shooting from the hip 

                     he loved it 

loved waking every morningmake his absolutions  then without any idea what might be waiting at the keyboardthe begging electric white paper  proceed

his daily processionroutine was rarely disrupted 72 consecutive days last count they were preceded by seven days of travel for his fathers birthdaywouldntve missed it for the world  not the world   

as a child his father introduced him This is my son Joseph, when he grows up he won’t live here.

he was true to their words although it took him two years longer than he wantedchewed at the bitpulled restlessly in the harness  20years old not 18 

Yeah, living in a meat cooler will do that.

Wha

Stop, you heard I don’t have to repeat myself.

No 

You relish going against the grain, you’re downright obnoxious sometimes, purposefully being contrary for the sake of being contrary.

A contrarian

Yeah.

I disagree I keep to my moral convictions I was raisedif not religiously but religiously steadfast taught to adhere honour do right by myself  Damn wha others think

And of concessions, compromises, that fairminded people concede?

Cant Coudnt 

                Not if they detractdiminish me 

But when you come to a crossroad . .

. . Devils crossroad

No. Of course not.  

I sidestep crossroads Suffer no Clarksdale Mississippi old US highway 61 old US 49  coordinates latitude longitude 34degrees11minutes41seconds North 90degrees33minutes50seconds West

                                                                                 I run thoroughfares  full speed ahead HAdamn the torpedoes Admiral Farragut  You should understand he didnt have a choice either

Living in a meat cooler isnt a choice Weather dictates  I don pay attention to forecasts because weather is weather is weather 

          You have yet to accuse me of living on a hot skillet

No, I haven’t, but next summer I will if I can cop it off you.

Knock yourself out 

                        Please  

1247,  Reggaefriday,  2  12. 22

1640,  Reggaefriday

Robert Johnson  Crossroad  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJ_7nYEpkBo  

Mogwai  I Know You Are But What Am I?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMAZJ7RAQ5o  

Three Dog Night  Easy to be Hard  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIffz-72B8Y

he watched Journey to the Center of the Earth on DVD last night 

                                                                   OHshitno in colour 

the 1959 film was shot in Color by DE LUXE 

hed watched itmany times on blackanwhite television  it and The Time Machine Ohfuckno  its also in color 1960  Metrocolor

   they were disfiguring his youth he aiding an abetting 

the hitch in the filmALWAYS whenever he watched iteven last night Pat Boone  even as a kid he thought he was wrong for the rolewasnt believable 

                              it occurred to himhumourously given how religious he understood Boone to be he wondered if Boone forced his way thawas rich into the role as Sinatra did in From Here to Eternity a delicious rumour Godfather released in ’69read it as a kid planted that suspicion in his head  Sinatra a singer not an actor Sinatra got the part by having Mafia associates put a severed horse head in Cohns bed Paramount studio president to scare him

Boones insincerity which he realised was what he saw on screen was nailed-down during an telephone interview on January 27, 2018

                    “I think it was God honoring my efforts, my efforts, to just to stuff what I thought was right for me and turn down roles with Marilyn Monroe and other people that were immoral stories . . and risking, you know, being booted right out of the movie business and out of entertainment . . but . following my conscience actually turned, as it turned out as I look back . . paid off.”

   Paid off  money  residuals   how Christian of Boone   that said even as a singer Boone turned him off

2126,  Thursday,  1  12. 22

1224, Reggaefriday,  2  12. 22

3:30 minute-mark  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pg2kt2uF6vs 

https://www.shmoop.com/study-guides/movie/from-here-to-eternity/behind-the-scenes/production-studio 

https://wheremusicmeetsthesoul.com/patboone/ (Boone turned down a role to work with Marilyn Monroe in a film called the Stripper)

https://m.imdb.com/title/tt0057537/trivia/?ref_=tt_ql_trv 

 

   if   if If IF  McCarthy become Speaker 

                                             theres talk of Republicans pissing away taxpayers dollars on bogus investigations against the January6 Special Committee its members DOJ FBI impeaching President Biden cabinet members McCarthys to followHup-two-three-four orders  of what-would-be his absurd base Freedom Caucus like a trailing dog its nose up the leads ass 

                                        and not to be outdone new House committee leads are also promising pissing matchestaxpayers dollars of their own old axes to grind  not that their subjects are legit but rather as political theatre being sensational salacious bogus  because they can

they wont spend money on their constituentsfor the country but rather to groom themselves

1552,  Thursday,  1  12. 22

1036,  Reggaefriday,  2  12. 22

https://www.politico.com/news/2022/10/07/house-gop-2023-impeachments-00060869                                                  https://www.politico.com/news/2022/10/03/biden-world-house-gop-investigations-00059888 

https://www.msnbc.com/opinion/msnbc-opinion/gop-will-investigate-jan-6-committees-investigation-rcna59619?cid=eml_mda_20221202&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951 

3.8 million taxpayer dollars  https://www.msnbc.com/the-reidout/reidout-blog/republicans-trump-special-counsel-rcna58143

What did you do during Trumpvirus, Daddy?

there was a kind of a blush twinge a hint reminiscent of kids who thought to ask their GI fathers returned home from service  What did you do during the war, Daddy?

Trumpvirus 

             he was proud his daughterall his kids picked up on his disdain Whell I didnt meet your mother during that prolonged shitshow Lots of people died lots died needlessly lied to misinformed werent a priority 

                                                                                                      I wrote a lot of letters wrote a lot kept my nose clean Suffered heartbreaklots of people suffered heartbreak It was an ignominious time  I wrote letters to cunt politicians 

JOE! his wife

I SORRY he called out to her 

                               he looked at his daughter I apologiseyour mothers right I should have curbed my tongue

It’s okay, Daddy, it’s a word in the dictionaryI looked it up, but I’ve only heard you use it when people disgust you.

she was a smart cookie all their kids were figured they got their mothers brains while she figured they got his love of reading reading the dictionary 

                                 Why do you read the dictionary, Daddy?  

   Words  I love words  Theyre second only to your Mom  you kids 

AIN’T GETTING YOU OFF THE HOOK!

WOUDYA QUIT LISTENIN

NO!

Momma’s got good ears.

Thas how we met She was a server an overheard me dressdown a guy who wasnt treating her wellwas rude to her

She hasnt quit listenin to me yet 

THAT’LL BE THE DAY! 

   Baby  good thing your mothers cute

1151,  Thursday,  1  12. 22

1218,  Thursday

Country Joe and the Fish  Vietnam Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ft0vkKCadgk

monkey see monkey do 

                          unlikely hed want to see her monkey he had dropdead dealbreakers stitched hard black on his resume resume  wha crap his on-line dating app  Republicans can suck my dick it was not an invitation

Stefaniks “weaponised” Justice department “corrupt” law enforcement perhaps formers asshole is large enough to accommodate not only hisbut her head too fingers crossed they went one after the other would make crazy footagego viral if the pair had to be rushed to Emergency with their heads up his ass 

                                                                                the preeminent echoooohooh chamber 

McCarthy Dammit, she’s so lucky.

1414,  Thursday,  1  12. 22

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/maddowblog/stefanik-echoes-trump-justice-department-special-counsel-rcna59387?cid=eml_maddow_20221201&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951&utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=TRMS%2012/1/22&utm_term=Rachel%20Maddow%20Show

Democrats are not Republicans  its a shame media believes they have the treat Republicans asif they were a political party  https://www.nytimes.com/2022/11/30/us/politics/mccarthy-jan-6-committee.html

a friend he hadnt seen in some time happened to be rolling through town  he called to see if hed like to meet for dinner 

mentioned an Italian place Heard anything about it?

A good place things to him never got better than good

Awright. Meet youshould arrive . in . hour an a half. Time for you?

Plenty Ill meet you there 

he arrived early ordered a jug of dago red a house wine it was served it in a canewrapped jug  he thought a nice touch

no sooner than Sofia the server set the bottle and glasses down than Steve arrived at the table following the buxom hostess who wore a peasantstyle blouse scoopedneck and skirt 

                                                                  he stoodgreeting him  the women stepped backout of the way not to become embroiled in their slugginghuggingslapping embrace  they evidently enjoyed their enthusiastic welcoming smiled broadly at their unabashed affection 

they thanked Eva Sofia excused herself 

                                           Manohman, I love their outfits, you know they wore them?

Halffigure you did

Had no idea, but seeing I fullyfigured you knew.

Ya give me too much credit they are appealing certainly piques ones appetite 

I should say. 

               he reached overgrabbed the bottle by its neckbegan pouring We should toast.   

A toast

Yes. I believe this maybe the first time we’ve eaten at an Italian . . ristorante.

Oh blow me getting all dagoey on me ristorante

Not shabbyhuh? 

                 Saw it on Sofia’s nametag, wears it up near her shoulder. 

I saw  Misdirection

Could be, though wouldn’t have hung right dead on.

No No I shoud say not 

                           So you don often have Italian

No, rarely, a business associate recommended it.

Im no good in the kitchen with Italian so Im drawn to them dine on whaya cant make a home  An other sundry other reasons

Sundry?

Yes

Sounds loaded.

Ohbrother involuntarily eyelids flutteredflooding with memory

Soundinglooking more loaded.

Yah  Your toast first

If I know you there’s a story. 

                                So here’s to our ongoing story, and stories you tell that enthrall me.

Aww yare mighty sweet

You’ll never know. he laughed

they clinked glasses

Ohshit, that’s tasty.

A freakin house wine they wont say what it is you cant buy a bottle to go You want it ya have to come 

                                                                                                             Brilliant to know when you got a good thing 

Steve raised his glass again 

                               To knowing when you got a good thing. 

Good things

clinked again

Really tasty. I’m happy I suggested here, would you have?

Idve asked what you were hungry for

I might not have said Italian.

Idve been at a loss I rarely dine out

Look at us suffering good fortune. 

                                    he sipped again  Your story.

Story  Yes 

            Since Im not one to kiss or tell . . Sofias timing was impeccable Kiss or tell? she askedhad come up behind him  Steve hadnt said 

                         he gave him a Thanks buddy look

Sofia was beside himhip at his shoulderher expression beckoning her question 

I know you know the concept Sofia

I do, though I wasn’t keen men did, you know, locker room gossip, have brothers, they’re pigs. 

Steves a pighe started Im a little bit pig

Just a little bit?

Yes wee wee wee a little bit  Steves a boar

What the hell? he grimaced  it was performative

Shaddup an take your beating  I know you know now Sofia knows You are who you are

This is really veering off trac . .

. . Shoud have said Sofia was coming up behind me 

So what about kiss and tell? she interrupted

No names he looked at Steve Not tha youd know them 

                                                            You really want to hear this Sofia

I’m intrigued.

Ya got me. said Steve

Really long delicious stories short 

                                    Ive had sexmade love with three different women in four differentexcuse me if I step on your toes glanced at Steve four different ristorantes It was remote booths aromas Chianti bottles dribbled with candle wax wine flickering candles checkered red an white tablecloths an amorous  amorosa equally possessed partners   

   You’re not having sex here, are you? asked Sofia 

Brava Sofia yare quick Woudnt want to play mumbleypeg with you

they chorused What’s that?

Another story 

                Appetizer Calamari Sofia

2300,  Monday,  28  11. 22

1101,  Thursday,  1  12. 22

https://www.artofmanliness.com/living/games-tricks/mumbley-peg/

 

   Apologises

havent not tha he hasnt thought of it every day visited formers brightred line scarlet rubberstamp on America in awhile

1,105,546 dead from Trumpvirus 

                                       Cuddle tha when you go to sleep tonight

 

There will be more empty beds and broken hearts tomorrow night

2124,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  30  11. 22

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

 

   causticmixed  messages 

he was sick of themsick of being told accused 

                                                When I tell you something take me at my word

hed said Lets relax lay down in bed an talk We havent talked since I can remember when corrected himself No my mistake was last when I lost the bone safekeep through a hole in my pocket I didnt know was there thas the last

she replied No, I don’t think so.  You look tired, and I’d like to read.

Read

Yes.

Would you agree we need to talk

I think we should talk, but like I said you look tired and talking might become counterproductive, it’s late, you’ve said you don’t want to argue when it’s late.

How does talk become argue in your mind

Because some of the things you might like to talk aboutwant to say . will provoke an argument.

Will 

I think they will.

   Because you don want to discuss them   If not now when

Some other time.

Im asking when

Another time. See.  Already getting heated.

   Yare getting heated  please don speak for me 

And you’re becoming abrupt.

Abrupt 

            Youknow yare right   I am tired

 

As I said. 

          We’ll save it for another time. her head listed to a side seeking an unspoken agreementacknowledgement

he was too tired he wasnt giving her that 

                                            Then Ill leave it up to you I keep trying you keep denying

head snapped erect he knew it would

                                      You’re tired. 

Yave said 

             Im laying down I wish you would too

she answered picked up her book from nightstand 

   he was tired  not tired

early AMstill dark,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  30  11. 22

1011,  Day-between-Two-Ts

Nadja  You Write Your Name In My Head  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ooW0HkDasKA

it mused aloudsaid I’m watching you. 

OhHellno 

           Ive been watchin youIm all over you youve nothing on me Im a voyeur par excellence 

he wasnt bragging 

since he first readlearned the word it appealed to him reminded him of voyager vicarious 

                                                                                             held a flame to his feet since a boy  he wanted to travel National Geographic taunted him but it wasnt in the cards  the family had too many mouths to feedtoo little time to recreate 

                              but when it presented he played or read 

reading cultivated his voyeurism 

a voyeur 

         nothing more than being observant aware HAmindful  he HAed because older he teased his daughter about the mindfulness apps she had on her smartphone which alerted her                    

   Really baby

Yes really Dad, I haven’t time. 

                                 no  she didnt   stretched herself thin  when she was a collegiate athlete he worried shed burnout she HAed him  You misunderstand Dad . this isn’t arduous . . it’s a lifestyle. 

                                                                                               Lifestyle 

he was observant 

                 could suppose being a voyeurarduously aware mindful was a sort of lifestyle he recognisedwas amazed by the miniscule overwhelmed by the overwhelming 

quit asking Did you see tha  began to believe things happened solely for his benefit 

                                                                                          reminded himself to be modest 

however viciously defended himself if called to taskhis preface You really want to go there  he asked once

Hmm a viciousvoyeur

   Sounds like a predator. it said

Yare still here

I said I’m watching you.    

2015,  Twosday,  25  10. 22

1154,  Twosday,  29  11. 22

Johnny Cash  I Won’t Back Down  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LBYrDx_784 

Tom Petty  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5II-WnW9OJo

blue guitar redux

her blue guitar leans in the corner

against the stereo speaker

where she placed it

she liked as she used to tell him in bed after they made love how invisible fingers

radiating from the speaker held it stroked it strings played impossible chords

the guitar sounded so different

shed never be able to recreate that music  imagine or remember it

she said often the music was in accord to the music hed play during their lazy afternoons together

his imperfect scratched 78s the keenly-guarded refined 33 1/3s  and those raucous 45s

she loved the echoes in her guitar its reverberations slipping like snakes in its chamber

she loved how the wind moving through the house visited it too  

those days when she complained it was too cold and why did he have to have the house open  

and on those days when the house was too hot
and the overhead fanblades were desperate to have their go at it
and the days since
when she hadnt been there to complain

but he would imagine she did
imagine all the qualities of her voiceits timbre and tone

when she was elated

or distraught

when she was dreamy and contemplative

or singing with her eyes closed

all her persons he loved  and didnt  that she shared with him every moment they improbably had  

without thought hesitation  or reservation

they  figuring improbably  that they would always have
stretched across the wide warm gulf of their living together

and now the sound hole of her guitar seemed far far larger  for each and every day

they didnt have

he was jealous of her guitar

her fingerprints her tentarch orweretheywhorls invisibly etched onto its strings  

its frets and tuning keys

                         her oils and scent on it

they were gone from him

                     his midnight showers eroded them from his skin its streams of water deafening his ears so he couldnt hear his crying or feel his hot tears running down his face
deafening him
a reason he fingered
because he could no longer hear her       

hear her voices 
feel her touch

blue

      her blue guitar

leaning dusty at the speaker

near the albums and jackets and paper slips brittlely ageing  yellowing  without the kiss of sunlight

as he

without her kisses

warm touches

reviving strokes


blue  

1502,  Clover Sunday,  1  6. 14

STOPsomething inside him  it barked Write it down whatever it was he didnt want to cross it scribbled charred trees

        warily he looked about in n out not knowing if to expect commendation or derision

   hollow air 

                      maybe whatever moved on or was folded inabsorbed 

charred trees

it did resonate please him 

charred trees

ash flakes tremble 

                            pensee probing 

sifted by a tickling breeze

cant see the forest for the trees

hope they catch the bastard

   rolled off his tongue asif planted or memorisedmesmerised barked Willtha do                                                                                                         listeningtipped his head forward

hollow air 

charred trees

             phonaesthetics ably welcome to join the motley crew hes assembling to overwhelm cellar door  which didnt impress him since first he understood what phonaesthetics is                                                                      

0833,  Thursday,  8  9. 22

1039,  Twosday,  29  11. 22

friend texted  :  :  okay to stop by to catch up . . . coffee?

he replied  :  :  hey  be fun maybe split a scone?   anxious2  

few minutes later  :  :  in a flash 

  :  :  door unlocked

he arrived in the promised flash

                                   They didn’t have any scones so I brought you . . no idea what it’s called . . pastry . for you . I was hungryhad pie this morning . damn Thanksgiving.

he chuckled Well thank you I appreciate that

Yabetcha. he shiveredcould see the chill run his spine Can we go outside have our coffee in the sun?it’s like a meat locker in here.

Comon   Its not tha cold

friend leaned back into the hall gazed at the thermostat on the wall leaning into the room said Thermostat says 50degrees.

Colder earlier suns been gazing in this room since Ninebout two hours

It’s 50.

Its only a number 

                  Qualify it tell it wha it is   Im aint givin any leverage

   You know . . it’s queer how you make it sound normal.

Normalcy  Subjective   We don wanna argueyoull lose

   What did ya . .

. . Youll lose 

            Trying to save you face man  it follows your hairline yare doomed

Jeesuus Kahrist . not in the door five minutes.

Hey honesty hasnt any sense of timeIts time jerked his arms for emphasis

Yeah whatever.  I’ll meet you out there.

Shutting down the computerfollow you out 

   the sparring the ju-jitsu friendships relationships 

                                                          how people cope   or not

prior to 11,  Monday,  28  11. 22

2146,  Monday