perhaps not to her plan
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What are you talking about?
I haven’t given it any thought.
Ive returned times over
I wouldn’t ask.
Why
Whom?
Yes
My mother of course.
Your mother woudbe embarrassed
if you asked her if she breastfed you
We don’t talk about things like
that.
Jeez.
this was a first
hes had lotsa firsts dreamedFIRSTs that some may never they had his sympathy
A O D versus D O A
eventually he opted outchanged
the channel met the cratered
whomever had they been silentnot said a word could have convinced him that the cinnamonsugar
zucchini was his
fathomed
he kept running it over and over
in his mind
sleep stayed in the wings
he wasnt suffering this by himself thank you
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That’s what we called it.
Yes.
Wheres the well
That was it.
A wellused well
What’s that have to do with
anything?
Katie was an only child.
But sophisticated enoughnaïve enough to an you said
make out in the kissing wellMake
Out With Alvin
We were kids.
Was thinkingwe were talking about
dodgeball, we played dodgeball on the playground.
Katie wear a skirt a dress white cotton panties six seven only
child pretty innocent
I don’t know.
She make out a lot with Alvin
I don’t know.
But you remember the kissing well as the kids called it
strict times
accountability
taught him to assess if crossing
lines were worth the punishment WHEN he was caughtfound out not IF
he crossed plenty
took the punishment
which troubles him
because so many are slippingsliding their accountability thinking it their due U CANT TOUCH THIS
he has scars
hed bet money they dont
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Repeating yourself.
Nah Just putting a spin on it
A spin?
Yah
What spin?
Are we really going to labor
this?
Is laboring when you have to use your imagination step outside of the box
We’re talking about farts.
No We were talking about whether a fart is
conscious or not
It’s a function of your body, an
endgame, not conscious.
Nothing conversing with myself
Your angels?
Theyre not angels At best an unselected entourage whove made
their way to me Ive become their
stomping grounds gerunds verbs nouns
Me Magnet They Iron filings
Ironic huh
I don’t know what you’re talkinbout.
How?
he looked around
there was nowhere to run
Ya don you think compare and contrasts are the tits
Therethat’s
what you’re leaving out of your consideration.
Ive not Its a matter of wha I wont contend with
Isn’t that what it’s all about?
Is it
Would you care for an egg roll? mustard sauce? You go sweet ‘n sour on me I’ll be disappointedunhappy.
I coud eat an eggroll two Yes hot mustard sauce
No shit. Evidently you knocked her for a loop.
Our? Were there more than you?
Our No I was referring to the companymy efforts on its behalf
Its behalf?
Yes
Yes.
her mother saw
told her father
I’ve made cookies, have some for you, stop over . . my parents will be at church.
it entered into the kitchen
Come in.
You think so?
Will she go down after feeding
She will.
Blind Faith Can’t Find My Way Home https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jlLBs6YawM
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timing was off but before she could
excuse herselfblew him off he finessed herhanded her a business card and suggestedencouraged
that the immediate ramifications of dumping dough suffering the outlay could be amortized by renting
desks credenzas bookshelves write-offs thereby enabling her to enjoy what he did best his flexibility service acumen
Im happy to unlock the place please keep that in mind
she dashed off
Hunred dollars
What? A hundred dollars.
Im good for itya know that Ifya prefer hold onto yoursyoure good for
it If not Ill lift it from petty cash
You won’t.
Ya know me better than that
But she has to rent, not just
call back.
she took him up on unlocking the business
and apologised for not calling sooner she
had been called out of town unexpectedly
also brought her baby
Goodness Congratulations
Ambrosia, Amber for short.
Thank you
Anif I may you look fantastic First babygood experience
Yes.
A setup baby
Set up?
Yes So goodamazing that baby two is a shoo-in
her eyes flashed like a she-wolf
Awnuts, what time is it?
Approaching eight
I have to feed her. she handed him a list of furniture she needed Let’s do this, if you don’t mind I'll feed her.
pulling forms to pen she
undid her blouse and began breastfeeding
not to look would defy all his
male instincts
Ambrosias suckling and smacking didnt
help matters
Monica surprisedburst out
laughingstartled Ambrosia who began
crying between peals of laughterher mouth
uncovered Shush sshshush sssh sweet girl, shush, sssh.
Ambrosia quieted began
smacking again
You have no ideano idea Monica