screwy may not be right

goofy? nah  he preferred screwy to goofy goofy seems dumb and Cari wasnt that

invite was for One  a bright shinyblue day

                                              the infinity pool he did like that the water the color of the sky anif Cari wore the lemonyellow bikini she talked up the prior weekend when they met for a beer he couldnt imagine one not fantastically complimenting the other

he ran late because he was helping his cousin with a junior college paper she was cousin couple times removed he would remind himself she was to offsetdefray the sexual tension which always arose when they got together and they got together because she was always choosing the most difficult most intriguing English projects assigned

he was a sensational researcher

                                   cats had nothing on him when it came to curiosity

her projects were curious                

she was too

he arrived quarter to Two

was dazzled

               Caris bikini was canaryyellow crushed lemonyellow  it scantily fit her fitbody like plumage if she thought it was a sunning suit he intended to persuaded her otherwise

                                                                           get her wet

she pranced up to him poolside and gave him a huge hug

                                                              So what do you think? she asked as she turned roundanround on tippytoes then back the other way as if that could unwind him not a chance

You look fuckin amazing

I do don’t I?  she giggled   I do.

Ya do screwball

coming down off her toes she took a step back coquettishly put fingertips to her lips and whispered I like that you call me screwball.

he smiled he really liked her attention Cuz you are baby You think your thoughts are like no other 

You’re sweet . . though you’ll say you’re not. I think you are.

Then Ill take tha from you You alone   Dig

she giggledgurgled deep in her throat  I dig.

                                               then laughed loudly mouth open no hand covering it piercing dimples   completing her cacophony she whispered Who says dig?

We do me an you

Anyou think I’m a screwball.

Ya are

she backpedaled awayurging him to follow moving her fingers handsCOME  beside a pair of chaise loungers was a small round ceramictopped table a frothy drink sat on it a tall red straw stood up in the glass the glass was beginning to sweat  inside looked like a multicoloured lava lamp  psychedelic

Whastha

A freshfruit drink Bennie blended. He says boozy.

Kindalike a pina colada

I think so. He also said it has a shot of protein in it.

A shot of protein

Yeah.

You see him make it

No.

Have you tried it

No, I only just got here too. He asked if I’d like a specialty drink. I said sure. Then I changed into my suit. He brought it out to me and setting it down he said he thought he heard you pull up. I was excited for you to see my swimsuit. I had bragged it up sometrhing fierce last weekend.

Its worth braggingup looks sensational on you

                                                  Gimme a second to change I also brought Lizards Mouth

No.

Yah

No.

   Yah

Damn. I haven’t had that in a long while I really like it.

Why I brought it

                  Wanna put the foufou drink on hold itll keep in the frig

Yes. Please.

Sit tight Ill bring it out before I change

I’m so excited.

I thought ya might be

                        Ill be right back

Bennie

Hey Joe.

You being funny with Cari

Funny? but not before he smirked

                                   Howdaya mean?

I remember you losing your job for shaping cocks in latte foam

Works of art, man.

I hearya I saw Got no complaint from me  You made tasty lattes despite the garish garnish

I did, I did.

Yadid

           I appreciate you inviting Cari

Had to, you’ve been talking her up anya rarely talk chicks up.

   No  Not often

No.

Shot of protein

Yeah. What of it?

Have a sip

Excuse me?

I brought Lizards Mouth Which has preempted Caris freshfruity frothy drink for the meanwhile I brought the beer expressly for her  Though everyones welcome

                                                   Take a sip

I made it especially for Cari.

I know you did

                 Take a sip We can put a fresh straw in it later

I made it for her.

I know ya did yave said

                           Take  A  Sip

I’d rather not.

he dumped the drink in the sink

                                   You know yare always welcome to fuck with me Not funny

1717,  Reggaefriday,  25  8. 23

1027, Sunday,  12  11. 23

Immigrant Song  Karen O  Reznor  Ross  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xQtXsp4tIbw