You don think thas a gamechanger

nonchalant  It’s not. 

   Well  ya knowan Ill give ya credit Ill not pursue on-line datingwont ever have dating apps  but I gotta disagree Put that out there an itll he hahaed change the game  

Clever.

Not so much you can take a joke 

                                   So how do you see it not being

It just isn’t.

It isnt for you 

              Itd kill me    Ahh but   but I see the rest of your equation  two sides to every coin

Equation? You’re working too hard. 

No

    Yave said so

   I’ve said so? 

Yes As a matter of fact when you did I mentionedI blurted out I ought to buy us tshirts

Tshirts?  I don’t remember.

Oh come on I havent offered to buy us tshirts beforewhich isnt to say tha thought hadnt crossed my mind  many times actually

I don’t remember.

Try these on for size 

                      Yours was going to read I DON’T CARE FOR ORAL SEX   Mine  BLOW ME

he saw somewhere in the mire between his ears a neuron fire  but seeing he also saw a wet blanket tossed on top smothering it 

              then he saw the sputter of false equivalence

NO Cant compare smoking to a blow job man

he preened I wasn’t going to say that.

Maybe not tha 

                But a false equivalence nonetheless

 

   I gotcha man I gotcha Save it

1508,  Sunday,  1  8. 21

1241,  Martin Luther King, Jr. Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

Fleetwood Mac  Rattlesnake Shake  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ob5Q_daCOB8

Whadja get

Nothing for you.

I asked wha you got I wasnt thinking of me

Nothing, looks like a goodie bag, it’s not.

Have to admit it looks like a party favor an the fifthgrade girls were gathered in the auditorium

We were.

Did you have a party

No. 

    We did not.

Anyet you got a pretty white bag decorated with flowers

   Yes. 

         What did you do while we were gone?

It was great We had gym the whole timeya really missed out  Yawoud have loved it 

Oh what a gyp. I would have rather been at gym too. 

So really  whadja get were friends 

                                      You know I woudnt say a word 

   You promise. 

Cross my heart hope to die he crossed his eyes

she giggled despite herself  You do I’ll kill you.

I know you woud

                   So

It was a lecture about our bodies, sex, menstruation, products, pregnancy.  Fun. rolled her eyes up into her head

Jeez arya kiddin  For tha ya should have gotten a real goodie bag 

Ya think.

Yah 

     You really woud have liked gym

I would have, yes. My parents already sat me down and talked about all this stuff, the birds and the bees . . and in detail, real detail.

Mine too First my Dad then my Mom then both I had so many questions They had books an they explained from their experiences 

             It was kinda cool

 

I agree, me too . . it made me feel closer to them.  But they’re cool. 

They are 

           I really like your folks

   Thank you.

And you know I like you

she smiled a mischievous smile theyd been in third fourth now fifth together 

                                                                               So tell me.

Wha

If you got a goodie bag after sitting in the auditorium forever . . what would be in it?

You said products

Yes. Samples, coupons, pamphlets.

I’d like rubbers lube . .

. . Lube?

My parents talked about it

Huh, mine didn’t, I’ll have to ask.

Yah  Ask 

           No pamphlets though  A Playboymebbe a years free subscription 

Are you kiddin me?

Oh no  Truly 

              Actually   Yawanna know something

What?

I mean this nice

                  I think when yare older you coudbe a model 

Thanks. 

         For Playboy? Thanks a lot.

I think youd be pretty nude

I think you better shaddup or I’ll sock you in the mouth.

Bust me he winked  in the mouth  

she pounded his arm 

she was pretty nude

1500,  Sunday,  1  8. 21

1049,  Martin Luther King, Jr. Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

Jewell Akens  The Birds and the Bees  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8fLheex1nA

she mumbled 

he heard 

          I know baby I know he didnt know like she did  had he theyd both be in there 

she mumbled it again

he knew 

         however to admitconfirm it would exposehave him walking the street in broad daylight 

he was looking for a gangway alley dirt path founded by animalsanything to take him awayto obfuscate  duck into if only to buy him five minuteshafhour

No no she moaned I donwanna be here I want out I want out  I want out

 

   she wasnt talking about the hospital 

he knew that 

             he was trying lies on to comfort himself     she wanted out of the hospital 

I want out

I want out I want out 

                       froth on top the saliva he wiped from her lips

knowing her shed manage

perhaps not to her plan

but shed manage 

   she did

“ . . . general vacuity aside there seems to be a ceiling to well-being. My guess is that you can only be so happy. While there seems to be no floor to sorrow. Each deeper misery being a state heretofore unimagined. Each suggestive of worse to come.”  Stella Maris  Cormac McCarthy

1PMish preferred,  Sunday,  15  1. 23

Robbie Nevell  C’est La Vie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGtf9QfITQw 

 

   Really?  he didnt even try to hide his rolling eyes

which humoured him 

                 Yesreally  You know of the cloth Im cut 

I hope they threwaway the damn bolt. 

NAH 

      Have theythe goddesses I know your homophobic reaction if I insinuated the gods had their hands all over your mould 

        Have they smashed it 

What are you talking about?

might have been time for him to roll his eyesbut he didnt  he was confident if he had he wouldnt be able to stop

                                                                                                           Doncha get tired of me refreshing your memory 

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Idiom idiot he didnt say they broke the mould when he or she was born referring to ones uniqueness smashed so they cant possibly be repeated duplicated 

                                       Goddesses kept mine

When I croak theyll repeat me

OH excuse me all to hell. 

   No need

             Mould status

I haven’t given it any thought.

Ive returned times over

Knock yourself out . . doesn’t matter to me. 

                                             What does bug me is your . . your . I don’t know what to call it . . . attraction . affliction . . maybe that’s it . .

. . Devotion 

            I don know bout youya havent ever said if my mother hadnt breastfed mecollected the sixpak of wet nurses  I woudnt be here  Had starved to death

I wouldn’t ask.

Why

It’s a personal question. 

Of whom

Whom?

   Yes

My mother of course.

Your mother woudbe embarrassed if you asked her if she breastfed you

We don’t talk about things like that.

My turn Really still kept his eyes from rolling 

                                                Correct I did say lactating teen  Yet another jab at Tolkiens cellar door  

Jeez.

Crazy how one word upsets you 

I don’t see anything attractive about it.

Well I cant make a horse drink once Ive lead him or her to water  I relish not being a prude

I’m not! 

Ask your mother

1403,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1105,  Sunday,  15  1. 23

Stones  Get Off of My Cloud  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sWqmMAvmdU

fivesix minutes in he said Ohmy 

                                  clear as a bell over the running audio

this was a first 

hes had lotsa firsts  dreamedFIRSTs that some may never  they had his sympathy

   A O D versus D O A

audio only dream versus dead on arrival 

                                           he enjoyed the former  better former than Former

referencing a former earthling

   pitch black oilyblack an obliquesense that the words cries echoes conversations sharp dialogues retorts soliloquies stirred it 

          sounds lapping sinuous vessel walls

on an on

   eventually he opted outchanged the channel   met the cratered

before 4AM,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1009,  Sunday,  15  1. 23

Pink Floyd  Echoes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBca3xf-j3o

. . . almost cratered my crater

                                woke him 

he didnt say it

didnt recognise the voice

cratered my crater their crater their anus

                                            NO doubt

what almost cratered them was a huge zucchinishaped cinnamonsugar brown turd fist to elbow that possessed a highfashion models complexion 

it clogged a pristine white porcelain toilet 

the craterwisely decided not to try and flush it

they used a 15 GAL plastic trash bag horsed it out tossed it in an outdoor wheeled trash receptacle 

                                                                                                         he didnt get a good look at their arms or hands

NOW

      he might think he was crater if it wasnt for the voice

whomever had they been silentnot said a word could have convinced him that the cinnamonsugar zucchini was his

nonetheless 

              it was flawless something to behold 

not held

fathomed

deep-sixed

   as he said it woke him

he kept running it over and over in his mind

sleep stayed in the wings

Woudya write it down awready 

he said it

he did 

went to sleep like a baby

bout 4AM,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

2215, Saturday

Guess Who  No Sugar Tonight/New Mother Nature  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzjfw6I78jI 

he wasnt suffering this by himself  thank you

Throw me a bone  was he a year older than you or did he looked older than he was

Does it matter?

It matters

          Your storys validity yare fallin on your faceaint telling it right

I’ll tell it my wa. .

. . Yare not a storyteller Don start now   A kissing well

That’s what we called it.

Whos we

All us kids.  blood pressure ticking up 

   A shallow swale between the grade schools playground the disabled handicapped schools playground chainlink fence separating them

Yes.

Wheres the well

That was it.

A wellused well

He used it . .

. . To kiss Katie Rose who was a year younger than you Twopossibly three years younger than Alvin who was older or looked olderhow old were you

What’s that have to do with anything?

You were seven Katie six Alvin eight nine 

                                             A torrid kissing well

Maybe I was eight . .

. . Katie seven Alvin nine or ten  Katie the youngest in her family

Katie was an only child.

   But sophisticated enoughnaïve enough to  an you said   make out in the kissing wellMake Out  With Alvin

We were kids.

Elementary school kids kiss

                              You hardly share anything about your years in elementary school  Where did this recall come from

Was thinkingwe were talking about dodgeball, we played dodgeball on the playground.

Katie wear a skirt a dress white cotton panties  six seven only child pretty innocent

I don’t know.

She make out a lot with Alvin

I don’t know.

What was the point of your story

I don’t remember.

   But you remember the kissing well as the kids called it

I didn’t say that.

That’s what we called it  Whos we    All us kids

You’re mixing me up.

Maybe we leave storytelling to me

                                                   

round 3PM,  Reggaefriday,  6  1. 23

2126,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

Herman’s Hermits  No Milk Today https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdCHlJoAP8I

two of his cat usually wake him if the sun didnt  

however recent rains Cry me an atmospheric river very cool Fool on the Hill thinks but only because a flood of biblical proportions could touch himU CANT TOUCH THIS  wet his tootsies  have laid his waking at their feet

                                                                                           theyve been early

probably compelled propelled by their bellies

                                              Awrightawright IM UP IM UP IM UP LETS GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD

he tosses off his blanketrides his rumpswings his legs over the sidesnatches a fresh tshirt socks shorts off the nightstandslides to the floor donning sweatpants standing slips on flips and makes his bed 

                                                                                                  routine

like breathing

since he was young 

strict times

accountability

taught him to assess if crossing lines were worth the punishment WHEN he was caughtfound out  not IF

he crossed plenty

took the punishment

then

      an Now

which troubles him

because so many are slippingsliding their accountability thinking it their due U CANT TOUCH THIS 

good thing he and they dont meet

   he has scars

hed bet money they dont

round 4AM,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1055, Saturday

MC Hammer  U Can’t Touch This  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_NNYI8VbFyY 

Michael Stanley  Let’s Get the Show on the Road  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jlz_dLcYPQw

 

   That’s ludicrous.

Were stoned  everything is ludicrous   or lewdicrous

Repeating yourself.

Nah  Just putting a spin on it

A spin?

Yah

What spin?

   I donwanna work that hard  Good for one goosegood for another  

You know how hard it is talking to you?

I do

      Hard as it is for me to talk to you   But in another life why ludicrous

Are we really going to labor this?

Is laboring when you have to use your imagination step outside of the box

We’re talking about farts.

No  We were talking about whether a fart is conscious or not

It’s a function of your body, an endgame, not conscious.

Like seeing so you don walk into a wall can be titillated by the pleasant unctuoussway of a womans hips an fanny in a skirt 

      Function

No.

Give me more than no

                        Or do you mean know  We agre . .

. . We don’t agree on a lot except politics.

So not know rather no

                            it looked like his blood pressure ticked up  a reddeningflush at his throat  made him think he looked like a rooster 

          Wattle

What?

Nothing  conversing with myself

Your angels?

Theyre not angels At best an unselected entourage whove made their way to me Ive become their stomping grounds gerunds verbs nouns  Me Magnet They Iron filings  Ironic huh

I don’t know what you’re talkinbout.

Never mind 

             The never mind proves ignorance  absolute ignorance refuses to probe 

Conscious farts  They are

How?

I believe theyre performative  no audience yare off the hook  may trouble you with something sounding like the old soft shoe  A doodle dee doodle dee  do 

   What? 

Yah 

      Anthey don sour your nosebitchslap you something offensive Their sounds an scentssmells are for audiences

Jesus. 

Im sure he does Rips one off in church organist starts playing to hide or minimise it  Why else call them pews

he looked around

there was nowhere to run

1420,  Reggaefriday,  6  1. 23

1433,  Reggaefriday the 13th,  1. 23

off the radio  Dean Martin  Carol Richards  That Old Soft Shoe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DPraPAxVc0c 

’33  Wilson, Keppel & Betty  Sand Dance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2fqjsijaMM

   Come on guy  Dealbreakers are like the Ten Commandments  Thou shall not none of them  You don assemble a list torture a resume thas whaya call itright an then concede that weight combinedthreefour is suddenly intransigent you will not suffered them 

                        YA ONLY SUFFER ONE  One    One . . 

. . That’s two!

Oh clever  Not   I cant figureunderstand your reckoning thought process

                                                                            Mebbe  yah   mebbe if ya thought bout it like capital punishment electric chair gas chamber lethal injection firing squad hanging  Only one offs ya   Follow tha 

   I don’t like the analogy.

Ya don you think compare and contrasts are the tits

Therethat’s what you’re leaving out of your consideration.

Ive not Its a matter of wha I wont contend with

Seems to me you have.  

                         Or you haven't heard of compromise.

Compromised dealbreakers  awesome   Really splitting hairs man 

                                                                       Youll tolerateignore aspects of a woman if you think thatha will land you in the promiseland  fitted in cleavage whas the crummy Toy Story character   AHBuzz Lightyear  get to infinite and beyond

Isn’t that what it’s all about?

Is it

1415,  Reggaefriday,  6  1. 23

1145,  Reggaefriday the 13th  1. 23

Buzz  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sEQoOjj7j4o 

Mogwai  Simon Ferocious  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvhUvgpV2x0

  thrice 

          the second preposterous interlewd was with another female attorney  clutching at straws  terribly he couldnt remember her name   he remembered Monica Ambrosia  theyd be a yearanahaf older  two  he couldnt remember her name 

rudeness didnt play into it  the matter of eating alone 

                                                                although it was lunch  she ordered in Chinese it smelled amazing

Would you care for an egg roll? mustard sauce? You go sweet ‘n sour on me I’ll be disappointedunhappy.

I coud eat an eggroll two  Yes hot mustard sauce

I knew I liked youknew that when I came to your office. 

                                                            Did you know Monica  Monica  recommended you?

No  shit

No shit. Evidently you knocked her for a loop. 

had to be fishing Monica was tightlipped Muthafuck was she tightlipped an tightlipped a tight motherWho knew

                                                                                                                       Well Im pleased Monica enjoyed our services

Our? Were there more than you?

   Our  No   I was referring to the companymy efforts on its behalf

Its behalf?

Yes

   That’s not what I heardCut to the chase

                                              My husband doesn’t find me attractive . . because I’m pregnant.

Whas with these pricks  Yare pregnant  in the flower of your womanhood . . 

. . He won't fuck me.

he was picking up a second egg rolldropped it on the plate

                                                   Wha My gawd yare beautiful Round where pregnancy rounds you inviting  A beautiful brain in your head 

Does he think hes going to hurt the baby  

He couldn’t hurt the baby. 

                              Frankly I believe he’s jealous of the babyusurping his primacy, my devotion to him. 

Primacy  Devotion 

                      There are pricks  then there are cocksuckers ya find this guy at Gay 90s  earlier panting at a gloryhole

We met for drinks at Happy Hour. 

Next door

Yes.

   Yes

        Is he straight

We had sex lotsa sex before we married . . obviously sex since. 

But not now 

   No.  Not now.

                   He told me, told me, I’m . I . . . I’m repugnant.

they tumbled onto her modern rental Executive desk  fucked 

                                                                    wished he could remember her name

the lactating teen 

                   she got pregnant said she had her fingers crossed her parents wouldnt find out before she turned eighteen so she could abort she had time it wouldnt be risky

her mother saw

told her father

no abortion

            she was having the baby they were going to raise the child as their own her baby sister

Tha gonna work out 

She’s theirs. 

             I’ll give it maybe a year, provide for her nourishment . . then I’m outa here. I have my life and I’m pursuing it, they messed the wax.

   I can understand though. I was their only child amid three miscarriages . . they wanted other children. They’re welcome to her. 

                    I didn’t want her. 

he was working next door building a retaining wall 

she called out the kitchen window to him 

                                           You off at fourthirty? 

I am

I’ve made cookies, have some for you, stop over . . my parents will be at church.

DEAL 

he rapped on the back door

it entered into the kitchen

Come in.

entering he found her breastfeeding her daughter

                                                          history repeating itself She ah know its rude to eat alone

Ellen laughed who knew that line could invoke laughter 

                                                              She’s almost fed . rude to eat alone, what are you implying?  

Baby makes it look and sound mighty tasty

You think so?

Will she go down after feeding

She will.

   Good  I can show ya

she had no idea that a fullgrown man could be a baby at heart 

                                                                   he was

Cookies and warm mothers milk

prior to 0700,  Thursday,  12  1. 23

2326,  Thursday,  12  1. 23

Blind Faith  Can’t Find My Way Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jlLBs6YawM