she was none too happy

he didnt care

she was so closeso close  yet so far

he enjoyed her anguish

                          Bet on the wrong horse

she thought she knew a thing or two about horses had owned them since a little girl

OWNED operative word

                          cant own people

some think otherwise

OBLIVIOUSLY

Life Insurance would have shelled out twofiftyK

she liked Ks

her name began with one

                           maybe if it ended with one he might have treated her unknowingly to the bonus shed been looking for her whole life

three marriages

                  later four  gotta keep casting 

  

she was pretty thats what he was told  perhaps a pretty parasite

he had eyeshe didnt need to be told

                                     her inside black shone through he didnt see how so many couldnt maybe they were too close to the paintingtoo lazy to step back squat or step aside to take in different perspectives

                                                                                                      or were terribly susceptible to gaslight

she was none too happy he survivedwas coming home from the hospital

her unhappinessglowering made him smile

he made plans to catch him when he felt well enough to see him

that also made him smile

2035,  Thursday,  28  7. 22

1158,  ReggaeFriday,  29  7. 22

How he missed tha Hall & Oates  Maneater  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yRYFKcMa_Ek  

I Can’t Go for That (No Can Do)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccenFp_3kq8

Charade

         he loved the game but he was a ham mebbe he ought to say he was an uninhibited ham inhibitions get in the way when ones actingtheyre not themselves let go  just let go 

                                                                 he mopped the floor with his competitors

Charade

         he loved the film ‘63 Audrey Hepburn gobsmacking beauty Cary Grant  not shabby himself 

she was 34

he 59

authentic chemistry between themhe could relate to them as a couple  dug that she was forwardpursued he understood why Grant wouldnt probably better than most

in one scene of many in kind Hepburn leans in on Grantkisses him leaning back slightlyher face in his she whispers

Don’t kiss back?  Doctor says that it’s bad for my thermostat.his thermostat crushed it delivery was cold fishpitch on he howled

out of his slim corridorbut even while he was out wilding Life stumbleslacks repartee scripts shouldnt be the only place where it exists

                he hoped it was improv Hepburn askedreferring to Grants cleft chin How do you shave in there? it was breathless anif one wasnt paying attentionpassing the popcorn theyd miss it he hung on dialogueappreciated repartee

recently conversations have been arid moistless deserts 

cant play Charade alone

2139,  Thursday,  28  7. 22

1104,  ReggaeFriday,  29  7. 22

I don dream I vignette

Noun

An I changed it into a verb I have that abilityright up there with lucid dreaming or shoud I say lucid vignettingjust follow my lead  Ive seen ya in my darkened theatre feet on the seatback munching popcorn sipping soda pop eating licorice whips

Theyre called shoestring licorice 

I hit ya with it itll feel like a whip 

                                        Thank you for not denying your attendance

I get in free

a sidekick denizen Mariachi bandit privileged to his wheelhouse Yare welcome  he wasnt bitter           

Awwhe should have thanked himalways late to the game  Thank you

 Thas awright

                    As I was sayin I vignette when I talk with people about dreaming mebbehaf or better say they think they do but they don remember

Don remember

No nothing  hardly anything  They say I think I didIm pretty sure I did.  Pretty sure. As they talk they squeeze their eyes shut like peering hoping for a glimmer  they ought to pursue it soonerlay in bed an think it over

But a majority of them wake to alarmscant be late to work

I still remembered

Dreams  er vignettesexcuse me  mean more to you

he vignetted one into the nextno commas abrupt hedbe in an intimate situation an suddenly on tall ironworks trying to stop children from committing suicidejump to their deaths   unsuccessfully

Thas not a good example both are intimateterribly intimate

Ohmy yare correctgood point  I shoudve prefaced the first sexually intimate backing naked off the foot of the bed onto an Ibeam clothed pleadin   It was a violent revolution one into the other

Yes I remember I closed my eyes during the second

I wished I coudve

You sat boltupright weeping

I did It crippled me

But when you went back to sleep you vignetted you were arguing with a woman who had low esteem . .

. . These remarkable women . .

. . An laid her many accomplishments at her feet

                                                    Ya said Don stepback stepforward into the fray because yare right  They think their privilege entitlement is owed respect They fell into it Yave fought your way to your position without Daddys or Mommies silver spoon stucked in your mouth

They is usually men

They is  

White men Older worse

They is

Impediments

  They is

            Yare better than a car chase man

Thank you

Yare welcome 

               Ah  finally did it right

Nomind

          Yare a work in progress as am I

1500,  Thursday,  28  7. 22

0951,  ReggaeFriday,  29  7. 22

Mommas & Pappas  Dream a Little Dream of Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ajwnmkEqYpo

D’Angelo  Greatdaynamornin’/Booty  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETc1Dr2U8ZQ

he took trouble not to catch his step turn his head he acted like he didnt hear a thingkept walking

at the car waiting for his buddy to unlock the doors he said over the hood to him You hear that

                                                                                                    he had doubts  Wannabet   No bets we know   We do   Not necessarily something to bragbout   No no  not at all   Agreed   man was usually off somewhere in his head anif he didnt maintain eye contact with himdrive the conversation like Mad Max Imperator Furiosa hed float off or worse talkbout his glory days

he repeated himself inside the car

What?

he bit his tongue I asked if you heard that

Heard what?

At that table sixseven junior high guys

Junior high boys?

Are you blind look through the windshield  Yasee em

he looked I see them.

Did you hear them say anything

No, but I wouldn’t.

They were talking awfully loud

No I didn’t hear them heard what they said.

Something else man They must be getting an education though

An education? Why would you say that?

Because without history at school the otherwise dolts woudnt know what a luddite was let alone able to use it in conversation in a sentence

Luddite?  no lights went on

  Im a luddite Ive mentioned it before Im opposed to new technologyways of working historically a luddite was one of many English workers who destroyed machinery especially in cotton an woolen mills the machines threatened their jobs

Ah . yes yes . . you have mentioned that before.

Appreciate the confirmation though would have thoughtby now it had sunk into your brain

Comme ci comme ca.

Comere No Nevermind  Go away go away ya got the retention of a mite

Regarding some things. I’m not lettin’ you get my goat.

Yaknow given how oftenhow much I reiteraterepeat myself  regarding most things

                                                                                       But nevermind ya didnt hear

I did not

Suffice to say the quote I plucked walking past them

                                                       “. . . like being fucked in the ass by a big luddite.” 

 

1533,  Thursday,  3  2. 22

1245,  Thursday,  28  7. 22

Bruce Springsteen  Glory Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vQpW9XRiyM

I gotta get me one of those he was humouring himself

he closed the bookhis thumbs between the pages

itd be expensive

                 

the Romans had their shit together 

                                     “(They) cleaned their behinds with sea sponges attached to a stick, – ingenious – and the gutter supplied clean flowing water to dip the sponges in. This soft, gentle tool was called a tersorium, which literally meant ‘a wiping thing.’ The Romans liked to move their bowels in comfort.”

he thought the final sentence erred

                                     wiping ones behind and moving their bowels in comfort were two different things excreting and cleaning afterwards different beasts

the tersorium  a whole other matter

the timing was impeccablehe was finished

he returned the bookmarker to keep his place and set book down atop the others Shelly McCarthy Doctorow Perlstein Crumley stacked on a white ash stool to his left

Cottonelle UltraGentle CleaningRipples with aloe and vitamin E was his go-to he knew they developed flushable wipes but refrained

               Why  Theyre in line with tersoriums   a curious Mariachi bandit 

They are Ill grant you that

                            The difference two bucks  sixteen for six doublerolls onehunredseventy per  onethousandtwenty sheets versus fourteen for threehunredthirtysix sheets

Ah  being frugalcomfort be damned . .

. . Not really Tried an truetried an true  If it aint broke don fix it

Spanking me with idioms

I spose I am

Well doesnt affect me

No not really

Have you ever sampled them

A sample came with rolls I purchased once

An

My girlfriend used it

She like it

She did she did

She did

Yes she did

Im just sayin

Have to get the last word

 

  Yes   Please 

2152,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  27  7. 22

1034,  Thursday,  28  7. 22

he had twothree gurusno yogisno thank you mind over bodythough he maintained both to the best of his ability

Ari Melber  Twosday 26July 1702hrs

                                        “FOX . . . they will cover things that are not newsworthy, or even true, and even with that somewhat lower bar . . respectfully . as they say in the streets . respectfully . . they still did not cover Trump today.”

Pence got 17 minutes of coverage

Trump got ZERO   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXtHUP0LSpM 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3RZ4nrumQSk

the wind was really rocking 

                              the hummingbird feeders swayedswangtorquedtwisted it was some kind of breeze working the gangway between his neighbours privacy fence and his house

there were better than a maddozen feeding made him think of Rodney King ‘92 Can’t we all just get along? off to a side at an uncontested feeder who knew why one little bugger was beginning to show green gills they penetratedpresented through his brilliant emerald feathers redthroat

haplessly he tossed a wing to the glass cylinder that held turbulent undyed sugar water  then the other and leaned heavily against ithe could relate he spent a year at sea

                                                           although he enjoyed the violent stormsrode the bow ran a rope through a shackle he bolted to the railing he was having too much fun to be troubled or nauseated by seasickness even the time when he slippedwas working his way back to the cabin where someone blew their guts  it hadnt washed away was still warm  the only bothersome thing was that the mess looked like shit-on-a-shinglelooked like the creamed chippedbeef breakfast Cookie made and was immensely proud of freakin tasty  it made him think of his father-in-law and wife who seriously devoured Stouffer’s

Poor lil guy

              he watched him push off the glass turn aroundwobble a bit clutch the perch with his toes blow his meal a slick silver thread that coiledbriefly in the dirt then was absorbedcovered by loose dirt brokenbits of drieddead leaves

Poor lil guy

             he gathered himself wiped his bill with a wing turned around began eating again like a game Roman returned from the vomitorium misconception or not to delicious to deny

 

1723, Twosday,  26  7. 22

1309, Day-between-Two-Ts,  27  7. 22

it wasnt his handwriting

not on the clipboard he kept beside his bed 

he lived alone

if it was one of the spooks who toured his place they hadnt scribbled beforeitd been nine years  this script was strong precise

he was making the bed when he recognised it at his foot

had he written during the night hed remember then waking in the morning have gone to it hed remember he had though not exactly what he wrote except that he woke and scribbled no light he surprised himself how good he wrote in the dark it was legible

he didnt stoop to pickup the clipboard and read it

some things ought to be savored 

                                  he intended to savor the hell out of this 

curiosity bitched it wanted to know NOW  an impetuous child leaning heavily towards a spoiled brat

he thought curiosity would have known better  he was a bitch when someonesomething wanted to bitch him a hardline bitch 

      Youll wait until Im good anready

You can be such a prick.

Yah sometimes I am

                       Now go off somewhere Youll be the first to know when I go to read it

curiosity shuffled off dejectedly

he took care of his kitkats inside and out

made more hummerfood he attracted nine which was puny compared to the three dozen once upon a timefive quarts of sugarwater a day

made freshground black coffee

sat down read the newspaper played with the crossword puzzle  it made the paper worth its subscription

he read furthur into four of seven books he was reading

took off his reading glasses

rubbed the bridge of his nose

Ohyah he said out loudstartling the cats as they lounged around the livingroom with him

he was their alphamale a good alpha-bet 

                                    Yah why didnt ya knuckleheads remind me rhetorical  though smilincrossin his fingers hed catch them unsuspecting and theyd actually respond to himsay something theyd make a million togethertake the act on Johnny Carson

he fetched the clipboard

poured himself another cup

sat on the couch

put his glasses on

sipped the coffee

swallowed

cleared his throat

barked Curious

felt its presence

read

   a death threat

he was disappointed

less is more

maybe whoeverwhatever was hoping to bore him to death

kill him in his sleep in his bed

                              why would he fear thathed bet everyone wished theyd die in their bed if they could afford a bed a room a roof

 

the house had been locked

he wasnt going to lose any sleep over it

he kept it dated it timed it whoeverwhatever didnt that bugged him a petpeeve moved it to the bottom of the onesided pages other side utilised gripped by the BEAR-OF-A-CLIP clipboard

                                                                 suddenlylaugheduproariously tickled to tears  it occurred to him laughing harder it was probably the only letter he ever received he wouldnt reply to

0800,  Twosday,  26  7. 22

1117,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  27  7. 22

Billy Joel  The Stranger  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E5ofVsxTPoc

Que le vaya bien

in lieu of a whiteboard he had paper on a clipboard  it was significantly more portable

his cohort was tickledloved illustrating his points by drawing graphs bell curves Venn diagrams  however he often couldnt attest to their accuracy

                                 If yawan you can doublecheck me. yawan  he was rubbing off on him

I intend to because I don know anyave admitted as much

You’re going to look it up? a hint of incredulity creeping in his voice

I am I don take anyone at their word I need to know for myself Drove buddies girlfriends my wife kids nuts

Your Venn is selfexplanatory only two cells in it an their intersection  I think your overlap is exaggerated

What if I said it reflects my experience.

I pity your experiencethough its possible my experience wherehow I grew up severely limited the overlap

                                                                                                              We might have been more serious less coddled

What do you mean less coddled?

You an yours your parents were affluent

                                           Affluence lived was across the tracks from us their children went to schools in the citywerent in our public school an donbe butthurt  you were coddledHell four years older than me and Nams draft wasnt your concern  I was in it up to my eyeballs for two years

his Venn was two circles whose arcs crossed through the others center  one was labeled Class Clowns the second Likes to be Liked  a significant overlap

1515,  Thursday,  10  2. 22

1446,  Twosday,  26  7. 22

Dispatch  Open Up  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqM5a2xYZPI

it was at a picnic 

                   an idyllic greengrass blueskies gingham lawn blankets picnic tables food iced drinks

  

I’m always screwing the two upcan’t remember which one is right, an when I think I am I make an ass out of myself because I’m stuck, I opened my mouth an said an I was wrong.  A behemoth . . a real fuckin’ idiot.

he was tentative trying to decide whether hed take the stick out of his hand so hed quit beating himself or if hed rather enjoy it 

           a little while longer  he wasat heart a sadist everyone was

Whacha cryinbout

You weren’t listening?

To the whining unmistakable  how coudnt I

Whining, I was whining . .

. . Like a beat dog

                   I heard you  but ya didnt say

I didn . .

. . Hinted  always screwing the two up 

                                           Two You didnt identify them   Anya came out of the bluesomethin triggered a thought  obviously distasteful

Thought I was gaining headway with this woma . .

. . Ya went off in your head We werent talking about women let alone one woman  Your date last night went sideways

You keep finding ways 

Apparently. he shook his head pitifully

he wasnt going to pity him pitys like greed it just wants more an more

he kept shaking his head

nope aint happening wrap your chintzybrain round it he wasnt going to enable his horseshit   man up

You said you confused two words

                                       You understand you confuse words often 

I was so sure.

So you made an ass out of yourself   You offer any contrition his head kept working side to side to no avail  Doubleddown didnt ya really made a splendid ass out of yourself . .

. . But I was so sure.

Id think by now when yare sure youd be sure you were wrong the head quit working

What do you mean by that?

Wha I said  The wordswha two words

You’ll shit when I say.

the back of his neckhead ached immediately Ive heard you misuse them before an Ive corrected you

You have, yes.

Tell me

You’ll be angry.

I aint your folks Ill be irritatedIm irritated now  Ya fucked up you were the one with dick in hand last night

Jest.  Gist.

Amusement  Substanceessence     Christ

I said . .

. . I donwanna know 

                        In the future when yare sure be sure yare wrong

I was so sure.  the head started wagging again

even his sadism had limits he bid him goodbye and walked away

1514,  Thursday,  10  2. 22

1059,  Twosday,  26  7. 22

Billy Joel  Big Shot  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhF8AgBR8hM

what kind of house of worship operates in a mini mall  maybe operates is too  Wha   too mundane worship ought to be sanguine optimisticpositive however its root is Latin sanguis blood bloody bloodthirsty  he couldnt think of a damn thing more bloodthirsty than church religion

                                              what kind of church operates in a mini mall between a hardware store and a donut shop on the corner is a House of Pancakes

always tickled to find humour be it black he flipped a coin Sunday mornings before kickoff to see if he was going to attend worship or stop and have pancakes or waffles or sunnysideup eggs  loose  combating the annoyednot understanding look he got in return he told the waitress just to be sure they jiggled when she walked

   Sandy Gawd bless her eggs jiggledshe jiggled it was divine to witness her crossing the diningroom with his order

she also remembered he liked Tabascoliked his toast drycoffee black he didnt have to ask

                                                                                                she was a real peach

didnt make them many like her

how many times did the coin -- a silver dollar his grandfather gave him when he was a boyalways carried it with him made him feel close to the old man he died when he was eight he remembered him as the maniac who couldnt believe his younger brother and sister were riding bikes Santa brought them and he wasnt carried his bike in one arm him in the other parked his ass on the seat and ran him headlong at a huge catalpa on the parkway swervin round itlookin back he saw him in crazy pursuit he pedaled away like a madman leaving him in his dust -- how many times did the coin fail and send him to church  Like hed let a coin decidewhad it know

he didnt know its denomination certainly Christian likely fundamentalist demonation fund mental a cold day in Hellnot that he believed in it  Dantes Inferno cured him of that nonsense Nine circles of Hellhis favorite number was nine fat chance there was a Hell

he tipped Sandy generously

                              leaving to go home for kickoff if he had a hat he would have doffed ithe didnt instead he flipped it off and its gaggle

 

1443,  Thursday,  10  2. 22

0912,  Twosday,  26  7. 22

Norah Jones  The Nearness of You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsczuCzyUs4

ditto Sinatra  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y8AEjDbnJvw

Ya look like a dildo

                     Take it as a compliment

he frowned as it worked its way through his skull not necessarily a perilous journey  actually ought to be pretty licketysplit very little resistance

                                     A dildo? 

Yah dildo

I don’t know how to take that, let alone take it as a compliment . .

. . Useful 

           Im not saying it literally thad fuck with him literally always had him at battle with himself over figuratively he saw the pawns move forward 

                           Listen to me he wasnt  for some reason he had to play chessmaybe he thought it snazzier rather than play checkerpieces on the gameboard WOUDYA LISTEN TO ME  Ill explain once again Literally is exact concrete in its meaning Figuratively provides ya room for interpretation exaggeration

he sighed took a big breath 

                              So yare listening   Yes.   I saidIm paraphrasing myself  I prefer not but I am understand paraphrasing to me is like being roughly yanked back through time thasaid figuratively ya remind me of a dildo being used when needed though not for sexual pleasure

I’m not following.

  Please

           Canya recall our conversation preceding dildo

No.

Thawoud help

                Yawanna try

No.

Donwanna work tha hard

You got it.

Your buddy

My buddy. words blanched of any recognition

Your buddy She takes you out when she needs you Lemme sayat least  she takes you out to pleasure herselfhe started to smile he stomped on it Not sexually  Ring any bells he was getting hinted out

No.

Really thawas stupid to say

I’m lost . .

. . Because you cant remember where we left our conversation not ten minutes ago  Yasaid you were gonna to work on tha

I said I needed to work on that.

You can remember tha

That I need to yes.

Yare killin me

                Yare her buddy shes said so   But you don know tha yet 

Oh. 

      Your dildo analogy is lost on me.

Aint gonnabe the last thing lost on ya

1516,  Thursday,  10  2. 22

1033,  Monday,  25  7. 22

Dispatch  Two Coins  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ub2F_KMO-WY